Having Run
I.
Aamiina had
lost her mother in Alexander Park, Faribault, and patrollers were baffled. Her quavering
Arabic wasn’t their confusion—translation to English was instantaneous in their
brains—rather, they couldn’t believe how resourceless she was, unable to reciprocate
a basic understanding. The child hadn’t been streamed, they came to realize, ‘stubborn Somalis, or…’
Nala, her
mother, had gone deep below the surface of that Minnesotan city. Presently, she
wouldn’t be aware of the patrollers’ signal to her own receptor cells; the izøne surely had the capacity to penetrate the bedrock,
yet the architecture of this underground mosque included scramblers to erode
surveillance. The plan was spontaneous and Nala thought Aamiina would remain
oblivious in play—just a half-hour to slip away undetected, a minute each for
her thirty years of running from poverty and warlords, forced marriage and
defection, prejudice and policies to make her into something less than animal, if
too conventionally human. Aamiina, inshallah,
would run a different way, and for the time being, at Alexander Park.
One
patroller left for better things to do—there was no fair way to
rock/paper/scissors anymore, so instead the tactic was intuiting the other’s
level of empathy; the other patroller, then, waited for Aamiina’s mother. “I
also have a daughter who plays in this park,” she told Aamiina, “perhaps
you’ve…?”
It happened
all the time: questions would dangle unfinished because the speaker—in English
or Arabic, didn’t matter—would ascertain an answer as quickly as the receiver
thought it. Aamiina didn’t know, but nodded out of habit. She could have verbalized
“Linda? Hani? Shel?” and the patroller would have beamed, ‘exactly—Shel! You like her, yes?’ But the names remained
undetected, an unknown power Aamiina possessed. Anyway, Shel, for all her izøne knowledge, also ventured to ask some weeks
ago, “Do you like me, Aami?” Playgrounds still needed such noises and nods.
The
half-hour was up, Aamiina’s mother starkly aware of the patroller the instant
she was beyond the scrambler range. Not everyone could communicate
telepathically—filters, by law, demanded permissions—yet patrollers were
granted shortcuts to these filters in the interest of social protection. Nala
let the message get to her that Aamiina was okay, waiting at the spot where she
had been abandoned. “Don’t judge me,” cogitated Nala.
“We won’t”
thought back the patroller. “We’re not a nanny state.”
The mothers
ended up exchanging actual words, including an acknowledgement of Shel and times
she tended to play in this park. Aamiina ran off to disguise disinterest in
what adults might plan for her; perhaps she’d also keep them wondering where
she’d be, create some consternation and what it feels like not to know…
whereabouts, whys and wherefores.
Nala walked
alone to a bench by the Cannon River reservoir—the same one she had vacated
earlier, so that Aamiina would appreciate the afternoon full-circle. Nala cast
her thought on what she heard in the mosque, and why it had to be so buried below
this halcyon park and the innocuous attempts to patrol it. ‘Faith has nothing to hide,’ asserted the imam, ‘and we’re in this world not to cower, nor
to scheme. Rather to believe beyond what we can know. To live beyond knowledge—and
that is not to champion ignorance: quite the opposite. To die beyond
assurances, forty virgins and whatnot—that is also what faith entails. Always
remember always: Allah worked before we put name to anything, before Al
Ibrahim, before Muhammad, before caliphates and catastrophes they entertained,
before the Osama shift, before the Rayhana correction, before our present khutbah,
before today ends and tomorrow begins, before each afterlife, and after each
before. Our work, then, is a double always: to bless such mystery and learn to
let it be.’ Digging toward the planet’s molten core, the message wouldn’t
deign to meet a superficial rebuke. Nala sighed in her recall, unsatisfied.
Aamiina
snuck up from behind the bench and looped her arms around her mother’s head.
Her right hand was closed in her left, and slowly she opened to reveal a toad
as tiny as a pebble, and just as motionless. Nala jerked her neck back, then
smiled at the scenario. Her fleeting worry that such a creature could be
poisonous was instantly allayed by optic-scan analysis, second nature for most
moms in this day and age. Nala’s further smile was that her daughter had picked
up the toad without such optic-scan at her disposal, only what had hitherto
been known as common sense. She rose
and held Aamiina’s left hand as they strolled toward the exit of the park.
“You’ll have to set it free.”
“Tomorrow, maybe,
after visiting?”
Few had bothered
to visit their flat, even as Somalis clung to this tradition more than their
paler neighbors. Nala was an unknown quantity—a mix and mixer of cultural cues,
a shiftless mother of an unacculturated child too old and young to guess what
troubles they’d attract. Aamiina would have burgeoned in a classroom
environment, long since obsolete; Nala would have been a journalist instead of
minioning the details of waste management. Their days and weeks went on in
relative obscurity, except for walks along the waterways of Faribault. And
because Aamiina had never been streamed, they’d return to their flat and
rummage up the soured pages of children’s books and magazines that no one
printed, sold, or shelved any longer, for lack of need. Aamiina was an avid
reader, and tonight she’d trade that routine for tending to her little toad.
True to her
word, she’d set it free tomorrow, if on the lookout for another thing or two to
visit them again.
II.
Fall Lake,
northeast Minnesota, had the advantages of being connected to civilization on
its west end and being wildly free on its splay of other ends. It, and no
roads, would lead to Newton Lake, Pipestone Bay, Jackfish Bay, Basswood Lake,
and across the unmanned border to infinite inland seas, sluices, ponds and
portages. The supply of crayfish, pike, perch, and mussels were rather ample in
the boreal waters; squirrels and roosting birds made for rarer meals. Deer and
moose had pushed toward territory once controlled by polar bears, failing in
their crash-course evolution to hunt like grizzlies or swim like walruses. Zoologists
would try to lure them to some sanctuary, but most reared up in a dignity
defense: this has always been our shelf
of earth to claim.
Sanctuaries
were a way to front a shameless shame. It made sense to some factions in the
latter half of the 21st century that wildlife sanctuaries could also
harbor humans, with due differences. Movement in and out would be voluntary,
for instance, and utilities like electricity, plumbing, and commerce would
still exist. But the izøne layer largely
would not, scrambled to protect the participants’ experience of pure nature. One
such sanctuary was near the village of Winton, with miles of shoreline on Fall
Lake.
The village
had lost population—from mere hundreds to dozens—when the nearby Kawashiwi dam
burst beyond the possibility of repair. Electricity could still be tapped
through the izøne, but the cost was high and wattage
relatively low. The izøne’s function
wasn’t to generate motors, but to extend data and thought beyond the limitation
of radio waves; it had replaced the medieval apparatus of radars, satellites,
and WLAN. No one, for several generations now, had to Google anything or ask an
antiquated Siri; freedom had become the access to knowledge without a need to
search.
If, for
example, one wanted to disambiguate the concepts of ‘consciousness’ and
‘conscience’, the izøne would supply the
comfort of an explanation adjusted to the thinker and the thought. It would do
so wordlessly, beyond a given language, though the thinker would channel any
usage in the language he or she would know. For that matter, given time and
energy to remember, the thinker could come to learn a hundred different
languages, though less than that amount were truly active on the planet.
Esoterica, as ever, became the penchant of some, not many. The data most
desired was that which would lead to happiness with least resistance. Not the
soma pills of Brave New World (though
drugs were still available), but certainly a way to dream through days and
nights informed.
The Carters
were a family sitting in their shuttle on magnetic Highway 35. Mia, the nine-year-old
asked, “why wilderness?” Most verbs these days had gone by the wayside, and
sometimes verbalization altogether, as communication had become efficient
enough via izøne. The Carters, however, usually made an
effort to speak in traditional terms.
“Sanctuary
from info overload,” her mother said, shooting a glance at Tim, whose sarcastic
thoughts she tried to intercept. He was fifteen and unhappy about this trip.
“Sanctuary for more wonder,” she added, optimistically.
Her husband
swiveled his chair from looking at the road. “Story from great-grandpa.
‘Internet’—progenitor of izøne—died a while.
Business stopped. School, in buildings back then, stopped. Food distribution
all but stopped, as inventory and payments were unclear. Chaos everywhere.”
“Back-up
system,” Tim was sure existed.
“Also
stopped. Great-grandpa was a fisherman—hobby, actually, not a worker at a fish
farm. He drove his gasoline car from Minneapolis to where we are going today
and fished a month.”
“Dinner
just fish?” Mia tried to imagine.
“Also berries,
apples, quail—food from land and water equally good. He smoked hundreds of
perch and pike he didn’t eat.”
“Like
marijuana?” Tim wasn’t being sarcastic.
“No, dolt,”
shot out his older sister, whose esoterica included all kinds of slang. “‘Smoked’
in this context means food, like fish and cheese, preserves without
refrigeration.”
“Insults
unhelpful, Kay,” the mother had to remind, even at the risk that Tim would
browse the meaning of ‘dolt’. “Great-grandpa what, then?”
“Packed the
car with smoked fish, returned to Minneapolis and,” brushing his hands like a
conjurer, “made real money—not credit, which their system also had, but cool
cash.”
“Cache?” Mia
was confused. “Why cool?”
“Spelled
c-a-s-h, Mia. Physical money still around for great-grandpa, rare for grandpa
and grandma, completely useless when I was your age.”
“Physical!—funny
term for money.”
“You could
hold it in your hand, like a fish. Trade it for a fish.”
“Teach a
man to fish,” Kay quoted, “hungry no more.”
“Great-grandpa
rich afterwards?” Tim wanted to know.
“Internet
fixed, fish farm back in business; great-grandpa back to his modest city job.”
“Programmer?”
“No. He
taught art.”
The shuttle
went silent for a stretch. Avis tilted eyes at her husband, who half-smiled and
then looked out the window at the rush of forest lining Highway 35. Wilderness
was never far away in Minnesota, at least beyond the sprawl of suburbs. Nearby
cities of St Cloud, Mankato, Rochester, and Eau Claire had morphed into supply
centers, their populations largely moving inward toward the efficiency and
job-availability of the Minneapolis/St Paul metropolis. Seb Carter was a
programmer who would have loved to teach art, had that combination been
remotely possible. To some oblique degree, he programmed art—the aesthetic manner
in which society might ‘hum’: the faint jingles that revolved enough per
individual not to drive one crazy, rather to drive one to relax, if possible,
in the inundation of stuff each individual would demand of the izøne (and of self, inextricably). To imagine Seb taught anyone
anything—Seb trying to imagine that right now—was beyond his programmer
propensities. He wanted to believe he’d taught a thing or two, especially to his
children. Presently, their faces—Kay’s and Tim’s he scrutinized differently
than Mia’s—didn’t manifest that question, which, to him, suggested that the
powers of the izøne weren’t so absolute.
Instead,
“will Pretty enjoy sanctuary?” Mia wanted to know. There was no way anything,
beyond their border collie’s personality, could answer that.
Seb
whistled for her to emerge from the storage end of the shuttle, her tail
wagging like it would at any point in history. “Pretty,” Seb asked exactly as
his daughter had, “will you enjoy our adventure?”
The fact that the izøne hadn’t tapped into the dendrites of such creatures most aligned
to human trust fascinated Seb (and Avis, as she and he had spoken deeply on
this point). The dog continued wagging her tail—but more: she went around the
ring to nose each knee to endorse, seemingly, this trip to ‘wilderness’, or
even ‘sanctuary’, if semantics made a difference. Pretty, like anyone, would
need a place to pee, to curl up for sleep, to run and, eventually, to feed.
Beyond all that, this shuttle served no more a need than to get on with it, for
heaven’s sake.
Fall Lake
would be perfect for the likes of Pretty. Avis joked, when they discussed the
details, that maybe she would have to morph from border collie to ‘boundary’
collie—the area’s boundary waters being the nomenclature of the area for more
than two centuries, even after the United States and Canada became a unified
governance called the North American Union. The boundary waters remained a
retreat for those who’d had enough of fossil fuels and manufactured noise, if
still vulnerable to acid rain and other ways the industrialized world would
spread its toxins. True, pollutants weren’t as ‘carbon’ as before, but
scientists were still at odds at how resilient the atmosphere could be after
ozone depletion, incessant microwaves, inevitable radiation, the miasma of
Pandoran labs. The Carters were not heading toward a geographical boundary, but
a threshold nonetheless.
“Pretty,”
Seb approximated, “will newly teach us art.”
Another
stretch of silence. The wonder of the izøne was not that
it would content its absorbers with a satisfactory response. The wonder was
that it did so little to compensate for curveballs, which Mia, unstreamed,
would just as likely handle as her older siblings, digitally enmeshed in their
generation’s design. None of them, incidentally, played baseball, so even
‘curveballs’ would require a cognitive leap into that trope.
“I want
Pretty in wilderness first,” Kay asserted, quoting not from long-term memory: “out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast
thou ordained strength because of thine enemies, that thou mightest still the
enemy and the avenger.”
Tim had
little tolerance for such pretense: “enemies not. Pretty just another piece of
wilderness, if finally.”
“Finally
what?” Mia challenged.
“Piece of
wilderness.” Tim repeated.
Avis intervened.
“Psalms 8:2 may resource us a bit. Our dog, as nice as she’s been, hasn’t faced
any enemy we haven’t faced ourselves.”
“Unless you
include the izøne,” Seb calculated. The shuttle fell
silent again. Highway 35 was doing its job blurring the effect of the metropolis
away, but in a matter of minutes the shuttle would have to divert to lesser
routes—more ambiguous strains of why in the hell a modern wan (woman/man) would
venture so far outside the paths of predictability and order. The present range
of the izøne would have registered what Seb just
uttered, yet had he done so in the sanctuary of, well… Everything today was
increasingly tough to know.
III.
Patroller
Pam Circe usually wouldn’t touch base with the precinct on days that didn’t
involve Miranda rights—arrests were relatively rare in Faribault. She’d know
her shift and any updates to the duty the night before and would stay at home
with Shel as long as possible, watching old movies or playing Lego and the
like. Her patrols usually went from mid-morning to mid-afternoon, often along
the meanders of the city’s waterways. Pam didn’t have to rejoin her fellow
patroller Trig Hanson after the missing mom incident at Alexander Park, but she
felt an urge to stop in at the precinct anyway, knowing Trig liked to do that.
For “old time sake”, he liked to say.
“Hey,” Pam
greeted Trig and a few other patrollers, donuts and cups of coffee in each
hand.
“Cat
dragged in! Or did you arrest that lost girl’s mother?” While Trig gave
utterance, the other patrollers tuned out, having already dismissed that forgettable
blip in the afternoon. Maybe the coffee and donuts were a way of filtering out
the dull details of everyone’s shifts, the communiqués that were constant in
their heads.
“No grounds
for arrest. Nala’s no worry for us.”
“No worry,”
Trig repeated. “Of course no arrest—I’d be first to know, no?”
Rhetorical
questions were always tricky for the izøne to ‘file’
for instant or future use, and sticklers for literal information sometimes
struggled with notions deliberately vague or ironic. Pam was not a stickler, to
be sure, and rather enjoyed how language and response didn’t need to channel
such files. “In this case, first me, then Nala, then—”
“Okay,
okay, Lightspeed”—Trig’s nickname for her, which didn’t resonate with anyone
else. C squared. She quite liked it,
her strange double c when most surnames had evolved to the tried-and-true
Smith, Hanson, Jones, Carter… The days of a Krzyzewski or McConaughey were
mostly gone, and allusions like Circe were a bit of a bother. Anyone could
channel meanings, spellings, word history, but more often than not the feeling
would be one of mental energy wasted. Because she liked Trig, and vice versa,
time together never felt wasted.
“Worry more
about throwing ‘nanny state’ around.” Pam looked up at the precinct chief, who
had just come in. He grabbed a fresh cup of coffee from the wall unit that
sensed his taste and timed the blend just so. “Mere suggestions of that...,
well, you fill in the rest.”
Trig felt a
need to defend his partner: “it wasn’t expressed, Chief.”
“Not the
point. Must admit, Pam, she registered your thought.”
Pam
shrugged. “Fact: we’re not a nanny state. No sarcasm then, nor now. Unless I’m
misund—”
“—You’re
out of line to stir up the doubt. We don’t echo political flashpoints: nanny,
nazi, neorwellian—”
“Niners are
kicking our ass right now,” Trig ventured, pointing to the pick-6 interception replaying
at many angles on the OLED. “Vikings aren’t mixing enough improv, telegraphing
every pass.”
The chief
settled in, satisfied his admonition had been made. The talk in the room turned
to American rugby and the manner in which the Vikings looped the ball and
looked upfield—the complicated dynamics of backward progress. For several years
San Francisco led the league’s blend of scrums, laterals, drop kicks, shovel
passes, hail marys; Minnesota was competitive, but Trig was right: they were too
easy to read.
Pam watched
a while, trying not to brood about the chief. The flow of the game was
aesthetic, but not more interesting than her preferred sport, golf, which she channeled
from time to time. Her father managed the local course, so she had been teeing
up from the age of seven. Shel, the apple of her grandfather’s eye, began even
earlier, even as Pam was wary about her daughter following in her footsteps. The nature is pleasant, exercise good; the
culture, though, leaves a lot to be desired. Golf was too easily a
cheater’s game. The lie of the ball was a traditional issue; the way the ball
adjusted in the air—smart bomb style—had become a modern issue. Equipment
checks were standard fare for tournaments, but on casual rounds the jerks came
out to push the Pams and Shels aside. It was particularly grating when Pam
worked the driving range as a teenager. She’d sit in the caged tractor that
vacuumed up the scatter and knew they were aiming for her: year by year the
percentage of pelts to her cage grew higher, smart bomb style. Often, despite
her puffy earmuffs to block out the noise, she’d hear the cheers of some guy’s
buddies in reaction to an outstanding drive—especially when the tractor was
hit.
She left
the precinct with barely a wink to Trig, who may have missed it anyway. She
communicated to Shel that she’d stop at the golf course, just for a little
while. Shel begged to come with, but Pam insisted she stay home, check on Mrs Schuster next door, as was
her evening routine. I’ll be home in a
little while, she repeated, partly to convince herself not to linger in the
inchoate dusk.
Her father
was there in the pro shop, a bit surprised to see her. “I nag you to get Shel
here more often, then you forget to bring her when you do come!”
“Dark
already, Pop, she’s young still. I came just to swing a bucketful.”
“I could
join you if you want.”
“Suit
yourself, but I’m not here for pointers.”
“Yours to
my swing, I assume.”
“Mine to my
own, for that matter.”
They hit a
dozen each in silent concentration before Mr Circe had to sit down on a bench
behind the tarp of rubber tees. “No, you play on,” he encouraged. “Just been a
long day.”
Pam scanned
his eyes to gauge how winded he could be, this hyperion who always gained
energy from these grounds. Admittedly, a driving range sapped some spirit from
the serendipity of the game, so Pam decided, “hot chocolate back at the shop.
And tomorrow I’ll bring Shel for a sneak-in round.”
That plan
made him smile, though he didn’t budge from the bench. Pam tried to read him
tacitly, to no avail. He wasn’t streamed, as almost all others his age were—his
job hadn’t really required him to be, and the ownership rather liked his
earmarks of nostalgia. How long could he keep his position here? As a trainer,
maybe a year longer; out on the links setting flags and such, it was harder to
say. “I can’t keep up with the pro shop,” he announced when Pam sat down.
“They’re changing the verification systems for reservations and payments. Others
here keep track of things just through mental checks—they barely ever look at
the clunky machines I still need. I’ll be lost without my screens.”
Pam tried
to imagine him doing what she had to do with izøned communiqués
and fluid data. Getting streamed late in life was risky—suicide rates were
quadrupled for a man his age. Or ‘wan’—didn’t matter, male or female. Time was,
suicide was attempted more by women, succeeded more by men; nowadays, stats leveled
at the legal accessibility of sure-fire, painless pills, and no nanny state to
intervene with one’s freedom to self-administer. Strangely, homicides were negligible
by this method. Interventions certainly happened when the hint of such violence
was detectable, and much of Pam’s training went toward this cause. She recalled
talking one terminally ill guy down from poisoning his wife in her sleep—not
really talking, but thinking it
through with him via izøne. She arrived in
time to wake up the wife, unharmed, even as the husband lay on the floor,
freshly dead. Yet how did Pam’s mind leap so far when thinking about her
father? His retirement would be embraced by the tens of thousands who knew
him—the Fairwayman of Faribault, the heart of heritage, grooming the grass
amidst the happy hazards of trees and ponds and sand. Yes, the general grass
had browned considerably in the constant challenges to dewpoint—the world below
Minnesota fared much worse—so all the more reason to funnel support, a tithe of
sorts for their deacon. Jim Circe would have nothing to fret, ostensibly.
“I’ll be
lost without my screens,” he reiterated.
They talked
for a while, finding their way eventually to hot chocolate, then to tomorrow’s
plan of when to sneak Shel in. “I’ll take a sick day,” Pam mused, “so you can sneak
me in as well.”
“You sure
that wouldn’t be checked?”
“Sure it
could. But I’ve been reminded today: ours is not a nanny state.”
IV.
The shuttle
was slowing at the end of magnetic Highway 35; it would know which smaller
roads to take, and would just as easily jettison control in deference to Seb’s
boyish needs to steer the ship. He had his great-grandpa in mind, after all,
and what should interfere with that? The shuttle zipped by the turn to Duluth
and tracked its way north, past Eveleth and Angora, toward Ely. Seb and Avis
took mental note that some of these points would be necessary for replenishing
one thing or another, guessing that the fish, berries, apples, quail wouldn’t
jump out of the woodwork. The sanctuary promised nothing about food—barely
promoted anything about itself—a brazen litmus test or bucking of the
information system.
“Hungry,”
Tim announced, seemingly to rub it in.
“Bare your
fangs and talons,” Kay advised. She was looking out the window with jittery
concentration.
Avis
touched her arm. “Where’s that quote from? I can’t trace it.”
“I made it
up. Can’t an imminent refugee think for herself?”
“Immanent?”
Tim mocked. “You and your godly sense of self.”
Seb didn’t
want a petty fight. “Check spelling, Tim. Kay is wrong on ‘refugee’, as our
house in Minneapolis remains. But ‘imminent’ is accurate: we’re about to dive
into a difference.”
“Not
necessarily wrong,” Kay held her ground, staring through the film of her
reflection on the window.
“Also
hungry,” Mia murmured, understanding nothing else from the silly streams of big
people.
“We arrive
soon,” promised Avis, pursing her lips in the silent knowledge that they had
only packed enough to eat for a couple meals at most. She had calculated with
Seb the greater nourishment this trip might require, and reassurance was the word that kept on cropping up. ‘Mia will need
it most and least of all,’ she reminded herself, turtling that thought so
others wouldn’t be able to stream it.
Avis was
good at that technique; years of working hospice care made for meditative
thinking and select communication. She deciphered minds well and rejected most
of what wouldn’t help toward sustaining life. She had heard versions of
‘there’s no point’ a hundred thousand times—occasionally from her own children,
though those bleats she’d collate differently; she had relayed ‘there’s more
than a point’ ten thousand times—often to people she’d never see again. The
idea of a ‘point’ was beyond Euclidean geometry, even if the pragmatists in her
encounters would want a pithy, linear way to deal with loss or leave-taking or
(more stuffed within) the point of living. She knew, for example, the imminent
point of this afternoon was to reach Fall Lake and the sanctuary scramble of
the izøne. That wouldn’t in itself be the ultimate
point. Reaching and grasping; grasping and adhering; adhering and deciding;
deciding and retaining; retaining and relinquishing; relinquishing and
returning—whether to the origin or to the previous retain—was what she’d intuit
for her family, let alone herself.
But the
most intuitive member of the family was Pretty, who’d run from the shuttle at
first chance and circle back to bark the safety quotient of the place. Tim
wanted to call her ‘his dog’ for the way he tried to train her as a puppy—he
playing the wolf that would sneak into the sheep fold. Mia was happy to play a
lamb, while Kay would roll her eyes, baaa
her brother’s machismo, cuddle with Pretty to become one with the herd. Seb
would be an aging Old Major asleep in the hammock; Avis would be reading an
antique novel. The dog would be aware of everybody’s purpose, without a need to
psychologize.
According
to Pretty’s first impression, Winton was safe enough to disembark, despite
Tim’s ‘what a ghost town’ sneer.
Maybe so. Avis wondered, instinctively, how its ghosts were cared for. The
sanctuary was still a mile or two east on the southern shore of Fall Lake, but
Seb stopped the shuttle here for reasons he was not fully aware of—nothing in
the air or in his head compelled the next five minutes, which underscored a need
to keep an open mind.
“Family,”
he began, looking first at Pretty, then Mia, then Avis, then both Tim and Kay
together, “we know only so much. This town has gone the way of the wind—maybe
that is why it’s ‘Winton’…” Tim raised an eye, ready to disagree. “I’m being
facetious, of course. We’re all aware why outposts like this don’t compete with
the comforts of home. But I feel at home, in a way. Not just in a nostalgic
sense for great-grandpa, but—”
“Halt!” a
ghost of Winton had suddenly emerged, none too happy for the shuttle’s idling.
“Permit, have ya?”
Seb patted
his vest clownishly. Avis met the old man with no pretext that a permit was
forthcoming, but did say something of the sanctuary, which drove him to
conniptions. She whispered a few things more, attempting to reassure him that
they were safe—or rather, he was safe
when it came to them. He stomped back into his cabin, Avis following like a veteran
spelunker.
“Dad, where
Mom?” Mia gasped.
“Don’t
worry, Mia,” Seb buoyed. “Folks close to nature have particular routines.”
“Abduction?”
Kay voiced, not really believing that this stranger could be forcing Avis into
his place.
“No, Kay,
more like—”
“Invasion.”
Tim wanted to compete with his older sister. “Us to him.”
“We’re just
en route to sanctuary,” Seb assured them. “No invasion. What Mom finds out is beyond
anybody’s script. Meanwhile, look around. Breathe in the boundary waters.”
“Waters?”
Mia, still fixated on the cabin door, wasn’t able to stream a map of where they
were, already within a lush peninsula of Fall Lake.
“Over
there,” Tim pointed. “And there, and there…”
“Water,
water everywhere, nor any drop to drink,” Kay noted, adding “Coleridge” when
nobody cared to ask.
“Oh, we’ll
drink deep this wilderness,” Seb bobbed his head, “to be sure.”
“Drink, ok.
Eat?”
Pretty,
tired of the small talk, barked to get Avis back. The latter took her time
coming out, opening the door, holding up an index finger and looking in again,
as if the silence still had something more to say. Slowly she walked from the
cabin, shrugging her shoulders. “We’re not the first sanctioneers to rankle
him,” she determined. “But maybe in a day or two we should return to unrankle.”
“Return
Minneapolis?” Mia quietly wondered, aloud.
No answer
emerged, as if the others in the family had to gauge what the izøne might advise. They’d only have it for a little while longer,
they knew, if the sanctuary was true to its billing. Drink deep while the
liquor lasts.
“Return
Minneapolis?” Mia asked again, in starker syllables.
“No,” Avis
honored her concern. “Home won’t disappear. Home needs to grow.”
Mia took
that in—Kay might say ‘with a grain of salt’—as they regarded the lonely houses
of Winton. Growth in this village had not reared its head for a hundred years;
‘survival’, as the sanctuary bargained nearby for space, couldn’t be synonymous
with growth. If everyone knew how the izøne had grown,
some felt that they merely survived within its expanse. Now the question was
how scrambling the spread would affect such survival or growth.
“Let’s walk
to the gate,” Seb suggested.
“Shuttle?”
Tim reminded.
“Can follow
like a donkey. Not sure where to park it.”
“Or if
there’ll be room in the inn?” Kay gloomed, her beloved allusions on a fraction
of shelf-life.
Avis
smiled. “Time to make some allusions, new.”
V.
Aamiina.
Seven years old and prone to examining things, unstreamed. Her little toad was
doing alright in a corner of the flat—Nala had wedged a handy clipboard to form
a hypotenuse between the barren walls—a little world to satisfy the night. That
clipboard was a cast-off from a recent audit at waste management: all ways to
measure such observations would henceforth have to go through the izøne, as jotting notes on yellow legal pads was… embarrassingly
odd. Two or three old managers of Nala’s held tight to their routines, claiming
clipboards as the genesis of genius—all ideas on the run—’til they and their
reams of scribbled notes went to the garbage heap: a strange, meta-place in the
docks along the Cannon River. Nala filched a couple of these boards for
Aamiina, not imagining what she’d use them for.
Arabic
letters and phrasing, as it so happened. Aamiina heard English all the
time—playgrounds and everything on screens; her mother spoke to her in Arabic
when alone, English when with others, and taught her why these languages would
need to be seen in context, and unseen. “Sort of like your little toad,” and
here the clipboard bowed into the modest living room. “It has no idea what
we’re saying, or how we’d translate anything.”
“I could
give her lessons,” Aamiina said, sincerely.
“To live
here? Or escape?” Nala blushed at being so this-and-that, and brash.
The toad
climbed on her finger. “To trust.”
Nala
streamed her daughter’s infinitive in a dozen different ways before retreating
to the bathroom, to have a silent cry.
Shel. Eight
years old and eager to see Grandpa, the greater part of golf. Pam woke her up
cheerfully, then feigned the trappings of what typically passed without much
scrutiny: a 24-hour flu that ample rest would remedy. Pam could inform this to
her precinct through the izøne, broadly, or channel
it more privately to Chief—such discreet tunnels of communication still
existed, though susceptible to leaks. “Hey,” Pam could begin, “not feeling
well. Think that—” and here an answer would already emerge, before and on
behalf of Chief: “resting is in order. Volunteer your vitals, if you’d like
(your updates are, like anything, your right).” The parentheticals, of course,
were part of the oblique, the constant reassurances that were anything but.
She
smirked: such vitals, on a sunny autumn morning with the golf course nigh!
Streaming them was always demeaning—it meant various maneuvers and samplings
with a complicated thermometer, but Pam did so anyway. Shel peeked into the
bathroom and voiced, “sick, Mommy?” Pam’s smile, reflected in the mirror and
cigarred by the thermometer, assured her daughter that the day would proceed as
planned.
“I could go
alone,” Shel posed, “I’m…”
Pam took
out the device and checked its tiny screens. “Old enough, I know. Especially
with Grandpa there to meet. But then I would be alone.”
“Lonely?”
Words are funny that way. “No and yes,
yes and no.”
At
Alexander Park, along the Cannon River reservoir, Aamiina knelt to release her
toad. Nala said she’d leave her for a little while—like yesterday, with better
knowledge. Aamiina had more toads to find, now that she knew what they could
handle, or even what they could enjoy as a departure from their grass-and-woodchip
world.
Shel detected
her from her window of the shuttle and asked her mother to veer over. While Pam
couldn’t redirect the shuttle into the park—steering into restricted zones
involved buttons, switches, sometimes an izøned waiver—she
did stop the vehicle nearby. She walked the river path while Shel ran ahead,
then sat on a bench to let the girls have their own way of meeting. If Nala again is absent, Pam thought, maybe I also need not hover. On the
other hand, her mind floated this scenario:
Approach them with ‘permission’ streamed
from Nala: “you can come with us, Aamiina, to a park more beautiful than this.
There are ponds with swans and lots of sand to play in, sandwiches and shakes
that Grandpa loves to make. Your mom needs more time to be alone, and we would
like more company.” Then the girls would leap ahead to the shuttle, which would
swoop them to the golf course for an hour or so. They could putt a bit on the
practice green, a gentle introduction to the game. Shel would delay her round
with Grandpa, after shuttling Aamiina back to Alexander Park. Nala would be
there, pacing, panicking. Maybe she’d even summon a patrol, exposing a trend of
her own abandonment, risking that to find her daughter. Then she’d see Aamiina
running toward her, happy for the escapade. Nala wouldn’t need a stream to put
it all together—she’d recognize Shel and
me, she’d secretly be thankful, flashing teary eyes that laundered fear to joy…
The
toad-adventurers zigged and zagged their way to the playground equipment, less
to climb than to build a little corral for their catch. Pam stood up to
actualize her plan, perhaps not to the full extent of an hour, but just enough
to make the point, to jostle consciousness and conscience, hers and hers and—
“Hello.”
The voice was soft and sudden, like sheet lightning. Pam spun around without
expecting Nala to be coming from behind.
“Oh!
Surprised me. Girls are—”
“over there,
beneath the trees. I’ve been sitting in the shade myself,” pointing toward
another bench, a tented book upon it. “I’m glad your daughter came to play.”
“Well,
actually, I was, um, going to…, never mind.”
“What is
this word, ‘nevermind’?”
“No worries;
irrelevant. Maybe ‘changed my mind’.”
“Izøne points to something called Nirvana—quite
confusing.”
Pam furled
her brow and laughed a little. “Never mind the izøne. I was going to invite your daughter to the golf course. My
father works there, and Shel is growing in the game. Aamiina might enjoy—”
“Golf?”
Nala pulled a face and streamed the acronym she’d heard before: “Gentlemen
Only, Ladies Forbidden.”
“Way back
when, perhaps. Never mind what prejudice existed then.”
It was hard
to never mind. The mothers sat a while in the early autumn breeze, watching how
the playground nested pure imagination. The girls had evidently found more
toads, or palmfuls of fodder and bedding for them, as dreams and hopes invited.
Tiny home managers—economists, the Attic Greeks would say. And toads would
start their road to civilization, Shel and Aami as their sister gods.
Nala
assented that the golf course would be a treat for her daughter to see—for her
as well, had the day been free. But her shift at waste management was drawing
near, and never had she thought of calling in sick if not really so. She went
to kiss Aamiina, then retrieved her book and slipped away. Pam had streamed her
address and aimed to get her home in due time, when Nala’s shift was done.
The golf course
had its steady Indian summer flow of patrons. Jim Circe ran things amiably, if
sometimes overwhelmed by the preferences for this cart or that, these
pace-players or those, the barflies and the business-onlies. Though Shel and
Pam were a half an hour late, he found a way to fit them in from hole 11
onward—his organizing screen tracked such gaps, and the intern had been waiting
patiently to take over the shop. “But who do we have here?” Jim bent to ask
Aamiina.
“Friend,
Aami,” Shel declared.
“To watch and
learn,” Pam said further.
Jim fetched
the shortest putter and presented it to her. “You can be our finisher,” to
which Aamiina nodded with no understanding.
They rolled
out on a golf cart—the girls in front with Jim, Pam standing in the trundle
next to the single bag they’d use, sharing clubs for the occasion. Aamiina held
her putter upright like an empress and studied everything in this suddenly
empirical world. Shel chatted over her head with Grandpa, who pointed out the
latest details, beaming brighter than the mid-morning sun. They reached the eleventh
tee, loosened up their swings and launched their fairway drives, three of them
at least. Shel took twice as many shots as Pam and Jim, but just as straight as
them, so the carting was easy to each ball. The putting took more time, Aamiina
learning how to barely brush the green and knock the ball with purpose toward
the cup. At hole 14, she sunk a six-footer to everyone’s delight.
Except the
foursome behind that stared from 200 yards, irons in hand. Pam looked over and
asked her father whether they should let them play ahead; Jim agreed, but noted
that the 15th was a mere par-3 and they could quickly sneak that in
before such protocol.
Their tee
shots were good—even Shel got on the green in two, and the putts were almost
done by the time the foursome hastened to the tee box. Three of them stayed in
their carts and swigged beer, while the shortest set his ball and tapped his
foot, glaring at Aamiina missing putts from ten and six and three and two and one
and one and one foot out. She made it, finally, and helped Pam put the flag
back up before running toward the cart that Jim had parked well off the trail,
to signal that they’d let the foursome through.
The short
man had it in mind to signal differently. He clicked his drive before Aamiina
crossed the fringe and sealed his lips from any courtesy of ‘fore!’, as if Aamiina would understand
it anyway, to cover her head. The ball hit her in the right temple and she
collapsed, almost slow enough for Pam to catch her, but not quite. The man who
drove the ball glued his eyes on what he’d done, then scrambled to his cart and
steered it toward the club house—for help or, more likely, a blatant hit-and-run.
His buddies promptly followed.
Jim dashed
to the knocked-out girl, whose bruise was spreading like a peacock flair. Pam
streamed the code for an ambulance, and Shel dived down frantically to rub her
friend awake. Aamiina was still breathing, but closed-mouth and with labor, as
if unconsciously in need to cry. Jim jumped toward the cart to get a towel for
her and stumbled on the errant ball. “Smart bomb,” he announced after a gasp, discerning
from his years of trying to ban them from his course. Pam streamed, ‘keep it then as evidence’, forgetting
that her father wouldn’t hear it.
Then Pam
prayed just as silently that the promised ambulance would hurry, as Jim zipped
to the clubhouse to lead the paramedics when they’d come. Shel lay down beside Aamiina
and sobbed, wishing they could go back to tending toads.
VI.
The highway
east of Winton had a mossy tarmac blending to the russet soil on each side. Seb
kept the shuttle on hover mode, calculating battery drainage minus the weight
of passengers. There’d be no way to charge it here—renewal ended with magnetic
Highway 35. The plan he and Avis had discussed was to ‘remember the sabbath’,
so to speak, and dip back into civilization once a week for groceries, shuttle
fuel, intangibles and izøne peek-a-boo, spare the thought. The sanctuary
couldn’t force a ‘going native’, and anyway, the payment for it wouldn’t
stretch beyond a year—after which, they’d return to Minneapolis and the jobs
that guaranteed to take back Seb and Avis.
Kay would
have to work, then, too, and maybe Tim. There was some wonder whether a year
outside conventional technology would count as ‘plus’ or ‘minus’, skill sets
often hard to measure by employers of contemporary youth. Mia and Pretty would
not have readjustment needs, ostensibly, at least in terms of picking up where
they left off. By coincidence or not, the girl and dog walked as if conjoined,
yards ahead of the others and the shuttle. They’d sniff the sanctuary better
than their elders, who were feeling some effects of the izøne dissipating, step by step. It wasn’t vertigo, exactly, but a loss
of bearings underscored by insect buzz and redolence of tamarack. The breeze
and sunshine weren’t unpleasant, yet these, too, felt less familiar than the selfsame
weather of a few hours ago, while closing up their home.
“Bears here?”
Tim would never normally ask a question quite like that.
“Sure,” Seb
mumbled, “muskrats, too.”
“Mosquitos,”
Avis added, slapping the obvious.
“Smallest
critters, most dangerous. Ticks will kill us—”
“Shush,
Kay.” Tim tried to get his swagger back. “We have repellent.”
“But no
bear spray. Ha!”
“’S’nuff,”
Seb decided, and the family trudged on. The question of exposure to myriad,
mysterious things was hours on end behind their bedroom doors. At least Avis
and Seb could soften such questions with muted conversation. Mia could cuddle
with her stuffed animals, blinded now within the shuttle’s storage. Kay
resorted to esoterica, kindred spirits long since dead and those aficionados with
whom she bantered, through the izøne,
naturally. Tim… had nothing but a baby form of hubris.
Bears were
not the threat, not even a mite. How the sanctuary jammed the upper atmosphere,
and how that ether escaped the markings of miasma—that concerned the older Carters. Even now, as they hiked the final
mile to the designated territory, they could feel a push-pull difference in the
air: brisk, as humid as they’d probably expect, tuned to distant eagle cries, palled
by all the undergrowth, piqued again through breezes off the lakes. Yes, the izøne penetrated everything, the bodies of this bedrock
continent eons before the brains of anybody streamed; and yes, its reach seemed
weakened with each unsubstantiated stride. Kay thought hard of Kubla Khan: how
the promise of his Xanadu may have met the panic of being so close, and still
naïve. She grimaced at her fading memory: “all should cry, Beware! Beware!” Of what, goddammit? And where? Inside the pleasure-dome, or
miles and miles outside? Like Minneapolis from here, or Fall Lake to the izøne…
“Oh, what a
delectably pretty dog!” A cross-fit woman in her sixties approached Mia,
clutching Pretty’s collar. “Is she yours?”
Mia
swiveled her head to see if her parents would scowl (stranger-danger still a
thing), and seeing that they were involved with tethering the shuttle to a
tree, she decided to engage. “Pretty—her name. Mine, Mia.”
The grandma
hid her slight confusion. “Mia.. familia? Are you from Mexico? Oh, that doesn’t
matter. We’re a diverse community here: drifters, really, from, well—I’m a
Sooner, born and bred, and that man over there,” pointing at a path and the
golem walking toward them, “he’s Chicagoan. Barely knew which end the leech to
hook, let alone that walleyes love ’em.” She chortled at her own recollection.
Then, more businesslike: “Do you know how to fish?”
Mia didn’t
know, but said, “Daddy’s grandpa. Now us.” And Seb, coming over with the crack
of introduction, supplied more sense to what she started. The golem, grinning
generously, approached to be both audience and host. Tim, a cautious
shuttle-length away, could not imagine such a figure calling administrative
shots; more the type to lock the gates that weirdly weren’t in place—sanctuary starting from somewhere they
had already passed through. Avis, looking at her son, noticed this blip, too.
“Your Daddy
is a visionary,” the grandma joshed. Mia smiled at the attention, then headed
after Pretty, who’d decided that the golem’s path needed some scansion. “Oh,
the dog is visionary, too! Good thing we like a Fido, once and again, to remind
us of our humanity.”
“Her name
is ‘Pretty’,” Kay reminded, stepping more into the circle. The golem looked her
over. “And you’re right—she is the essence of fidelity.”
“To us,”
Avis laughed, a little jittery. “To us, she’s…”
The grandma
patted Avis’ shoulder. “To us!—now, there’s the sanctuary spirit! Let’s help
you meet some others.”
They
followed where the golem came from, and where Pretty, Mia, free and fearless,
blazed some sort of trail. It was wide enough for a tractor or shuttle, but
evidently not now used for such. Seb asked the grandma fitting questions—about
the governance of sanctuary, the protocols, the very path they trod… Avis
weighed in differently: what food they might prepare, and other honest W’s.
“Good
eatin’s not a problem here,” the grandma said, the golem nodding dutifully. “As
I said, when walleyes sense the leech is right, the rest is academic.”
The golem
laughed at that, knowingly.
The seven
of them—eight with Pretty—wended their way to the lake, passing several squat
cabins breaking from the trees. Some had festoons of laundry, rubber boots and
fishing tackle littering the porch. Others had the care of flowers on each
windowsill, the few that were. “Sanctuary looks…,” Mia didn’t finish. No one
did, for lack of ready words.
The grandma
supplied a line, in time: “it’s modest here. The livin’s hard and also
easy—once you’ve chopped your cord of wood, well,” here she laughed, “that for
some is easy!” The golem sniffed an I
agree. “And then there’s upkeep on Lovers Island, making sure the furnace
there is amply fed.”
“Lovers
Island?” Avis asked. “A furnace to be—”
“Fed.” The
golem proved his larynx worked. The syllable, he thought, sufficed, and so the
cue for follow-up decided to keep silent, instead.
They
reached a building larger than a boat house, if surely serving that capacity as
well. Beyond it, on the lake, perhaps a half-mile away, a hydra-headed chimney lifted
some effluvium—less a channel of smoke or steam than a shimmer, sort of like a
duned mirage. Lovers Island, amply fed,
each Carter swallowing the worry.
The grandma
led them inside the house to meet the manager; the golem stood outside as if a
bellhop, though all the Carter’s luggage remained locked in the shuttle. They
were resigned to sleep there if the reservation fell through. But that idea was
instantly eschewed when Mr Childress (“call me Jack”) assured that a cabin had
been scrubbed and freshened especially for them. “I’ll walk you there—or Gordon
can, I see.” The golem had a name. “We have a gathering most evenings at around eight, if you’d like to meet the other having-runners.”
“Having-runners?”
Seb scrunched his face, benignly.
The grandma
tapped his forearm. “We don’t know what to call ourselves! Some said ‘settlers’,
others liked ‘dodgers’—like the draft way back when, y’know?”
Jack took
up the argument. “Having run—or driven, or whatever—we want good folks to stay
awhile: rest, enjoy the peace.”
“Like
‘R.I.P.’,” Tim dared to say.
His mom
rebuked him with a stare. Kay cracked an uncertain smile. Seb pretended to
ignore, extending “thanks so much for hosting us. We’re eager to just settle
in, and yes—that gathering at 8pm will,” looking to Avis, “be something we’ll look
forward to.”
“Totally
your option. It’s rather low-key.”
“Better
tell ’em how to find it,” the grandma almost queeked.
“Yes,
well—” Jack was suddenly self-conscious. “It may need getting used to...;
unusual it is for new-comers—”
“Having-runs,
you mean,” Kay clarified.
“Runners,
or whatever you wanna be—everything here is completely safe,” Jack underscored, pointing at a door. “Could show you now,
unless you’d like to—”
The Carters
looked at someone in their midst to supply an answer, and Mia, most
instinctive, asked, “can Pretty come?”
Jack grinned
his answer, “come, indeed—we’re rather proud of this.”
The door
opened inward to a shallow platform. A staircase started broad enough for a
half dozen platformers to descend at once, then narrowed to the dimensions of
an airport gangway, evidently going underground or—as the shore would have
it—under water, even if the normal office lighting wouldn’t show it. The slope
was discernible, but barely. Eighty yards could pass for fifty, and perhaps
vice-versa coming out again. “Toward Lovers Island?” Mia whispered with
concern.
Either
everyone pretended not to hear her, or else nobody really could. Seb knew from
civil engineering classes that a tunnel under water would not be viable without
ample ventilation, complex controls on pressure, buoyed anchors, flexibility in
carapace—he loved the writer Walker Percy, who wrestled this word: carapace. And lo and behold, the tunnel
began to open to a grand-but-modest turtle dome, a Millennium Falcon maybe
twice as large, with swivel chairs enough for twenty (maybe more) and glass
observatories to the water that enveloped, some twenty feet below the surface
of Fall Lake.
“This is,”
Jack swept his left arm sheepishly, “where our gatherings gather—the ‘having-runners’
having need to…”
Since he
didn’t have an infinitive at the ready, Avis decided to break in. “I see space
enough for maybe four or five families like ours—is that about the capacity?”
“There are
more,” the grandma entertained the question. “Many don’t attend by choice,
others are too tired after fishing and such—”
“Stoking
the furnace?” Tim supplied, trying to get a handle on this place.
“Sure,
Lovers Island has a furnace, but it’s nothing to ‘stoke’.” Jack decided to
address that inevitable factor now: “the sanctuary couldn’t block the izøne without a constant flow of energy. The dam
does part the job, as much as we have fixed it; the island, though, is why
we’re here. It’s made to operate without a dint of interference to the purity
that’s always been here.”
“Is it a
nuclear reactor?”
“No, Seb, much
simpler. Natural gas at a simmer creates enough heat to float a scrambler, and
that covers a region of about sixteen square miles on an average day. Beyond
that range, the scrambling agent dissipates.”
Avis pulled
a face. “Turns into acid rain?”
“No, no,”
Jack curled hands upon a swivel chair, “Minnesota has seen those bad ol’ days
before. Science has come around to avoid such pitfalls—for those who care.”
“But who’s
to know who really cares?” Tim challenged, also curling his hands, as if a
small Chewbacca.
“I know
myself—why I’d dedicate my life to conservation—and why the izøne compromises nature as it’s always been.”
“Us, too,”
Seb assured. “But what makes up the scrambler?”
“Ancient
Chinese secret,” Jack replied, smiling like the television reference of a hundred
years ago, an allusion Kay longed to channel. Seb decided that such a discussion
would have to happen behind closed doors—and not the door that brought them to
this—this—
“What do
you call this space, beyond its use for gathering?”
Jack looked
at the grandma, who looked down somewhat despondently. “There hasn’t been
agreement, but… if one can say in secular terms: we’ve likened it to ‘chapel’.”
“Chapel.”
Avis questioned without a rising inflection. “Like, a place to pray.”
Eight minds
thought about that prospect, then Jack vocalized an “as you like. We don’t
resort to stagnant definitions here, and ‘pray’ is certainly an on-and-off-limits
kind of proposition.”
Kay stirred
her memory: “one of his disciples said, ‘Lord, teach us how to pray, just as
John taught his disciples.’”
“I think
Pretty needs to pee,” piped Mia, faithfully.
They all
assented and headed back the way they came, to Gordon, eventually. He led them
to their cabin and disappeared, reflecting dignity to welcome privacy. A dozen
trips or more from their shuttle to the cabin, and dinner in between, the
Carters missed the evening’s nascent gathering. And yet, the day had been as fulsome
as a border collie could defend, Pretty being an independent centrifuge.
In their scrubbed
and freshened cabin, they all curled up to sleep.
VII.
Hospitals
reflect the modern mandates of any society, though stories inside them tend to
be timeless. A week before her retirement, Nurse Geraldine confessed to her colleagues
at Faribault Clinic that she’d probably seen it all, “if feeling just a fraction.”
They demurred and she put her hands up, anticipating that parsing feelings from care would be a long, senseless conversation. “A fraction of fifty-seven
years is quite substantial. But I cannot pretend that my sympathy extends to
empathy; I got loads of the former, and now I’m just waiting for the latter.”
She was on
duty when Aamiina arrived, groggy on the gurney after regaining consciousness
during the ambulance ride. Pam accompanied her while Jim stayed with Shel in
the waiting room. “You her mom?” Geraldine needed to know.
“No, no—I’m
just…”
“Nevermind.”
Pam
suddenly realized that in the rush to get Aamiina here, no one had contacted
Nala. No one could—no one but Pam. She thought of her options: a general izøne search which, by law, would require the
intended contact’s prior permission; a reference request through her patrol
channel, also through izøne yet closed to
non-patrollers; a time-consuming dash to Nala’s workplace to inform her
face-to-face. Hoping no one at the precinct would tune in, Pam chose the patrol
channel. She concentrated on the necessary codes, all entwined in her
dendrites, and gradually relayed the message to Nala (tacitly, of course): ‘This is Pam. Aamiina has gotten hurt and
we’re at the clinic. She’s conscious now, but a flying golf ball had knocked
her out. I’m sorry this happened. It’s…’ Pam had run out of thought.
Geraldine,
while measuring Aamiina’s vital signs, glanced at Pam. “You alright?”
“Um, not
entirely. I… I just contacted her mother. Nala.”
“Nala
what?” Geraldine lifted her chin toward another nurse, to have her note the
information.
“What? Oh,
I’d need to check—I just met her yesterday, on patrol.”
“On
patrol?”
“Well,” Pam
covered her mouth, considering how much she could say.
Geraldine
continued her procedures, soothing Aamiina with whispers like, “let’s open your
other eye now. Good. Look this way. And back to me. Can you tell me your name?”
“Aamiina,”
Pam said, when the girl didn’t.
Geraldine
repeated the question to Aamiina, who faintly uttered, “sleepy.”
A doctor arrived
and slid next to Geraldine, hearing her account and referencing some screens
before trying to keep Aamiina conscious. “I’m Doctor Brent,” he announced,
feeling her scalp. “You are—”
Another
nurse tagged in for Geraldine, who walked toward Pam to escort her out of the
room. They didn’t go as far as the waiting room, where Jim and Shel fidgeted
for some sort of news; instead, Geraldine led Pam to a staff room and poured
two cups of coffee, hinting at a long afternoon and beyond. “She aint
streamed,” Geraldine guessed, with confidence.
“No,” Pam replied,
uncertain. “I don’t know her history, as I said… only yesterday. Why would that
matter, anyway?”
Geraldine
shrugged. “Just that Dr Brent is gung-ho on streaming kids. Zealous, even.”
Pam had to
stream that definition, religious rhetoric having faded from contemporary use.
“Why would he..?”
“Why would
he want kids streamed?”
“Um, yeah.
Is this relevant to her injury?”
“I’d say
no. But then again, I’m kinda biased. Doc likes me okay as a person, but y’see,
I’m not streamed myself. Decided that long ago: every place needs some ol’
school, if you know what I mean.”
Pam
streamed ‘old school’ and wondered whether to nod. Instead, she reflected,
“sort of like my dad, out there in the waiting room.”
“Oh,
there’s more’n a couple of us. Grandfathered in to keeping our jobs—in some
cases not, sadly. But gettin’ back to
Aamiina. She’s in good hands regardless, and from my experience she’ll be
alright. Youth is in her favor if this is a first concussion.”
“I don’t
know if it is.”
“That’s why
we need her momma here. Doc will lecture her, though—”
“Nala?”
“For sure,
her, and differently with Aamiina. He’ll argue that preventative care needs
instinctive use of the izøne. ‘Sensors reduce
accidents,’ he likes to preach. And communication needs utmost
efficiency—instantaneous to possible response. That’s why he won’t let me in
O.R. anymore, sometimes not even E.R., though that depends on the
circumstances.”
“Can he be
so finicky?”
“He’s head
doctor. He can call the shots. And don’t get me wrong—he’s a good doctor and
person, at the heart of it. He wouldn’t stream a person without a legal
conversation—that’s why I’m telling you now, ’fore Nala comes.”
“You
couldn’t deliver her this same point of view?”
“I could. I’m within my bounds—now
with you, talkin’ as folks do. But I’m not here to contradict Dr Brent’s advice
after he’s given it. Cuz that would open up a can of worms.”
Pam had to
stream that idiom, too. This time she nodded understanding.
Nala
entered the waiting room and begged Shel for information. Shel, who had dried
her tears a half hour ago, cried an ‘I don’t know’ and buried her face into
Nala’s stooped shoulder. Jim introduced himself as her grandpa and pursed his
lips to some level of comfort: no news is
good news, a mantra meaning much to him throughout his life.
Geraldine
seemed to have an ear to the situation, coming into the waiting room, with Pam
behind her, blushing another apology. “Hello, Nala? I’m Nurse Geraldine.
Aamiina has a concussion but is responding well, as these things go.”
“Is she…?”
Nala gently released Shel to stand up, then rippled a reluctant frown to try to
hold back her own tears.
Pam lunged
forward to hold her: “she’s going to be alright.” Geraldine nodded reassuringly,
then left to fetch Dr Brent.
Jim,
meanwhile, asked the receptionist for a pitcher of lemonade and a delivery of
pizzas—cheese, olive, portobello. He reached into his pocket as if, decades
ago, he’d fish out some money or a credit card number to read out; the
offending golf ball there forced his fingertips to curl, protectively. If it
were of the smart bomb variety, he could present it now to Nala as a lever
toward litigation. Then again, how crass
would that be? “Exhibit A!” before she’s had a chance to see her daughter, the dent
in her head now swollen, the natural glisten of her eyes, if they’d be open… He
pushed the dimpled sphere away from his rising hand and offered, as the immediate
moments allowed, to walk with her. Geraldine was gesturing for them to come in,
and Nala looked warmly at Jim, who’d be a welcome proxy-grandpa for this turn.
As they entered,
Dr Brent was just releasing a syringe from Aamiina’s hip. The other nurse gauzed
the spot and covered the sleeping girl with a blanket. Geraldine leaned into
Nala, gasping in quick succession. “She’s fine,” Geraldine whispered, “just
procedural.”
Dr Brent
put the syringe on a tray of other tools and approached to introduce himself.
“Nala, yes? Doctor Brent. And you are?” looking at Jim.
“Witness to
the accident.” Jim felt the bulging golf ball against his thigh and shifted his
stance. “Wanna lend all support.”
Dr Brent
looked into his eyes for a couple seconds, then addressed Nala, whose feet
seemed frozen to the floor. “Your daughter has a grade 3 concussion and
cerebral contusion—bruising—apparently free from laceration; we’re monitoring
conditions and, fingers crossed, she’ll be back to her old self in a couple
days.”
“Old self?”
Nala was confused.
“Well, not
really ‘new’—”
“Can I sit
by her?”
“Of course,
though allow her to sleep, now that she should.”
“What did
you inject in her, just now?” Jim leveled.
Dr Brent
again looked intently at this old man. “Information is confidential to next of
kin.”
Nala rubbed
her forehead. “Me, you mean.”
“As the
record shows. You may have others speak on your behalf, but only with consent.”
“Can I ask
the same question?”
“Sure.”
Nala
scanned the tray and then Aamiina’s placid face. “What just went in her?”
Dr Brent moved
cat-like to the tray and picked up two vials to show her the labels. “Serum
standard for a grade 3 concussion, tempered for the patient’s age. This one’s
an analgesic to preempt reactions of trauma; this other one prepares for the
next thing we’ll need to do when Aamiina wakes up.”
“Which is
what?” Jim blurted; Nala assented with her eyes that the question was hers,
too.
“C-scan,”
Dr Brent spoke directly to her, “again, standard procedure.”
“C stands
for?”
“Cellular.
Non-invasive. Harmless.”
The room
itself was a cell. Hospitals work inside out, mitochondria to the organs, face,
and apertures of humankind. Aamiina, maybe hearing what the adults were saying,
breathed slowly through her nose. The serum seemed to take its forecasted
effect, riding now the bloodstream of the girl, several cycles through the
bronchioles, airing in, erring out. Dr Brent explained in quiet terms about
‘best practice’ in these circumstances, short- and long-term. Nala looked to
him and Geraldine equally, though the latter didn’t offer any extra speech.
Shel was
getting antsy. She tried to stream her angst to her mother, but that wasn’t
working because Pam, pacing around herself, was busy streaming Trig. He had
picked up on her use of the patrol signal—intuitively, as Nala’s profile had
been accessed within his recent beat. He’d also want to check in on Pam as a
friend: bid her flu a soon goodbye. Faribault
Clinic? Could swing by. Need anything? Shel?
“Shel?” Pam
voiced, when she realized the waiting room was empty.
The girl
had snuck inside Aamiina’s room and hooked around the adults, preoccupied. She
hid beneath the second bed and listened, streaming some terms beyond her
understanding. The doctor’s voice confused her in his calm instance that her
grandpa’s nervousness was wrong; the young nurse convinced Nala to move off her
daughter’s bed and grant a chance for peace and quiet, Geraldine directing the
men to exit as well.
Just
outside the room, Pam exclaimed, “Shel’s missing!”
“Missing?”
Jim graveled. “Why in the world—”
Pam rotated
her hands. “Upset, of course!”
“Check the
bathroom?” Geraldine suggested.
“Did
already. Not in this room?”
“No,” the young
nurse said, closing the door for Aamiina’s sake.
Minutes
went by—tones muffled and stark slipped through the walls. Shel repositioned
herself under Aamiina’s bed, against the wall that also elbowed the cabinet and
tool tray. She didn’t have a plan; to nap with her friend was presently her
objective. But the doctor’s talk of streaming, her grandpa’s “Whoa—let’s hold on,” Nala’s trying to
get a hold of things her own way: these prevented Shel from napping. And if
Aamiina would wake up before the ‘witching hour’ (a phrase Shel had heard
somewhere), she’d warn her about this witch doctor.
And maybe
then they’d run away for real.
VIII.
Pretty
didn’t care if it were a timberwolf or wolverine or badger or black bear—fact
was, duty called. The fight was fierce and indecisive, altogether in the dark.
Aurora borealis and the moon had been given the night off, helping the Carters snuggle
into sleep within their assigned cabin. Pretty would naturally curl up on the
floor and add to the soft snores, but roundabout midnight she had to pee, as
Mia conscientiously guessed, and stayed out later than that need.
In echoes
that careened through trees, the tussle went on for a nightmare of minutes. Mia
sobbed silently on the cabin porch, her quilt wrapped around her body and hair,
a babushka praying for the war to die down. She thought about waking one of her
parents—mother to help posse the dog, father to halt such a wild idea. Sister
and brother would likewise divide, reminding Mia how ‘mushed’ she was, a sneer
often thrown at the unstreamed. Pretty’s
also mushed! she once retorted in Minneapolis, to which Kay bemused little
sis’ further about dogsleds and double entendres. The izøne didn’t teach anyone the tendency to tease, but resourced its
ageless inertia. Mia fell asleep against the log walls despite shaking with
panic and umbrage.
And after
unknown hours, her dream went as such: the raft she had hopped on was stable
enough, flat on the main, with islands of sand pushed into piles about knee-high,
like snow she’d help shovel when making a rink. The pyramids of sand/snow kept
her looping around them—five, eight, and dozens, now that the raft had expanded.
It was fun to imagine skating a winter pond on top of a summer lake, the edges
of both barely seen. Distantly, other kids ran around their discrete piles—she
couldn’t discern if they were aboard her raft or theirs, the lake now obscured by
moss extending from the floorboards and residuals. The blanket of heather and
swale tempted her tread, even more than the chance to meet others like her. One
of them called out to shovel the snowy sand into a path to bridge this green
gap. ‘No shovel,’ she responded, but then looked at her hands, the same as
she’d always seen, open and apt to carry an allocation of what was needed. And
naturally, much of her nab leaked down from her lift—ballet ambitions from a
backhoe scoop—and then, once lifted, tossing the granules forward proved
difficult. Doubts came with each shout to keep tossing on, but they didn’t seem
to be scooping their own piles in kind. And testing the path upon floating moss?
Well, that would be crazy! She
started to realize, as well as this must
be a dream, and, like every so often, the dream itself made her wake.
Her arms
still around what she thought had been sand, Pretty had found her embrace. The
dog wasn’t sleeping—sitting as such wouldn’t allow it, nor dropping her guard
on this night. Mia was ecstatic, squeezing with all abandon. She said silly
things, mushed mushed mushed no running
again you came back my mushed mushed mushed make me not so mushed anymore.
Pretty seemed to understand, sliding down so she could sleep against the girl,
who also lay upon her side, cocooned in her quilt.
They woke
to the hoot and wail of a loon on Fall Lake, the dawn more gray than tawny. Mia
plowed her fingers through the scruff of Pretty’s neck, familiar in its warmth
and depth. Around the ear, though, the fur didn’t feel right, and deeper in Mia
sensed there was a gash. She shot up to investigate. Squinting to be sure, the
matted patches around the dog’s shoulder and throat were bloodied from at least
that first gash, and then another on her leg. “Oh, Pretty,” she stammered, and
looked with new desperation at the beautiful mug torn variously above one eye
and across the snout. The other eye was blinking shut, though Mia pried the
lids to find out how bad it could be—the cornea appeared unscratched, but Mia
jumped out of her quilt to pull Pretty into slightly better light and check
anew. A flashlight was in the cabin, she was aware, and she’d have to enter
eventually….
Instead,
she walked in the direction of the beach, and Pretty (as early as it was)
assumed the makings of a morning walk. Mia questioned the details of the night
in mutters Pretty surely heard and perhaps apprehended. They reached the
greater light of the lakeshore and Mia conducted another inspection, a smidgen
satisfied now that both eyes were equally open and spared, apparently, from
injury. But the other wounds looked nasty.
Mia took a
stick and tossed it twenty yards into the water. Pretty loved this routine and
leaned toward back-to-normal instinct; she hesitated, though, at Mia’s trembled
command to “Go!” Mia did the same with a second stick, then stripped off her
pajamas to run into the lake, causing Pretty to follow. They cycled their legs
when the sand gave way to muck, then Mia scrubbed each portion of the collie’s
body, less to wash away the blood than discover all that needed healing. Five,
six, eight, eleven places identified, Pretty flinching with each spot yet
thankful for this triage. They swam a little separately, self-consciously in
the strangeness of a peeking sun, or other ‘having-runners’ who might come down
this early to fish.
Or be on
the lookout for a missing kid.
Baptism
done, Pretty shook dry and Mia toweled off with her pajamas. She put them on
and tried to parachute the clinging wrinkles, to no avail. There’d be no way to
smooth out the facts of the night. Whatever had started the fight was still
nearby, yet probably disinclined to mess with Pretty again. And vice versa, she could remember her
sister saying once, if only sort of knowing why.
The cabin
was still sleeping as they snuck in. Mia shivered under the cooled quilt and
wished Pretty could have added body heat, like before. Sleep came to both just
before Avis woke up, then Seb.
Coffee
brewed, scrambled eggs and toast luring the older kids out of bed. Then the
cues of the evening started to show. Voices alarmed and whispered tried not to
disturb the girl or the dog as Avis inspected their exhausted bodies. Seb
circled the cabin and the radius to the lakeshore to piece together what might
have happened. Kay and Tim argued about responsibilities and whether a ‘mushed’
kid could take them on, admonished several times by their mom. “Mia is more
experienced than any of us,” Avis hissed, “never needing an izøne to figure things out!”
“But
she’s—”
“Shhh!
She’s sleeping.”
“Poor
Pretty—”
“—is
sleeping as well. Let be.”
Seb
gathered the teenagers lakeside to learn how to fish—Kay vaguely recalling the
adage that started, 'give a man a fish'.... Seb nodded that while they wouldn't
go hungry this year (budget behaving), they needed to occupy themselves and
live off the land.
"Water?" Tim smart-assed, flipping over a sanctuary
rowboat.
"Also.
We start from the shore." Seb had brought some rods and tackle from the
shuttle, unsure how much equipment Jack might loan or sell. He had found these
rods at a relics store in Minneapolis and the tackle box from his parents'
attic. The treble-hook lures were somewhat rusty yet retained an iridescence
when swiveled in the water.
"Fish
eat worms," Tim asserted, annoyed that the boat would have to wait.
"Fish
eat action," Seb corrected, "and worms don't cast so
well."
Kay
liked that verb and wanted a discussion. "Why ‘cast’? Why not angle?"
"Angling happens from the boat. Casting, from the shore and the
boat. Doubles up our chances." Seb spoke this way to gain some confidence,
which eked away with each attempt to sling the lure; the apparatus in his hands
seemed to mock him. The spooled line would only release from a well-timed
thumb, as yet undiscovered. Tim and Kay, knowing they'd be even more pathetic
at this enterprise, giggled just the same. They kept their distance, as treble
hooks were no laughing matter. "Takes practice," Seb heaved, and,
mercy of a little perseverance, the lure finally cut a rainbow arc beyond the
depth of the lilypad line. His voice cracked, "see?!"
"I
see seaweed! What now?"
"Lilies,
Kay, and I'll reel in just outside their cluster. Pike hunt perch right in that
region." The nylon line was old and squeaked back into the spool with each
rotation. Seb paused sometimes to simulate the diving of a baby perch venturing
too far from its lily-covered school. Occasionally the lure would snag onto an
unseen weed and feel like a lugubrious fish. After several casts Seb came to
know the feel of these and how to avoid them better, as pike would never strike
at a weed-draped slug. Meanwhile, Tim took up one of the other rods and
attached a red and white 'daredevil' spoon, treble hooks at the mouth and tail.
His casts were wilder than Seb's yet went further, eventually. Kay kept an eye
on the whole situation, disinclined to add more competing casts than necessary.
Moreover, she could study the lake this way: the shadowy area where that chapel
was submerged, then Lover's Island in the distance beyond. She squinted to see
if any boat was docked there, as someone had to be tending to its furnace. She
saw the wisps of something like smoke, but no boat, at least not from this
vantage point.
"Got
one!" Tim's rod quavered like an angry cobra besieged by some aquatic
mongoose. "Dad! Quick!"
It
now occurred to Seb that they didn't have a net, and so, heart racing, he shouted
orders to clasp the reel with both hands and back away from the shore, to drag
this monster out of the lake. On cue, it leapt to indicate its size and scare
the boy to ecstasy. Seb anchored himself at the edge of the water and pulled
the line as if fronting his team in tug-of-war. Kay took up her father's fallen
rod on the prospect that it might hook a different fish and, except for her
grasp, slide into the depths.
Jack, from
the boathouse, heard the excitement and grabbed his largest hoop net. It nearly
wasn’t able to capture the convulsive fish, as the line snapped the moment Jack
scooped it in. Seb fell backwards and Tim dropped the rod to run into the
water, celebrating his catch, a chaos of happiness. Jack was sure it weighed twelve pounds or so—“three meals for y’all, at least!” They brought it
thrashing in the net, dripping all the way to the Carters’ cabin, where Avis
had made hot chocolate for Mia and the sanctuary’s grandma, who had stopped in
for a visit. “Oh, my!” the grandma said, as Pretty barked at the alien captive
flaring gills as sharp as its needle teeth. “Who caught it?”
“I,”
declared Tim, and feeling so grown up, decided to appease his servants: “Dad showed
how, and Mr Childress,.. well—”
“I merely
sat back and enjoyed it all to death.”
“Would have
gotten away without you,” Seb reminded. “And—if you don’t mind—please teach us
what’s next: it may not fillet very well without your guidance.”
“Gordon’s
best at cleaning fish,” the grandma said.
“Gordon, the
golem?” Mia softly asked her mother, who shushed her.
“Yes,”
agreed Seb. “Gordon has been more than helpful. Might he be around?”
“Gordon?”
Jack chuckled. “He’s always around. Just maybe not when you want him!”
Kay rowed
the boat toward the middle of Fall Lake. The breeze was picking up and
sometimes the strokes of the oars did little to drive her direction. Practice makes perfect—she conjured the
phrase to motivate—or…. She never
cared about perfection; academics never do. She cared about discovery, a banking
of ideas old and new.
Lovers
Island, to the west, held some magnetism, push and pull. She took note of that
feeling, then paddled toward the lake’s northern shore, a half-mile into the
disappearing hours of afternoon. There were skeletal structures on that horizon—deer
stands and dilapidated cabins—but for the most part, the destination showed her
trees and trees and more trees. Nature of the rowboat, she could only see
intermittently, looking over one shoulder or the other, an awkward but
necessary way of keeping helm.
Deliberately
or not, she drifted toward Lovers Island. From this new perspective, she saw
that there was no boat, no dock even for a boat. The effluvia from several
chimneys was more evident, if still a shimmer less-than-smoke. This wouldn’t be
the time to explore so thoroughly, especially alone. But still, take mental note. Heat comes in calories
stored, then released. Jack contended that logs fuel this formidable furnace,
though not to the point of clear-cutting. Indeed, the forest here looked deep. What
else could produce such energy? a nuclear reaction? a tapping into Winton’s
dam, a century out-of-date? She missed the izøne giving
nudges, here and there, to wonder.
With the
increasing wind came gray clouds and a drizzle. Kay turned the boat to the
southern shore and stroked with fresh dexterity. She smiled at the way the
droplets kissed the rippling surface of the lake, watery reunions. Then the
rain turned into slanting stands, fascinating a different way, but compelling
Kay to discover less and get the heck back home. Hail followed, pinging the
metal boat and changing wetness into pain. There were two islands closer to the
beachhead, about in line with the submerged chapel; Kay paddled furiously to
reach the closest one and pull the boat to some security. She huddled against a
clump of birch trees and hummed a song that understated the clamor of the
hailstones. Into this world we’re born,
into this world we’re thrown. She couldn’t remember the lyrics more, but
pumped the bass line into the clutch of her biceps, feeling satisfied to be a rider
of this storm on this little, furnace-free island. She stole a glance toward
the direction where her family would be worried, but shrugged a bit
ambivalently. They’d see her soon enough, when the rowing would be safe. The
place was deemed a ‘sanctuary’, after all, and from cabin to chapel to this
very island, things relied on a sense of trust.
Gordon,
from a deer stand on the southern shore, watched everything.
IX.
Aamiina
woke up in a fog, confused yet content that Shel was nudging her. The adult
voices had come and gone like a disorganized posse, and Shel thought the time
was now or never. They could make it to the playground, hide in the tower that
suspended one end of the rope bridge. Shel had proven what her stealth could
do; she could use the izøne if she needed
to, message her mom or even Aami’s mom, given time to stream a general search.
“Up, Aami,”
she whispered, “let’s escape.”
Footsteps
sounded and the girls scampered to the nook behind the open bathroom door.
Nurse Geraldine entered and stopped two steps in. “Oh, Lordy,” she sighed, more
tired than worried. “Now we got two missing. And just when the pizzas have
come, smellin’ delicious. Shame to think they’ll go cold ’fore too long. And
lemonade’s ready, too,” Geraldine spoke to the vacant bed. “Gonna go warm—kinda
funny how foods have their meant-to-be temperatures, ’til they throw tantrums
and try to reverse their true nature.” She nodded at that, as if discussing
with herself. “Well, I guess it means more for me, and I sure am hungry.” She
turned and exited, not bothering to close the door.
Shel and
Aamiina remained frozen a half-minute, then peeked to see if the coast was
clear. “Who’s that lady?” Aamiina asked.
“You
forgot? She checked your eyes before you slept. Before that doctor stuck—”
“Ahh,”
Aamiina remembered now. “Why she mention pizza?”
“Grandpa
ordered. Guess it’s here.” Shel suspected a trick in this but, like Geraldine,
had a growling stomach. Running to the park and hiding in that tower would take
an hour, tree to tree, making sure no one would see. “You hungry, Aami?”
Still
groggy, Aamiina wasn’t really sure. “I want more sleep. Maybe eat a bit.”
“Stay here—I’ll
steal some.” Shel led her friend back to bed and Pink Panthered down the hall,
sliding into a laundry closet when she heard approaching voices: her mother’s,
Trig’s, Dr Brent’s in querulous tones. Shel heard Geraldine try to calm them
down. Patients need their peace and
quiet, even—
“So you’ve
found Shel!?” Pam mocked, and now Jim’s voice joined Geraldine’s for everyone
to take a chill pill, everything’s gonna
be alright. Shel shook with some guilt, if also intrigued by this
attention. Of course she knew her mother was begging the izøne to force Shel to receive her messages; Shel had filtered them to
silent mode, storing them away—fittingly, as Pam had taught her.
“This is exactly
why they need their sensors active, all the time,” argued Dr Brent, or as much
of him as Shel could hear. These bickering adults were fading away, even as
Geraldine’s footsteps were coming back to check on the fugitives’ room. Shel
ensconced herself more deeply in the closet as she passed.
“Well, look
who’s reappeared,” she heard the old nurse say.
“Me.”
Aamiina’s little voice, not unhappy—glad, perhaps, she had this grandma tucking
her in, promising her pizza and lemonade when the time was right.
An hour
later, Jim had to acquiesce: everything’s
not alright—his granddaughter had flown the coop—and “maybe, Trig, you
should put out an APB…”
Trig,
exhausted for pacing with Pam through the problem, hesitated to stream what an
‘APB’ is, or had been; “an APB,” he stewed, “meaning, some kind of Amber
Alert?”
That term
was common code in Minnesota, as rare as kidnappings and child disappearances had been
in the area. It crushed Jim to hear it applied to Shel, but, “yes, I guess
that’s what’s gotta be done. This aint like her, running off with nowhere to
go…”
“Maybe she
went to the golf course. Could you message them there?”
Jim scratched
his nape, then looked around for Pam, who had demanded Dr Brent scour the
clinic’s campus again. “I don’t suppose she’s gone back to the golf course.”
“Just
check, to make sure. Do your own…APB.”
“Well, I
would.”
“You should,” Trig emphasized, but realized
at that moment why the old man actually couldn't.
“Maybe Doc
Brent will pump me some of that serum. Get me streamed.”
Nala and
Geraldine sat beside Aamiina’s bed, speaking in soft phrases so as not to wake
her. There was some acknowledgement that Shel’s absence had turned this
upturned day a little more off-kilter. In their eyes, obsidian aquaria, they
glinted assurances that the worst was over: the golfball didn’t shatter Aami’s
brain. The anxiety otherwise, out there in the lobby and corridors, wouldn’t loom:
Shel would be found, probably within the hour and a decade older in the scheme
of things. “I only met her yesterday,” said Nala. “Aamiina knows her a little
longer.”
“Hmmn, yeah.
I figured it was friendship in the draftin’ stage.” Geraldine stifled a laugh,
all things considered. “I come to work with a blank slate. Observations—no
judgments. You know what I mean? Oh, there’s some folks I’m not so open
to—should say, they’re pretty closed to me. I do their blood pressure and all, check their
vitals, and tell ’em things are this much okay or that much not. Life in a
hammock, I like to say: swingin’ when the earth says so.”
Nala had to
search that term, and imagined a ship’s hold. “Earth, or Ocean?”
“Huh?”
Geraldine had no idea why an ocean…
“You said a
‘hammock’, which streams to me a bed within a boat, underneath the deck. In
Somalia we had them… Boats, I mean…”
“And?” Geraldine
got up to check that Aamiina was sleeping okay, which (mothers’ instinct) was
clear without the need for getting up. “You been on one of them boats, yeah?”
Nala had.
But hard to say what that experience might mean. “I didn’t die. Put it that
way.”
Geraldine
hovered over Aamiina. “She also?”
“Wasn’t
born yet. Three months pregnant, I was, barely showing. Probably traffickers
wouldn'ta taken me if they knew. Went all around the Indian Ocean, almost sent
back at Sumatra. Sick nonstop midst all those islands, boat had to zig-zag through.
Docked in Hawaii, had to switch boats—no more hammock, but a flat bed was no better.
Back had curved like a chameleon by then, and baby inside me was growing. Not
moving much, but growing.”
“And who
was lookin’ after you? ’Nother in your family?”
“No family.
They went back to the village after marrying me off in Mogadishu. Didn’t know
the man that paid my bride price. Might have known he’d treat me bad. You can
imagine, no?”
Geraldine
imagined, and nodded. “This girl from him?”
“Has to be.
And maybe he kill me when he found out she wasn’t male. All backward there.
City glitters a show that they’re wealthy, finally, after centuries of war and
starvation. But still all those lords are… malnourished? Is that the right
term.”
“Hmmn. You
got streaming—you’d know! But, yeah, toward the metaphor—they seem fat cats who
didn’t get fed proper values.”
“And that’s
why I left.”
Shel had
crept out of the laundry closet and into the room where the ladies were
talking, proctoring Aamiina. The nook behind the bathroom door still made for a
good hiding spot, however much longer Shel wanted to do this. She wanted to
message her grandpa, have him tell Pam not to worry, and I’m sorry. She knew she could do this herself, but imagined a world
where she couldn’t. Aamiina’s world. And Grandpa’s.
Geraldine
asked Nala a question that Shel stretched to hear: “So when you got here—then
you was streamed?”
“No,” Nala
said, “not right away. Complicated. They pushed everyone to do so,
voluntarily—incentive of financial credit, free. But some law couldn’t force
everyone. Such a long journey, now here; many were eager for izøne to get them work, more credit, and so on. Others were suspicious
and feared they’d get traced, sent back to Somalia.”
“You?”
“Of course
that—I’m sure my so-called husband put out a search, probably a fatwa. But not
only that…”
Geraldine laid
her hand on Nala’s armrest. “Only say if you want.”
She stared
at Aamiina. “I thought it would poison her. Everyone told us otherwise… Nurses
did, even those older, wiser ones like you.” Geraldine didn’t move, but Shel
started to. “Streamed mothers make babies that strangely also need to get streamed—like
the umbilical cord didn’t do the trick. Everyone promised my streaming wouldn’t
impact the baby. But… must!”
And here
Shel rushed to the other side of the bed, shocking the ladies a little. “No
poison! Leave her be.” Against Geraldine’s hushes, she tumbled into the bed and
wrapped her arms around Aamiina like a teddy bear. “Leave be,” she cried
quietly.
After a
minute, Nala leaned into Geraldine, “should I message Pam, she’s okay?”
“Hmmn.” Geraldine hoisted herself
from the chair. “Naw. Let me.” She strolled toward the door, then smiled at the
girls. “Old-school style.”
X.
The Carters
fished Fall Lake from the shore the following day, not expecting another
fourteen-pound pike, but more fluency in the craft of casting and reeling in.
They knew they’d have to launch into the open water and trawl for a consistent
yield, and they also knew that fish alone would not supply a balanced diet.
They’d have to learn to hunt—perhaps for that very kind of creature that bloodied
their dog the other night.
But these ventures out of the camp could wait;
the Carters all desired a chance to know their neighbors—other ‘having-runners’,
as Jack had called them. He hinted that they came and went at unpredictable
times. Cabins being rather cold and lonely, there was more incentive to leave
them than to linger, and the beauty of the boundary waters, luring endlessly
into a labyrinth of lakes, would entice wanderers to their own sense of
sanctuary, beyond Jack’s billing.
“Come on by
the chapel this evening,” he elbowed Seb, “’round 8pm.”
“How would
I know when that is?” Seb asked, his izøne access
to time no longer at the ready.
“We tend to
ring the bell.”
“From
underwater? If that’s the chapel you’re talking about—”
“Yes, the
only chapel we have. But the bell is above the boathouse. We ring it only sometimes:
two, three heartbeats for a gentle reminder of a gathering, or a cacophony of
pulls for something gone wrong. Not that that
happens too often—”
“Maybe
shoulda done that when we couldn’t find Kay.”
Jack nodded
doubtfully. “She’s got good instincts, finding cover when out in the rain. And
Gordon, you know, found her fine. He’s real good when it comes to good
instincts.”
Seb didn’t
nod back. “‘Instinct’ is… tough for us to figure. We get the general concept.
Sort of know it’s there—gotta be. Potentially there, at least. But…”
“I
understand,” said Jack. “Come by the chapel tonight.”
They did,
when the bell tolled three heartbeats. Seb and Avis, Tim and Mia walked from
their cabin toward the boathouse. Kay, feeling sniffly, stayed back with
Pretty, who’d likely add to the chapel environment but wouldn’t enjoy it. They
both were rather tired.
The grandma
was at the boathouse, typically ebullient. “Bells’ll do it! Come on in. You
know your way already—from the other day. Down the hatch, as we say!” She
opened the door at the northern wall of the room, which the Carters knew would
lead to an actual hangar for some boats, but then beyond: the corridor that
snaked beneath the surface of the lake, some eighty yards or so. It was
translucent at this hour, the rays of sunset prisming the surface of the lake
and the windows of this tube, supplied as well by artificial light.
They walked
quite deliberately, sometimes pausing at a window to study the way the surface
of the lake affected the view—above, below, like a sea lion tank at a zoo. They
talked a bit, but Seb wished he could message Avis tacitly, beyond their kids’
earshot, so to speak. Why such a tube?
he’d ask her, and What would we want or
not want to see in this gathering? Perhaps she’d laugh, Would you rather swim to this submarine
thing? and We’ll see other,
gerbil-like people. How bad could that be? Then maybe Seb would reflect on
that. Other people. Weird that we haven’t
seen any yet… Avis would remind him of the
grandma, and Gordon. Jack, of course. Nodding impatiently, of course, them! But who else? That old guy
in Winton, shouting us to stay away? Shaking her head, it wasn’t like that. He’s seen his town shrivel and the rest of the
world thrive. He’s a modern-day Miniver Cheevy, if you remember him. But
the fact was, without izøne, they couldn’t
dialogue like this anymore.
Muffled
voices grew more distinctly female, male, old and ageless through the beaded
curtain at the end of the corridor. The chapel had a heavy, air-tight door, now
open—the corridor eased in some ventilating breeze—and stepping through the
beads the Carters felt some reassurance that this drowned spaceship wasn’t
filled with aliens, nor mutant gerbils, but ordinary humans playing cards,
telling yarns, sipping drinks, saying ‘hey’ as Seb and Avis made their way to
greet them. Tim and Mia hung behind, sizing up the corners of the disc, or
hatches to escape, if need be. Lighting was about the same as in the
corridor—phosphorescent tubes, scented candles here and there for
atmosphere—and concave windows would naturally pull in dregs of light, if
earlier in the day. Rugs and wooden furniture made valiant attempts to cozy up
the room, and along the wall closest to Lovers Island stood a foot-bellows pipe
organ, vacant for now but soon played by a silver-haired lady who took Mia’s
hand when the girl asked what that was. The pumping of feet to get the air
going took much of Silver’s energy, though she grinned as she did so, and
encouraged Mia to pull out some of the stops—these funny knobs that slanted the
groans of the instrument, tweaking the sound into song. Pushing the keys, white
and black, was something Mia had done before at a friend’s house in
Minneapolis, but never with so many other valves and levers. Silver played
chords that enticed Mia to add her own notes, to general delight.
Tim looked
on from a swivel chair, hoping not to be next, even as the machine intrigued
him. But after a minute he turned toward a chess match that was into its end
game—two men in their forties battling out their lone rooks, knights, and
kings. Tim knew how to play and secretly sided with black, with pawns in better
position to race toward the chance to be queen. Seb came over, brandy in hand,
and mentioned to the concentrating men that his son was quite good at the game.
Tim blushed but messaged his dad a genuine thanks, or tried to. The man who had
black nodded belief and said Tim would play winner, thumbing his own overalls.
Avis was
sitting with Jack, who had abandoned his hand playing whist. The three others,
including his across-the-table partner, didn’t seem to mind, as they went on to
play something simpler, partly to eyeball Avis once in a while. Jack wasn’t
exactly flirting with her, but anyone could see he was glad that she had
swiveled into this gathering, a gathering that obviously had started well
before the ringing of the bell.
Silver had
taught Mia a little song that would serve the greater interest—suspending chess
and cards and little conversations in the room. It was ‘Edelweiss’, pumped into
the organ and lungs of the organist, singing “small and white, clean and
bright” while Mia plinked out the approximate notes. No one could have referenced
the way Captain Von Trapp led the same song with his daughter Liesl, some 120
years ago. Outside the sanctuary, sure: maybe they’d reference this moment,
deliberately or otherwise. But here, internal to Fall Lake, beyond any possible
whiff of izøne, the precedent mattered not at all. By
the end of “bless my homeland forever,” Silver was exhausted, the bellows
pumped by her feet slowly giving up. The calls for an encore were half in jest,
as Silver hugged Mia and headed for a swivel chair and the brandy someone
handed her.
Kay,
meanwhile, imagined how her family’s first chapel was going. She understood the
underwater bit—a womb of sorts to suit the notion of the inchoate innocence of
the place. She also understood the need to combat ‘cabin fever’, even in the
mere span of hours she had ever spent in a cabin itself. Part of her knew that
she could slip away—a mile down the road, or less—and pick up the power of the
izøne once again, stream what ‘cabin fever’
meant throughout the ages, how it possibly was remedied, why it might have
appealed to her memory in the first place.
She glanced
at Pretty, perfectly ovalled upon her blanket. “You don’t need to go out for a
pee, do you?”
Pretty
flinched and tucked further in.
That would
be caution enough, in a sanctuary or otherwise. Kay stoked the stove to heat up
the kettle, as if a cup of tea would quell the urge to go outside, maybe just
to where the shuttle was parked, maybe as far as Winton. She’d have keys to
neither, but she’d have a little rendezvous with izøne, the allusions and rabbit holes she so loved. “You won’t come
with me?” she gave Pretty another chance at fealty. Truth told, the dog was
already asleep and headed for rabbit dreams of her own.
Starlight,
more than the cuticle of moon, guided Kay’s steps out toward the entrance of
the sanctuary. She passed the shuttle, tapped it like a circus elephant, then
moved on toward the road her family had walked on from Winton, like nomads. Funny word, she thought, ‘nomad’, to which she started to receive
the faint derivation in ancient French, those unfixed inhabitants of
all-of-earth, if nowhere in particular.
Strides
were spirited, a little scared—especially in the recall of that manic old man with
whom her mom negotiated in Winton. What
did he want? she thought, and why was
he so angry about a sheeplike—sheepish?—family like ours?... Of course the
izøne had no response to this, not even to the
conventional way in this instance to anthropomorphize sheep. But no matter! She
and the izøne were once again on speaking terms,
silent as friends sometimes have to be. Kay walked faster in this reunion.
And, as if
the clicks of her shoes gave all away, the old man from Winton indeed emerged
from the blackened border of the ghost town. He held something in his spread-out hands, waist level, and snorted Kay to stop. She did, and without thinking,
streamed the patrol hotline and mentally dialed it up.
“Where ye
goin’?” the old man demanded, sloping his rifle like a math problem, 2x – y =
Kay didn’t
answer—didn’t know—and backed away as she had once learned about how to leave a
mountain lion. “Don’t.. shoot,” she uttered, trying not to panic. She could
sense a faint message from Hotline but couldn’t concentrate on anything
other than placing her feet behind and behind, looking straight into the old
man’s glare. She had no inkling of what was behind her—the sanctuary, vaguely,
but not the mossy cracks in the road. Or Gordon. He brushed by her at his
normal gait, unconcerned that the rifle was moving into the z axis. He said nothing to the snorts of
the old man, who started to copy Kay’s tactic of cautious backpedaling. Gordon
paced steadily to the exact spot the old man had been, then turned around to
pace the same way back to Kay.
“Alright
now.” He waited for Kay to turn his direction, implying he’d still be a shield
against the unlikely bullet. They walked two yards apart, wordlessly, out of
the fading signal of the izøne.
XI.
The next
day was like a page in a picture book. Aamiina was medically cleared to go home—even
to the park, the doctor allowed, “provided you don’t overdo the swinging or
climbing or hanging up-side-down.” She answered with an obedient nod, not
knowing if Dr Brent would understand that she only wanted to go there to catch
little toads.
“Toads, or towin’
a line in this world,” Nurse Geraldine whispered to Nala on their exit, “keep
that girl thinkin’ for herself.”
Pam,
dressed in her patroller uniform, swung by to give them a lift. She hadn’t
arranged it with Nala, who thanked her yet said they were good for a walk.
Aamiina, as if not hearing her mother, climbed into the shuttle and strapped
in. Nala smiled at the familiarity and did the same.
“Interesting,
being in patrol,” she said, looking back to have her daughter hear, too.
“Normally
just nosing around,” Pam responded. “sometimes boring, when alone. Trig keeps
me company, usually.”
“Where’s he
today?”
“Called in
for precinct work. Maybe they assumed I’d be out another day—I was ‘sick’
yesterday,” curling her index fingers for the implication.
Nala
understood. “We’re all better today.”
“Shel?”
Aamiina wanted to know. “Play at park?”
“Yes, I’m
sure she can this afternoon. She stayed with her grandpa at the golf course
last night.”
“Can we go
back there?”
Pam looked
guiltily to Nala, who shrugged her shoulders, your call. “Someday, yes. Glad you’re not scared of the place. You
have a good nature for nature. And that golf ball that hit you,..” Pam
channeled her father’s veiled outrage, then swallowed, “was unnatural. Golf is
for the good.”
“Shel is
good at it. You, too. And Grandpa.”
“Call him
‘Mr Circe’, Aamiina.”
“No, Nala,”
Pam assured, “he’s happy to be Grandpa. Even I call him that!”
Aamiina was
glad to be home, cuddling into her own corner. Her mother had to hustle to
work, but prepared a snack and reminded her as usual when she’d be back to take
her to the park. Meanwhile, Aamiina’s school routine involved an ancient set of
World Book encyclopedias, which she loved, some math puzzles, and art
equipment.
Crayons
out, she drew what she remembered of the golf course. Volume ‘G’ helped her
with some cues, but mostly it was the blend of water, grass, sand and trees
that she tried out from several angles. The flags and golf carts had to be
there, she submitted, but she sketched them lightly, proportionally small. And
peopleless.
Five sheets
done of that, she replaced volume G for her favorite, and most thick. Volume
‘A’ had everything: vast continents, space workers, the entire animal kingdom… She
added a mama sloth to one of her golf course trees, her baby clinging to the
cradle of her tummy. And on another sheet, nestled in the overhang of grass
around a sand pit, she drew an aardvark, spelling out AAMIINA. She didn’t need
to flip to that first page of the encyclopedia, as she had so many times
before, and instead decided to read about astronauts, when landing on the moon
was still an awesome idea.
She explored
these pages without anyone knowing what she was finding, let alone thinking.
Outdated, to be sure. Yet infinite in scope.
Pam patrolled
absentmindedly, mostly around Alexander Park. She considered for a while exploring
the underground mosque; while the doorway wasn’t marked, it was common
knowledge where it led, even as the izøne
disappeared within its angles and depth. Perhaps
in plain clothes, later, she thought, or
with Nala’s permission. After so many decades of religious integration—not
that religion mattered to most—there remained a litmus of sorts about actual
practice within a heterogeneous community. The law let folks figure out their
own codes and protocols, provided everyone felt safe and relatively free.
No one
entered or left the mosque this sleepy mid-morning, so Pam decided to move on,
eventually toward the precinct. She hesitated outside: yet another institution, if not ‘religious’. Gathering her reasons
to stop by, she pulled the door toward her and went in.
It was too
early in the day for any kind of buzz. Patrollers were out, Processors were
ensuring court dates had their proper supply of suspects, witnesses, evidence,
advocates, jury load, jail cells—let
alone the donuts and coffee that really
kept the place afloat. No one was in the R&R lounge, so Pam swung down to
the gym, which tended to get good use. To her chagrin, only the chief was
present, swimming (as such) inside a friction-adjusted gyroscope. He grunted a
greeting, then pointed disjointedly to indicate Trig’s whereabouts. Investigation Center, he messaged, not about you. Pam forced a smile,
unsure if Chief was attempting a joke.
The
Investigation Center was a labyrinth of oversized computers, mostly tall and
screenless like Deep Blue, that early A.I. monolith. The screens that were
active monitored the movement of many things, from blips on a need-to-know
basis to clear camera shots of select locations. Some of these could have been
channeled via izøne, of course—‘satellites see
everything’—but these views tended to drill beneath the superficial.
Trig sat in
an alcove scanning data through a headset connected to one of these Deep Blues.
His eyes were closed in apparent concentration, but opened at the slight tap of
Pam’s finger on his shoulder. “Lightspeed! Feeling better, I see.”
Pam grimaced
at the notion that this room would read ironies better than the civilian access
to izøne. “Feeling fine. And you? Glad to be
off the streets today?”
“Yes, those
awfully mean streets of Faribault.” He doffed the headset. “Eons away when I’m
sitting here.”
“You’re not
thinking of a duty transfer, I hope.”
“Only if
you are.”
“I’m not.”
She wanted to message I’d die in this
environment but repressed the thought, in fear of being overhead.
“Of course
not,” Trig smiled. “You’d die in this environment.”
Shaking her
head, Pam seemed to convulse. Trig stood up and offered her a hug, which she
took. “Not so fragile,” she whispered. “Just a tad claustrophobic.”
They nudged
out of the room and up the stairs to a rooftop garden. Years ago, when they had
first met—Shel was a baby, Pam a surprise single mom—they spent extended lunch
hours on this patio, procrastinating their return to the rather uneventful
streets of Faribault. Trig tried to convince her to seek part-time, or even a
full maternity leave. But Mrs Schuster gladly took care of Shel during the day,
and Pam adopted a don’t fix what isn’t
broke mindset. More than that, she liked lolling the days away with Trig.
“There, now”—a sweep of his arm to the horizon: “the wide-open world.”
“What were
you investigating down there?” looking instead just at him.
“What?
Maybe whom?”
“Okay.
Whom?”
“Don’ know.
Chief grabbed me to dish off what he would have to do: a request from Hotline
to run a disappeared signal.”
“When?
Where?”
“Last
night, 9:04. Boundary Waters.”
“Boundary
Waters? Big area, but why would this involve Chief?”
“Not Chief,
really, but a need to survey the southern side of the state.”
“Chief is
in charge of that much?”
“No, but Faribault
is sleepy; he has time on his hands.”
Pam
imagined him gripping the handles of the gyroscope, but made sure not to
message that notion to Trig. As long as they were physically talking, their
expression was under the radar, so to speak. “So you’re looking into this
signal, disappeared. Is it… major?”
“You tell
me. Hotline streamed, then nothing. Almost always we’d be able to identify the
streamer. In this case, no.”
“Streamer
disappeared?”
Trig
shrugged. He cast his gaze north-northeast and held it there awhile. In his
mind he conjured up the map of what he’d learned downstairs: an abandoned
village called Winton on the west edge of Fall Lake. It would be ideal there
this time of year, just this side of autumn leaves and well before the snow. He
knew the Boundary Waters as a kid, but not since; his father liked to take him
fishing there, but died too soon to make the routine stick. “What would you
say, ’Speed, about a fishing trip? Couple days off in God’s country?”
“You don’t
believe in God! And what kind of fishing?”
“I don’t
know if I don’t. And…regular: fishing is fishing.”
“Investigating?
Is Chief asking?”
“Chief
isn’t interested in asking, but he’d like to get credit for responding to
Hotline’s request. The fact that it’s not on his own turf makes it easier.”
“For you.
He hates me—wouldn’t grant me leave.”
“If he
hates you, why would he want you around?”
Pam smiled:
good point.
They
abandoned the precinct and shuttled to the golf course. Shel was waiting for
them at the putting green, with her grandfather quasi-coaching. They had had a
morning round and a clubhouse lunch, but now were counting minutes before a
chance to look for toads at Alexander Park, Shel speaking often about this new
hobby.
“I think she’d
enjoy fishing, too,” Trig tested on Pam as they parked the shuttle. “And maybe
even your dad.”
That
surprised Pam. “Investigation first, right?” She secured Trig’s nod in the
affirmative. “Then a rendezvous, you and me, right?”
Trig
blushed and touched her thigh. “As nature allows.”
“Nice. So
why pile in the whole family thing?”
Shel ran up
to hug her mom and hop into the shuttle, just like Aamiina had done six hours
earlier. She greeted Trig by his first name and smushed her face to the window
to kiss Grandpa Jim goodbye.
“That’s
basically why,” Trig decided, and Pam could absolutely not disagree.
She
messaged Nala that they’d be heading to Alexander Park, if Aamiina might like
to be a part of that plan. Before Nala could reply, Pam turned to Trig: “how
big is this fishing trip, anyway?”
The shuttle
had seats for six, if never imagined to need them. Or to exit the patterns of
Faribault’s inconsequential streets. “I don’t know, Lightspeed. Kinda
spitballing things these days.”
XII.
Kay was
trying to remember, walking now within the sanctuary, why Gordon had been
called ‘the golem’ by her dad. The reference was unfamiliar, begging to be
streamed, if somehow refreshing in its mystery. Oh, well, she thought, this galoot
got me out of a jam, if that’s what ‘golem’ means. Gordon, as if listening
in, sighed some satisfaction for the night’s unfolding.
“Safe,
here,” he mumbled. “Not so much out there.”
Kay turned
around and slowed her gait. “One crazy doesn’t represent the territory, I’m
sure.”
“To him,
we’re crazy.”
“Sanctuary
people?”
Gordon
grunted at that. He didn’t seem to share Jack’s lexicon of ‘sanctuary’ or
‘having-runners’, a consciousness about an outer world. These woods, the lake,
the islands therein, made a universe enough and not a mere respite for flighty
refugees. “What did Loon say to Leech?”
Kay stopped
at the question. “Huh?”
Gordon
waited for her to shrug, then monotoned, “Glad to eat you.”
“Is that a
joke?”
Evidently,
it tried to be. Gordon dropped his eyes and walked ahead. Kay watched him
trudge past her cabin, but didn’t want him to leave on that note.
“I vant to
suck your blood,” she called out, self-consciously. “You know, like a leech
would.”
Gordon
pondered. “Loon says?”
“Sure.” And
she waited for him to smile before he disappeared.
It was
another hour before her parents and siblings came back from the chapel. Kay had
pulled a musty book from one of the shelves and labored to read—her eyes racing
ahead and behind all these familiar words in strange rows. The izøne didn’t require old-fashioned literacy, inked strokes and serifs
against a white page; because Kay loved learning, she had trained herself in
the digital archives available to her. Yet smoothing her fingers across bulk
paper and brushing the frayed edges was rarefied experience.
Avis hooked
her jacket on a peg and asked softly, “What’s that?”
Kay turned
to the cover, to be sure: “White Fang.
Bedtime story for Pretty.”
“Seemed to
work. Sound asleep.”
Tim yawned
a jab, “good watchdog, Pretty.”
“Shhh. Let
her be.”
Mia
practically tripped into bed, too tired to change into pajamas. Seb quietly
convinced her to do so, then tucked her in. Tim fumbled around the tin sink,
brushed his teeth and climbed into his bunk. Seb followed in kind and kissed
Avis good night.
“I’m there
soon,” she said, then turned to Kay. “You weren’t bored here?”
How to say? “I wasn’t. Took a walk.”
“Hmm.
Explains why Pretty’s tuckered out.”
Kay almost
never lied, especially to her mother. “What do you think of Gordon?”
“You saw
him on your walk?”
“Yeah.”
“He saw
you, too?”
“Yeah.”
Avis
pressed her lower lip up. “What do you think of him?”
“Funny,
kind of.” Kay wanted so badly to search the izøne for
better adjectives. “Lonesome, I imagine.”
“This place
has community, we saw well enough tonight. Gordon’s a part of that.”
“He wasn’t
at chapel, though.”
“Neither
were you. And that’s alright. Though next time I think you’d like to join.”
They
remained silent for a while, Avis bending to pet Pretty and Kay pretending to
read. The candle between them was near to sputtering out, a waxen way of ending
a wondrous day.
Jack woke
them early for a planned excursion to the east end of Fall Lake and Mile
Island, where bluegill were abundant in its protected shallows. They’d take
three canoes and learn how to portage beside Newton Falls and into the deeper
domain of Newton Lake, where muskellunge would test their patience, then fight to
the tipping point of rod and resolution—Mia’s sinking hopelessly when she lost
her grip. She sobbed despite an onslaught of encouragement, even from Tim,
whose munificence was somewhat due to his own success at catching a six-pound
walleye: less boisterous on the line, but more delicious in the future frying
pan. Mia wiped her tears and nodded, knowing all the fish in their hold were
meant to constitute their diet. “What about down there?” she posed, pointing to
the place her rod had disappeared.
“Down
there?” Jack echoed from the front of their canoe. “That muskie smiles for
having beaten us, as should be the case every now and then.”
“Hooked to
rod all her life?”
The
question hovered over the surface of Newton Lake, each canoe paddling liably
away. It was evident—mid-morning turning noon, a break on the northern shore to
eat elderberries and deer jerky—that questions here had no real need for
answers, as long as nature held pure patterns. Human nature, notwithstanding.
Avis,
making sure the tamarack tea came to a boil and everyone partook, turned to Kay
to see if she would rather shift to the front of their canoe; “you look tired,
and steering takes a lot of—”
“Mom, I’m
not a little girl.”
Pretty,
also in their fleet, perked up to see if she might have a duty change. They
were almost five miles from their launch point, a distance Jack was secretly
concerned about, for fear the izøne might
seep through and ruin the rustic luxury. Part of his design to take the Carters
here was to delineate the sanctuary—the very span of how far this non-izøne could go.
Seb was
cognizant of this very fact, steering him and Tim to navigate toward Newton
Falls and homeward. “Y’know, our yield is plentiful today to sustain the whole
week, ’specially those easy bluegill there at Mile Island.”
“Agreed,”
cooed Jack, “those are all the fish we really need, though Tim’s walleye there
is—”
“Bald
eagle!” he interrupted, rocking the canoe. “Two!”
The
paddlers stopped to watch the majestic gliders scan the world and claim another
treetop for their realm. How’d they
discern the izøne, Kay wondered, flying
in and out of it just now? She considered asking that idea aloud, for
general conversation, but then another bird caught her backward glance, and
compelled her to utter, “loon”—more subdued than Tim’s find—and “just one.”
The journey
back to the beach, then, was a rather silent search for other creatures of
their sanctuary, from dragonflies to leaping fish to muskrats floating near the
shore. Mia’s thoughts went to wolverines or whatever tasted Pretty’s blood.
Kay’s circled back to Gordon, the golem.
He was
faithfully waiting for the canoes to come in, the fish to clean pro bono. He also had a message to
deliver Jack: “visitors”, thumbing toward the boathouse.
Seb
followed Jack there, as Avis bid the kids wash up and get the cabin ready for
the evening. Not that anyone expected visitors. Let alone patrollers.
“’Llo,”
Trig greeted from the customer-side of the store. Pam was closer to desk,
talking to the grandma who was, as usual, all smiles and starts of anecdotes.
Jack made a millisecond note that the door to
the chapel was obscured, then echoed the hello. “Trouble in the region?”
“Hope not,”
Trig stepped forward. “We look for the lack of trouble, usually.”
“You found
it,” Jack assured, turning to Seb for an affirmation, “right?”
Seb nodded.
“Most beautiful day in memory.”
Pam
sauntered over, “memory must be interesting without the aid of izøne. You’ve been here long?”
“Me?” Seb
suddenly felt fumbly. “I…I’ve thought a long time about this place… Maybe a
year ago, when—”
“We filed
for our license around then,” jumped in Jack, “and advertised a bit. Haven’t
had to recently, as we’re full to the gills.”
Trig tried
to stream that idiom, but of course came up empty. “You’ve had steady clients?”
he guessed.
The grandma
chimed in, from behind: “we’ve had the best. We don’t ever call them ‘clients’,
though.”
“What do
you call ’em?”
“Having-runners.”
Jack drew into his comfort zone. “History having run these kinds of things
before, we provide a settling force. A place to simply be, naturally. We’re not
at war with izøne, mind you; just more at peace with its
absence. I can provide you our charter permit, if you’d like…”
Trig stared
in some disbelief. “You mean physical documentation? It’s been years since—”
“That, or
even our reference code, if you’d like to jot it down and summon up our bona
fides down the road.”
“Okay—I
mean, we’re not here to investigate you,
but any data would help, especially if izøne cannot.”
“You see,”
Pam let in, “we’re following up on a Hotline signal near here that
disappeared.” She glanced at Trig, who gestured go on, iron is hot. “Whether that signal had somehow been
swallowed, or reversed, or…”
“Irrelevant,”
the grandma suggested, “as nobody here could have streamed such a thing.”
“That’s what
we’re gathering. Even this moment, we can’t stream anything—not even a record
of what we are saying.”
“Exactly,”
said Jack. “That’s the purity of this place and this vision. We’re here to help
run our—how did you phrase it, Seb?”
“Memory. On
this most beautiful day.” He grabbed a bottle of wine from a shelf and trophied
it for the grandma to register. “Add to our bill, please, and if you would like
to join us,” turning to Pam and then Trig, “my family is going to have dinner
soon and would love to have company.”
The
patrollers had come up alone for the evening, deciding with little debate that
Shel or Aamiina or anyone else would not fit into the need to actually
investigate things, if that was only a pretext for Pam and Trig to have a romp
for themselves. They had reserved a room at the Burntside Hotel in nearby Ely,
charging it to the Faribault precinct, and their mission had little else to
fulfill than doing just this: looking for
the lack of trouble, as one or the other might have recalled. “Sure,” they
both responded, in uncanny unison.
Fragrant
rhubarb pie was heating up when Seb and the visitors came in, unannounced but
clearly welcome. Kay was making a salad and had plenty of extra cucumbers and
tomatoes to toss in. Tim had mashed the elderberries they had picked into a
concentrate, stirred now into a glow of pitchers refracting lantern light.
Gordon was nearly finished with the filets, handing each to Avis to marinate.
As those sizzled over birch bark heat, Seb poured wine for everyone, diluted
much for Mia and a bit for Tim. Vocal memories of the day found their flow,
from loon and eagles to gentle blurs of landscape, seen from shuttle and canoe.
“Your dog,”
Pam knelt down to pet, projecting this warm feeling over to Mia, “is really
pretty.”
“Yes. Her
name.”
“Even if she’s
feeling kind of blue right now,” Kay offered, “recovering from some wild
attacker.”
Pam thought
of that and kept on stroking Pretty’s fur. “I have a daughter about your age,”
she decided to tell Mia. “I think she’d like it here.”
“Is she
streamed?” Mia asked, and Gordon at the stove craned subtly to listen.
Pam bobbed
her head in some surprise, then answered, “Yes. But she has a new friend who
isn’t, and…”
Trig came
over to clink his glass to this ambient departure from everything they had
known under the izøne. He and Pam
spoke at liberty with the Carters, less to probe any sense of Hotzone signals
gone awry—they never broached the topic—and more to entertain their mindsets.
And be entertained, as boathouse wine drained early and shuttle stock supplied
their dinner talk and tips and tipsiness into the pinpoints of the stars.
Burntside Hotel might have cancelled them as no-shows, they giddily allowed,
but Seb assured this cabin door would remain unlocked should they need a corner
in which to crash—awful idiom extending ‘safe space’, as this sanctuary
continued to affirm.
Kay walked
them out, knowing the porch steps would be perilous in the dark. “Good night,”
she bid the patrollers, enviously arm-in-arm anticipating Burntside.
“Might
swing by tomorrow,” Trig mused, “before civilization requires a return.”
“Greet the
izøne for me,” Kay straight-lined.
Pam
shrugged. “Maybe. Forgive if I forget.” Their steps and giggles faded into
silence before Kay slunk into the cabin.
XIII.
Burntside
Lake had the look of most of these Boundary Waters, glacial furrows slanting toward
the northeast, beads of sweat thrown off the muzzle of the wolf that is Lake
Superior. Waking up at the Burntside Hotel, embraced by izøne familiarity of weather forecasts, headline news, messages and
such, Pam ignored these for a chance to plunge into the water, Finnish sauna
style. She didn’t have to whisper to Trig, “I’m going for a swim,” as she could
set the message for the instant he’d wake up, but in the spirit of last night,
she poured her words gently into his ear.
“Mmhm—mokay,”
he half knew what she said, then turned to sleep some more.
The absence
of a bathing suit posed a slight problem—many hotels would stock them, yet
Burntside wasn’t known for being a spa. Deeper into the Boundary Waters, beyond
towns or hotels, canoers tended to skinny dip. Pam wouldn’t do so if anyone
would identify her as a patroller, so she left the uniform in the room and
tiptoed to the beach in towel and underwear, shedding them as dawn was firing
up the waves.
“Oooh, c-c-cold,” she chattered, sliding
in and jiggling her arms. In no time, though, the lake enveloped her like a
velvet gown. She ducked her head below the surface and swam as far as she could
go, dodging underwater boulders and questions whether doing this on her own was
wise. She surfaced a full forty yards from shore, exulting in endurance. “I’m
an otter,” she uttered to no one’s hearing, then tapped into that Seamus Heaney
poem, imagining Trig’s voice in lines like
I loved your wet head and smashing crawl,
Your fine swimmer’s back and shoulders
Surfacing and surfacing again
This year and every year since.
Enacting some of that, she tumbled about the waterline and
came up breathing deep the joy of being here. On her back, rolling like a
floating log, then treading water to reflect on others whom she loved.
She pictured
Shel, probably still asleep in Aamiina’s room, as Nala endorsed the slumber
party plan. Lucky girl, Pam thought, having many homes to lay her head, from
Grandpa’s at the golf course to Mrs Schuster next door, and now Nala’s… Her
brain begged her to stream a message to one or all of these people, to thank or
check up or arrange or beacon an availability for their own such messages. Then
again, her father and Mrs Schuster were unstreamed and so could not be
contacted like this. Nala could, but Aamiina couldn’t. Shel could, but in these
circumstances, what for? And at that cabin yesterday, none of these lures to
tap into the izøne mattered. That primal atmosphere imbued
a strange comfort of other channels, less to ascertain than to wonder.
After these
cogitations, Pam tried to blink away a welling in her eyes, blurring her view
of the Burntside Hotel in the near distance. She ducked under the surface and rubbed
her face of all worry—really no worry at all. The day would retain this
cleansing of her soul.
Swimming
back to shore, she noticed Trig loping like a polar bear, bathrobe white until
he shed that for his leaner look as a fellow otter. He ran and dived to Pam as
eager to temper the water’s chill as to tap into her warmth. Their embrace,
when currents swirled them together, lasted long into the disappearance of
their memory of what they’d planned to do this morning, tracking sanctuary
movements or lack thereof.
They
decided to nose around Winton, abandoned as it seemed to be. Only one life-form
emerged in their patrolling: an old man who drew his curtains coyly, more as a
flag to attract attention, Pam decided, than to shut out intruders. Wouldn’t it be something, she messaged
Trig, in the fading reception on this edge of izøne, if we were regarded as some invading force!
She didn’t gather Trig’s response, but he nodded an ‘I got this’ in his modest brand of charm.
He knocked
on the door—six sequences in two minutes—while Pam pretended to surveil
something else. When it finally opened, Trig cast a small glance backward as
the old man tugged him inside, closing the door to cut out the world. Pam knew
she could message Trig, if communication could be crackly; years of training
informed her how to cover a fellow patroller in any situation. Still, she
wasn’t sure what to do.
Ten minutes
passed, Pam refraining from sending a message for fear that Chief or anyone
else on their channel might intercept, react, blow this romantic double-dip to
bits. No noises came from the domicile, consistent with all the others in this
ghost town. Pam bit her lip and considered praying, something her long-dead
mother had done daily, but unpracticed after feeble attempts by others at her
funeral. Abandoning that memory quickly, she thought about Faribault’s
underground mosque and Nala’s experience—or what she conjured it to be—and realized
she was even less equipped for dabbling in prayer. Institutions versus individual need, she seemed to message to
herself, a diary of sorts for these unusual days.
Trig came
out in typical sangfroid. He glanced back at the gradually closing door, saying
something along the lines of ‘thanks’. The old man inside evidently wanted no
such salvo, as the short slam threw Trig for a loop. He sought Pam’s eyes to
message in his own way, that was weird,
but okay. Pam curved her mouth at the fact that he was out, more interested
in his body language than the debrief that would necessarily follow.
“You know,
we could go back to the sanctuary,” she proposed.
“And do
what?”
Good
question. “Reminisce? Last sixteen hours or so?”
“Could do
that anywhere. I’d be up for a return there, but not as a patroller.”
“Would they
let us in, otherwise?”
“Why not?”
“You heard
the manager say they were, what, ‘full to the gills’…”
Jack
shrugged. “They seemed visitor-friendly.”
“Like this
old paranoiac?” Pam thumbed the house they were walking from.
“Wasn’t so
bad, really. Just… incoherent. And yes, paranoid: anti-everything. He hates the
izøne, hates the sanctuary from it.”
“Hates his
place in the middle?”
“Hmm. Didn’t
ask him. Should’ve.”
“Odd to
consider ‘hate’ so universally—it still must have local footholds.”
“He didn’t come
off like somebody who envisioned spending his days alone, let alone in hatred.
He offered me tea, but complained it would take an half hour to reach a boil,
the gas line cut off by… well, it wouldn’t matter, anyway. I mean, what
services might supply a ghost town?”
“Did you
ask him that?”
“Yeah. He
wasn’t in agreement that Winton was… dead. He said, rather, the sanctuary was
killing the area.”
“How?”
“How?”
Trig looked
around to see how the final houses before the forest might weigh in, then
hunched closer to Pam. “Sacrifice. The izøne demanded
it, he was sure. The only way to create a removal of something was to saturate
its momentum.”
“He said
that?”
Trig bobbed his head. “Well, not exactly. He implied as much. He ranted that the sanctuary has sapped this village into oblivion. Like somehow there was a push-pull…”
Trig bobbed his head. “Well, not exactly. He implied as much. He ranted that the sanctuary has sapped this village into oblivion. Like somehow there was a push-pull…”
“Or a
pull-push? Winton folks pulled in, pushing izøne further
out?”
“He didn’t say it that way. I frankly gave up on what he was trying to say.”
“He didn’t say it that way. I frankly gave up on what he was trying to say.”
They
reached their shuttle and Pam took the helm, directing it mentally which way to
go. “You know, we have plenty of time to probe further…”
Trig knew
that. “You didn’t even ask me if that old man had any knowledge of the Hotline
call.”
“I assume
he’s not streamed—”
“He
certainly is not streamed. And he recoiled at my suggestion that we were here
to investigate a streamed call on Hotline.”
“Does that
mean…”
“—that he’s
a factor in that puzzle? I could ask the crickets and birds and bears that very question. Any being that
moves, and has motives—not to put another being in danger, per se, but—”
“You’re confusing me. Is he dangerous? Is he
some sort of… sacrifice voyeur?”
“No. He
doesn’t know what he’s talking about. That was crystal clear.”
Pam
navigated the shuttle southward, not so sure. “He pulled you in,” she said
after some minutes. “Like… he had some… pull.”
Trig
laughed. “Old guy? in a musty man-cave? Wouldn’t pull in pussy willows.”
Pam didn’t
laugh, or understand that reference, or want to stream it.
“He’s a
remnant of all things past,” Trig tried. “He could have had me for an hour—you,
too—and nothing more would come of it. Izøne this and
izøne that, like somehow I’d have no
reference point. Like conversing with a dog…”
“The dog
last night?”
“What do
you mean?”
“Did you
notice her?”
Trig looked
ahead. “Of course.” He tried to shape a compelling thought about the border
collie that had done her job greeting everyone and making sure the proverbial
sheep were all in their fold. “Pretty,” he recalled her name, “would probably
win promotion over me, all things equal.”
Pam drove
on on that thought, even though she wasn’t technically driving the shuttle in
its track, magnetic Highway 35, south. She cast her mind on what lay ahead,
thinly so as not to get caught up in the channels Chief or even Trig could
decipher. Filtering the izøne was a duly
acquired skill, and if done well, arguably anyone could craft a sanctuary for
herself. Shel could—she’s been working on
these filters. Aamiina wouldn’t have to—she’s her own inherent sanctuary. Pam
would want these girls to see this place, plunge into its woods and waters.
That girl in the cabin, Mia, could show them the ropes—she’d love more kid-company, naturally. Burntside Lake and the town
of Ely could be their tether to the familiar world—no ghosts or misanthropes
there, as in Winton. Gosh, he was creepy. I wondered for a second last night about
that big guy in the cabin, frying up the fish…Gordon, I think they called him.
But he, at least, seemed lovely in his awkward way, unlike—
“Thinking
about the girls?” Trig broke into her brow.
“Um… yeah.”
Pam swallowed her surprise and reached to hold his hand, a little more secure
about his impending fatherhood.
XIV.
The old man
inside his Winton house admitted he was coy—had been all his life—like a
walleye, hard to hook. Strangers usually
out for something, he thought, and me
too: protectin’ the little lot I got. He peeked through moth holes in his
drapes to make sure those patrollers were gone for good. Not that he had
anything himself to hide.
Tamarack
tea was finally at a boil, twenty minutes after it could be shared. He wished
he had more to tell his unexpected guest, or more accurate ways of telling—sanctuary
from izøne, inventions to block inventions,
chicken-and-egg sort of stuff. Unnatural designs on nature. Sacrifice unsanctified.
Overdid that, probably, the old man almost
said.
He had no
one meaningful to talk to since Martha slipped away. She’d been Winton Walleye
Queen when both of them had attended high school, Ely class of ’29. Town was
flourishing then. Kawishiwi Dam was doing its part, hydroelectric output well
within the folds of economy and ecology, a pristine balance of ‘be and let be’.
If five local workers ran that, ten others supplied service jobs, then twenty
more for the spike in investment—ripples not-for-nothing in northern Minnesota.
Years on end woke to that vision: townsfolk brewing coffee in a matter of
seconds, whether by natural gas, in steady supply, or Kawishiwi electricity,
before the dam collapsed.
Population
shifted, then, to where the jobs would benefit in a brand new izøne world. His job, as a deputy game warden checking licenses of
anglers and hunters, didn’t depend on that—when those permits were on paper, at
least. The system changed some fifteen years ago, just around the time he
wanted to retire, so he never had to answer to the izøne. It was harder for Martha, working at the post office. When she
couldn’t do the functions that required being streamed, she transferred to Ely
and its bigger population, where she could disappear into the storage room and
sift through boxes for delivery and bring one out to some excited granny, most
likely also unstreamed. This lasted ’til it couldn’t last.
Martha
disappeared a year ago. She’d been izøned not
long before—she talked about it at the dying local bar to those who’d weigh in
one way or the other. The Ely clinic streamed her, Winton would receive their
postal veteran back, and lives could twilight into tendencies of pillow talk. The
old man hadn’t run interference with this plan, but knew Martha would necessarily
change. Everybody else in Winton had, whether newly streamed or in reaction to
those streamed.
He sipped
his tamarack tea alone. Every freakin’
one of them, he didn’t dare to toast. He ventured, however, to take a scrapbook
from his shelf and flip, as if randomly, to the Valentine’s Dance of 2028, and
Martha’s awkward email, printed out and cut into the heart he’d make of it:
‘Oscar, sweep me off my feet—you’d be unique and…’ just a curvy question mark
with two dots smiling to complete. Of course he would—if you just don’t disappear, in freezin’ February way back then, or fifty years later, last summer. He wracked his brain where she might
have gone, following some newfangled lure to city life, or into the lake with
stones inside her pockets, crazed for what the izøne made of her. Why can’t a
Walleye Queen just be…
By the time
the sanctuary launched its secretive operation, the town had claim to only
Oscar, Martha, and a smattering of neighbors, several of whom had also
disappeared by households or fragments thereof. Martha seemed the middle of
some pack (or pact: everything was increasingly hard to read). She had clung to
Oscar’s armchair as they watched the re-runs of a fading TV industry, even
though they both acknowledged tacitly her mind was elsewhere. Oscar kissed her
fingers and tried to cling to all the years they had, knowing he could never
stream that in the sudden way she sorted knowledge. And now she was nowhere to
be seen.
His mind
went back to Valentine’s, their first kiss and the magic of friendship turning
into love. They had never not known each other, single children of small houses
literally a stone’s throw away. Their parents traded babysitting stints, and by
three-years-old, the toddlers could clearly watch each other. They swam without
a lifeguard at age five, built a tree fort (with a bit of help) by the time
they were nine. A few others kids in the town vied for their attention, and
Ely’s middle school pulled them apart, day-to-day. It was Martha’s driving
license that drew them closer again, as she inherited her family’s old Toyota
and pooled with Oscar their junior year of high school. Summer divided them for
jobs in Ely (Martha now a Dairy Queen) and east Winton (Oscar at a campground
where, a half-century later, the sanctuary would sit and stretch beyond those
bounds). They saw little of each other until autumn, and even then Oscar
skipped a bunch of school days for his free-lance work with hunters, sprucing
up their deer stands, duck blinds, sundry other tasks.
Fall Lake typically
froze over by Thanksgiving, and Oscar and Martha decided to ditch their
families and skate the black ice out to Lovers Island. He had been on-and-off
the hockey team in Ely and she had trained as a figure skater for a while, so
both were fluid on their feet. They needed no music to create a
choreography—indeed, they didn’t plan a thing at all. The ice and all the fish
below it blessed their curves and energy, parallel and happily pell-mell. The
island itself was less a respite for their need to rest than a fillip for their
less-than-tested libido, like the name implied. Making love with skates on,
scarfs and gloves, was something well beyond a scrapbook memory, and nothing
any izøne could extend, even in those days when izøne wasn’t happening, and no one could portend its
advent into modern bread-and-butter appetite.
On that
island, then, and countless times thereafter—season after season—Martha and
Oscar pumped in earnest for a child they could conceive and raise. They didn’t
need another thing to love—their own, in that regard, was pure enough; yet as
love contains no out-of-bounds, they wished for each other, and themselves, a
little kid to ladle and lavish and… love. If that kid never happened, as the
case would be, they vowed that they would never turn their fate into envy, even
though the proof would happen with the proving, and how could anyone substantiate
the verity of vows?
Oscar
finished his tea and opened his garage door to pull out a canoe. He hoisted it
onto his shoulders, the middle crossbar equipped with cushioned blocks to
balance it this way. He walked the lonely road that dead-ended into the boat
launch to Fall Lake. The dock there was in disrepair, but still skeletal enough
for Oscar to tip-toe on its slats and grab hold of a stanchion and bend into
the floating husk of fiberglass. Usually he would have put a ten-pound stone in
the bow to keep it from acting as an unwanted sail, but today there was no wind
to disturb the lake, conjuring again the slate black ice. He paddled out in
that sense of recovery—memories, and more.
In front of
him, far too familiar in their sixteen months of ugliness, rose the
hydra-headed chimneys from his beloved island. No smoke seemed to waft, but
certainly the furnaces were aflame, somewhere on and underneath the rocky
mound. Oscar had figured out through distant observation that the heat source
must be natural gas, siphoned off from some supplier or—since Winton lost such
services—found through fracking that wasn’t legal this side of the state. The
heat source was a minor mystery; why and what it needed to heat up was the
greater secret. It had to be something to do with the occasional visits of that
large man from the sanctuary, rowing to the north side of the island, clicking
off the virtual electric fence around the shore and climbing out with a heavy
box in his mitts. All this Oscar could see with binoculars, from his walks in
the woods north of Fall Lake, usually at sunset. The ogre would unlock the door
of the powerplant and close himself in for a half hour, then reverse his route
with an evidently lighter box, clicking the electrical shield active again,
and rowing back south in the dark.
Some of
those half hours tempted Oscar mightily to raid the operation. Whatever was in
those boxloads was fueling the sanctuary’s fight against the izøne, and while Oscar could empathize with a fear of this ubiquitous
technology, the way the sanctuary skulked around—his few encounters with those
who worked the camp—made the ‘enemy of my enemy’… not a friend. He had a
sinking suspicion, moreover, that parts of Martha, perhaps, were packaged for
the furnace. Aztecs did so systematically. Jephthah did so by personal mistake.
Not that Oscar could investigate these sources, but he sure as hell assumed the
weight of the underhanded world.
He guided
each oar stroke in a smooth but vigorous J to keep the canoe straight. His plan
was to have no plan, really: plow into the island and ram the electric
fence, bursting through or dying on the spot. If the former, he knew he wouldn’t
infiltrate the building itself, locks and logic standing guard. And if the
latter, just as well—our wedding bed will
double as a grave.
Neither
happened: the force field was too strong, spilling Oscar from the canoe and
zapping him at every attempt to wade ashore. He used his oar like a machete
against the invisible barrier, a Quixote he had never read but now embodied,
wailing for a chance to save his damsel, or be rescued by her if she could only
come back from wherever she had gone.
As he
paddled back to Winton, soaked and sapped of energy, the eyes of someone like
Martha, fifty years ago, espied the old man. She was sitting on the north side
of an island closer to the sanctuary, as she had been days before, when the
lake was not so placid. She had come to know that electric fence in her own
ventures, unannounced, toward Lovers Island. Confused and curious, she vowed
that she would find this man again, regardless of his rifle and snarl. They
didn’t fit his heart, she was sure.
And Oscar,
unaware of her, was also sure: a broken heart was still inclined to love.
XV.
While a
patroller’s shuttle on magnetic Highway 35 could go two hundred miles per hour,
Pam set the speed at eighty in deference to the deer and other creatures hazarding
a cross. Sensors could scan the area far and wide, detecting sources of heat,
yet it would be anyone’s guess how such sources might leap. She and Trig didn’t
feel a need to hurry, anyway. To that end, he stretched the length of his
recliner toward the prospect of a snooze.
Pam would
rather talk. “Boo!”
A smile
despite a little jab; “boo who?”
“That old
guy—what was he really talking about?”
“Sacrifice,”
Trig repeated in a yawn. He lifted his arms and wove his fingers to create a
pillow.
“What?...
Whose?”
“Walleyes.”
Trig widened his eyes at Pam, who had to stream a definition. “He said his
villagers were like those fish.”
She shook
away a stock image of Jean Paul Sartre, staring awkwardly to one side and the
other on an archived photograph. Sifting him away for more relevant renditions
of a walleye pike, she tried to focus just on Winton and its unstreamable old
man. “You said he hated both the izøne and that
sanctuary… Equally?”
“Don’t know
to what extent; everything was vague.”
Pam wasn’t
buying that, fully. “‘Sacrifice’ sounds eerily specific.”
Trig knew
as much and had taken pains to consider how much or how little to put on the
record. To some degree, a patroller’s use of izøne was like
any civilian’s: access to public info, notifications and ‘notes to self’,
capacity to message someone in a secure network, tools like Hotline to message
beyond such filters. Those apps were available for anybody streamed. Yet Trig
and Pam had been trained for deeper izøne mining.
They could acquire, for instance,
- history of interventions [Winton rather scant, in that regard] or
- personal data [the old man—Oscar, no last name, age 70 or so—drawing blanks] or
- ripples tangential or germane [his reference to his ‘Walleye Queen’, whatever that could mean] or
Trig wasn’t sure such rabbit-hole searches right now should
elbow into his desire for a nap, or making love to Pam. As vital as patrollers’
work would ever be, Trig felt happily resigned to the low-key life of
Faribault, where casework was ordinary and rarely intrusive. He smiled at the
image of Jean Paul Sartre, inadvertently shared by Pam’s search for ‘walleye’.
Fish couldn’t be some code for 20th century existential angst,
surely, unless…“What comes to mind with ‘Walleye Queen’ and ‘Winton’?”
Pam seemed
to ponder that string of words. “Published data?” She took some time to
concentrate. “Combined phrasing, articles end at the year 2028. A Winton
resident, Martha Paxson, proclaimed Walleye Queen by The Ely Echo. Only internet editions by that time.”
“Echo?”
“Yeah. So?”
“Nothing.”
“Can’t you
summon the same article?”
Trig could,
given the added information of the year. He even managed a snapshot of her in
the Ely High School yearbook, class of ’29. Then an announcement in the Echo a year later of her marriage to
Oscar Jenkins. She became Martha Jenkins, then, and—
“Martha
Jenkins had been streamed a little over a year ago,” Pam jumped into Trig’s
drowsy detective work. “And disappeared from izøne register
almost immediately thereafter.”
“She was
quite attractive, according to—”
“Is this
what the old guy was referring to as ‘sacrifice’? Is this Martha some kind of
fishing analogy—a walleye being caught, or…”
“This old
guy—Oscar—is mushed. I mean, I understand his sorrow for losing his wife, but…”
“Do you
think he killed her?”
“Why?”
“She goes
streamed, he doesn’t. Marriage falls apart.”
Trig pulled
up from his recliner position. “You think maybe she sent the Hotline signal?”
Pam shook
her head—not to disagree with the notion, rather to unclutter streamed thought
from imaginative suggestion. “She’d been off izøne for a
year, then suddenly taps in?”
“If so, she
tapped out again, just as suddenly.”
“Maybe
she’s been at the sanctuary,.. steps out for a bit, runs into Oscar, who tries
to reel her back—”
“—like a
walleye—”
“—and she
hustles back.”
“Wouldn’t her identity still come up with the Hotline call?”
“Wouldn’t her identity still come up with the Hotline call?”
“That’s the
mystery: the signal was too scrambled to point to an individual.”
“Then that
could be anyone on the fringe of that sanctuary—or maybe there’s something
underground, like the Faribault mosque…”
Trig put
his index finger to his lips. They’d spoken enough on this speculation and some
of it might channel into follow-ups, whether they’d be involved or not. He
didn’t want to think about the loveliness of the sanctuary—the Carters’
hospitality, in particular—as something to be skeptical of. Similarly, from
what he had gathered of Nala, he didn’t want to worry about the Faribault
mosque and reasons why its congregation desired no izøne detection. The reasons were legion, Trig guessed; still, the
effort to escape the mainstream world seemed hardly worth it. Minnesota
governance had set ample safeguards to protect privacy in concert with the
public interest. The ‘eyes’ behind the izøne, for
instance, couldn’t care less that Trig wanted to dive back into Burntside Lake
and Pam’s otterlike beauty. Moreover, if he so chose, the izøne could relay Trig’s reverie to Pam without anybody else’s
judgment, as ‘keeping all things human’ was constitutional to the patrollers’
code, as well as common sense. What good
would izøne be, if not to secure what’s good?
As if to
shake him from this contemplation, a deer leaped out near the town of Barnum—the
sensors didn’t raise alarm—and careened against the shuttle’s hull. Mindless
magnetism kept the vehicle upright, now slowing to a stop. Pam and Trig shook
themselves out and jogged back to the point where the animal was dazed and
dragging its rear right leg like a ball and chain. The sprout of antlers revealed
this creature to be a young buck, thrashing against Trig’s attempt to grab hold
and clear the road from further collision. Pam rounded to the other side and
cajoled a hope for some resilience. The buck was up for this, it seemed,
snorting a resolve to get off the highway and back into the woods. Worth a
whoop when the buck limped in, though the patrollers also knew…
… a busted
leg would deem it unethical to let live.
They walked back to the shuttle and waited for a warden from Barnum to hone in
on the deer’s due hiding, its blood betraying a trail for an unrequested
euthanasia. One of countless thousands in the state to die this way, tabulated
or not.
Trig and
Pam wondered—separately, even if they remained in streamed contact—whether
walleyes could be so honed in.
They
arrived in Faribault after sunset. Shel ran into Trig’s arms because Pam had
hugged Aamiina first—arbitrary nature as to how the door had opened on their
presumed second night of slumber partying. Nala assured that such an extension
of the girls’ time together would be perfectly alright; Pam debated that, then
accepted Nala’s invitation for evening tea at least, a chance to debrief to
some degree the uncounted hours, south and north.
“Mama!—Aami’s
teaching me to draw,” Shel exaggerated, pointing to the sheaves of paper on the
floor of golf course fairways never before explored.
Aamiina
blushed at her influence on things. She went for her World Book volume G, with
a weird splay of pages on the history of the game, grips for driving and
putting, angles for each club, how balls are made, why handicaps are a thing.…
She pointed, instead, to the scheme of eighteen holes that aesthetically placed
tee boxes near the greens of the previous holes. Trig, intrigued by all of
this, regarded each page—from World Book to the sketches the girls made—and
asked them questions they couldn’t wait to answer.
Pam studied
everything with quieter reflection. It wasn’t that the world of golf (or books)
bestowed a certain wisdom on the artwork, rather a connectivity one link to the
next. Pam had played this game for twenty-five years—had even enticed Trig to
come out after shifts, occasionally with Shel, usually leaving her with Jim so
she and Trig could golf alone, together in the front-9 or back, serving the
purpose well. Trig would likely go home afterward, and maybe Pam would keep the
training going with Shel, with or without Jim to grandfather the links.
Nala
brought a tray of tea cups, biscuits and apple slices. She offered to heat up
leftovers from dinner, but Pam assured her all was perfect, just as is. They
talked about the twenty hours passed, the beauty of the earth and people to
enjoy it. They laughed about the little toads Aamiina caught at Alexander
Park—harbored in that corner over there for a different kind of slumber party.
A scrimmage for this one with Shel. “And not the last,” they all agreed.
In fact,
predictably, Shel and Aami played themselves to sleep, an hour after Nala did
heat up those leftovers, on the welcome sly. Conversation ranged on journeys
across oceans and land, years ago and now. Nala was interested, of course, in
the sanctuary and volunteered the lure of the underground mosque—at least as
much to find relief from izøne as to worship.
By midnight they had agreed to a weekend escapade
to Burntside Lake, swimmable as long as Indian Summer allowed. They’d reserve
two rooms, maybe three if Jim or someone else would join them. There may be
some patrolling to do—that follow-up to Winton’s Walleye Queen—but visiting the
Carters again, their sanctuary from the izøne, would
be ‘off the clock’, a proverbial walk in the park. Nala was excited for this
plan.
And Pam
pulled Trig home with even more excitement. They hadn’t had a drop of alcohol
but were giddy with the interlacings of love. Shel was treating Trig like a
dad, even as so much of her attention was on Aamiina. Pam was treating him like
the husband she never had, especially when she’d been pregnant and abandoned. Trig
had always been a consummate patroller, abandoning that role when romance was
their option, yet always true in and out of uniform.
He shook
Mrs Schuster’s hand when she reproached the two for coming in to their
apartment block so late—“and where is Shel for a second night running?!”
“Shel’s
safe and sound, Mrs Schuster,” Trig took liberty to say, Pam blushing that she
hadn’t clued in her beloved neighbor on this change of scenery. “Tucked in at
her friend’s sleepover.”
“Just
tucked in? At this hour? She’s only eight years old—”
Pam gave
her a hug. “She’s been asleep for a couple hours. We’ve been talking to her
friend’s mom. Planning a weekend with them—we’ll tell you, next time, when we
go away.”
“Go away?”
Mrs Schuster softened her ire.
“Just a
couple days. To Boundary Waters—maybe you’d like to join us?”
She cocked
her head and seemed to consider. “Nope, I’d be a fifth wheel.”
“We already
have five going. You’d be sixth!”
“I’ll stay
here, hold the fort. Ensure that you come back.”
“Like
tonight?”
“Like
tonight.”
“Sweet
dreams, Mrs Schuster.”
She nodded
an approximation of ‘you, too’ as she hermit-crabbed and closed her door.
Trig leaned
close to Pam as she unlocked her door. “You’re lucky, Lightspeed, to have a neighbor like
her.”
Pam nuzzled
into him the second they were inside. “There’s something more than luck to have
a good soul watching over you.”
“You think izøne complicates that feeling?”
“Do you?”
“Let’s
sleep on it. And dream sweetly of this week.”
XVI.
Seb trudged
into the cabin a bit miffed. He had it in mind to take the shuttle to Ely for
some provisions the sanctuary store didn’t have: a sonar fishfinder for out on
the lake, gourmet dogfood for Pretty, maybe some surprise gifts for Avis and
the kids. His unspoken purpose was to tap into the izøne, check any messages and scan the world’s news. He didn’t want to
come off as a hypocrite, persuading Kay and Tim for months that their teenage
minds would thrive in the freedom from constant streaming, then sneaking off
for some streaming himself.
Looked like
it wasn’t to be. “What goes?” asked Kay, brushing Pretty for her daily check
for ticks.
“Not the
shuttle. Battery’s dead, it seems. Gordon said he’d take a look.”
Kay pressed
a smile. “I guess that’s a sign to stay put.”
“What,”
Avis joined in, “no faith in Gordon?”
“No
comment.”
Seb slumped
into an armchair but didn’t settle in. “Maybe Jack has a shuttle stored
somewhere. He’s gotta, come to think of it—”
“Haven’t
seen one,” Avis shrugged. “What’s your urgency, anyway?”
“None,
really.” Seb stroked his unfamiliar beard. “Just that, you know, we planned to
touch base once a week.”
“Hasn’t
been a week.”
“Who’s
counting?” Tim smirked.
“I like it
here,” Mia piped in. “And Pretty does, too.”
“I didn’t
say I didn’t like it here. ‘Who’s counting’ means I’m not counting the days, mush-head.”
Avis tossed
a dishtowel at him and pointed to the sink. She went over to the armchair. “Why
don’t you go ask Jack. Save a little cabin fever for down-the-road, when winter
hits.”
“Shuttle or
not, I won’t get cabin fever. Promise.”
“Promise?”
Seb hoisted
himself up and nodded something less than promising. Kay let go of the dog, who
evidently needed to go out for a pee.
The trek to
the sanctuary store was 180˚ opposite the direction of the shuttle,
yet Seb had to loop around to give it a second try. Gordon was already there,
managing to open the engine hatch as if it were a hippo he wanted to put his
head into. Seb called out an encouraging ‘hey’, to which Gordon gave an
ambivalent grunt. At least he was on the job, Seb reasoned.
At the
sanctuary store—within the shore-side of the boathouse—Jack was talking
casually to the grandma who never seemed to leave the place. “Heard your
shuttle was dead,” she announced when Seb came in.
Jack turned
with a wry grin. “Gordon doesn’t say much, but he’s not immune to gossip!”
Seb
attempted to laugh, lapsing into cough. The grandma honed in on a bag of
lozenges lying on a shelf and tossed it to him. “On the house—best to kill a
cold early.”
“Don’t…
have a… cold,” Seb choked out, “just… swallowed wr..rong.”
Jack stood
up to bounce his palm on Seb’s upper back. “I’ll stop telling jokes concerning
Gordon. He’s actually no gossip—heart of gold; he’ll fix your shuttle,
eventually.”
Seb shook
an indication of recovery. “Hope so. Thanks—” opening the bag of lozenges and
unwrapping one. “I assume you’ve got a sick-bay here if the need arose.”
“Got a
couple of nurses in residence—well, you met one at chapel the other night…”
“Silver-haired
lady?”
“In fact,
her name’s Sylvia—no joke!”
“Hmm. She
was really nice to show Mia the pump organ.”
“That’s how
we are ’round here. Another chapel tonight, by the way—”
“Well,” Seb
shifted his weight self-consciously. “I was hoping to get into Ely today, back
again before dark—then, yes, chapel would be nice.”
Jack
glistened eyes of some understanding. “Depending on whether Gordon can fix your
shuttle.”
“Yeah,
sorta. Or—was going to ask if you had a spare I could borrow.”
“A spare?
We sold that on Day 1. Supply truck comes round every two weeks, tops off our
stock”—waving his arm to the shelves of packaged food, candles, odds-n-ends, bait
and fishing gear. “Once in a while someone hops in for a ride, but rarely comes
back the happier.”
Seb
eyeballed the grandma, who bobbed confirmation. “Once in a while we don’t let
someone come back—not to get nasty, but the purpose of sanctuary is….” She
rolled her palm out for Seb to complete the thought.
“… Yeah—no,
I don’t mean to compromise that. We’ve contracted for the year, fully
committed… Just… wanted to get more the lay of the land, know where the nearest
clinic is, if needed.”
“Sylvia’s good
for that,” the grandma reiterated.
“For
example. Or—if Gordon can’t fix it—where I can get a mechanic.”
Jack
sighed. “Fact is, everyone living here either got dropped off or sold their shuttles, Day 1. We just don’t
have the extra electricity to keep them charged up.”
“Hmm. Maybe
then I’ll need to find a garage in Ely, harbor it there.”
“Maybe.
And, not to dictate terms too much—you’re here in good faith, contracted and all—outsiders just can’t
stroll in, whether to fix a shuttle or, well… It’s a sanctuary from those who haven’t bought in, who may represent it
wrongly in their izøne return. We’re
not paranoid, mind you, but also not open to misrepresentation.” Jack let that resonate
with Seb, then turned to check a list behind the counter. “Supply truck comes
by in a week—”
“—Ely’s
just, what, three miles’ walk?”
“Closer to
five. But, yeah, once in a while folks here do that. We’d just like to know in
advance—security, and all.”
“Think I’ll
do that then, today.”
“Suit
yourself. Gordon may have worked his magic, though.”
“Never sell
him short,” the grandma beamed.
Back at the
cabin, Seb got ready to go. Avis insisted he have a travelling partner, and
when Tim and Kay argued which of them should be the one, Avis pulled rank. “You
two watch over the afternoon—we’d be back by then, Sebby, yeah?”
“More
likely by nightfall. Long walk.”
“But Mom,”
Tim whined, “I need to—”
“Buy fresh
bread and vegetables? Hygienic products?”
“He needs
to stream his ‘friends’,” Kay sneered.
“Least I
have some. You just got…”
“That’s
enough, Tim.”
“No,
I want him to tell me what I got. Izøne gives
you a sense of friendship. What does it give me?”
“Attitude.”
“You
don’t even know what that means.”
“Do,
too.”
“Tell
me, then.”
Tim
grabbed his fishing pole and a tackle box. He promised Seb, when asked, that
he’d stay on the shore and eventually help prepare dinner. Avis set out a few
things to facilitate that part of the evening, then dressed for the hike into
Ely. She wondered if Pretty should stay here or come with, for her sake or
theirs or the kids’. As if reading her mind, Pretty swirled a couple times to
stake out a nap near the chair where Mia was reading a book. My Antonia, chapter IV. “‘Sometimes I
rode north to the big ... prairie-dog town’,” she began reading aloud.
“Pray-er-ee,”
Kay corrected her pronunciation.
“‘prairie-dog
town to watch the brown earth-owls fly home in the late afternoon and go down
to their nests underground with the dogs.’ You don’t have an underground nest,
Pretty, do you?”
The
border collie was already asleep. Kay slid a chair near her little sister to
read over her shoulder, add a few points of interest. “God, it would be great
to stream some of these references,” she threw to her parents, edging out the
door. But not really. It was becoming kind of fun for Kay to figure things out
for herself.
The
afternoon came and went. Gordon, after closing up the hippo, accepted some boysenberry
juice from Kay, who sat out on the cabin porch writing in a makeshift
journal—something she occasionally did in Minneapolis, if not with the
compulsion she felt here. Gordon admitted, when asked, that he didn’t think he
could fix the shuttle. “Too much tech,” he said, and when Kay reasoned that
Lover’s Island looked quite complex from the outside, he set down his glass and
mumbled, “that’s different. Nothing to fix.” He stared at the floorboards
another half minute, then left without another word.
Dinner
was fried perch (fresh from Tim’s efforts), mashed potatoes and dandelion salad
with walnuts. There were some packaged items from the sanctuary store they
could open, but saving them for another day seemed wise—Avis would praise their
resourcefulness.
And anyway,
they’d get dessert at chapel, as the grandma reminded them in the ochre of the
afternoon. The bell rang a little after sunset, and Kay tacked a note on the
cabin door for her parents to know: At
chapel, with Pretty. She wasn’t sure yet the protocol of animals inside
such a place; she had seen a half dozen cats around the cabins, and fewer dogs.
For one reason or another, though, she hadn’t really engaged with those hither
and yon neighbors. Maybe they were out on the lakes or gathering mushrooms or
reading deep in their dens. All the more reason to gather at chapel and know
who else was evading the izøne.
Pretty was
certainly welcome, even recieving her own slice of raspberry pie, or rather the
juicy dregs of an emptied-out pan. Mia bee-lined to the organ, asking the
silver-haired lady if she could teach her a song. Tim sauntered over to the chess
board, devoid of players, and seeing that the white king was mated, set up the
pieces for a fresh game—even if that meant playing against himself. Yet like the previous evening, that
middle-aged guy with the plaid shirt stepped up and offered to be black. Kay hadn’t
been here before and took in every detail, walking around and feeling the walls
like a spelunker. Jack joined her to explain how it came to be here, a failed
flying saucer that tried to alight on the water and sank. “A plan of your
hatching?” she risked teasing Jack, who laughed at the notion.
“I’m not so
daring, or dumb. I bought this abandoned campground three years ago, sight
unseen, and haven’t heard but a fraction of the folklore around here. Some
visionary wants to build a spaceship, another dreams up a sanctuary. Maybe, in
the end, we’re kindred spirits—launching above the izøne or bunkering below.”
Kay thought
his openness would allow a query about Lover’s Island, maybe even Gordon’s
role, but a gathering near the fireplace whooped up encouragement for the
oldest man in the room to tell a story. He had a beard as full as Dostoevsky’s,
a voice that feigned reticence against this type of attention, lapping it up in
earnest. “Lou! Lou! Lou!” went the chant, and so he complied:
“Oh, now,”
holding out his thick veiny hands as if trying to find an invisible countertop.
“A story you’re askin’ for.” His accent was both quick and slow, thick and crystalline.
“Le’s wander about, say, some fifty years ago—could ya do for that, maybe?
Okay, then. Sorry if bores you young’uns.”
“Lou! Lou!
Lou!” a man in his thirties hammed up, causing some laughter.
Lou took a
seat on the flagstone hearth. “So it’s a North Dakotan kinda day, you
know—waitin’ for nothing in particular, but that’s okay too. Some buffalo come
by—you can call ’em bison, but back
then there was a university there in Fargo that called their students bison, ’magine that. Anyways,
real buffalo been livin’ in the Badlands, out west there where nothing much
grows. Ergo, Badlands. Barely ’nuff
grass for ’em to eat.”
“I once did
shots of buffalo grass vodka,” a fifty-year-old cut in. “Smooth down the
throat, then a little wildfire to the lungs.”
“Maybe Jack
can get us some of that!”
Lou nodded
in agreement, then resumed. “But bad has a way of gettin’ good, somehow. Town of
Dickinson got wildly rich by strikin’ oil—oh, that was more likely eighty years
ago, before my time, but le’s just say there was no lookin’ back, rakin’ in
outlandish sums of money.”
“’Til that
industry folded, right?”
“Oil?
Stubborn son-of-a-bitch hung on for years—pardon my language,” patting the
scruff of Pretty, who’d curled up in the gentle heat before this crowd had assembled.
“Yeah, then, so Dickinson draws many a gold-digger, frackin’ the bejesus out of
the land.”
“Fracking?”
“Still a
thing, beyond oil. It’s like vacuuming in reverse: hoses blast into the cracks
of earth, pushing up to surface what stuff’s been residin’ down there. Throw
out the worms and extra debris, keep whatever else ya want.”
“So the
buffalo,..” Jack prompted.
“So the
buffalo are starvin’ out in these Badlands, where they’d been corralled for
their protection. Can’t hunt ’em, and those who like to eat buffalo meat, well,
could only get it from very regulated farms.”
“Buffalo
wings?”
“No,
no—jerky, mostly. There be some ostrich farms cropping up around NoDak then, so
a little engineering could produce some kinda monster meat. But back to the
story. Buffalo come to the conclusion that the grass is greener up there in
Dickinson, catching the wave, y’know, like folks do. A mass of
’em—thousands—trot shoulder to shoulder, big furry things, a half-mile wide.
Some patrollers, scratchin’ their heads, have the bright idea to put up some
road blocks, don’cha know. As if buffalo stick to the rules of the road! So,
and then some stampedes happen and warning shots fire and that’s all downright
useless. Gotta let them buffalo go.”
“And what
was their destination?”
“Goodlands. In the form of golf courses,
see, by which time Dickinson had aplenty. They wasn’t all about work, those
frackers. Had to spend that money somewhere. So the whole herd rolled into one
course out there in the village of South Heart, kinda took that over, and halfa
herd headed closer to the city and settled around Patterson Lake.”
“Like ours
here?”
“Smaller, when it aint flooded.”
“Smaller, when it aint flooded.”
“What did
the frackers do?”
“Oh, ya
know, mostly stayed away, found other things to pass the time. Some grew plenty
angry that patrollers and such weren’t doin’ their job. Some took the matter in
their own hands, rifles an’ all. More stampedes as a result, less frackers. But
some—”
“I know!”
Mia blurted. “I know what some did.”
Lou was impressed.
“Golly, didn’t know you was payin’ attention.”
“Can I say?
They made friends with the buffaloes and, and—the grass didn’t need any
lawnmowers, because it was all nicely eaten, and—”
Lou smiled
away his other listeners’ inclination to laugh. “Yes, the buffalo did well wi’
that. An’ the golfers learned to do other things than golf. An’ some of them
stopped fracking altogether, realizing the waste they’d been makin’ of the land.”
“They put
up with all the buffalo shit?”
Lou leaned
into that question, not posed by Mia, if she was most eager to know.
“They—those visionaries—positively loved it.”
The kids
stayed for a couple more stories, another game of chess, Jack’s general
hospitality. Kay saw that Mia was nodding off, using Pretty as a pillow, so
gathered her up and got Tim to declare an early stalemate. They were quietly
happy with the day and how this sanctuary was turning out, and eager now to hit
the sack. Kay noticed from fair distance that the note had been torn from
the door, a shred of paper still beneath the tack.
“Hi, Mom,
Dad,” she called upon opening the door. No one answered; apparently, they
hadn’t yet made it home. If Tim and Mia took that for whatever, tuckered out too much to think, Kay and Pretty resolved
to stay awake until the family was complete. And maybe, as the night drew on,
think about the chapel and why they called it that. No one there, unlike now,
showed any disposition to worry, let alone pray. Privately, perhaps, they did.
Kay drew a blanket over her shoulders, let Pretty out to the porch they shared,
and listened for extant evidence of sleeplessness.
XVII.
Aamiina and
Shel woke up nearly at the same moment, whispering this and that about the fort
they’d made out of cushions, chairs, and blankets. Nala let them sleep inside
it, provided they’d actually put some slumber in their party, more so than the
previous night. Aamiina was still on a concussion protocol from that blasted
golfball, and doctor’s orders included getting ample rest. Nala figured the
past couple days, though, could trade some of those winks for the wide-eyed
happiness this new friendship sparked.
Pam came by
as arranged, half past eight. The girls were post-breakfast drowsy and
reluctant to dismantle their fort. Pam and Nala drank coffee and talked to give
them more time to get the chore done. “Maybe, seeing them burrow like that, we
can bring tents this weekend and camp out for real, if you’re still up for what
we spoke about.”
Nala
nodded. “It’d save some money. Though I don’t own a tent.”
“Precinct
would have some; sleeping bags, too. And forget any costs—Trig and I are
treating. We’d still keep the hotel reservation, chance of rain and all. Just
nice to think the girls could experience the world as it’s been, centuries and
millennia before the harness of humanity.”
“Alexander
Park counts a little bit that way, maybe even the golf course…”
Pam
laughed. “The golf course? Sorry—shouldn’t joke about that. It’s gorgeous in
spots, but… well, prone to office rage sometimes.”
“It’ll be
kinder to Aamiina in due time.”
“Shame that
this world’s kindness has a timeline.”
The girls
came over to beg to be part of each other’s day—Shel to join Aamiina at the
hospital, Aamiina to tag along again with Shel and Grandpa Jim, even to stay in
the safety of the golf cart. The moms reminded them of their work schedules and
errands, plus the soon-to-be weekend up north. “Gotta prepare for that,” Pam
said.
“And rest
up,” Nala added, “or else the doctor may say ‘no-go’.”
As they
came into the hospital, however, Nala promised her daughter not to bring up the
weekend plan. “He’s mean,” Aami whispered. “He thinks I’m mushed.”
“You’re not
mushed. Don’t say that.”
Sure
enough, Dr Brent presented himself with a visage of disapprobation. “You’ve
given more thought to streaming, I trust,” he leveled at Nala, making sure
Aamiina took in his seriousness of suggestion.
“No. Just
checking on the concussion.”
Dr Brent
cocked his head at some message he was now receiving, evidently through the izøne. He lifted his index finger to show which room
was available, then briskly walked down the hall to another part of the clinic.
Nurse
Geraldine came in and gave a little hug to each of them. “Doc seen you
already?”
“Just to
point us in here,” Nala said, “and push the streaming serum at us again.”
“Goll damn,
if he don’t have another thought in his head. Listen, you jus’ ignore all
that—the law’s on your side; make sure you don’ sign nothing without knowin’
what it’s for. Paperwork’s all but disappeared here anyhow, but still they got
to document the unstreamed patients ol’ fashion style. You stay ol’ fashion,
Missy, long as you can.”
“I’m Aami,
not ‘Missy’.”
“You Miss
Aamiina, the Beautiful. How you feelin’ now, anyways?”
“Good. Had
a sleepover with Shel.”
“You did? Get some actual sleep, didja? No? So now, let’s see how your vitals are goin’. If you can hop up here, roll up your sleeve…”
“You did? Get some actual sleep, didja? No? So now, let’s see how your vitals are goin’. If you can hop up here, roll up your sleeve…”
Aamiina
complied, and her mother backed into a chair on the opposite side of the room.
She affirmed some of the questions Nurse Geraldine posed, but feeling heavy
eyelids, let the growing-up girl speak for herself.
Allowing
for a dreamy transport. Nala found herself in the precious shade of the Webi
Jubba River basin, back in Somalia. Seven years old and bald—as most girls had
to be, to rid themselves of baby hair and avail themselves to the gradual
grooming for their marriage match. Young Nala and some friends were honoring
the month of Ramadan, more or less: praying took an upper hand to playing, at
least as an expressed ideal. They weren’t supposed to run around, but lolling
about at the river’s grassy banks could pass the scrutiny of village elders.
Energy would be naturally low, eating modestly and in darkness. Certainly nothing
during the day.
The
afternoon adhan sounded as Nala and Jamilah and Fawzia were making mudpies.
They wouldn’t be allowed into the mosque, even with the ritual washing, as
prayer spaces were limited; however, they would be expected to hustle home,
clean their hands and feet, face the distant Qiblah and pray alongside grandma,
mother, anybody female.
“Let’s stay
here,” Jamilah tempted, barely—the other girls gleefully concurred. They
crawled to the swallow eddy and scrubbed with alacrity, careful not to giggle
or seem to contradict the muezzin. Then they stepped out of the river and shook
each limb; they tip-toed wide around their mudpies and figured out which way to
bow beneath an Acacian canopy. From what they knew and vaguely believed, the
prayers would flow from glorifying God to reminders how to worship—the Fajar,
for instance, to ward off sleep—and back to glorifying God. While everything
remained above their heads, they felt a purity in such routine, little grandmas
in the making.
They fell
asleep, of course, the day having stretched so long. Eventually, one waking the
other waking the other, they jumped back into mudpies, hungrier than before.
Fawzia fashioned little cups to simulate a teatime; the spirit of Ramadan
wouldn’t prohibit such hydration for kids, if not straight from the river.
A fat man
rushed from out of nowhere, screaming at the apostasy. ‘We’re only seven’ their faces would convey, now in Nala’s
cross-the-oceans dream. ‘We only ate the
air—not mud,’ she heard Jamilah plead, and ‘it wasn’t during the call to prayer.’ The fat man grabbed at
Fawzia yet slipped into the cauldron of mud, causing her to wiggle free and
Jamilah to pull her away—flight for the failure of fight. Nala, simultaneously
seven years old and twenty-seven, ran the other way, as her dream would have
it, plunging into the river and swimming across to the reedy other side.
She stayed
there until dusk: an hour in the water like a crocodile, roving creatures of
which she was all-too-aware could devastate the sudden debacle of this day, and
another two hours drying out on the southern bank. The fat man had long since
gone away. Jamilah and Fawzia were hiding somewhere, probably together, but now
that the evening adhan was sounding, they had likely made it each to their own
home.
And for the
first time in her life, she wondered what, beyond a domicile, was home. The
crocodiles weren’t interested in invading such a question—they stayed away as
if allowing existential space. How Nala in fact was rescued, by raft or maybe
even swimming back again, drying off in diminished sunlight and plodding to a
mom and dad that would reproach and hug and set her still toward some pragmatic
marriage match…. The dream would not recall.
Memory of
dreams depends on waking up before they’re done. Nala did this by design,
perhaps, and opened her twenty-seven year old eyes to Dr Brent injecting
something into Aamiina’s arm. A second or two of horrified recognition, Nala shrieked
for someone to come and stop this Mr Hyde—not as corpulent as the madman in her
dream, but doubly as vile: mother and daughter both were in his crosshairs,
sleeping and awake.
Nurse
Geraldine attended to her call—not running in, but dashing with her eyes. She
understood immediately, and slid as gracefully as she could to Nala’s side.
“Don’t worry, it’s not quite what you think. Y’see, Doc”—and here she locked
into her younger boss’ wary vision, “—Doc here is doing as doctors do. Aami
aint gettin’ streamed, to put that worry to rest.”
Dr Brent hardly
lifted his eyes, yet felt a condescending need to show a modicum of bedside
manner: “your daughter—Aamiina—is completely fine, and”—removing the syringe
and dabbing with a square of gauze—“barely needs this antibiotic, but…”
“…we
deliver as small a dose as possible,” Geraldine completed, rubbing Nala’s
shoulders. “If there’s one thing here I’ve impressed ’pon Dr Brent, it’s that
the body is a temple and can repair itself jus’ fine, most days of May…”
“Problem
is,” Brent tried to joke, “most the year isn’t the month of May.”
“Metaphorically
speakin’—but let that be. You makin’ sense of any of this, Miss Aamiina?”
Aamiina,
with big, peaceful eyes, looked at her terrified mother and gentle Geraldine.
“I feel good. The needle didn’t even hurt.”
“How old
are you,” Nala asked her daughter, enigmatically.
Aamiina
paused before the possible trick. “Seven.”
The room
waited for some grand reveal.
Nothing was
forthcoming.
“I love you,”
as if that was ever in question.
‘Me,
too,” Aamiina responded, scanning Geraldine’s face to ascertain that things
were alright.
XVIII.
Among the
ironies of the sanctuary was this fact: izøne
infowaves could not penetrate the area Jack laid claim to (as long as Lovers
Island kept its fire), yet satellites, above that invisible emissions shield,
could map the area freely. Satellite imagery could track the treeless area
around the boathouse, any activity on the lake itself, the thin line of the
unused highway west, from Ely to Winton to here. Satellites could not penetrate
rooftops or tree cover, so no voyeur taking in such data would see Kay slumped
upon her cabin porch as dawn was breaking. No one would even see the cabin, as
deep it was within the woods. Some cabins peeked into more open space,
gradually widening toward the shore and boathouse.
The blurry
outline of the chapel, underwater, was discernable if sunbeams weren’t
intensely bouncing off the lake’s surface. As odd as that huge saucer would be
for anybody monitoring from above, its history was acknowledged: a Millennium
Falcon fan of long ago built the thing to fly, managed to do so over Ely, over
Winton, but barely over Lovers Island where the ill-fated craft pancaked on
this southern side of Fall Lake, causing quite a tidal wave. Jack had
constructed the tunnel connecting it to the boathouse, carefully disguising
that lifeline from satellite detection.
Otherwise,
the layout of the sanctuary had nothing to hide. Lovers Island was off-limits,
everybody knew, and Jack proudly showed his license from the state to anybody
wondering: the furnace was determined to be environmentally safe—a generator of
energy and a scrambler of the izøne, as was
his right. Inspectors, few and far between in this part of the North American
Union, ignored the sanctuary: it was evidently living out its self-sanctioning.
And yes,
there’d be some malcontents like old Oscar Jenkins, stomping into the Ely
courthouse demanding some investigation, beyond the question of his
long-since-missing wife. There’s nothing
untoward in the sanctuary’s operation, he’d hear again and again, and being unstreamed yourself, it seems
you’d be the last to hate their mission. While few of those voices would
ever commit to a year free from the izøne, as the
Carters had to in order for Jack to approve them, many sympathized with the
notion and wouldn’t want it dragged down by legal challenges or bureaucracy.
If
satellites didn’t care and walleyes still had pristine waters to hide in,
everything else between would have a chance at happiness, undeterred.
Kay woke up
to Pretty’s atypical barks. Three figures from the path that led from the
defunct shuttle were tightly bundled: Seb, in the middle, limping; Avis, to his
left, supporting his stronger leg; Gordon, to his right, bearing the greater
weight. “What happened?” Kay panted, and “where the hell have you been?”
A volley of
hushes tried to honor the fact that others were still sleeping, and raw as the
night had been, they were now here, in one piece (so to speak). Pretty still
barked her suspicion and Kay pressed Gordon to explain. “Inside,” he said, and
cradled his free arm midway to the ground to pick up Seb like a toddler and
carry him into the cabin. Avis went forward to open the door and see that their
bed was clear. Tim, from his bunk, leaned up on his elbow, as Mia did likewise,
below.
“Good,” Seb
breathed out.
“Good, what?” Kay demanded.
The day’s
first ray of sun creased the window above the sink, a single channel of
unobstructed light, from ninety-three million miles away and through a fair weave
of woods. “Good to be here, at last.”
Then Gordon
explained, unprompted, that he had worried about their lack of return. He had
trekked the road past Winton, maybe just an hour ago. “Yeah, I’m usually out by
then,” when Tim asked why, “’cause that’s the best time in the world.”
“Well, not
today,” Kay sniped, then swallowed a “thanks, anyway, for… what exactly
happened, Mom?”
Seb lowered
his head to hear how she’d tell it. “It must’ve been,” puffing out the memory, “nine
pm, ten?” She bent to Seb, who couldn’t confirm. “Not terribly late, anyway. Of
course we would have contacted you, but—”
“—izøne wouldn’t let you.”
“No, Tim, lack of izøne wouldn’t let us,” Seb stared his son down. “And that’s not to
say the sanctuary here is deficient. For that matter, Gordon did what izøne couldn’t, seeking us out by intuition,
instinct…”
“Did you
try Hotline?” Kay challenged.
Avis let
the question float a few seconds. “I guess we didn’t think about that.
Unless,…”
“No,” Seb
doubled. “It’s amazing what a week without streaming might do—or not do, as is
the case. Just didn’t occur to us—”
“So, what
in God’s name did occur to you?” Kay
pressed. “Be specific!”
Accordingly,
Avis and Seb narrated in tandem. The trip to Ely had accomplished its purpose,
gathering some groceries on the way out. The town had some shuttle traffic, but
nothing going toward Winton; hiking there and back had been the plan, anyway.
By nine—or maybe ten—the road was dark but navigable, a bit of moonlight
seeping through the clouds. Suddenly, a rope rose from the asphalt and tripped
them up. The moment was so quick and unannounced, Seb and Avis crumbled into
their sojourner-selves without an understanding of the thing that had caught
them. That rope, Gordon then felt an invitation to describe, had been tied to a
certain tree with anticipation of how the footfalls would occur. The attacker
must have pulled from the opposite side of the road, clubbed them unconscious
and dragged them into a ditch beside the anchor tree. That’s how Gordon found
them, bound by the feet and groggy.
Tim leapt
out of bed. “Who did it, Dad?”
“Someone
with practice, it seems,” Seb paced out his answer. “A thief looking for easy
loot, or someone discouraging our presence in the area…”
“That old
guy in Winton?”
“I dunno.”
He turned to his wife. “Avis, you were the only one who spoke with him.”
Avis turned
to Gordon for some cues or clues. He had his back turned, though, busying
himself at the stove to boil some tea. “I.. I don’t believe that old man could
have…”
“… had the
strength?” Tim grew animated. “He was angry at us coming, had this killer
look—”
“—I saw him
with a gun,” Kay jumped in, eyeing Gordon’s back to see if it would shutter.
“What?
When?” Avis demanded.
The room
went silent for some seconds, as if recollecting the strains of centuries
engrained into the logs, let alone the naïve immersion of these recent days.
This sanctuary was to confirm the primal values of a natural world, trading
modern ‘creature comforts’ for the grassroots reason humans are still,
essentially, creatures. And then some highwayman throws that confirmation for a
loop. Kay searched hard for an idiom the izøne would
have easily supplied: out of the woodwork
came to mind, but she couldn’t check her instinct with its conventional use.
“Out of the blue,” she settled, “while I was walking Pretty, he shouted at me
to stop.”
“Here in
the sanctuary?”
Kay gulped
and took note of Gordon turning with a steaming teapot. “We.. Pretty and I…
were, like you, walking toward Winton—”
“Last
night?” Seb raised his voice. “When you were supposed to be in charge of your siblings?”
“No. The
other night. When you all went to chapel and I didn’t.”
“So what
did you do, when he told you to stop?”
“I
stopped.”
Mia spoke
for the first time: “and Pretty?”
“Also
stopped.”
“And what
did the geezer do then?” Tim spoke over his parents’ tacit perturbation.
Kay took an
empty cup Gordon had looped through the fingers of his right hand, then
steadied it as Gordon poured from the teapot in his left. She flashed
appreciation and a gauge for his sense what she was about to say. He didn’t
make eye contact, instead looking to his next tea customer. “He backed off. He
saw Gordon…”
The Golem. Only she and her dad really
understood that way of regarding the man before knowing his name. Oh, for the
izøne to stretch that definition, some
reference to Book of Psalms, KJV—
Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being
unperfect;
and in thy book all my
members were written, which
in continuance were
fashioned, when as yet there was
none of them.
A Frankenstein, some might say. Boo Radley. The Watcher in
the Woods.
“Gordon,”
Seb addressed him, pouring Mia a cup of tea, “thanks even more for intervening
then.” And to the room more generally, “let’s not stray away from
sanctuary—hopefully that’s been made obvious.”
A half-hour
of tea and vittles attempted to get the day on its feet. Seb felt woozy and
Avis insisted he see the grandma, sure to be at the boathouse by now. “You said
she’d get you to that silver-haired lady—”
“—Sylvia,
in fact. Yeah,” Seb groaned himself upright, “maybe you’re right. Concussion
protocol, at least—no good napping without such a check.”
Gordon
continued to act as his crutch, and Tim took the other side. Mia, not yet knowing
the silver-haired lady had talents beyond the pump-organ, tagged along. Pretty
stayed put, seemingly recognizing the balance of the protected and unprotected.
She curled into the space where Avis had rested her feet, now that she was up
and attending to routines. She’d see the sanctuary nurse after Seb, just to be
on the safe side, but, in answer to Kay’s concern, she was fairly sure she
didn’t have any physical trauma. “I sorta faked being knocked out. Played
possum, I think the saying goes.”
“Played dead? Did the attacker want
to do such damage, or… send a message?”
“That’s
getting into the mind of evil. Haven’t really gone there much in my life.”
“Do you think it was the old man from
Winton?”
“I already
weighed in on that question.”
Kay let the
statement linger. She started to gather the laundry that would take her to the creek between Garden Lake and Fall, designated for such washing. That chore
could wait until someone would come back to be with her mom. As much as Kay
wanted to leave the cabin undisturbed, the follow-up question had to eventually
breach: “if not him,.. who?”
Avis looked
out the window and whispered, “I think it was Gordon,” and to answer Kay’s bewildered
how, “slightly by his smell.”
XIX.
Days in
Faribault twiddled thumbs for the weekend. Aamiina and Shel occupied themselves at
Alexander Park, grooving the soil near the playground for the tiny toads they’d
catch—narrow highways never deep enough to keep the toads from jumping out. Nor
did they really want them to stay tracked, ideas of wilderness on their minds.
So they dug a pond and tried to fill it with water from the river, cupping
their hands tightly, to no avail. “I think toads don’t like to swim, anyway.”
“How come?”
Shel asked.
“Frogs do.
They’re different.”
Shel
streamed the difference, self-conscious that her younger friend had probably
come to know things from the World Book encyclopedias she loved to look at,
volumes T and F. She even streamed the phrase ‘World Book’ to access those
glossy pages, but the izøne wouldn’t
cooperate with this search, resorting to atlases and nudges how to navigate
from the streamer’s present location.
“Frogs
swim,” Aamiina cut into her friend’s spaciness. Then, timidly, she ventured,
“can you?”
“Swim?”
Shel had to think. “Yeah. Grandpa taught me.”
“At the
golf course?”
“At a pool. He doesn’t want me near the ponds.”
“At a pool. He doesn’t want me near the ponds.”
“Why?”
“They’re
mucky.”
Aamiina
stared into the river, wondering what ‘mucky’ meant. “I can’t swim. Mama did,
in Africa, but never taught me yet.”
Shel looked
around, knowing Nala had left for the mosque.
“Wanna
try?”
“Here?
Without swimsuits?”
At least to
wade, not much further than their arms had already reached. Just to get their
knees wet, maybe to the hem of their shorts that would dry out, after all, if—
“Out!” Nala
sprinted from seemingly nowhere. “Now! What you thinking, huh?” Her grab for
Aamiina’s arm caused her to slip in herself and topple Shel, who drifted unexpectedly
and began to panic. Nala pushed her daughter toward the bank and lunged for
Shel, shackling her ankle by sheer luck. Thrashing their way with three arms
against the surface, three feet against the slick stones, they managed to heave
themselves to safety.
Gasps of
“we’re sorry” turned into tears and a yelling lesson on what lies underneath a
surface—“current” each girl sobbed, compelled to repeat what they promised
never to forget. “We’ll never—”
Nala waved
her hand to make them understand. “You will
learn how to swim, exactly cuz of slips like this. Just not in a river, which
has a hidden…”
“…current,”
both said, Shel quickly streaming her confusion with how that word meant
‘present’, too. Maybe danger lurked in every here-and-now, and she’d have to
imagine more the side of something that doesn’t meet the eye.
The wet
clothes compelled an explanation which could have led to consternation, but Pam
was rather thankful that such a lesson could precede their camping trip. She
also was glad for Nala’s pluck: requesting more days off than her boss
typically granted, standing up to Dr Brent, mining the core deposits of her
faith in that underground mosque. Pam, having scant history in ‘faith’, per
se, suddenly wondered why.
She talked
it over with Trig, in bits and pieces while they walked their beat. “What is
God for you, in a nutshell?”
“In a nutshell?
S’that a loaded idiom?”
“Okay, in a
word.”
Trig
remotely remembered that link and streamed to be sure: “‘And the Word was made
flesh, and dwelt among us.’”
Pam
streamed simultaneously. “Gospel of John. What else?”
“Lightspeed,
is this some kinda test?”
It wasn’t,
but Pam bit her lip to avoid saying ‘no’. “I’m thinking of the girls, their
little world.”
“Their
nutshell of the world—is that why you named her that?”
“‘Shel’?”
Pam had to remember. “I’ve always liked the name ‘Shelly’, don’t know why.
Doesn’t run in my family, nor her father’s.” Trig stewed on that, as Pam now
realized he would. “Sorry—shouldn’t bring him up.”
“No, I
mean—go ahead.”
She stayed
silent while they walked and Trig, who had already heard about the
lust-and-leave story, let her have her space. He came to know Pam seven
years ago, transferring from an overcrowded precinct in Minneapolis. They
became romantic in the blur of days exactly like this—twiddling thumbs for the
weekend. But Shel was reason enough for Trig to reconsider his bachelor lifestyle.
She once called him ‘Dad’ but, blushing, used ‘Trig’ a minute later and every encounter
since. On the other hand, she liked that he stayed over for dinners more often,
listened to her stories and told his own. She loved that her mom was happy,
maybe because she remotely recalled her being otherwise.
Finally Pam
weighed in, streaming a message to Trig as if afraid to wrap her mouth around
it. I only believed in God when I didn’t
want to, like when he left.
Trig kept
his eyes on the slow direction they were headed, with no precise need to patrol. He
nodded, not right away, that he understood.
And vice versa, Pam eventually streamed.
“And that
concerns you,” Trig voiced into a question-statement.
Pam reached
for his hand, realizing some compromise of on-the-job protocol, but since Trig
didn’t pull away, she kept it there as they walked. “It concerns Shel.”
“She said
so?”
“Not in so
many words.”
“In a
nutshell?”
She smiled
at that. I could be bounded in a
nutshell, and count myself king of infinite space.
Hamlet now? Trig merged with her
mind.
…were it not that I have bad dreams.
“I’m
dreaming of the weekend. In God’s country, I think they call it.”
She
squeezed his hand and gently let it go. They were, after all, on duty.
They decided
to leave on Thursday, in order for the girls to wake up in the beauty of the
Burntside Hotel on Friday, swim there and then head further into the wilderness
for camping, weather inviting. Nala sat in the front of the shuttle with Pam,
while Trig took his reclining chair and the girls flitted around from this
window to that against the occasional advice to get strapped in.
“But it’s
safe, with all the sensors, right?”
“Who
knows,” Trig posed, “we might just hit another deer.”
They hadn’t heard about that. “Deer?” Aamiina
asked, seeing her friend’s face streaming something, as she had become accustomed
to.
“Yes.
Happens sometimes that they jump out.”
“They—like
a family?”
“Well, in
our case it was just one. A buck.”
Shel proved
her knowledge. “A daddy, then?”
“Don’t
know. He didn’t say.”
Then Aami:
“You talked with him?”
Pam,
overhearing, swung to clarify. “We tried to get him back home. In the woods, of
course.”
“You tried?” Shel wanted to know. “And?”
“Well, we
think we did it.” Trig cleared his throat. “He got off the road, and…”
Now Nala
swung her chair to hear about this buck. Trig hemmed a bit how tough it must
have been to find his footing again—the shuttle going as fast then as now. Shel
thought about ‘current’ on that
suggestion of ‘now’ and buckled her seatbelt. Aamiina did the same, like a
serious-minded little sister. No one wanted to broach what hadn’t yet been
said, until Shel couldn’t take the mystery any longer. “Died?”
Pam
stretched for her knee, unsure how to comfort the query. “Not that we saw,
Shel.”
Trig nodded
at that. “We saw him go into the woods. Home.”
Clearly
both girls, looking out different windows, didn’t believe that outcome. The
shuttle would have killed him, and now it was trying to keep them safe at such speed.
Pam felt it necessary to remind them about sensors, safety in general. And life
cycles, including their ends. She almost streamed what had come up the other
day, the izøne funneling more suggestions on
Shakespeare: we are such stuff as dreams
are made on, and our little lives are rounded with a sleep.
“Is the
deer asleep somewhere?” Shel asked the shuttle, generally.
Pam
flinched, sure as she was that she hadn’t messaged anyone that quote. “Yes,
Shelly,” gulping. “Somewhere….”
“Maybe at
our camping site?” Aamiina imagined, still looking out her side of the shuttle.
Trig glanced
at Nala, then Pam, then agreed with the chances of that way of putting it: “maybe, Aami. We’ll have to see.”
“Meanwhile,
girls,” Nala fostered, “pray for him.”
Moments
passed for maybe that. “And his family,” one of them said.
XX.
While the
sanctuary had no official ‘sick bay’, Seb spent many an hour in the chapel,
rather unoccupied these days. Sylvia, the silver-haired organist and occasional
nurse, made sure the atmosphere was serene; all Seb suffered, she determined,
was a concussion that required nothing more than rest. Tim promised he’d be
‘man of the house’ to catch fish and keep routines running; Jack, behind him,
projected an equal face of confidence.
And the
chapel truly was serene: Avis would wander to the boathouse and barely need the
grandma’s nod to enter the veiled door to the tunnel that would, four or five
times a day, usher her to Seb—well-fed Seb, as became his epithet. The
fireplace glowed its sienna upkeep, usually the doing of Gordon, unpronounced.
The central area of the disc had cleared its chairs to allow for an ample
mattress and dozens of throw pillows for Seb to feel the soft safety of the place,
including a couple tables at convenient reach for a glass of brandy, a grab of
raisins and cashews, whatever else an ailing having runner might request.
Meanwhile,
Mia and the dog took adventurous walks beyond what Seb or Avis might have
approved, if ‘sick bay’ had not dominated the family’s attention. Secretly,
on the sly, Mia wanted to meet that old man in Winton, convince the universe
that he, at least, was not the guy who hurt her parents. She liked the story
about the Grinch, who had his own dog (if not so pretty) and lived in grumpy
isolation until that brave Cindy Lou got to him. Maybe she’d even tell him that
story, guessing that he’d view a visit with suspicion.
The fencing
around the sanctuary’s perimeter was rusted barbed wire, but easy enough to get
through, either due to a fallen tree or an excavation from some wild
animal—perhaps the very wolverine that attacked Pretty a week ago. Just a week ago? So much has happened here…
Or, many of the same things have happened: washing along the creek and lakeshore,
organizing meals, lounging at the chapel, reading by candlelight, talking like
never before, listening to crickets, waking to birdsong, eager to see another
day like this unfold.
Of course
unstreamed, she didn’t have the same reason for being here as the rest of her
family. She had no izøne to evade, long
for, sneak back to, and she hopped over a sunken stretch of barbed wire with a
feeling that sanctuary, really, could be anywhere for her—even Minneapolis, as
the plan was to return there in a year.
Sanctuary
was everywhere. She never felt so fortunate and free. “Now I know why you’re
always smiling, Pretty.”
Lou was back
to telling yarns in the chapel. “Yep, I tellya, gettin’ clocked is no fun. No
sirree. You’d think with all that’s been made—engineered an’ such—they’d have
come up with a way to airbag the ol’ noggin just before some blow, y’know,
somethin’ not so bulky, hiding in the collar.”
“I’m sure
they have,” Seb opined. “Especially to market to those parents who keep permanent
helmets on their kids playing outside.”
“Back in my
day there were some o’ them, fer sure, but then there’s these knuckleheads like
me playing hockey on lakes just like this—funny to point up to the surface!—and
nobody had an inklin’ to wear a helmet. That said, though, you figured it was
just a matter o’ time: braced for the puck flyin’ at yer face, then ya got the
highsticking, the cross-check, all that fun stuff.”
“Knowing
it’s coming can’t be much comfort.”
“You can
say that again! But we loved it, doncha know—wouldn’t do it otherwise, not
outdoors anyway. It’s inside our own contraptions where we drop our guard. Le’s
see… I was at the Bismarck mall roun’ about Timmy’s age, there,” nodding at the
teenager engrossed in a chess match with Jack. “Malls, y’know, were the thing,
’specially fer farm hicks like me, gettin’ outta jail on a Friday night after
chores an’ all, hangin’ around jus’ to see and be seen.”
“That’s the
history of history,” Jack thought to add.
“You
betcha. But hey, this one time—gettin’ back to gettin’ clocked—I saw absolutely
nuthin’ coming. It’s a mall, fer
god’s sake, not an ice rink!”
“What
happened?”
“Well, I’ll
tell ya. In those days ever’body had what they called ‘smart phones’—flat slabs
of plastic that sorta fit in yer pocket, or more likely the palm of yer hand,
glowing when somethin’ pre-dating the izøne tapped
in—a message, a meme, a I-don’-know-what, barely then and long gone by now. Of
all things of boyhood to forget, that slab o’ plastic is first on my list.”
“Certainly
smart phones had their day in the sun. A decade or two, more precisely. But why
did one of them knock you out?”
“Why did a
smart phone knock out a dumb hockey hack?” Lou chuckled the question. “S’pose I
should’ve worn a helmet at the mall! Instead, here I’m walkin’ with this smart
phone, see, swipin’ the screen in my palm for some revelation—God, that was the
thing back then, to somehow see beyond the fleeting screen that had ya there in
the firs’ place. Gotta imagine: these things were in everyone’s hands, and the
notion of walkin’ and chewin’ gum was, well, somethin’ debatable.”
Tim lifted
his head at that suggestion. “Not so hard to multi-task in those days, was it?”
Lou was
glad to have more audience. “Multi-tasking was the norm. The ‘task’ in that,
though, was almost never spelled out, let alone smart. I’m sure I was
half-tasking at best, fishin’ that slab o’ plastic fer some kindred lonelyheart
swipin’ the same kinda screen.”
“Lou, I
can’t envision you as a loner!”
“Uff-da, us
North Dakotans wrote th’ book on that. And to put a mall out there fer us jus’
rubs salt into the wound. But who m’I foolin’—them lonely for a minute maybe
milk it fer a lifetime. Anyways, I’m walkin’ and, as Timmy here does well
’nuff, multi-taskin’ and hopin’ somethin’ glows from the plastic in my palm,
somethin’ promising fer a Friday night to remember or forget—good times don’t
quibble over that!—and wouldn’cha know out o’ nowhere, BAM! I run smack into
Crazy Horse.”
“Huh?”
“The Lakota
chief back a couple centuries ago.”
“You that
old, Lou?”
“You
betcha. But truth be told, it was jus’ his statue
I run into, and even a replica of the real one, at that. The real one’s in
South Dakota—Black Hills down there, kinda near Mount Rushmore. Difference is,
Crazy Horse never got done, ’cept his face an’ outstretched arm. His horse’s
head is the part that clocked me, and that’s not even finished on the mountain,
to this day.”
“Wait,” Tim
happened to be moving his knight, “Crazy Horse is on a horse?”
“Sure,
’magine that. Kinda mergin’ man an’ beast. Anyways, I hit the deck pretty hard,
prob’ly more surprised than pushed over, least far as I can remember. The
marble floor knocked me cold, an’ I jus’ lie there, oh, maybe a minute, maybe
an hour—until some angel woke me up, gorgeous eyes gleamin’ with concern, and
I’m thinkin’ wow, was that worth it!
But then, doncha know, she was already hooked to some other guy swipin’ his
smart phone.”
“Maybe
calling an ambulance.”
“Doubt it.
Didn’t come one, anyhow. So, I get up and try out the ol’ legs and they’re
okay, y’know, and so is the goshdarn phone—bit cracked on its face, but back
then that was sorta th’ norm. I put it in my pocket and fished out a
dollar—that’s when money looked like toilet paper, Timmy—and since there warn’t
any more angels fer to buy an ice cream, I stuffed the bill in the box at th’
statue’s base. Donation towards the completion of the real McCoy, which—last I
heard—was all but given up. Way it goes, I guess…”
Tim let the
story settle a bit, then turned to his dad. “Wish I could stream this Crazy
Horse.”
“Why? You
have one better than that in a real-life point of view. And I imagine you
haven’t put that episode in the izøne, that
right, Lou?”
“No can do.
Nor care to.”
Mia
approached the village of Winton with wonder. She remembered where the old
man’s house was, if the angle to get there was new. Houses she passed were
dilapidated, mostly, and the weeds everywhere looked like meerkats sizing up
this unlikely stranger and her dog.
“Hey!” one
of them called out—not the old man’s voice, it seemed, nor anybody else in
sight. Pretty walked her typical four or five yards ahead, not stopping for
what might have been just the wind in the hodgepodge of structures and trees
and meerkat-looking things.
She knocked
on the old man’s door, unprepared for what to do if it opened. Her mother went
inside their first day here, even before reaching the sanctuary; that went
fine, evidently. Still, instinct reminded that you should know what you’re getting into, and Pretty’s subtle
whimper seconded that notion. In their minds, conjoined, was that tussle with
the wolverine,
it may not have happened
if everyone were to
behave,
use teeth just to eat
or claws to anchor the
feet;
if everyone could only
behave
like clouds not deciding
to rain on somebody’s
day:
wreck a poor picnic and
save
a mere question of
harvest,
which may never happen,
given the whims of a
wolverine.
She learned the word ‘whim’ from her sister Kay, after hours
of conversation, partly before this venture north, and partly after Pretty had
been attacked. And now she started to worry that the old man wasn’t answering,
perhaps having been attacked himself with no one there to save him. She pounded
harder on his door, causing Pretty to whimper differently.
No way could
he be home, or there awake. Mia turned to go away.
That’s when
the door opened, and Pretty curled herself inside. The old man (or a fraction
of his face) said nothing about the dog entering, but stared intently at Mia,
who looked likewise at him for ten seconds, nothing of substance between them.
Neither said ‘hey’ or anything, until Pretty barked from within.
“You comin’
in, then, young lady?”
Mia
whistled for Pretty, responding in a slither to her side. “You can come out,
too,” she assured. “My parents wouldn’t worry that way.”
Oscar
puzzled that over and opened the door wider. “They worried about you?”
“No. They
don’t know I’m here.”
“Then why
you here?”
Why, indeed.
To study the guy who might have hurt her parents? To risk herself getting hurt,
and Pretty, too? To extend a sense of neighborhood, more than anything
Minneapolis offered in that regard? “To see how you are,” she voiced for no
particular reason.
“How I am?”
Absurd,
this whole thing. None of them budged, a polygon of points indoors and out,
Pretty pacing between them. “Yes, sir,” Mia replied at last.
“How I am.
You aint happen to be from Ely, wouldja? Social services, or criminal
investigations unit?”
“What’s
that mean?”
Oscar
wasn’t inclined to answer his own questions. He’d rather do the asking. “Have
you caught a walleye there, from your.., your sanctuary?”
“That’s a
fish, right?”
“That’s
right. A beauty of a fish.”
“I think my
brother has. I’m still learning how.”
“Hmm.”
“I catched
bluegills.”
Easy
pickins. “Fry ’em up?”
“Yep. Mom
taught me how…. You talked to her, ’member?”
The
cataracts through which Oscar squinted seemed to soften with his raised
eyebrows. He was forming an answer, what he and that lady had spoken about
that first day of their naïve adventure; instead, he decided to affirm the
girl’s benign interest. “Of course. She told me y’all were here to get relief
from the izøne. Is that right?”
“Yes, sir.
But it doesn’t matter for me ’n Pretty: we’re not streamed.”
“Well,”
Oscar took one step back to grip the inside knob of the door, “you make sure
that big guy who works there knows that.”
“Gordon?”
“Don’ know
his name. The guy who... keeps the furnace going.”
Mia nodded,
vaguely. “Goodbye, Mister—” to the closing door. She looked at Pretty for
advice what to do next. “Back to sanctuary?” The dog understood that idea by
now and began the four or five yards’ head start.
{Part 2}
XXI.
Part of
having a good time is the respect, in one mind or many, that good times aren’t
automatic. Ingredients of grace, fortune and willingness all need to come
together. Tumbling into the Burntside Hotel, this side of sunset, Nala and Pam
glanced first at each other, then at the menu hologrammed for their approval,
as if the steaming soups and fresh fish and pasta and moose medallions and
sautéed veggies and wild rice could meet with anyone’s distaste. But glad you asked, their eyes told the
maître d’—nothing via izøne, as they tacitly figured that
message-streaming might mar this pristine territory or, rather, their
experience in it for the next hundred hours or so. Aamiina and Shel dutifully
munched their medallions, saving appetite for the apple cobbler à la mode that would follow. They listened
to their moms making a game plan for the ensuing days—a halcyon mix of swim
and snooze and serendipity.
Trig looked
on with veiled awe. His bachelor self never signed into such imagination, let
alone the risks that happen with relationships. He never had to calculate
beyond himself, the easy and ineffable needs. He didn’t want to calculate those
needs for the nights and days to come, eager instead to consider how families
worked in tandem. He balked, then, at Nala’s suggestion that both girls could
sleep in her room—another pillow fort they’d make of it—to let Pam and Trig
make their room a de facto honeymoon suite.
Dawn came,
waking each its own way, caressing the positive problem to continue sleeping or
hop out of bed and head to the beach. Five thin wills let the morning unfold as
it would, breakfast as an afterthought. Four put swimsuits on; Nala remained in
her robe as she took a book from the hotel library to a deck chair on the lawn.
She also took a cup of Ethiopian coffee, reflecting on the fact her family
could never afford this in Somalia. She rested the brew on the hardcover of Travels With Charley: In Search of America,
the aging author requiring a roadtrip to be sure his stories were real enough,
and memorable. Maybe someday Nala would return to the Horn of Africa; for now,
she’d read with an occasional eye over the page and toward the water, where
Trig and Pam were teaching the girls to float like otters:
“There,
now, arch your back and look to the sky. Let your arms stretch out,… yes, like
a cross, I suppose. Hands can paddle a bit, but keep your legs straight… Okay,
swish them if they sink, but better yet, arch
your back and look to the sky…”
The izøned sky. Still. Slightly overcast. A large insect
whirred overhead and caused Shel to scream. “What’s that?!” she sputtered when
Pam tugged her to a depth where she could stand.
“Just a
dragonfly, Shel. Gentle as a—”
“dragon?”
Now Aamiina glided over, Trig ready to act as lifeguard. “A real dragon!”
“Well, a
rather small one. But look, here’s another—”
The
metallic blue lines of each torso hovered, the blur of their wings frenetic to
bring them together, then whisk them away. They circled the area like
barnstormers, then settled in tandem on a post of the dock. The swimmers
cautioned themselves over to spy on this landing. The uppermost dragon crawled
from the back of the lower one to the smooth surface of the post, then clamped
the end of its tail to the lower one’s nape. Their twelve legs herked toward
the flat top of the pole, allowing a hard-earned respite. Then the headlocked
dragon forced an arching of bodies—metallic blue lines now forming two halves
of a heart, upper and lower, a valentine tipped on its side. Pam and Trig knew
what was happening, but the girls were agape. The newly-made heart fibrillated,
causing the legs to splay for stability; the conjoined creatures seemed at war
and at peace, oblivious to an audience evaluating their performance. Aamiina,
whispering a question to Pam, longed for her World Book encyclopedias—she
surely would have come across the pages on ‘dragonfly’, if not exactly pictures
in plural. Shel, streaming the izøne and its
options to match images, screwed up her eyes in the suggestion of what these
insects were doing.
“Baby
dragonflies?” Aami had to repeat what Pam had whispered to her.
Shel, a bit
jealous, wondered whether to add to the inquiry or prove her new knowledge.
“They’re actually ‘damselflies’,” she decided. “So they’re making baby
damsels.”
Trig
splashed around to change the subject. If they were going to be accomplished
otters, they would need to do more than float on their backs. They swam past
the memory of damselflies, up to the moment they looked at their raisiny hands
and laughed. Nala had towels for them ready as they slumped onto the grass. “If
you like this lake,” Trig announced, “you’ll fall in love with Fall Lake…”
“Fall
Lake?”
“Just east
of here. Yet kind of a world away.”
“Why?” Aamiina
asked, always interested in the idea of ‘world’.
Trig caught
Pam’s eye to see if he should say, and she shrugged a why not? “It’s out of the izøne.”
Shel
glanced at the sky. “How… in the
world..?” she said in her head. Then joining the others’ excitement, Shel
asked aloud: “when can we go?”
They left
after lunch and shuttled along the shoreline of Shagawa Lake, hovering inches
above the taconite roads to Winton. They went slow to conserve energy and take
in the splendor, but also the last licks of izøne access,
should that be needed. No need to
overthink this, Pam messaged Trig, who was manually driving. Trig grinned a
response and sped up a little. Nala was chatting a mile-a-minute with the
girls, who were spotting all kinds of insects and birds and shadows that might
just be deer.
Like Pam
and Trig’s first trek into the sanctuary, they parked the shuttle outside the
barbed-wire gate and found the same gap in the fence some forty yards into the
woods. They weren’t wearing patroller uniforms today, so any excuse for this
unannounced visit might turn awkward, but they were taking the Carters at their
word: our cabin door is always open,
even though, technically, the Carters didn’t own it. Pam advised they go
straight to the boathouse, square their purpose with Jack, rent a boat or beach
space if he’d be so kind.
As the path
curved past the Carter’s defunct shuttle, a colossus stood where sunbeams
didn’t pierce the afternoon shade. Gordon. Expressionless, perhaps—his boonie
hat hid the intension of his eyes. In his right hand was a spade shovel; his
left held a bucket by its handle. His overalls had pockets that bulged with
other things.
“’Llo,”
Trig greeted, as they all stopped in their tracks. Gordon dipped the brim of
his boonie just an inch. “You remember Pam and me from last week… Well, we’re
back to visit,” Trig cleared his throat, “the Carters.”
“Rent a
boat, maybe,” Pam added. Shel, behind her, reached for Aami’s free hand, the
other already in Nala’s grip.
Gordon
tilted his head, then turned with the stiffness of a walrus. His shoulder
gestured, follow me.
Despite the
strangeness of keeping the twenty yard distance from their guide, the visiting
quintet picked up where their conversations had been. Trig described the
amazing qualities of birch bark—all from memory, now that no one could stream
information; Nala promised she’d take a swim in this lake, if so far unseen;
Pam pointed out the Carter’s cabin, looking dormant at the moment; the girls
continued to hold hands and develop the details of the fairy tale they were
inventing. Gordon probably heard slices of what they were saying, twenty yards
behind him.
The lake
was gorgeous, glistening as they emerged from the woods. Gordon traipsed to the
boathouse and held the door open for them to waddle in, ducklings they may have
appeared. The bucket, as they smelled and now could look into, contained the
offal of fish that Gordon evidently was going to bury—best to do so away from
the cabins, Trig guessed out loud, on the chance a mammal might dig it up.
Gordon nodded before closing them inside.
“Why, hello
there!” the grandma hailed from her spot behind the counter.
Pam reached
to shake her hand. “We’re back, Ms—”
“Just call
me ‘the grandma’. Ever’body does here, you know. And I see you’ve reproduced
some since last week! Kids, welcome to our sanctuary.”
Shel and
Aami blushed but murmured a sort of thanks. Nala, then, reached out to shake
the grandma’s hand. “I’m Nala, and..,”—nudging her daughter—
“I’m
Aamiina. I’m not streamed.”
That
unsolicited fact took the others a second to think over. “Isn’t that nice,
Aamiina,” the grandma responded. “Wouldn’t you know, I’m not either!”
“Um,” Pam
wondered whether or how to introduce Shel, who evidently didn’t want to take
that initiative.
Trig jumped
in. “We wanted to visit the Carters, if they’re around, and rent a boat if you
had one handy… The girls here are learning to swim—had a good morning out at
Burntside, where we’re staying.”
“Oh,
Burntside, yes,” the grandma pointed to the ancient paper map of the region,
tacked to the wall. “It’s nice there, but,” directing her voice to the girls,
“our lake’s nicer. No distractions here.”
“It’s
peaceful,” Pam agreed. “A breath of fresh air. You know, last time we had to
pursue that Hotline call that had disappeared—”
“I
remember.”
“—and,
unless you heard anything about it,”
“Nope,
haven’t.”
“then we’re
off-duty as patrollers and simply on vacation.”
“Well,
that’s wonderful. Maybe Jack and Gordon can sweep out a place for you to stay
overnight—”
“We do have
tents,” Trig told her, “and sleeping bags. The hotel is our home base these
next couple days, but a little camping would really fit the bill.”
“Oh, we
wouldn’t bill you. Nice to have company, really. Now if you could sign our
guest book…” The grandma turned the key that was already in the lock of the
file cabinet behind her. She pulled out a dark green binder and opened it to
the sixth or seventh page, where the latest names listed were those of the
Carters: Seb, Avis, Kay, Tim, Mia*, their ages and Minneapolis address, their
arrival date. A column for ‘departure’ was also there, but no one on the spread
of these pages had that information filled in.
Trig tried
to message Pam, of course to no avail. He stepped up to take the outstretched
pen from the grandma and politely remarked, “we weren’t asked to sign in last
time.”
The grandma
anticipated as much and pat his arm. “You were on duty then. Deliverymen, too,
come and go without so much the need to keep track. Our guests, though, we must
protect.”
Reasonable.
Trig bent to write his line of information:
Trig Tangent
| 33 | Faribault |
“Today’s date?”
The grandma
poohpawed that: “I’ll fill that in. Next?”
Trig handed
the pen to Pam, who quickly took in his pseudonym cue. Her line, then,
contained her own:
Pam
Lightspeed | 31 | —//— |
“You got
Indian heritage with that last name,” the grandma presumed. “Good to have you
here.” She gestured to pass the pen on.
“Shel,
should I write it for you?” Pam offered.
“No,” Shel
grabbed the pen. Though writing was not required for her learning, she wanted
to show that she could. She blockwrote the SHEL
and looked at the surname above hers, perplexed. “What’s this mean?”
“That’s
good enough, dear,” the grandma assured. “And your age?”
Shel put an
8 below her mom’s 31 and tried to make the same —//— for
the city she didn’t at all miss right now.
She gave
the pen to Aami, who wrote in more confident block letters: AAMIINA. Then she scanned the names
above her. “What’s this flower by this person’s name, ‘Mia*’?”
“Huh? Oh,
that’s an asterisk. You can call it a flower—that’s nice! Means that she’s
unstreamed.”
“Like me?”
“Like you.”
While Pam
shot a look at Nala to check if this delineation was appropriate, Aami made an
asterisk with a stem and some leaves beside her name. Then she put a 7 in the next column and ~//~ in the
next. Satisfied, she handed the pen to her mother. Nala entered only her first
name, wavering a second whether or not to replicate her daughter’s flower. That
would keep them consistent, but wouldn’t be true.
“Thank you
all,” the grandma said, closing the book and jamming it back into the file cabinet.
“Enough of the paperwork! Now let’s try to find where those Carters might be.”
They were
with Jack on another canoe excursion around Newton Lake. Seb was healthy enough
now to participate, yet he sat in the bow to let Tim do the hard paddling. Jack
steered a second canoe, with Mia and Pretty sharing the narrow front bench.
Avis and Kay led the fleet with efficient strokes. The western headwind could
have challenged their energy, but a week’s experience was starting to pay off,
and they felt rather spirited going into the homestretch.
As they
rounded the bend past Kawishiwi Falls, Kay spotted some splashing near the
sanctuary beach. “Big fish,” she deadpanned, “and here we paddled for miles to
catch a few bluegills.”
“They’re
people,” Avis felt a need to clarify. “A welcome sight.”
Pretty
raised her ears and balanced her front legs on the triangular nose of the middle
canoe. She rarely barked or whined, preferring to let her tail do her talking, but
now she let out a searching howl: whhooo
r youuuu?
A hundred
yards away, Trig bellowed, “Ahoy, Pretty!”
“Hey,” Mia
recognized, “the patrollers.”
“Looks like
they brought the whole fam,” Jack added, stolidly.
Shel and
Aamiina stood like statues in neck-deep water. Nala, beside them, waved. Pam
swam toward the canoes and tread in the deeper water. Trig called out less
loudly, “Catch anything?”
Pretty
leaped forward and swam toward the question. At first instinct, Mia would have
screamed for her to come back; she suppressed that, however, to assuage the
possible concerns of these unknown girls in the water. “Don’t worry, she’s a
water dog! Named ‘Pretty’.”
“Pretty,” whispered Shel to Aamiina. “That’s
pretty.”
The dog
swam to Pam as the canoes followed, and before they reached shore, everyone
floated for a moment. Introductions could come thereafter; now was more the
chance to look around, appreciate the vibe, and harmonize.
XXII.
It was a
high day for the sanctuary. Even the late afternoon drizzle played into the joy
of new friendships. Trig had put up two pup tents near the beach—Jack was happy
to have them stay a couple days, no cost—so their night would be dry and not so
crowded. Mia begged to stay in the tent with Aamiina and Shel, and after a
parental cadence of we’ll see, the
sleeping arrangements were settled. Mia would indeed be with the other girls in
one tent; Pam and Trig in the other, nearby; Nala in Mia’s vacated bed. And
Pretty, who usually slept at the foot of Mia’s bed,…
Pretty was
a question. She seemed intent on being a roamer, not cabin-bound or relegated
to pup-status. Quietly curling up on the cabin porch was as headstrong an act
as the Carters had seen. Tim, with Trig’s help, constructed a makeshift lean-to
against the cabin wall and covered it with birch bark to keep Pretty dry.
Before
goodnight kisses and ghost stories, though, an impromptu potluck brought
neighbors out from the woodwork—Sylvia and Lou, the grandma and Gordon, the
plaid-shirt guy who liked to play chess, now outside the confines of the chapel
(which curiously never entered anyone’s conversation). A little wine encouraged
Jack to fetch his guitar and strum songs familiar and new—some even the izøne wouldn’t have heard of. One that got the
campfire bopping went:
When we’re up in heaven
We’ll be
lookin’ down at us,
Laughin’ at
the looniness
And things
that caused a fuss;
When there’s
clearly trouble
The laughin’
turns to rain,
Got to wash
away those blues
And fill
your boots again!
Fill your boots
When it rains
Life takes root
When it rains…
Fact of the matter, precipitation was light and barely
noticeable under the red pines. Everyone huddled in for s’mores and exaggerated
pulls at ponchos, serving as umbrellas. Jack jammed that chorus a few times for
reinforcement, to get the Carters and their guests singing with the
long-termers. Then he soloed again for the final verse:
So hope you
come to heaven
On a
cloudburst kinda day,
Dive into
eternity
And settle
in to stay;
Then you’ll
throw some levers
Of weather
down below,
Most of
which will fill the boots
Of people as
they grow
Fill your boots
When it rains
Life takes root
When it rains…
“Mr Jack?”
Aamiina asked, when the song strummed to conclusion, “what’s it mean ‘fill your
boots’?”
“Aaah,”
graveled Lou, happy and a tad drunk. “Glad ya asked that, if I may—” turning to
Jack to take the question. Jack, just as happy, handed him the floor. “Y’see,
Amy,”
“Aami,” she
corrected.
“Aahmy—that’s
a nice name. Whatcha got here in ‘fill yer boots’ is a idiom. Know what that
means?” Aamiina shook her head and leaned forward to find out. “Any of ya
youngsters know—‘idiom’?” Lou polled the polity.
Kay waited
until her brother chickened out. “A veiled phrase,” she asserted, “that usually
has a cultural extension to make us think of something more deeply.”
Lou
regarded that as gold. “Young lady, I wish you were my school teacher, back
when there were schools. Spot on! Idioms do ’xactly that. So, first time I heard
this ‘fill yer boots’ was when I was playin’ 8-ball at the pool hall, out there
in Bismarck. Passin’ good, I was, but nothin’ to write home about.”
“Oh, Lou,”
Sylvia thought to butt in, “always selling yourself short.”
“Another
idiom!” Lou exalted. “But back to the crux.” Aamiina, still rapt, had no idea
what he was talking about. “So I'm playin’ 8-ball ’gainst this hustler travelin’
through from England, of all places —he play for money, y’know, back when money
was a thing. An’ I make a pretty good shot, prob’ly normal as his world goes.
An’ I make another one, an’ another—gonna
clear th’ table, I says, and he says back, fill yer boots—sorta rival’s endorsement, British-like. Got into my
head, though, an’ I missed the next shot.”
“Does that
make sense to you?” Kay softly asked Aamiina, as Lou rambled on.
“Uh-huh,”
she lied, then qualified, “a little.”
“It means
‘keep a good thing going’.”
The
seven-year-old looked into the fire and nodded. “Can I go pet Pretty?”
“Sure. I’ll
come with.”
Gordon, after
a minute, followed them. He hadn’t spent any time with Kay these past few days
and wanted to show, perhaps, he wasn’t such a loner or loser in the ways of
friendship, if that was a way in for things deeper. He had dressed up,
relatively speaking, for this campfire: a beige suede vest over a freshly
ironed maroon shirt, buttoned up to the collar and garnished with a cowboy tie.
If one looked closely—and Kay had—the oval of that tie held a small scorpion
lacquered against a pearl base, its pinchers up like a tiny joshua tree. The
tail, as ever with these creatures, curled within as if not a lancing threat.
He semi-hid
behind a birch, Charlie Brown style, about forty yards in front of the Carters’
cabin. Kay was completely focused on Aami and the dog, showing the former how
to offer her hand for the latter to sniff, even as this introduction was no
longer necessary. Then, how to scritch the neck and shoulders, circling the
ears and speaking gently into them, occasionally thumbing around the eyes as
they’d usually have some sleep debris to rub away—something dogs would poorly
try to do with their forepaws. Always speaking gently a little lexicon of
adjectives before the creature’s name, in Pretty's case a noun and adjective
combined.
“How did
you get her?” Aamiina wanted to know.
“Pretty?”
Kay addressed the dog as if she could narrate for herself. “Where did you come
from, anyway?” Pretty wagged her tail a fatigued cadence and lay her throat
down on the porch floorboards. She was glad to let Aami blanket her with slow,
steady strokes to the middle of her back. Kay sat back and clasped her shins.
“We were swimming at Lake Minnetonka about five years ago. Mia was trying for
the first time without water wings—you know what those are?”
“Yep, Mama
packed some for me. But haven’t used them yet.”
“Mama knows
best. And Mia was doing it right, too—asked our
mom for permission to go without them. We were all watching each other anyway. Until
out of the blue this mutt comes along—”
“Wha’s a
‘mutt’?”
“Mixed
breed. Sometimes like a put-down, but—look at her! I mean, we didn’t know she
was a border collie, just that she was pretty and playful, jumping into the
water with us. She didn’t have a collar or anybody around that might have been
walking her. Just… came out of the blue.”
Gordon
stepped into her view, hesitating whether to step toward the story. Aami asked
what ‘out of the blue’ meant, “like blue water?”
Kay
indicated with her eyes a place at the edge of the porch for Gordon to come
sit. He lumbered up to her definition. “‘Out of the blue’ is another idiom.
You’re learning lots of those tonight. And like ‘fill your boots’, it’s
something unexpected, like a surprise. In Pretty’s case, a pleasant
surprise—but I suppose a dangerous animal could have come out of the blue that day.”
“Like a
bear?”
“Like a
bear. And dogs can be unsafe, too, if they feel threatened. We weren’t really
sure what Pretty was feeling, even if she seemed to like the water. I mean,
where did she come from? Was she lost? Looking for her owner?”
“Looking
for a new one,” Gordon offered.
Kay cocked
her head to see if Pretty was asleep. “Yeah, turns out. Especially when Mia was
swimming out too far and starting to panic, and Dad sprinted from the beach but
Pretty was already nearer, swimming straight for her so she could grab onto her
tail—usually not a good idea with dogs, but…”
“Pretty
became a water wing.”
“She did.
Then Dad took over and everybody circled around the shallows to breathe a big
sigh of relief. Pretty went further to the sand and shook and barked some
warning not to go too deep. A cautionary tale.”
“Spelled,
t-a,” Gordon measured the pun, “-i-l?”
“I know how
to spell ‘Pretty’!” Aamiina bragged, and proved it with the slightest tracing
of the letters with each rise of dog’s inhalation.
Kay smiled
approval. “So we started packing up to go home, and this dog—no name, of
course—wouldn’t budge away from us. We walked the beach this way and that,
asked questions of strangers, all of whom shrugged their shoulders. Had to take
her home—well, Dad and Mom argued over that for a half-hour, exactly the amount
of time we needed to make up a name, imagine a doghouse, all that good stuff.
We tried for a week to izøne any leads—lost
animal bureaus, vet records, breeder foundations… Lots of interest in a missing
border collie, but no one could put a claim to this one. I mean, ‘claim’ isn’t
a comfortable word, but…”
Avis and
Nala emerged from the darkness. Aamiina repeated her spelling feat to show her
delicate touch with the tuckered-out pooch. “Shel and Mia are already in the
tent,” Nala said. “Your pajamas are there—let’s go brush teeth and get ready to
sleep.”
Kay pulled
herself up and considered a return to the campfire; Gordon was trudging in that
direction, at least as far as she could see. Avis had gone into the cabin to
light lanterns and freshen up the bedding. A few minutes, perhaps, to consult.
“You here
for the night?” Avis asked, with no apparent ambiguity.
“I
suppose.” Kay looked for some chore, but everything had been cleaned up before
the campfire. She added another pillow for Nala’s bed. “Tim doesn’t need two.”
Avis
agreed. “Come to think of it, I’m not sure Mia has one for herself down there.”
She took the spare and said, “I’ll go check.”
“Maybe the
grandma has a spare.”
“Or
Gordon?”
Kay slumped
into her reading chair. “Why mention him?”
“Why not?
He’s been rather helpful today.”
“I’ve only
seen him that way—every day we’ve been here.” She paused. “I know he gives you
the creeps—”
“No, no.
I’ve thought that through. Whoever attacked your dad and me was an enemy of
this place, and that doesn’t fit Gordon’s evident loyalty.”
“But it
fits his smell, right?”
Avis
sighed. “I just said that… without a real reference point. He’s no muskier than
anybody else.”
“Then why
did you imply—”
“—to build
up some instincts, like Pretty has.”
“That
requires a whole different snout. Can’t get that by wishing.”
“True.
Listen, Kaybee: I need to learn a life without izøne as much as anyone. We’re all a bit Neanderthal here.”
“Is that
better or worse than being a ‘golem’?”
The
question could have been heard, but Avis was out the door, headed toward the
lakefront.
Seeing her,
from his canoe near the opposite shore, Oscar was night fishing. He was curious
about the songs and such that normally didn’t waft as far as Winton. Perhaps he
needed a new mindset about this place, this sanctuary.
Not a forgiveness, per se, for its role in the disappearance of his wife—he was
dead certain about that. But somehow he needed a way in, a way to understand
and work things out from there. The little girl who talked to him the other
day, now in a pup tent with some friends—young people like them
would provide him focus, motivation. He and Martha couldn’t have kids, a
numbing factor in an otherwise happy marriage. Maybe he could become more
grandpa-like than grumpy old hermit. Wouldn’t bring Martha back, but…
His pole,
nestled under his right thigh and over his left, bent with the hooking of
something—maybe a walleye, maybe a snag. These things, despite eternal
experience, were never immediately apparent, sometimes even to the reeling in
and thrill or disappointment upon its view from the canoe. Walleyes weren’t
fighters, compared to other fish about to be yanked from their environment.
God, Martha, why’d you have to go without a
fight?
XXIII.
The next
couple days saw less drizzle but more wind, even to the point that the pup
tents strained against their stakes and needed bodies within to serve as
anchors. Pam and Trig could sleep under such conditions, but not with the
thought that the girls might be too light in theirs and blow away; they
arranged then, on the second night, to have them sleep on the Carter cabin
floor—a repeat of the fort Shel and Aamiina had made at Nala’s flat—and
that
much more fun with Mia involved.
There’d be
space for Pam and Trig, too, if they’d want to take the bed Avis and Seb were
happy to abandon for Jack’s offer that they could sleep in the chapel—an
on-the-hush offer, as this inner-sanctum of the sanctuary was not meant for
such ad hoc purposes. A strong western wind meant that occasionally the izøne could break through the shield that Jack had
engineered so carefully, and while Kay and Tim were excited for the chance to
stream information and social networks, their parents were anxious for the wind
to die down and keep a good thing good. The blips of izøne access were hit-and-miss, anyway, more prone to frustrate than
to satisfy. Such blips could never bother the underwater chapel, or anyone
streamed within.
The sun
came out the day before the visitors would need to return to Faribault. The
girls swam—various adults rotating as lifeguards—while Tim got back to serious
fishing, guaranteeing fresh walleye for dinner. Pam and Trig paddled their own
direction, toward Winton, around Lovers Island. Of five islands on this western
end of Fall Lake, they could explore four, which they did with honeymooners’ curiosity.
Lovers Island was off-limits, they knew, well before they approached the
electric force field to test its grit against their own. They looked up from
their canoe to fathom how the furnace and its medusa chimney structure emitted
such power against the izøne. The sky was
placid—no dirty effluence, and barely a shimmer of heat. “I gotta ask Jack how
he did this,” Trig mumbled.
“Whatever
it is, Shel’s been in seventh heaven here. Hate to imagine tomorrow’s tears.”
Trig
considered this for a while, stroking the water on whatever side Pam wasn’t.
“Y’know, Lightspeed, you could ask if the Carters would host them through the
week, and we could fetch her next weekend.”
Pam let the
idea float. “What about Aamiina?”
“That’d be
up to Nala—well, everything would be up to the Carters and Jack, of course.”
“Of
course.” Knowing she’d miss her daughter, Pam picked up the pace of her
paddling to get back to the beach and plunge in for a final swim.
Dinner was
magnificent: Tim, with the grandma’s guidance, learned to broil walleye fillets
and serve them with steamed vegetables and wild rice. Jack grabbed bottles of
red wine and measured a fraction into the lemonade for the kids to imbibe. Nala
made apple sponge cake for desert. And Lou, somewhat out of the blue, gave
everyone a pocket-sized package of buffalo jerky, “to remember North Dakota
by.”
Mia hugged
him, and Shel began to cry—disguised, she hoped, by the three thousand minutes
of happiness they’d had together. The adults had already consulted, though, and
perhaps now would be the time to say, “girls, if you’d like to stay the week up
here, while we have to go back to work, Jack has graciously let—”
“Hooray!”
said Aami first, then Mia. Shel couldn’t speak in her bluster, yet nodded
vigorously. Aamiina asked Trig, “Can we go back to the pup tent again?”
He shrugged
and looked at Avis, who middle-grounded, “sure, for daytime use. Cabin’s better
for nights.”
“I’ll stay in
the tent at night,” Tim asserted. “Gives you guys an extra bed.”
“We’ll talk
about it,” Seb replied, then pat him on the shoulder. “You did well today to
feed us.”
“Hear,
hear,” the grandma chimed, as Jack topped off glasses with a fresh bottle of
wine.
Darkness
was stealthily enveloping the cloudless sky. The quarter-moon had yet to rise,
so the infant glitter of stars had no competition to their beauty. Gordon got a
campfire going and sat next to Kay, who pretended to be a little chilly. Jack
brought out the guitar and did some classical fingering on a piece he said
befit the evening, stars out, a touch melancholy for the immanent departures of
Nala, Pam and Trig. A song inspired by Pablo Neruda a century-and-a-half ago:
I could write the saddest lines tonight
The night is starry bright and an ice blue orb
Shivers in the distant light
And yeah, the night wind cries as it swirls the skies
And it carries away every feigned embrace
And the others that enjoy it anyway
And yeah I'll write the saddest lines tonight:
I loved her... and sometimes
she loved me, too...
The night is starry bright and an ice blue orb
Shivers in the distant light
And yeah, the night wind cries as it swirls the skies
And it carries away every feigned embrace
And the others that enjoy it anyway
And yeah I'll write the saddest lines tonight:
I loved her... and sometimes
she loved me, too...
It was more
to cuddle to than sing along with, and arms draped accordingly, here and there. Pam risked a
question for Jack to risk answering: “who was that ‘she’?”
Jack pat
the guitar as if it had always wondered, too. “And how come not here?”
“Well, only
if you want to say.”
Lou passed
him the bottle, which by now needed no glasses to filter the common cheer.
“Sure,” Jack said with a swig. “There was a ‘she’ and—truth to art—‘sometimes’
can be twenty years or two minutes ago. But split that difference: ten years
ago—”
“An’ a
minute,” Lou calculated.
“—and a
minute, yes, there was a Mrs Childress and even the hopes of Childress
children, as long-term discussions go. We were living in Chicago—where I met
Gordon, by the way—on a shoestring budget, ’cause her work was in protest
movements against the izøne, and mine was in
experiments on the streaming serum—testing against the government’s claims that
everything up there and inside the streamed body was A-OK.”
“Mr Jack,”
Aamiina asked, “are you streamed?”
“Aamiina!” her mother rebuked, “that’s not a polite thing to—”
“Aamiina!” her mother rebuked, “that’s not a polite thing to—”
“—it’s a
good question,” Jack affirmed, “especially the way I’m talking about it! Both
Mrs Childress and I were streamed—are
streamed—irreversible, of course. And we didn’t hate being so; did it
voluntarily, as our generation was pioneering the whole thing. We were
philosophically in cahoots, loved each other as the song says, but that
‘sometimes’ crept up too often: intense work, being skeptical of something
normative. Her protests would have her travel far and wide, my lab work would
have me forget to go home occasionally, and… I just wish she could have stuck
around enough to experience this place and appreciate the best of both our
dreams.”
Murmurs of
approval lent to side conversations about dreams and being streamed, what the izøne is or isn’t in terms of health and well being.
There was a temptation, beyond Aamiina’s chutzpah, to inquire of Lou and Gordon
and the grandma if they were
streamed, but no one did so. It wouldn’t make sense, anyway, for unstreamed
people to be here—they would have no need for a ‘sanctuary’ from an izøne that wouldn’t affect them one place or
another. Seb and Avis had already spoke to their visitors about why they had
taken this one-year commitment and how well the early-goings have been,
notwithstanding the mugging outside the sanctuary grounds. Pam and Trig took
mental note of that mugging, wondering silently if it had any connection to the
Hotline mystery that compelled them here in the first place. But muggings happen
everywhere—more likely in cities—so they decided, separately, not to be
concerned.
“I’m
interested,” Trig ventured after a gulp of wine, “Jack, in how you did it. You
stymied the beast—if the izøne is that—like
David against Goliath!”
“Well, that
implies killing it off, which of course no one could probably do, the ‘beast’
in everybody’s control and nobody’s. I just figured out how to block it.”
“That’s
what’s so fascinating. How?”
“How? You
want the ancient Chinese secret?”
Trig wagged
his head, embarrassed to press on, but, “yeah! Not that I’d steal it, or blab—”
“Fact is,”
Trig admitted, “those that licensed me and do safety checks know full well the
secret. An’ it aint ancient nor Chinese, though how other cultures deal with
streaming and izøne density was a huge part of my
research. I’ll throw the question back to you. How would you block the izøne, bearing in mind safety and logistics?”
“I dunno,
find some kryptonite?”
“Fine. And
do what with it?”
“Build a
dome from it. Or wear it. Couldn’t ingest it, could you?”
“In a way,
we’ve ingested the streaming serum to access
the izøne. One could imagine an antidote that
reverses that within the body.”
“Is that
the trick?”
“No. That
would be like chemotherapy, with plenty of downsides. Besides the questionable
ethics, I wouldn’t qualify for such a license.”
“Then how—”
“Ironically
or not, and I won’t go into the minutiae, the streaming serum combined with heat
and a way of staying afloat disrupts the signals of the izøne. Inside the body, the serum gloms to certain dendrites and
adapts to the biological puzzle that we are; outside the body, the serum
vacuums up the ions up there, acting, I suppose, as if it needs to know
everything—”
“—but
channeling it nowhere.”
“Exactly.”
Seb was
listening, even as the conversation was on the down-low. “So, it’s just as safe
up there,” he surmised, “as in here,” pointing to his temple.
“I wouldn’t
start this place if it were otherwise,” Jack vouched. “And that’s why all my
work in Chicago paid off. Speaking of which,” he smiled and tipped the wine
bottle before offering it to Seb, “the payment for serum is…, let’s just say,
plenty. Government covers the few injections it takes for starting up the
biological process. Well, I can tell ya, there’s an awful lot of injections
going up from Lover’s Island, and government aint lending me a hand.”
“Who is,
then? Our fee here for the year isn’t so outrageous.”
“Hospitals
have stock that reaches expiration, but is still safe enough outside of
streaming. And friends donate to the cause. Maybe even Mrs Childress out there
has peddled some influence on our behalf.”
“That
‘sometimes’ rather gripped me,” Seb confessed.
Jack picked
up his guitar to riff some more. “Always grips me.”
Kay and
Gordon took a walk toward the lakefront and west, where Lovers Island was obscured
by two bigger islands, closer to this shore. “That’s where I was shipwrecked a
week ago,” Kay sort of joked.
“I know,”
Gordon didn’t joke. “I watched you.”
“You watched me? be shipwrecked?”
Gordon blushed.
“No. I made sure you weren’t going to drown.”
“Hmm. I
guess that’s reassuring.”
They walked
further, the path less intuitive, if the quarter-moon cast a modicum of light.
Lovers Island a half-mile away over star-kissed waters, they stopped to take
everything in. Kay wanted to ask a million questions, though not the first one
on her mind. Gordon, for his part, had a mind devoid of questions but not of basic
curiosity. He thought it prudent to point out Winton, a mile in front of them,
as the wild, wild west—“where that old man with a gun confronted you,” as if
Kay needed such reminding.
“Yeah, he
did. And you put your body in front of that threat.”
“S’nothing.”
Kay let him
glory in his modesty. Perhaps that’s all he knew—how to disappear from common
courtesies yet swoop on in when no one’s looking for the breakdown of morals.
Gordon was no Clark Kent—an archetype Kay would never have to stream again—nor
was she a Lois Lane, though the whole idea of superhero journalism made her
happier than she already had been these days. Who knew? This sanctuary thing is panning out. For Papa and Mama to
work this hard, not just to budget for this year, but to think of Mia missing
out—she’s not, of course, but—missing izøne for a year (for us; for Mia a lifetime), and
what that means to be a family, izøned or otherwise… Let alone the chance to fish,
prepare an unmatched walleye dish, and sing these idioms to idiot degrees, and
hear of North Dakota like it’s paradise, and who am I to disagree? Buffalo and
memories—a clinic in never needing context more, a weird way forward in these
days of always feeling—
Her arm pulled backward,
Gordon’s face upon her lips, covering the scream that should have carried back
to camp, but then the golem slumped to some appeal, “I’m sorry,” as if that
would be enough right now.
“You’re what?!”
Gordon
didn’t have a leg to stand on, let alone a voice. He cried instead, like but
unlike Shel an hour or two before.
Kay checked
herself, stunned if not particularly surprised. The walk assumed a burden, now
on Gordon, still on her. He said ‘sorry’—she said ‘what’—they had nothing else
to constitute an understanding.
On
this nether path, the two slumped in compunction; along it loped Pretty, more
alert than anyone had seen her in these frenzied days of too much visitation.
Kay, of course, and Gordon, too, appreciated the border collie doing what only
instinct could: herd them back to wholesome ground. The quarter-moon agreed and
lit exactly what was needed in the absence of a flashlight or some izøned
map. Gordon trudged ahead, then Kay reached for his downcast hand and let that
be their elephant cord, Pretty making sure that they were walking not too slow,
if also not too fast to reenter the open sanctuary.
XXIV.
Trig and
Pam woke before dawn and left their tent for the girls’ wigwams later in the
day and week. They knocked softly on the Carters’ door and went in; Nala was up
and ready to go, having taken a cup of coffee from Avis, who also prepared them
journey sandwiches from leftover fillets. They didn’t wake up the girls,
hibernating in their indoor tent, and rather tip-toed out the door and to their
shuttle. They’d stop at Burntside Hotel first, apologizing for their three-day
disappearance and settling the bill. The hotel charged just half, happy that
their adventure had panned out.
And the
three of them were happy, too, if awfully groggy in the brightening morning.
Headaches caught them in unison, first Trig lamenting he’d drunk too much at
the campfire, then Pam reminding him she hadn’t much to drink but also felt
hungover, then Nala—who had no alcohol—suggesting
maybe their return to the izøne was the cause. She even streamed it:
side-effects to prolonged exposure in or out of izøne, but most of what came up were historical analyses of when the
technology wasn’t everywhere. Nothing
on the consequences of visits to underground mosques or wilderness sanctuaries.
“Gosh, if
we’re having migraines after less than three days, how will the girls do after
ten?”
“Aamiina
would be fine, of course. But Shel?”
“Should we
turn back?”
Silence for
a couple miles. “Let’s see how we feel by Barnum.”
“Where we
hit that deer last week?”
Pam
frowned. “I don’t know why that came to mind, but yeah—let’s stretch our legs
there and make a decision.”
Between the
re-acclimation and the need to report to
work on time, the decision at Barnum was not difficult. They were eager to step
out of the shuttle, shake free the dull effects of incubation. Trig traced the
journey of the deer for Nala to imagine, crashing here, wobbling there, pushing
toward a path back into where it came. He left out the detail of the warden’s
pursuit—they hadn’t witnessed that, anyway.
“Shame that
a moment and a leap could devastate,” Nala reflected. “The risks I’ve taken
have been substantial, but also in slo-mo.”
“That
speaks to our past few days,” Pam agreed. “Such a gift to just let things
unfold, morning to night, land to water to campfire ring.”
They got
back into the shuttle and continued south, heads fairly clear.
Fewer
adults meant more deliberate—but essentially less—supervision of the girls.
They enjoyed an easy morning spiffing up both tents, inside the cabin and at
the lakefront, proud of their efforts as if contributing to some civic cause.
In fact, the sanctuary did need some volunteer labor to reinforce the
chapel—caulk the seams within, clear away the algae on some underwater windows.
Tim took the inner job (with the plaid-shirt guy for chess breaks), Seb took the
snorkeling job (to be a spare lifeguard for the beach, Avis there as well).
Gordon, Jack and Lou had things to do on the Kawishiwi dam; Kay and Sylvia and
the grandma tended to the greenhouse, harvesting the last of summer, planting
for the fall. The girls and Pretty swam steadily to noon, then helped Avis make
a smorgasbord lunch for everyone to come back in, laugh away the lure of a
siesta, and go back to their tasks again.
The
afternoon left Mia, Shel and Aamiina to explore, not without Pretty, whom Avis pseudo-sternly
clasped behind the jowls and implored: don’t
let them get out of your sight, to which the border collie licked her wrists and
smiled predictably, never having failed. The stakes were simultaneously harder
and softer here: foreign kids (come down to it) but increasingly familiar
bounds—the sanctuary panning out that way.
And outward
it panned. Mia whispered a plan: “we go past our shuttle, which my dad says is
dead, and over the gate and toward the road that comes into this place—”
“—into the
out-of-the-izøne?” Shel managed to express, if not so
intentionally.
“Yes,”
affirmed Mia, if she (and Aamiina) had no real idea what being in or out of the
izøne might mean. “I know a man in the ghost
town nearby, and he seems mad but also nice…”
It was
grist enough—I know and the ghost—to propel fun-loving fear
while everyone else did their chores, civic or otherwise, closer to shore.
With
serious-faced musketeers behind her, Mia told her mother they’d be in the tent
for awhile—not specifying which, as if that might mollify the lie. Then they
skipped toward the cabin, went inside (slamming the door for effect) and
jettisoned out the open window in the back, Huck Finn style. Pretty had curled
up into her lean-to on the porch, but perked up to Mia’s exaggerated whisper
from the woods they would go through to get to the gate. At first Pretty stood
guard: it didn’t make sense that they had just gone inside and now they were
out. Then she swallowed some barks—emulating the whisper—and joined the cadre
of explorers.
While Mia
knew exactly where to go, she feigned some naïveté, hoping Shel and Aami would have some of
the sensations of those meerkat weeds and breezy echoes through worn and torn
structures. Aami was wide-eyed, asking dozens of questions that Mia didn’t
pretend to have answers for; Shel was squinting away an emerging headache, as
izøne adumbrations confused her sense of
what to look for, how to think. Pretty sensed that inhibition and paced closer
to her, a brushing tail as an offered touchstone.
“There,”
pointed Mia, a house-and-a-half away. “That’s where he lives.”
Shel held
her arms out, crossing-guard style. “Wait. I may have a message from my mom.”
“What?”
Aamiina crinkled up her eyebrows.
“Just…
something—I guess she’s just thinking of me.”
“What is
she saying?”
“It doesn’t
work that way—not ‘saying’, but I know her voice is there if I want to hear
it.”
“Well, why
don’t you then?”
Shel
puzzled her options. “If I listen to the message, she’ll know I’m not in the
sanctuary.”
“Why?”
“’Cause
that’s how she sends, so she knows I got it.”
They
ruminated for a bit, discreetly. Shel imagined her mother simply saying,
‘honey, I’m here if you need anything’ and maybe, ‘have a good time this week.’
Mia thought adventures, by definition, needed to handle the unknown but also to
stay out of trouble. Aamiina wondered what her own mom would send her and
whether she was thinking about her otherwise. She looked down at Pretty and
tried to predict what the dog might be thinking right now, sending messages
beyond the construction of letters and words, English or even Somali.
All
thoughts rechanneled, however, with the sudden appearance of Oscar, opening his
door and stepping out a few strides in their direction. Shel grabbed Mia’s
elbow while Aamiina knelt quickly behind Pretty, who barked what seemed like a
greeting. “Hi,” Mia called out, “mister—I don’t know your name.”
“Don’t know
yours, neither.”
“Don’t tell him,” mouthed Shel.
“Mia. And
you already know Pretty, and these are my friends.”
A small nod
to each before announcing, “I’m Oscar. No need for a ‘mister’ in front of
that—I’m nobody special.” He looked like he wanted to say more, unload a
lifetime of why he’d declaim as much, satirically or not. He had no illusions
any passing stranger would demur—oh,
everybody’s special in some way—snowflake theory, it was deemed was he was
small. About their age, in fact. “Well, if you’re here you might take some
cranberry juice.”
“What’s
that?” Aamiina asked, more to her peers than him.
Shel
streamed it. “Might come from those bushes,” she murmured, “but I wouldn’t—”
“Sure,”
said Mia, stepping forward and joined by Pretty, then Aamiina. Shel was tempted
to use the izøne more, take that message from Pam, but
fell into a different temptation to follow, throw caution to this breeze.
Pretty,
like she’d done before, entered the house easily, in front of Oscar. He rather
smiled at that, “good instincts, Rover. You keep that up.”
A
mile-and-a-half east, as the crow flies—or loon, in this case, diving into Fall
Lake—Tim and the plaid-shirt guy were engrossed in a chess match. Plenty of
caulking left to do, but then again, there was no urgency: the chapel was fit
as a fiddle, as Jack liked to say now and then.
Seb looked
through a window he was scraping and decided he, too, could use a break,
perhaps trade jobs in the interest of variety. In the time it took him to doff
the wet suit and get into dry clothes, Lou also ambled into the chapel for a similar
break. Sylvia may have seen him, and the greenhouse was getting stuffy—the
chapel never was that, a marvel in ventilation. She wanted to play the pump
organ and Avis, who had joined the afternoon shift, offered to be her audience,
sing along side if she could.
Not having
had such a gathering here for the past half week, they all rather missed the
club feel. It was curious that no one had broached its availability over the
weekend, especially as a place to dodge the drizzle. Then again, its area was
not huge and the campfire ring made for the same effect, allowing for more serendipity.
“The thing
I love about this place, though,” Seb stretched out in the den of beanbags and
pillows, “is how it feels like a hammock.”
“Geez, ya
put it that way, may make me sea-sick,” Lou joked.
“No
queasiness here—helped me recover, in fact.” Seb motioned to Avis to come join
him here, but she instead slid onto the bench beside Sylvia, to read the words
in the old fashioned songbook:
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles
and warm woolen mittens—
“—oh, Kay
would love this! Honey, go pull her in from the greenhouse—”
But Seb
didn’t have to, as Kay and the grandma entered on cue, having sniffed out the
croppings of a party. Kay half-sat on the other side of Sylvia, and even Lou circled
round with his crackly voice to join in:
Cream colored ponies and crisp apple
strudels
Door bells and sleigh
bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with
the moon on their wings
These are a few of my
favorite things!
Avis didn’t
sing the next verse, wondering about the
Girls in white dresses with blue satin
sashes…
She waited out the fullness of this song and the next before
going over to Seb and asking close to his ear, “do you think the girls are
okay?”
“Long as
they’re not swimming, sure. They said they’d explore. What better reason for
coming here in the first place?”
Tim
proclaimed “checkmate” to the wait—what?
chagrin of the plaid-shirted man, who extend a hand and re-racked his side,
this time with the black pieces. “What do you call it, the last game of three?”
he called out to his sister.
Lou
answered instead: “rubber match. And may th’ best man lose, to keep us all
happy!”
An easy
benison for a room that agreed, though Avis was stuck on where the girls could
be, especially as Mia would want to show off this cave and its wonderful pump
organ. She kissed Seb’s forehead and slipped out. In the tunnel she passed Jack
and Gordon, drawn by the merriment. “Back soon,” she promised, “after finding
the girls.”
Gordon,
anxious to see Kay, didn’t break stride; Jack stopped in his tracks. “They’re
not here? Can I help form a posse?”
Unclear on
his tone, Avis gave a light laugh. “No, I’m sure they’re safe and sound.”
“Playin’
hide-and-seek?”
“Yeah,
maybe that,” biting her lip as she pushed through the boathouse door.
Oscar’s
living room was small and dark, even as the shades were open to afternoon
sunbeams. He had served up cranberry juice—tasty, if lukewarm—and freshly
peeled carrots. The girls asked him questions about the town, why nobody lived
here anymore. “There’s a few of us here,” Oscar waved his arm vaguely, “as long
as we’re not streamed to that izøne. May’s
well not be a sanctuary for people like us.”
Aamiina
piped up, “I’m not streamed, but Shel is.” The blush was immediate and shared
in such a reveal.
Mia,
diplomatically, suggested it doesn’t matter who’s streamed. “I like it here but
I like Minneapolis too. What’s the big deal about izøne, anyway?”
Shel didn’t
want to say anything. Her headache hadn’t subsided, if masked somewhat in the intrigue
of the place. She went over to look at the pictures on the wall, resisting the
urge to stream anything about them.
“What you
got there,” Oscar decided to say, “is the last streamed person to live in
Winton.”
“Who is
she?” Mia asked, joining Shel.
“Who is
she? Remember we talked last time about walleyes, yes? Remember?”
“They’re
fish,” she explained to her friends, “we had them for dinner last night.”
“Lucky
you,” Oscar smirked. “Not easy to catch, walleye. And that lady there, she was
the Walleye Queen of the region.”
“You caught
her?” Aamiina tried to figure out.
“Married
her. Martha.”
“Where is
she now?”
Mia had a
feeling. “Shhh.”
Oscar stood
up and walked to the eastern window that glimpsed at Fall Lake. “She got
streamed late in life, then went away. Suddenly, without indication. Maybe to
that sanctuary of yours.” His lips trembled to postulate more—add Lovers Island
to the mix, before she’d been streamed and after—but he swiveled his head to
see their innocent eyes and clamped the topic at that.
“I’m
sorry,” Shel decided, when nobody else would express the obvious. She silently
streamed ‘Martha’ and ‘Walleye Queen’ and saw in her mind a young lady—Kay’s
age—with a tiara and a face just as pretty as the older woman in this framed
picture on the wall. Her headache was worsening, and she said “sorry” again, “I
need to go...” While Oscar pointed out the bathroom door, she shook her head,
“back to the sanctuary.”
“Be
careful, girls. And thanks for the visit.”
“Thank you
for the juice and carrots,” Aamiina beamed.
Mia also
flashed a measure of cheer, patting Pretty to get up. “Bye, Mister Oscar.”
He watched
them go out and hovered at the door. “No ‘mister’, just Oscar… And say hello to
your mom.”
“Why did he mention your mom?” Shel leaned
into Mia as they walked rather quickly.
“Maybe cuz
she’s the only other of us to be in his house. Maybe he mentioned Martha to
her, too.”
“The
what-kind-of-queen?” Aamiina tried to remember.
“Walleye.”
Aware that
their time away might be noticed by now, they stopped talking and picked up the
pace. Pretty was faster, leading them to the mossy old road that had got them
here. She barked with abandon at a familiar figure striding toward them,
stopping now to signal an akimbo rebuke. Avis might have been gratified by her
instinct where they would go, or that they weren’t overlong, or that they stuck
together, three musketeers and their dog. Of course she wouldn’t show this fair
relief in order to make them squirm.
“We’re
sorry,” Shel offered, miffed that the others were poor with this phrase.
“No, Shel,
this is on Mia,” Avis waited for her daughter to nod. “But all of you, please
watch each other. An apology is thoughtful; good advice is mindful.”
“Okay,
we’ll remember.” Mia reached for her hand as they walked more relaxed. “Oscar
says hello.”
“Who’s
Oscar? That old man?”
“Yes. He’s
not so mean.”
“No. But
all the more you should have asked me.”
“We’re
sorry.”
Avis
squeezed her hand softly. The other girls chatted a couple yards ahead, trying
to keep up with Pretty. Shel’s head didn’t ache anymore, not that she associated
that with an absence of izøne. Avis might have
had a headache just for the worry, not due to the influence of Lovers Island.
She thought about her encounter with the old man—Oscar, according to these girl
scouts—and why he was so irate. Something about his wife, a rant about the
sanctuary ruining their life, or lives. And now he extends greetings. “To whom
does Oscar say hello?”
“To you:
‘to your mom’, he said.”
“Did he
mention anybody else? Gordon?”
Mia
searched her memory, at least from this visit—the only one her mother would
have in mind. In that regard, the truth was “no.” And lest she think about it
more, the sanctuary path had been reached and the musketeers raced gleefully to
their lakefront tent.
XXV.
Jack was
furious that the girls had absconded, finding out later that evening. He had
taken fifteen minutes in the chapel with the others, even breaking out the
bourbon for an early happy hour (or a quarter of that). He didn’t want to compel
a ‘back to work’ mandate to the jovial crowd, yet pulled at Gordon’s sleeve to
imply unfinished business at the Kawishiwi dam. They didn’t head in that
direction, however, as the girls almost certainly wouldn’t be there. Jack went
to check cabins, asking other having-runners if they’d seen the kids, or how
they viewed them generally; Gordon went along the lakeshore, his regular
stomping grounds as the stoker of Lovers Island.
The girls
and Avis and Pretty returned, then, without either man noticing. By the time
everyone had circled back—including the tipsy crowd exiting the chapel—the
orange sun was halfway behind Winton, signaling a need to get ready for dinner.
It wouldn’t be communal at a campfire this evening, as the weekend provided
enough of that. It would be leftover walleye and some fresh pickings from the
greenhouse, at least for those who reaped that mini-harvest. Then dishes to
wash in the cabin sink, fitted with a well-tapped supply of fresh water; drainage
was limited to a couple cubed feet of aggregate outside, so more substantial
washing would have to be done in the bath house near the dam.
Kay led the
youngsters there to clean up before bedtime, while Tim took a pail of garbage
to bury far into the woods. It left a rare quiet moment for Avis and Seb to sit
back and talk. “You ready for empty-nest syndrome, Mama Bear?”
“That’s
mixing metaphors. And no—not after losing track of the kids this afternoon.”
“Losing
’em? Where to?”
Avis
sighed. “Where I thought Kay or Tim would sneak off to by now. Out of the
sanctuary, into the izøne.”
“Why would
they want that? They’re not streamed—”
“Shel is.
But even beyond that, they wanted to see Winton.”
A knock on
the door had Seb get up, asking over his shoulder: “They walked that far?”
Jack stood
on the welcome mat. “How far?” Seb waved him in.
Avis sighed
again, differently. “Not so far. Found the girls walking from Winton.”
“From Winton? Like they were there?”
Like she
felt passing Jack in the tunnel, Avis didn’t know how to gauge his tone. “They
were. Stopped in to visit an old man we’d met before we entered the sanctuary.”
“It’s hard
to say ‘met’,” Seb qualified. “You had ten-minute chat, but I don’t know him
from Adam.”
“This is
the old guy that might have attacked you! And the girls went to his house for a
visit?”
“I’m sure he
wasn’t the one who attacked us,” Avis leveled. “He’s just a wisp of a man.
Besides, the girls went with the dog.”
“To their
credit,” Seb bobbled his head. “Still, Jack has a point—whoever attacked us is
likely still out there. We can’t have the kids just roam.”
“Of course
I told them that.”
Jack was
still standing despite being offered a chair. “Listen, it’s not to put fear
into anyone—I like to roam myself, and I’d like to think that attack was a
one-off, as we’ve never that kind of trouble before.”
“…But,” Seb
urged him on.
“But it’s
important to honor the boundaries. Nothing against those who enjoy the izøne—I do, myself, when I take trips to town. This
sanctuary, though, can turn into gossip, or worse, when outsiders try to know
how we tick.”
“How we
tick?” Avis wanted also to know.
“How we
manage to scramble the izøne.”
“How Lovers
Island works, like you mentioned the other night.”
“Right.”
“And you
think an old man from Winton is going to get intel from little kids?”
Jack
shrugged his shoulders. “If I know whom you’re referencing, yeah. He’s been
against our operation since the get-go. Canoed up to shore, convinced we were
doing some Satanist charms in the chapel—”
“I can see
how it seems mysterious.”
“I keep it
private precisely to protect having-runners, to give them a refuge from contrarian
rants. Some prefer campfires, some to be alone as much as possible in their
cabins: we don’t push folks to this way of living or that. But our common
foundation—why we’re all here—is to enjoy the world as it was before izøne, and not be bullied about it.”
The door
opened and Tim came in. Jack put his palms out to suggest he had said enough
anyway. Seb was still interested, however. “Do you think there’s some envy from
people like him—‘the grass always greener’—”
“Could be.
From what I gather, he’s not streamed anyway. Winton for him should be
sanctuary enough.”
“Who’s the
‘him’?” Tim wanted to know.
“Nobody,”
Avis asserted. “Not worth reviewing.”
Jack mimed
a tipping of hat as he backed out the door and bid them good night, masking the
fact he was furious.
The next
day planned for the next and the next, which would only succeed if everyone
cooperated and passed their merit badges, so to speak. With the two pup tents
and a larger one retrieved from the shuttle, the seven of them and Pretty could
canoe to place they could camp, explore more in earnest instead of scratching any itch
to sneak away. Tim borrowed a map from the grandma, who suggested a destination
of Gary Island in Pipestone Bay, eleven winding miles in total, with two
portages through Newton and Pipestone Falls. The weather looked favorable, and
just to be sure, Seb walked halfway to Winton to confirm by the izøne, using the time to stream a bit more things
that increasingly weren’t worthy to check. He thought for a minute whether
sending a message to Nala or Pam would be wise, but then, decidedly No. We’re not leaving the sanctuary, after
all, and this very step into izøne might confuse matters. Let sleeping dogs lie,
the idiom he had to stream, not knowing why it came to mind.
While
Aamiina and Shel would not have to paddle, sitting on floatable cushions in the
middle of their canoes, they’d still need to prove they could handle an
improbable flip and (lifejackets on) swim to shore. They’d need to handle the
net if the trawler hooked a fish—and be calm when that fish would go reasonably
crazy. They’d need to tow their weight in gathering stones and wood for a fire
circle, then be able to tend it.
Then
there’d have to be the naming of the canoes. Tim would be in his own with most
of the gear and Pretty, so Shel suggested ‘Pretty Tim’ but blushed instantly at
how he looked at her. Avis and Kay would paddle with Aamiina in the middle—‘Mother
Ship’ made sense there. Seb and Mia would have Shel in the middle; Kay deemed
them ‘Santa Maria’ and renamed her own ‘La Niña’ (the favorite of Columbus, she remembered
from past streaming), leaving Tim to be ‘La Pinta’. “It was the fastest of the
three,” she argued to Tim’s suspicion, “and since you know where we’re
going, you need to be the point guard.” She was mashing up the Spanish, but it
satisfied Tim.
So they
floated out mid-week to discover new lands, fearing nothing as much as falling
off the edge of the izøned earth.
Gary Island
hosted them perfectly. The barrier of water in Pipestone Bay was meant to
mitigate the problem of predators (the wolverine still on Mia’s mind) and it
was easy for Tim to canoe to the mainland to bury fish heads and other garbage.
Their three tents in the middle of the island looked like a stagecoach
ring—safety within safety within the wilder unknown.
Thirty-six
hours after they pushed off from the sanctuary beach, they returned happily
exhausted. Shel and Aamiina were extra excited that in half as many hours,
their moms and Trig would be coming back and everyone would ‘fill your boots’
again.
They and
Mia got busy rebuilding their tent-within-the-cabin. Avis and Tim filleted some
Mile Island bluegills for supper. Kay went to find Gordon, ostensibly to return
the canoes and preservers to the boathouse. Seb rolled up the large tent and
stored it back in the shuttle.
In the
short distance further, at the sanctuary gate, he noticed two figures working
against the fading light. One, by his stance, was Gordon. “Hey,” Seb called
out, “we’ve just arrived.”
Gordon
didn’t answer, but Jack, obscured by a fusebox he apparently was installing,
echoed the “Hey.” He grunted to tighten some bolt and asked, “how did it go?”
“Gary
Island? Good recommendation.” Seb stepped toward them with no detail in mind,
instead asking, “can I lend a hand?”
“On this?
No—just about done, and getting too dark to work safely.”
“What is
it—a callbox of sorts?”
“Yeah, and
security on top of that. You’ll want to remind the kids—well, I’ll mention it
to each having-runner—not to touch the perimeter fence, including this gate
unless someone at the boathouse gives the okay.”
Seb looked
at the stretch of old fence going into the woods in each direction and noticed
new sets of wires on hard plastic poles that hadn’t been previously there.
“Electric? You have enough juice for that ’round the clock?”
Jack lifted
himself, locked the fusebox and pocketed the key. “That’s what Gordon and I
were doing at the dam, rigging a separate output that supplies just for this
fence.”
“Is this
because the girls wandered out?”
“More to the point—that nobody wanders in. What we talked about three nights ago, remember?”
“More to the point—that nobody wanders in. What we talked about three nights ago, remember?”
“I do.” Seb
looked at Gordon, who had nothing to add. “Just surprised you’ve been able to
do this so fast. Hope it won’t zap the folks coming in tomorrow?”
“Trig and
Pam?”
“And Nala.”
“Of course.
Nobody legit will be zapped—I’m not done with the signage and such.” Jack
gathered his tools, jiggled a new padlock on the gate as if to show a softer
side to the plan. “Who was it? Atwood I think—who said in this world there’s
‘freedom to’ and ‘freedom from’.” He nodded at Gordon’s eyebrowed request to
run ahead, his duties done for the day.
Seb watched
the golem trot toward what would be likely his goal—Kay—and swallowed that
thought to pick up on Jack’s. “Freedom ‘to’ and ‘from’ what?”
“Can’t
recall if she specified. It was in some weird world where government was
calling everyone’s shots. I’m not interested in ‘government’ really, but I
bring it up because…” Jack hesitated.
“Because?”
Seb kept walking, not wanting to stretch this talk out.
“Because
the izøne is a lot of ‘freedom to’, and I’m not sabotaging
that for the wider world.”
“And the
sanctuary is ‘freedom from’, if I see where you’re going.”
“Did you
miss the izøne en route to Gary Island?”
“You know
we came here not to miss the izøne, but to experience life without it.”
“Freedom from.”
“Freedom from.”
“Sure. And
so far, so good.”
“That’s
what I’m here to protect, Seb. Freedom to let your year go as planned, freedom
from anyone interfering.” Jack bumped Seb’s elbow in an extended right hand.
“We’re
shaking on that,” Seb puffed a little laugh, “like blood brothers?”
Jack smiled
for the first time in three days. “Why not? Minus the blood, of course.”
“Minus the
blood,” Seb blankly repeated, and shook.
XXVI.
Bedtime
came early for most, including Kay, who entered mid-supper in a sullen mood.
She didn’t appreciate Gordon’s indifference about the details of their trip or
evasions on how his own day-and-a-half had gone. Mia took her role, then, of
reading a chapter aloud, pulling out The
Trumpet of the Swan and putting the other girls to sleep, despite their valiant
questions about Sam Beaver, and “where was the pond?” and “island… nest of…
swa—hh—hh—hh…”
Seb wasn’t
as ready to sleep. He sat on the porch with Avis, whispering about the new
fence. “Just the same as keeping livestock in,” he clarified, meaning less that
they were sheep and more that an accidental touch would not be
life-threatening. “A zap to stay away, but still…”
Avis
wondered, “only from that Winton side? I mean, we just traveled miles of
sanctuary space. Jack thinking he’ll fence all that in?”
“Who knows?
He and Gordon rigged it from the dam and followed the old fence line: looping
all these east cabins to the gate, then the west end looking out to Lovers
Island. Basically the land he certifiably owns.”
“What’s the
big deal then? Just like us camping on an island, it’ll keep the bears and
wolverines away.”
“Wolverines
are as elusive as big foot; Pretty more likely got into it with a lynx or coyote.”
But the bear got Seb thinking. “You know, any creature that climbs trees is
going to get over that fence.”
“Yeah.
Fences aren’t foolproof.”
“And I’m
going to test that notion right now.”
“In the
dark? You’re not. You’re—”
“Gonna see
about those cabins closer to Garden Lake, south of the old road—the one that
Lou lives in, for instance. How aware is he of this electric fence? Will he
have to get the grandma or someone to unlock the gate every time he comes to
the chapel?”
“Let it be
tomorrow’s thing. I’d be nervous about you breaking a leg or… worse.”
“Nonsense.
I’ll take Pretty if that helps.”
“No. Pretty
can’t climb trees. C’mon, leave this for tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow
folks from Faribault come back. I want to ask Lou a few things before broad
daylight.”
Avis wasn’t
going to win and didn’t want to offer, “should I go with?” to which Seb grave
that it’s a free world shrug she
never took as an answer. She opened the cabin door and asked Pretty if
she’d come in or stay out. Free world even for this dog, Pretty decided to go
in with her.
Seb did,
too, but only for a flashlight and a coil of rope that hung from a long nail.
Tim, who’d want to nose into this plan, was fast asleep, and Kay, reading by
candlelight, feigned disinterest. Seb tiptoed out and kissed the cabin good
night.
While he
didn’t have a particular tree in mind, he was confident choices would avail
themselves with a little patience. But first stop, the gate—why not just bound
over that, as there’d naturally be a break in the wiring? Jack and Gordon had
accounted for that, however, running the electric cord along the top rail and
spring-loading a flapper one side to the other, above the padlocked gap. Along
with the old barbed-wire that had been fairly easy to step over or through, the
new fence covered the gaps to chest-high, a more than symbolic way to stay out
or stay in.
Birches,
when clumped, were easier to climb but stingy on branches that arched over the
fence. Red pines were better that way, yet their trunks were rough and hard to
hold onto. Seb managed to throw an end of the rope around a branch twelve feet
up, secured the loop and scaled the tree walking its trunk vertically, then
grabbing the branch and shimmying over for a safe drop. He left the rope there,
knowing the return would be harder but doable.
The
flashlight was more the more necessary tool to navigate through the woods to Lou’s cabin. He
had been there before, exploring the Garden Lake reservoir above Kawashiwi dam:
the further south, the more in-and-out the izøne would
be. For Lou, unstreamed, that staticky fact didn’t matter. He lived here before
Jack had bought the grounds, and rather appreciated people like him, having run
an unnatural life and now having come back to nature. Seb wanted to ask if he
knew the old man from Winton, but first on his mind was Lou’s take on this fence.
Lou’s
lantern was lit, and Seb flashed his flashlight toward the same window to
signal this unannounced visit. A couple hushed calls of his name, and Lou
opened the door, with a fearless, “who’s there?”
“It’s me,
Seb. Pardon my—”
“Oh, Seb!
C’mon in. ’Less you’re lost or sumtin’.”
“No, not lost.”
Seb ascended the almost unnecessary steps to Lou’s little porch—one that had a
great view of Garden Lake, now blanketed in darkness. “Just wanted your opinion on
a thing or two.”
“Sure. Want
some coffee?”
“This time
of night?”
“Scandernavian
stock—don’ pay attention to daylight or not. C’mon in.”
He’d been
reading a book by an armchair and was quick to light up another lantern and
then a gas burner on an old stove. Seb smiled at the simplicity and warmth of
the place—not that Lou had his fireplace lit, saving the chopped wood for
later in autumn. “Yours is exactly the place I imagined up here,” Seb mused, “when Avis
and I committed for a year.”
“Hope it
goes longer, what with those youngsters ya got. Take sugar? Don’ got milk.”
Coffee. Not
what Seb wanted, but “okay. Just a bit.”
Seb settled
into another chair in the main room, less sure now what he wanted to ask. “I
don’t see any muskellunge on the wall, Lou. They all got away?”
“Ate ’em.”
Lou entered with two mugs. “Stuffed my stomach, better’n the walls. Fact is, I
don’ go fer the biggies—no Cap’n Ahab ’n me. Easy to net perch right out the
door here, practic’ly.”
“Now, don’t
give away your secrets.”
“Nothin’ to
give away, jus’ to share. That’s part of the ’sprit de corps, doncha know. You
catch my fish, I catch yers, ever’body’s fed an’ happy.”
“What are
you reading, if I may ask.”
“Why,
certainly. It’s a stand-by o’ mine, tend to pull it off the shelf ’bout this
time o’ year. One Hundred Years of
Solitude—you know it?”
“A
biography, I think, of… I forget.”
“Not mine,
if that’s in the ol’ ballpark.”
“No, plus
your solitude doesn’t seem to be so, I don’t know, lonely?”
“Well, it’s
a bit like Macondo’s—the town that’s destined to exis’ for a century only, and
mos’ o’ that in the nether regions o’ the world’s memory. I’m at this spot
where Remedios the Beauty—mos’ beautiful woman the world has ever, or never,
seen. Men who do go crazy, fall t’ death climbing the roof to see her hang
laundry, for Pete’s sake!”
“Does she
comment on this kind of attention?”
“She don’
say much at all. Sorta in her own state o’ heaven, not cuz she’s doing more
than house chores and bathing—oh, forgot to say: she don’ wear clothes much, prefers
to live au naturel.”
“Hmm. In
her own kind of sanctuary, maybe.”
“Could say.
Happy to lend this to ya.”
“Thanks,
after you’re done.”
“Never
done! That’s the charm o’ good stories. An’ the opportunity o’ book swaps, as
doesn’t much happen in the izøned world.”
“True. So
that’s maybe why I knocked on your door—”
“Don’ need
no reason.”
“That’s
genuinely felt. And likewise to ours. You might know, though, that there’s an
electric fence now separating us—your side of the old highway and ours.”
“What
Gordon an’ Jack been workin’ on. Yes, I talked to ’em.”
“You fine
with it? Buzzing in to the boathouse, waiting for someone to come with the
key—”
“Jack gave me
a key to that padlock, so I don’ feel shut out any. I’m sorta a wandering ghost
anyway—Melquíades
is the guy in this book with me mos’ in mind. Shows up when the time’s right.”
They sipped
coffee and talked more about patterns in their days, how work lends to leisure
and sometimes to boredom, regardless of what might be new, familiar, something
to look forward to. They spoke about campfires and why they were different than
chapel gatherings—the meandering factor, for one. They brought up the kids and
the visitors and how they bring soul to the place. “You do, too, Lou. And
that’s why I didn’t want you to be locked out.”
“’Preciate
that. But I think you’re also concerned about bein’ locked in.”
“Come
again?”
“Jus’
readin’ the tea leaves here—coffee grounds, as ’t’were. You wouldn’ be the
first here to worry ’bout cabin fever, ’specially when winter kicks in. Jack’s
one-year commitments have some science to it, prob’ly. Some haven’t made it an’
disappear; some wanna re-up an’ become lifers. This li’l ’lectric fence aint
gonna change that ratio none, I’m thinkin’.”
“I’m not
worried myself about cabin fever. How the kids and Avis deal with an un-izøned year is more on my conscience.”
“Oh, let
’em hero themselves—don’ sell ’em short. Let ’em fill their boots, fer goodness
sakes.”
Seb nodded
at that and stretched out a hand. “Thanks, Lou.”
“Fer what?
Caffeine t’ keep ya up all night?”
“For
letting me test that fence.”
The rope was
where Seb had left it, there for the
hanging, he involuntarily thought. He considered for a minute whether he
had anything to stream—not that he could do so in this very spot, but a
half-mile walk toward Winton wouldn’t make much difference in the flexibility
of the night. For that matter, he could have tried to stream something at
Lou’s, as fluttering as the info might be. Something about García Márquez, for instance.
The temptation never took shape, however, and wasn’t doing so now. Seb grabbed
the rope and expended all energy to tug each hand and foot up, inch by inch.
Arming the branch gave him no real rest, but there was no going back. He
loosened the rope and threw it to the sanctuary side, then grunted down the trunk
until he could safely drop.
He barely
needed the flashlight from this point on. No point in drawing attention to his
foray from anyone who’d see through the distant cabin windows. Or Gordon,
hiding behind some tree. Or Jack with his mumbo-jumbo on freedoms, from and to.
C’mon, Seb, just get back to your bed and
silence that buzz in your head.
Avis opened
the door and Pretty came out, sniffing Seb to fathom his past hour. “Everything
fine?”
Seb brushed
off his shirt any remaining motes of red pine and embraced his wife as a response.
“I like Lou, maybe more now that he’s harder to visit.”
They went
in, forgetting about Pretty. She had her lean-to on the porch, anyhow, and
was now
better protected due to this fence. It’s
good to have guardian angels, someone might have been thinking, begging the
question (or not) what demons they’d have to ward off.
XXVII.
The
headaches of Nala and Pam had glided away with the Monday morning miles back to
Faribault. Trig’s lasted longer into the day, a fact he didn’t want to
reveal—nothing to migraine proportions, anyway. But a dull discomfort sustained
through the night into Tuesday; Pam read through his brave face and encouraged
him to take the day off. “Or at least nap through the afternoon. I’ll just hang
out at Alexander Park, where there’s never a need for two of us.”
“No,” Trig
decided, “I won’t compromise the beat. Rather be candid with Chief.”
Trig hadn’t
told anyone at work about their second trip north to the sanctuary. There was
really no need—the personal day last week was nobody’s business, and a
recreational return to a venue of investigation might appear untoward. This
upcoming weekend wouldn’t entail a personal day, so all the more reason he
wouldn’t reveal the plan to visit the sanctuary again. Yet this lingering
headache was giving him pause. Perhaps it was a matter of duration: three days
of blocked izøne as distinct from a couple hours on the
first occasion. They wouldn’t have to stay another three days, but the plan was
to have at least a celebratory night or two to close out the experience for the
girls.
By
Wednesday, with plenty of sleep between doses of ibuprofen, Trig was not
feeling any better, so he made an appointment at the clinic. It would be
unethical in his own mind to take the work week off and tip-toe toward another
weekend romp, especially if that could exacerbate his current disquiet. Worth a medical opinion, at least.
Dr Brent
was all ears to his situation. He expressed concern about how the izøne was being scrambled—what toxins might be
involved—and why Trig wouldn’t feel their effect until after a direct exposure.
And why wouldn’t Pam or Nala react the same way, or as intensely? Many studies
had been conducted on how the izøne could
bring on headaches (or worse) to people streamed and unstreamed. As a result of
these studies, decades ago, a codified formula ensured that streaming was safe
and a regulated izøne affected no one
adversely.
And now, Dr
Brent challenged, where were the studies on the effects of a sanctuary from the izøne? “And how do they do it, anyway? You must have inquired.…”
Trig had doubts
about going down this road, even as Jack had spoken with confidence about
expiration dates of streaming serum and its availability at hospitals. What
better authority than Dr Brent to corroborate Jack’s rendition—even if it
effectively reversed the good doctor’s efforts. Trig declined to say more,
thinking he’d consult with Pam first, perhaps even Nala.
As if
reading his thought, Dr Brent asked by-the-way, “you were here when that girl
was being treated for a head injury, yes? A golfball hit her, if I remember
right. How is she?”
Trig reviewed
in his mind whether he’d included anyone other than Pam in his account of the
sanctuary. “Um, that would be for her mother to say.”
Dr Brent
looked into this patroller’s eyes, an unflinching three or four seconds. “Indeed,
that would be proper. But she hasn’t followed up as she should have by now,
concussion protocols being what they are. You’ll see her, perhaps?”
Trig
shrugged and looked down. The injection the doctor had given him was doing the
trick—the headache was gone now, if general fatigue was unchanged. “I may
follow up myself in days to come, if that’s okay.”
“Of course.
Meanwhile, you might do some research on that izøne killer.”
He pursed his lips into a quasi-emotion. “I know that I shall.”
As for the
upcoming weekend, Pam had an idea. She’d been talking to her father about how
serene the environment was, how Shel now had two new friends in as many weeks.
Jim, she said, crunched his face for the tears of happiness and wondered if he
could see the place for himself. “And why not?” Pam suggested privately to
Trig. “Unstreamed, he can test out this whole headache problem, too. Nala likes
him, as does Aamiina, who calls him ‘Grandpa’.”
True, all
that. And Trig’s nascent jealousy was just as undeniable, if again he put on
his tried-and-tired brave face. “I mean, I can handle a headache—”
Pam
snuggled into his arm. She wasn’t implying otherwise, he knew, and wanted
nothing to change. “My dad loves you; he wouldn’t poach your chance to complete
the otter training.”
“I’m sure
he could do just fine in that department. But here’s an idea: I can go up with
you and Jim as far as Ely, you guys continue on to the sanctuary. Could even
stay at Burntside—”
“What?
Alone? That’s unromantic—”
“Hear me
out. I do some research at the hospital there, find the office for the Ely Echo, maybe hike over to Winton and
talk more with Oscar.”
“To what
end, Mr Tangent?”
“Precisely—I’d
use my cover, fill the time to get to know the izøned area around Jack’s operation.”
“Spying? If
you had such suspicions, why in the world would you let Shel stay the week?”
Trig had to
backpeddle. “Not spying, as such. Listen, last weekend was phenomenal—and I
mean no ambiguity in the word…”
“But you
do.” She finger-walked from his chest to the temple opposite her lean. “I can
sense the jukebox gears.”
“Like
changing the tune? No, Lightspeed, you can’t floodlight me like that. If I do mean something else by ‘phenomenal’,
it’s this: the sanctuary requires streaming serum to scramble the izøne. Sounds simple enough on one level, sort of
like the bombers of Dresden dropped magnetic ribbons to block radio waves in
order to optimize their sneak attack. But it is quite a phenomenon to take a
biological element—engineered for human dendrite interaction—and toss it to the
physics of the troposphere. Physics and chemistry, to make it more phenomenal.”
Pam
massaged his temple. “Your headache’s made you smarter! Or is this that mad
streaming doctor speaking through you?”
“Dr Brent?
I didn’t talk to him about Jack’s formula, whatever it is. I did say I was in a
non-izøne area for a few days.”
“Did you call
it a ‘sanctuary’?”
“I did. But
nothing else to suggest the location or anybody’s name. I wouldn’t do that
without talking to you first.”
“Aww,
that’s sweet.” She kissed the bottom of his chin. “As for your plan, let’s do
this: book a room at Burntside for yourself on Friday and two more on Saturday
night. We’ll join you then and have a chance to enjoy that lake, whatever the
izøne gives as a difference—even some
headache protocol, if we need the Ely hospital, which you’d scope in advance.”
“You think
Carters, Jack and everyone will let you go a night early? They were pretty
insistent about our staying the fullness of the weekend.”
“Sure, and
I’ll ask Nala her idea on that. But we can be frank about the headache factor,
the need to recover a day before getting back to work.”
“The girls don’t
have jobs, they’ll argue.”
“Oh, I
think the golf course has internships for them. That, or herding toads at
Alexander Park.” She kissed him again, then ascertained, “plan?”
He closed
his eyes in a peace of mind he hadn’t felt all week. “Trig Tangent’s on board.
Lightspeed?”
“On board.
Now we gotta get codenames for Nala and Dad.”
Nala was fine with the plan—excited, even for another chance to stay at Burntside, where the meals were scrumptious and the book she had started, Travels With Charley, awaited in the hotel library. She was a little concerned about the difference of Trig’s headache to hers; she had always been good at handling rough seas and adjusting to different atmospheres, so maybe there was a psychological element. Then again, Pam’s seemed to go away quickly, too, so gender might have something to do with it. Regardless, an extra night (or even two, if they’d leave Burntside early Monday morning) seemed wise for the girls to reacclimatize. Not that the izøne would matter to Aamiina, but perhaps she’d also feel the effects of what scrambled that beast in the air.
Nala was fine with the plan—excited, even for another chance to stay at Burntside, where the meals were scrumptious and the book she had started, Travels With Charley, awaited in the hotel library. She was a little concerned about the difference of Trig’s headache to hers; she had always been good at handling rough seas and adjusting to different atmospheres, so maybe there was a psychological element. Then again, Pam’s seemed to go away quickly, too, so gender might have something to do with it. Regardless, an extra night (or even two, if they’d leave Burntside early Monday morning) seemed wise for the girls to reacclimatize. Not that the izøne would matter to Aamiina, but perhaps she’d also feel the effects of what scrambled that beast in the air.
Jim was
“just happy” for any experience that would extend the natural world to these
girls—his sudden advent into grandfathering for two. Trig suggested ‘Jim
Justice’ be his pseudonym for signing in to the sanctuary, to keep that part of
their gambit consistent.
“Tangent,
Lightspeed, Justice—that won’t raise the grandma’s eyebrow? Sounds like we’re
comic book characters.”
“No, she
had a better guess: that they’re Indian names. And while I hate lying, I can
empathize a bit now why someone would take on such pale face abstractions. Kind
of throwing the notion back at the occupier: ‘you bring your sense of justice,
well, meet me: Jim Justice.’”
“‘You bring
your protractor machinations, meet me: Trig Tangent.’”
Pam
laughed. “And me? ‘You think you’re Einstein…?’”
Trig pursed
his lips and rocked his still smarting head. “Jack may not be Einstein, but
he’s definitely done something impactful. Hopefully for good. It’s like Prometheus
bringing fire from Mount Olympus, but maybe in reverse.”
“How so?”
“The brazen
guy steals what only the gods can enjoy, then puts that power in the hands of
people—to cook, to survive winter, to ‘play with fire’ and to make bombs. Lots
of trust for miscreants.”
“Got that,
but in reverse? Walk me through that.”
Trig wasn’t
sure he had a clear idea. “‘In reverse’
means we got something already—knowledge
of things, communication, human spirit. We evolve with those natural features
to dominate the animal kingdom and effectively become gods. Mount Olympus is
ours—all of humanity’s, though your royal courts and Wall Streets and Silicon
Valleys tend to call the shots. But enter Jack—poor man’s Prometheus—stealing
back the natural world before humans got their mitts on it. I don’t know, just
a theory.”
“A
tangent?”
“I’d have
to stream the trigonometry for that. And… not today. My mind is spent.”
Really, he
was feeling better. So was Pam, vicariously. Friday afternoon couldn’t come
soon enough, mostly to be with the girls again, somewhat to test the myths of
modernity.
XXVIII.
Inside the
tent within the Carters’ cabin, the girls slowly woke to their sense that today
would bring another adventure. “They’re coming again,” Shel declared in almost
no decibels, referring to Nala, Pam and (presumably) Trig. It would be another
‘Fill Your Boots’ weekend and she, mouthing for her giggling peers, could not
wait. Tim groggily demanded they shut up; Kay more kindly bid them to walk the
dog—everyone aware that Pretty needed no one to walk her, especially now that
her lean-to linked the cabin to the outer world, notwithstanding the barrier of
Jack’s electrified fence, leapable for border collies.
To some extent, Pretty had the keenest sense
of any cognizant being on the sanctuary grounds: she knew how various dinner
bells rang and how to scrounge when such patterns came short; she knew who was
trustworthy and who was worth suspicion, even if she reserved any instinct to
growl. She saw how humans growled all too often in their own manner,
diminishing the relevance of that power. On the other paw, a more positive
power generated empirically during each morning and afternoon walk, for every
sojourner involved. Pretty would walk ten yards ahead to sniff out situations, while
still deferential to those who needed to lead from behind.
After such
serendipity and the dog’s curl into the cabin porch, the girls spruced up the
other pup tent near the lakeshore and weaved wreaths of lavender and castilleja
for three adult heads to match the ones they had made the other day for
themselves. They practiced a skit called ‘The Three Otters’—approximately based
on the exploits of Goldilocks, an actor for which they hadn’t yet
commissioned—and the three bears. Tim, of course, committed only to playing a
wolf; Kay shrugged an unhelpful ‘whatever’; likewise, Avis was flexible but too
busy to rehearse; Seb feigned an ignorance in anything folklorish—all the more
reason he’d be the perfect Goldilocks, for heaven’s sake.
Alas, his thespian
morning efforts drooped Seb to afternoon exhaustion. He reviewed in his mind last
night’s talk with Melquíades,
how perhaps the sanctuary was in the infant years of Macondo’s futile century:
finding self, integrating others; losing self, lancing others; numbing self,
spurring others; killroying self, getting killed by others…. All with Melquíades in and out to hint at
this or that, or just to bear witness, as if a reader of the very novel he
semi-stars in, Lou a sentinel to a century that saw the world’s no-going-back,
izøned or otherwise. The contemplation was
too much, and Seb napped protractedly, clinging to his quilt.
At the sanctuary gate, Pam read the sign to
press the intercom signal. She was bemused also at the wiring along the fence;
she turned to Nala with a wondering look, then told her father this wasn’t how
it they entered last week. Security can’t
be a bad thing, she tried in vain to stream as a message. Jim would have
only received that by the look on her face, anyhow.
Jack came half-jogging,
the padlock key in his hand like a beagle straining on a leash. He joked that
Trig had aged a bit—Jim introduced himself as Pam’s father, tagging in this
weekend. “Headache,” Pam abbreviated, truthfully. Jack pressed his lips in a
‘shame, that’ manner, and continued in his welcoming enthusiasm to sweep them
in, including their shuttle, and relock the gate.
“Been
thinking of that measure for months now,” Jack thumbed back toward the fence,
even as no one mentioned it. “Not what I conceived when I took on this
place—rather the opposite: wanted a free-roam zone for anyone tired of the izøne.”
“A zone
against the zone!” Jim chuckled. “Story of humanity: protect us from our
Frankensteins.”
The girls,
who had guessed as much from the waterfront (seeing Jack leave the boathouse
toward the gate) ran to greet them. Pam repeated the one-word excuse for Trig’s
absence, and Jim was overjoyed to be led on a tour, notwithstanding the fact
that he hadn’t yet signed in to the guest book. Nala imagined he’d make a
flower of his asterisk; she had thought through the week about that
designation—why Jack or the grandma needed to know who was streamed and who
wasn’t—and the notion of headaches coming out of this place, at least for those
streamed. Worth asking later, especially if she caught a quiet moment with the
grandma.
The evening
would be anything but quiet, however. Kay and Gordon were having an
under-the-radar argument, stemming somewhat from the secrets of the place, in
plain sight or otherwise. Gordon’s lips were always sealed concerning his
row-outs to Lovers Island, and Kay was starting to switch roles—watching his
routines like an unshakable shadow. Conversely, she also spent more time
playing chess with the plaid-shirt guy, angling for a jealous response from Gordon.
The tunnel to the chapel became space for daily dust-ups: if you go there then I’ll go here, unless we go together!...
Within the
chapel itself, gatherings were increasingly extemporaneous. Nala and Pam hadn’t
known of it—Pam greatly desiring to message Trig on the wonder and her slight
apprehension, especially as Shel and Aamiina seemed to have gone conspicuously
native in this hidden environment. Jim announced his impression of this
“perfect 19th hole—a dream feature in an active clubhouse.” Jack
accepted that as a compliment and introduced him to Lou, sitting at the
fireplace in the middle of some story, with Sylvia all ears. Though the disc
really wasn’t large, groups formed in the semblance of pentagonal corners:
- the elders, now three, at the fireplace;
- the girls at the pump organ, having received Sylvia’s permission;
- Tim and the plaid-shirt guy, forever playing chess;
- Nala, Pam, Avis, Seb and Jack at the trolley bar, where an altar might fit;
- Kay and Gordon, hedging to exit in hushed fits of articulation.
The sixth corner, if
the disc would constitute such an angle, was the beaded entrance in front of a
submarine-strength door that never closed. The middle of the chapel retained a
pleasant disarray of pillows and chairs.
“My
erstwhile sick bay,” Seb pointed out, “earning full accolades.”
Pam furled
her brow. “Did you fall ill this week?”
“No, no—it
was before your weekend visit. And usually this place is for more upbeat
purposes. Surprised we hadn’t gathered here then.”
Jack was
stony-faced, if smiling.
“What was
ailing you?” Pam continued. “Migraines?”
“Hmm! Good
guess. Concussion, probably, from a fall I—” Seb glanced at Avis to gauge
whether the ‘we’ would be worth the telling, and quickly decided— “took. No big
deal, especially immersed in such relaxation.”
Nala
weighed in. “That’s what Aamiina had a couple weeks ago—a grade 3 concussion.”
She blushed in the sudden awareness that Pam would seem culpable with the
fuller context, so wrapped the fact with an “all’s well, though. Some bumps
should be expected on a worthy journey.”
“She’s been
a picture of health,” Jack assured. “We’ll miss her. And Shel, as well.”
“They
haven’t been too rambunctious?” Pam queried, knowing the answer.
Avis shook
her head. “Mia will be crushed not to have them here. They can come back
sometimes, can’t they, Jack?”
His
platform now a kingly court. “Of course. Especially as Shel may want relief
from the izøne, now that she’s experienced it. Aami,
of course, is blessed never to have needed such relief! Our tiny sanctuary,”
Jack twirled his arm around a fraction of the chapel’s circumference, implying
the water and land tangibly beyond, “is meant to seed the world of the need for
such space. Time was that the pre-izøned world had
been more voluntary—a ‘dial-up’, I think the term was, for people to connect to
information channels or not, depending on inclination or need. Those were the
days when reception and messaging were still external from a person’s body.
Nothing ‘streamed’, per se, at least in terms of blood flow and dendrites.
Push-button devices. Earbuds. Medieval products of plastic and lithium.”
“There’s a
touch of lithium still in use,” Seb thought to remind, “from the injected serum
to the izøne itself.”
“You’re
right, and it’s a most unnatural element. Unmineable. Something the cavemen could
never have stumbled upon—until our forebears became 20th century
cavemen.”
“And now
we’re the pioneer spelunkers in this very chapel,” Avis quipped. “Mia, like
Aami, could have a sense of sanctuary anywhere. But,” sweeping her arm as Jack
had done, “this place is not just ‘anywhere’. Not for us, of course, but not
even for her.”
“That
sounds ambiguous,” Jack challenged, “like the place doesn’t suit you—”
“The
opposite!” she elbowed back. “Winter, sure, will be interesting. I can imagine
a bit of cabin fever, but,”
“But that’s
why we got a gathering place like this, Dear. Pretty good sick bay, I can say.”
“Plus as
many hours on the ice as you’ve been in canoes. Fish won’t jump outta the holes
we auger, but they’ll have deeper hunger pangs.”
“Speaking
of,” Nala thumbed toward the tunnel, “dinner is my pleasure to share with
anyone here. I brought more than enough cambuulo and muufo, maybe sambusa for
starters.”
“Straight
from Somalia!”
“Well, from
a Faribault store. Don’t have much contact with the old country.”
“All the
more reason,” said Jack, “you are always welcome here.”
Before
dinner, however, the girls were anxious to put on their play. They pulled Seb
out of his happy hour circle and gave him final cues, pointing covertly here
and here and here to cover the basics of the story. “And should I talk to the
audience? Solicit their advice?”
“NO!” Mia
rolled her eyes. “Goldilocks doesn’t know anybody’s looking. That’s kinda the
point.”
“But we’re gonna ask the watchers—”
“—audience,” Aamiina corrected Shel.
“We’re
gonna ask them, ‘who’s been eating my porridge’, right?”
“We can,
but we don’t need to listen.”
“So, like
usual,” Seb gibed. “And for the ending, when you wake me up—”
“Act real
scared,” Mia insisted.
“Yeah,
that’s easy. But then—you guys never decided—do I faint or say ‘sorry’ or—”
“Run
away—back down the tunnel.”
“I thought
he should stay,” Shel asserted, “cuz he wanted to learn how to swim.”
“But we’re
not at the beach. Too dark to swim now.”
“He can
learn in the morning,” Aamiina suggested.
“Not if I
run away.”
“Well,” Mia
shrugged, “do whatever. Ask the audience, maybe.”
Their
spirited whispers were garnering the attention of that very audience, which Mia
now directed to sit in the swivel chairs at the chapel’s center ring. The
pillows had been carefully poached to form three beds along the wall where Kay
and Gordon had been brooding. The fireplace made for a natural kitchen, and
next to the chess table Mia had slid in an empty cardboard box that the grandma
let them demolish. All was set, and Seb was savvy to exit on the sly. “Ladies
and Gentlemen,” Mia announced, “we’re glad you have come tonight to see our
play. It’s called—”
Shel
ratta-tat-tatted on her thighs. “The adventures of Goldilocks…”
Aamiina
made whiskers from her wiggly fingers, “and the three…”
Since no
one responded after Shel and Mia added their wiggly fingers to their cheeks,
Lou called out, “bears!”
“No!
We’re…”
“Spiders?”
“Colder!”
Mia stomped in mock frustration.
“Bluegills?”
“Warmer…”
“We… give
up,” Avis spoke a bit in-the-know.
“Otters!” all three said, and scampered
to their designated beds.
The play
was mostly pantomime and giggles, if Mia filled in some necessary narrative.
The three otters were hankering for a morning swim after making their beds nicely,
reading invisible newspapers on their chairs and box (Aamiina quite practiced
in pretend sitting), then stirring the vat by the fire for three bowls of
porridge—too hot, of course, to eat immediately. “So let’s swim!” They wiggled
through the hanging beads and the tunnel toward the boathouse, making splashing
noises as they ran.
The
audience clapped as if the scenes were finished, Lou reminding them of a
certain ingénue to anticipate. “Le’s see, who can that be? Silverlocks?”
Sylvia
tugged at his sleeve: “hey, I’m right here, Mister!”
“Baldilocks?”
Seb entered
with his dome covered in a scramble of yellow yarn, again courtesy of the
grandma, who couldn’t help but spy on the scene from her side of the beaded
door. The girls, too, stifled their laughter behind her. Seb hammed the role
with a wagging tongue, gobbling appetite, Victorian hauteur, Chaplinesque
clumsiness. Even Gordon broke a smile at the spectacle of his pratfall, Kay
folding her arms more pensively. The too
this, too that, just right formula intrigued her, as if a psychological calibration
of how one acclimates, serendipitously. A modicum of social sense—Seb
occasionally broke the ‘fourth wall’ of this theatre-in-the-round—added to this
golden refugee’s decision-making.
And then
the otters came in, drying themselves off with beach towels. They were
nonplussed about the dips into their porridge bowls, Aamiina sobbing
unconvincingly while her older otters moped, arms akimbo. Their stumble on the
chairs (Seb had managed to upend them before squashing the box) made for more
consternation and tears. Lou suggested they go back into the water, cool off a
bit, and Shel appeared to agree—“maybe it’s all just a bad dream,” she ad
libbed.
“Then if
it’s a dream,” Mia was quick on the logic, “we should go back to bed and sleep through it.”
But of
course their covers were rumpled, and worse: Aamiina screamed at the sight of
serene Goldilocks, now waking up to her own form of nightmare. Seb jittered
this way and that, a lightning bug bouncing around in a jar. “Where should I
go? What should I do?”
“Meet
them,” Jim shouted, “these otters. They’re awfully nice.”
“But, um,
aren’t they… angry at me?”
“Join the
universe, Goldi,” Lou garbled. “Anger is mos’ over-rated, only useful fer
makin’ forgiveness.”
“Hmm. What
do you think, Otters?”
They
huddled in earnest, not exactly sure. Shel looked out at her mom and grinned
that her idea might just win. “We decided,” she said when the summit was over,
“that you can come with us to swim. Last one to the beach is a rotten fish!”
Seb ran
through the beads determined not to be that.
“Gosh, wish
Trig could be here,” Pam commented, when the actors came back for a curtain
call.
“Yeah, be
sure to tell him he’s missed,” Jack said.
“Actually,
if you open the gate, I was thinking of streaming a message—give him an
indication we made it here fine.”
Jack kept
his gaze at the otters, basking in the praise of their audience. “Well,”
thinking deliberately, “could do. Dark already—maybe Gordon escorts you with a
flashlight.”
“I could
hold one myself…”
“No doubt.
But we upgraded the fence, see, for some concerns of who might be out there.
There aren’t any patrollers between here and Ely, so Gordon is your best bet.”
“But I am a patroller.”
Jack raised
his eyebrows. “True, that. All the more reason you’d go as a team.”
She pursed
her lips and nodded slowly. Perhaps morning light would be the better plan.
XXIX.
Trig spent
a fitful night at the Burntside Hotel. The plan with Nala, Jim, and Pam was
rather open as to when they’d reunite here, Aamiina and Shel in tow. Maybe they
were eager to get back to civilization; maybe ensuing headaches would compel
hospital care. Anticipating that prospect, Trig streamed the Ely clinic to make
an appointment the next morning for himself, feigning a lingering headache in
order to ask questions about the sanctuary. He weighed the pros and cons of
wearing his patroller uniform and decided to let that be tomorrow’s intuition.
He also thought
about contacting Dr Brent to inquire about that pain-relief injection, as an
Ely doctor might regard that detail as an invitation to speak further about the
nature of that antidote. In the spectrum of homeopathy and mad science,
something was going on between the Brents and Jacks of the world. One side
concocted a fair replica of the apple Eve tasted with Adam, the other a
schoolmarm’s tactic to wash out a foul mouth with soap. Both were concerned
with the communicative spread of knowledge—good, evil, and otherwise.
Instead of poking
anxiously the izøne, Trig plunged into the lake and swam
to the nearest island, then its neighbor and another—three percent of the
thirty square miles of surface water that surrounded them. He swam unaware of
the otter performance happening a couple lakes east, a goofy Goldilocks
stealing the show; he swam with a yearning for Pam, a life he hadn’t imagined
before her daughter and Nala’s went searching for toads, sagely distinguishing
them from frogs. He wasn’t convinced in his watery mind whether he was swimming
toward something or swimming away, island or shore. A workout, he’d fathom, as
any patroller should have once a week, and probably more.
To work out the body, to work out problems: definitions
bobbed with the waves, and Trig tried not to stream them—hard to do when the izøne conflated so inherently with mind functions.
The brain needs oxygenated blood as much as much as muscles, the heart most
active of them all. Swim the crawl a while—a lesson in breathing at
three-to-five-to-seven stroke increments, as infants and
toddlers
would never
consciously measure. Then flip to a backstroke and breathe at relative ease, if
the milling of arms is that much more difficult. Dog-paddle and side-stroke,
cupping water like scoops of ice cream. Fluke just beneath the surface,
undulating the torso as if the arms weren’t there. Float, any which way.
Appreciate the aerobics, when really the exercise is mild-to-wild consciousness
of survival, the factoring of how far one could or should go before needing a
proper procedure back. The islands served as reprieves or slight tricks to that
cause: Trig would need to get back—the dusk descending to quash the sunset—and
those same strokes did not depend on light, per se, but energy levels and
confidence.
He reached
the hotel beach in near darkness and lay on the grass, aware that sleep would
absorb him if he weren’t to get up in the imminent minutes. Because he’d paid
for this night already (reserved the night after), it may not have mattered to
anyone if he’d stay exactly here—lush grass maybe mowed a week ago, not so
prone to dew during Indian summer dawns. He’d likely slumber through the nearby
designs of porcupines and owls and opossums. The crickets he’d hear anyway
through the open window of his room, where he decided to go, pushing himself up
with due labor. He couldn’t blame them for keeping him awake, nor the bleached
smell of the sheets, nor the mosquitos that always managed to sneak through the
window screens. He couldn’t blame the izøne, though
temptations to search serums fought with the fatigue of that topic, let alone
his well worked out body. Sleeplessness was, beyond thinking about it, just
because.
He got up
at ten-thirty and ordered a taxi to Ely. He considered walking the six or seven
miles, yet knew he’d likely foot that distance from Ely to Winton, his target
for the afternoon. And as much as having a haggard look at the clinic would
endorse the idea that he was actually suffering a migraine, he wanted to keep a
clear head about this unofficial investigation—read the implications of what
people said about the sanctuary, its methods and mysteries. He wouldn’t blow
anybody’s cover—especially his own, though in the end he decided to don his
patroller uniform. He wasn’t sure Jack had a cover, exactly. “Oh, sure, we’ve
heard a thing or two about that sanctuary,” a woman in the waiting room
offered, “not that it matters to me, personally.”
“You’re
unstreamed, if I may ask?”
“You may,
and yes—never cared to know more than necessary.”
“I’m new to
this region,” Trig leaned forward and tented his fingertips. “So I don’t know
much about…” He strained for the right word.
“About us?
Well, we’re regular folk, y’know. I see you’re a patroller—”
“Um,
yes—from Faribault. Just here unofficial, though. Off duty.”
She nodded
at that, unconvincingly. “My brother was a patroller, here in Ely. Died last
year.”
“I’m
sorry.” Trig wanted to ask how and hoped some stretch of silence would
effectively do so.
“Off duty
also. Drowned; ’t least that’s the theory.”
Still
fingertipping. “Missing?”
“Drowned,”
she repeated. “Loved to night fish and prob’ly was pulling in a muskellunge,
prob’ly standin’ up in the boat, y’know, like you shouldn’t. Flipped over,
naturally, and, well, that’s what they found in the morning—an upside-down
rowboat, bits of flotsam.”
Dead bodies
float, Trig was ready to say, but didn’t. “You think the fish dragged him to
the bottom?”
“Deep lake,
Burntside; could be.”
“Burntside?
I was just swimming it last night. So many islands, I wouldn’t think—”
“West side
goes down one-forty. Anyways, he died doin’ what he loved best.”
Pause, not
too long. “That’s important.” Another pause to avoid being crass. “Patrollers
look out for each other—well, everyone. Send up a prayer, so to speak, for one
of ours fallen. His name, if I may ask?”
“Lee.
Patroller Lee Simmons, retired. And you?”
A nurse
opened the door to beckon Trig in. He extended a hand to Lee’s sister. “Nice to
meet you, um—”
“Alice. And
you?”
“Tangent.
Patroller… Tangent.” He turned quickly to face the nurse, who knew that wasn’t
his real name. She frowned and let him in anyway.
The doctor
was none too happy to talk to Trig about serums and pain-relievers. “Unless you
have a warrant to investigate something, you’re here for your headache and I’m
here to stream your record and remediate, if necessary. I don’t have any more
knowledge of that sanctuary than you do—less, really, if you say you’ve been
there. It’s not an issue that has darkened the door of this clinic, so...”
“But you
must be interested that three of us—all three, and fairly immediately—had
headaches after leaving the sanctuary last weekend. Theirs lasted a couple
hours, mine a couple days.”
“And now? Still?”
Trig
realized he could not afford another lie. The nurse had likely messaged this
doctor on the duplicity of that ‘Tangent’ representation, however innocuous it
may have seemed. Wearing this patroller uniform wasn’t helping his cause if he
also had to be off duty; he imagined a doctor attempting to do the same with
his smock and stethoscope, sounding the beat of somebody in no need of triage.
“I’ll be honest: no headache now, but anxiety for those others who’ve returned
to the sanctuary this weekend. I’m anticipating how they’ll feel.”
“So, in the
eventuality that they’re unwell, have them set up an appointment. I can only
treat conditions as they are, not as they are abstracted.”
“Fair
enough. But I cannot help but ask, as I did with a doctor in Faribault—”
“Dr Brent?
I’ve streamed the relevant information of your appointment with him on
Wednesday.”
That stood
to reason. Trig nodded, “Dr Brent, who expressed interest in the way the
sanctuary operates. I told him that Jack—forgot his last name, isn’t coming to
mind right now—engineered his idea by lofting izøne serum
through furnace heat, scrambling the signals as far as the breeze allows. He’d
need that serum to burn, he said, from hospitals that would sell it or dump
what’s bound to expire. I wonder, as Dr Brent does, as well, whether you might
enlighten—”
“No. It
sounds like you need to procure that warrant before any off-hand ideas from
folks around here, uniformed or otherwise. I have actual clients to attend to,
so I bid you a healthy rest of day.”
“Thank you,
Dr…”
“Tangent,”
the doctor turned away, belying any indication of a joke.
Of course
Trig could ascertain his real name if necessary, but he left with a greater imperative
of streaming Lee Simmons, even Alice, for that matter. There was an unwritten
rule for decent folks not to stream a new acquaintance (or ‘Google’ them, as
the old world had it). As a patroller, there were protocols insofar as
accessing information not available to civilians, and Trig would need to log
into those channels officially, with time-stamped verification of location and
probable cause. Off duty, he would never risk that, a suspendable action in or
out of uniform—more egregious, of course, in the guise of a sanctioned
investigation.
Streaming
the death of Lee Simmons was rather easy, if inconclusive. The Ely Echo had a typical obituary of a man
respected in the community, a lifer in the local patrol force, an avid
fisherman who, as Alice attested, would like his last experience to be just
that. Another edition, a week later, featured homage from a poetaster:
Old Simmons, it seems,
met his match in a muskie
up there at Burntside Lake.
They fished for each other,
lost brother and brother
anglin’ for legends to make.
He wanted to delve into a precinct report on drownings in
the past year, specifically that of a fellow patroller, but streaming this kind
of information would be a) not so clear concerning privacy issues and b)
suspiciously close to using his own officer privileges while off duty. That
question of ‘duty’ was looming now, more so with each passing half hour. He
somehow felt responsible for the conditions of the sanctuary, especially if his
Faribault chief had abandoned the initial reason for investigating what was
deemed a dead-end.
His walk to
Winton consumed as much factoids on regional drownings as possible. Most made
sense, if no sudden tragedy can be said to do so: an unattended toddler
scooping wet sand for a castle, slipping instead on a rounded stone; a canoer
who insisted on no life jacket, battling winds that lifted the front like a
sail and sunk the whole situation. Her body, like the toddler’s, was recovered
and ceremoniously buried. Trig was searching for those cases, like Lee’s, where
the body disappeared in the relative depths. Statistics from the state on that
category showed a modest spike in the last two years, with naturally little
information on the circumstances—high winds, drunkenness, naïve indiscretion, suicide,
the vengeful fish that got away…
Oscar
opened his door on less than three knocks. “Glad ya found th’ way back,” he
said, “as nobody ever believes me a first time.”
“What do
you mean by ‘believe’?”
Of course
that question led to the pictures of Martha on his non-illuminated wall, the
picture of her as Walleye Queen as Trig recognized from the Ely Echo, weeks before. She hadn’t been
named in the research he’d just done on drowning deaths—perhaps she hadn’t
drowned. Yet in the crackling panoply of information the izøne allowed in this sanctuary fringe, Martha’s absence of body hit
Trig in the chest, or perhaps the carotid, supplying instant oxygen to his
brain. Oscar let the image sink in before amplifying: “she even knew Jack
Childress before she was streamed. From his first purview of the land he’d
eventually buy and monsterify. She worked at our post office, then, and Jack
took advantage of that, being what we’ve been—a lonely outpost licensing things
without the need of an izøne. She notarized
his goddam proof of purchase. Signed it ol’ fashioned style. I bust into the
office after she’d disappeared—it’d been closed down for a while by then—and
the files had been ransacked. No patroller back then gave a hoot. Barely any
ever since, ’fore you come by.”
“Despite
what this looks like,” Trig decided to say, “I’m off duty and rather here for
less official reasons.”
“Like
what?”
“Well, you
tell me. I don’t have any marching orders. What would you have me know?”
Oscar
looked out a window as if he could see through the trees. “I’d have you know
that they’ve installed an electric fence since last week, and that’s not to
keep the likes of me from comin’ in, but…”
Trig didn’t
want to complete the syntax, but couldn’t help uttering: “someone’s signaling
that something’s up.”
“It’s no
signal, from my poin’ of view. Or if’n it is, mos’ forthrightly stay the hell away.”
“Not
terribly unusual for such a cause—I mean, they want a sanctuary from gawkers
and stalkers, right?”
“You asked me about Lee Simmons ’fore I fully opened the door.”
“You asked me about Lee Simmons ’fore I fully opened the door.”
“I did.”
“And what
did I say?”
“Nothing.
You picked up on the disappearance of your wife, like first time we met.”
Oscar
nodded. “You can ask me about Gavin Jones or Patty Ventura or Francine O’Mara
or Bill Sinclair or Cary McNichols or Pete Wilcox—names of folks around here I
couldn’t get from no izøne. I’d respon’ the
same way: they were all streamed and gone missin’, just like Martha. Purported
boating accidents or just wandered off—no one’s been poundin’ their doors. An’
no one is drawin’ the line to Jack Childress. ’Cept, I expect, you.”
“And why
not you? What keeps you from blowing the lid off his place?”
“Oh, a
crazed hermit like me aint gonna make any difference. Gotta happen from
within.”
“Some kind
of mutiny?”
“You could
put it that way.”
“But what
about the kids in there now?”
“I’ve met
’em. Hope they’re still alive.”
“What?!”
“Time’s a-wastin’
Patroller—whad’ya say your name was?”
Trig told
him his true last name, partly because Oscar had a good memory and would
perhaps be the mouthpiece to a rescue operation, should it come to that. “I’m
off duty,” he repeated, self-consciously, “and don’t have a support network.
Can’t call in airborne, so to speak.”
“I got your
back, if that’s what you’re askin’.”
“You’re an honorable man, Mr Jenkins.”
“Sometimes.
When I’m not two sheets to the wind.”
“What’s
that mean? I’m not accessing izøne very clearly
now.”
“Jus’ as
well. Never mind.”
XXX.
Waking up
at the sanctuary was, as coined a hundred years ago in film history,
transplendent. Nala was first to rise from the single pup tent at the lakeshore
for her and Aamiina. Pam had borrowed Kay’s bed, vacated when the latter chose
to sleep in the chapel. Shel was slightly snoring in a sleeping bag below Mia’s
bed, the very place Pretty had claimed before preferring her lean-to on the
porch.
The dog
joined Nala on her walk along the beach, the slant of tuscan sunlight passing
over to the northern shore, blanketing them in shade. They followed a forest
path east, across the Kawashiwi stream and toward a frond of crumbled roads
that led to waterfront homes in various stages of disrepair. Those that had a
semblance of upkeep were likely inhabited by sanctuary residents who didn’t
care to gather about the boathouse, chapel, campfire ring. As if to bark them
back to such origins, an unleashed rottweiler suddenly emerged from a caved-in
garage. Pretty, of course, knew of this mongrel and neither bristled nor growled;
instead, she circled Nala to indicate their walk had gone far enough.
Crossing
the stream again, Nala had an arresting thought: the lack of izøne must have driven most of Fall Lake’s residents away. Generations
that summered here—some extending through the winter—probably relied on
Kawashiwi dam for power, patrollers for security, the izøne for connection to the broader world. Nature itself, on this
transplendent day, would not do. She contemplated her childhood, wading in the Webi
Jubba with Jamilah and Fawzia. Had those bright friends remained in izøneless Somalia? No paradise there, like seemingly
here. People run, from and to, for hard-to-reckon reasons. And not just in the
realm of geography.
She shook the rumination at the sight
of Gordon standing in front of the pup tent. Her heart rate shot as she
stammered, “oh—oh, is Aamiina alright?”
Gordon
swiveled his head and brought down his chin. “Asleep,” he simply said, then
returned his eyes to what he had been looking at in the first place: a sole
canoer paddling along the opposite shore, slowly as a loon. Still catching her
breath, Nala squinted to identify less the person than Gordon’s apparent
interest in the event. “Kay,” he whispered, fixated as if the tent top were a
rifle site. Her strokes were languid, barely pushing forward in an eastward
line. She’d see, Nala reasoned, the other sides of houses she and Pretty had
returned from. And no rottweiler could bark her back.
“Are you concerned
about her?” Nala ventured, unsure how to speak to Gordon.
He didn’t
respond for a full minute, and maybe wouldn’t at all if the canoe hadn’t swung
one-eighty to face westward, toward Winton. “Can’t go in and out of sanctuary,”
he grumbled. “Violates the point.”
“The point?”
Gordon
looked her in the eye. “The point to keep out the izøne.” He brusquely paced toward the boathouse, and Nala dove into
the tent to make sure Aamiina really was asleep.
She wasn’t.
The sun by
mid-morning had found and fully warmed the shallow water of the beach. Boats floated
out and came back in—Kay’s somewhat on the sly, shoring up west of the
boathouse instead of east, where the kids splashed as otters. Avis and Seb lifeguarded
them so that Pam, Jim, and Nala could enjoy the open water, Tim taking charge
as their guide. He spoke against any inclination to go west—around Lovers
Island—warning of headaches that sometimes occurred (Pam and Nala said nothing,
but knew); he spoke for the chance to go east—deeper into the sanctuary space
(Nala having glimpsed as much at dawn). Jim broke into song: “Lead on, O King
eternal—that’s you, young man, as I know nothing of this lake.”
Pam wagged
her head from the other canoe. “Where did you come up with that, Dad?”
“You don’t remember
mowing the fairways with me on Sunday mornings? I could have sworn you bellowed
right along, even in your imagination:
Lead
on, O King eternal,
the day of march has
come.
Henceforth in fields of
conquest
your tent will be our
home!”
Pam blushed
in the hide-and-seek of nostalgia. Few people her age ever darkened the door of
a church, if some elders tried to keep that tradition viable. “Come to think of
it…”
Nala shuttered
at the reference to a tent. She and Aamiina took theirs down an hour before,
notwithstanding the prospect that the weekend would entice another night of use.
Somehow, Gordon’s glare had put a nix on that plan, the same way the notion of circling
Lovers Island would have brought on a nausea, merely in the memory of how she
met him this morning. “Eastward ho,” she said, digging her paddle into the
water for emphasis. Tim was pleased to commandeer the better route.
They went
as far as Mulkuk Bay, a mile and half away from the beach. While the effluence
of Lovers Island kept this area free from the izøne, there
would be little way for Gordon or anyone else on the sanctuary staff to secure
the border, so to speak. That electric
fence, thought Pam, surely couldn’t
surround the lake. On the other hand, who knew how many mercenaries might
be living in the woods, their own sanctuaries cloistered from the more visible
center of Jack’s operations. The wilderness here had been coined the ‘boundary
waters’ for good reason, beyond a demarcation of the erstwhile border between
Canada and the United States. And now, in society’s reliance on the izøne, the sanctuary was potentially a threatening
place for patrollers, adventurers, thieves—anyone who would naturally operate
with on-call information. Anyone streamed,
of course. Pam’s father, still singing his Lutheran hymns, wouldn’t sense a
difference.
Pam wished
so badly she could message Trig right now, point him to this tuck-away lagoon.
He’d have to access it from the roadless woods north and east of Winton.
“‘Mulkuk’, they call this bay?” she checked with Tim.
He nodded.
“The grandma has a good map of the region in the boathouse.”
“That’s
good to know. How far does the sanctuary go?”
“Further
than we could paddle in a day. Past some portages and lakes just as long as
ours.”
“Hmm. Impressive.”
He blushed
in a sudden sensation of pride. “It’s awesome.”
They came
back for lunch, then Lou wandered in clutching a couple steel rods, two feet
long. Draped on his forearm were horseshoes painted blue and silver and red.
“Game’s usually played in pairs, but always room fer more.” Jack fetched a
hammer from the boathouse while Lou paced out the span needed. He set up some
lawn chairs for a spectators’ box, emphasizing “safety first.” The girls sat
wide-eyed and eager to try this game. “Got ya young’uns covered for some
practice, too,” Lou told them, pulling out of his overalls pocket another six
rings, much smaller.
“What kind
of dwarf horse wore those, Lou?” Seb chuckled.
“Oh, if you
see ’em up close, yer sure t’ notice they’re only oarlocks with the center pin
unscrewed. Now, gals, I’d like you to find a couple straight sticks and pound
’em in just like those.”
They
scampered like baby goats. Tim, meanwhile, was testing technique: now a
two-step swing, now a cement stance, central grip, side pinch, high arcs and
low. The plaid-shirt guy gave him pointers and then they squared off first. Lou
coached the girls and in a matter of forty minutes, everyone had tossed a fair
share of horseshoes and oarlocks. While there were plenty of rollers into the
tall grass, no one was remotely threatened of being hit. Pretty may have had
something to do with that, corralling any non-thrower away from the stakes and
back to the spectators’ box. She appeared none-too-pleased to figure out the
rhyme and reason of the game: lazy missiles launched without a sense of
urgency, somehow trying to nuzzle up against an aloof destination, the
stanchion of iron having no real stake in what would constitute success or
otherwise.
Pam
stealthily walked away from the general gaiety to consider the hour and hours
to come. She wanted desperately to contact Trig, ask about his day and how
they’d like to bring this weekend home, adventures having run their course. It
was difficult for her to disambiguate a vacant angst against the genuine love
she was witnessing from the Carter family, sanctuary veterans, nebulous Mother
Nature. Is this just being in love with
Trig, Pam tried messaging herself, Tangent
that he is right now? She toyed with the idea of asking Jack again to open
up the gate, let her exit the sanctuary for ten minutes to stream that very
question. By now, however, she was in the boathouse—emptied of everyone, as the
stalwart grandma had been drawn to horseshoes—and that map of Mulkuk Bay and
everything beyond was just behind the counter. Also, not for nothing, that dark
green binder she had signed into the previous weekend might tell her something
of the population here: the key was still in the file cabinet, as if inviting soft
espionage.
Instincts
of patroller, mom, izøne native—all
funneled into a fast decision to pull the drawer open and flip through that
binder. Asterisks, she remembered, depicted the ‘unstreamed’, like Mia, like
Aami, and if Jim had signed in, like him. No one’s departure date had shown on
their page, and—finally flipping the dang thing open—no one’s departure dates
appeared on any of the previous pages. The camp should have been (quick
calculation) eight hundred people full, a few of them asterisked. Obviously
only a fraction of that were in view, and only a fraction of them were inclined
to throw horseshoes, or sing silly songs at the campfire, or indulge little
kids in their Goldilocks pastiche—just a
dozen of us in that chapel, when hundreds are listed as not departed. Where the
hell are they, these ‘having-runners’, as Jack has called them with ample
affection? They signed in—as each line reflected a signature hand—and never
signed out. Addresses spanning from Minneapolis to Chicago to Texas, the
Carters fit right in to the list of the previous pages, in age range and
asterisk sparsity. It was startling that all registrants should be here, if this
binder was worth its own weight. Perhaps
the grandma was not the best bookkeeper, or perhaps—
“You
shouldn’t be doing that.” Jack leveled his voice the way a kindergarten teacher
might command. He had no aggressive apparatus with him, still a silhouette at
the boathouse door—no gun or goon or lasso—just his confident self. Instead of
elaborating, he under-armed a horseshoe easy enough for Pam to catch. “See,” as
she easily caught, “we’re doing that
instead.”
Pam spun a
million gears. “You didn’t let me get in touch with Trig.”
Jack
stalled a quarter-minute. “And… your point?”
“Either you
have organization here or you don’t.” Pam waited for Jack to respond to that
general gambit, but his silence compelled her to go on. “You had us sign in; it
would only be natural that you’d have us sign out.”
“You can
sign out right now,” Jack almost mumbled, “if it matters that much to you.”
“I got a
daughter here, Jack. You make this seem…”
He didn’t
fill in that gap. Instead, he circled around the counter and pulled the binder
from Pam’s hand. Like tucking in a toddler, Jack caressed the object as he
nuzzled it into the cabinet, then closed it and turned the key. Holding that
key by a finger and thumb, he inquired of Pam: “shall I swallow this, to be
safe?”
Pam wasn’t
going to take that bait. “Why did you throw a horseshoe at me?”
“I tossed
it—different than ‘thrown’—and strictly in the spirit of the game. Incidentally,
a game your daughter is still playing and, at the very least, you should be
watching.”
“Jack, how
do you run this place? What fuels the furnace out there?”
“Well, you
know,” Jack extended the key toward Pam, nodding for her to grab it. As she
did, he roundhoused her with his other hand. The strike was practiced and
precise.
And Pam,
losing consciousness, tried to resource her patroller wherewithal.
“B—ba—back-up’s… been…” She was halfway to the floor before her final word: “…
streamed.”
He
let her fall on her own accord before binding her ankles with a nylon
pullstring he blindly found under the counter. Dragging her limp body through
the tunnel door to the chapel, he knew he didn’t need to say a thing. “Hard to
resist, though,” he uttered to no one listening. “Back-up is…”—Jack gagged on
an unexpected morsel of doubt—“beyond…” He closed the door and locked it,
another key he’d have to hold now, and hide.
XXXI.
Trig walked
by the abandoned houses of Winton, chancing some glances back at Oscar’s house.
The crazed coot said he’d have his back, whatever that might mean. Trig tried
to stream the names of those deceased, to verify what Oscar had said: “Gavin
Jones, Patty Ventura, Francine O’Mara,”—a couple more. The izøne was fickle this close to the sanctuary, and Trig was getting
exhausted by the mental strain. Best just to remember them. Bill Sinclair and Cary McNichols and Pete
Wilcox… and Oscar’s Martha. Don’t forget, dammit! he told his head.
The
sanctuary gate would be another mile, Trig having logged four already. ‘A mile
in someone else’s moccasins,’ he mused, but didn’t stream. Then “funny,” out
loud, assured that no one could hear. “That grandma in the sanctuary regarded
Pam as an indian: last name ‘Lightspeed’ threw her off!” He longed to be with his
Lightspeed now, doff her moccasins and his patroller boots, run into the woods
and molt all other clothes, then dive into the lake and mate like otters.
But the
kids would be around. Tales of the past week would need their airing, and
frankly Trig would need to be all ears, all eyes—not to lapse into libido.
Instead, he’d gather what he could, help pack up Pam and everyone else
returning to Faribault. The shuttle would be in view in a matter of minutes,
just inside the sanctuary entrance. The next few hours couldn’t come and go expediently
enough.
At the
gate, Trig saw a gray-haired man fiddling with a ring of keys, trying out each
and staring at their tips to wonder why they weren’t cooperating. On his
forearm hung a half-dozen horseshoes, red and silver and blue; iron rods were
gripped beneath his armpit, adding to the struggle. He didn’t notice Trig at
all until, fifty feet away, the latter floated a not-too-loud “Hello, Lou.”
Startled,
but smiling second nature, Lou responded, “G’day to you, Patroller.” He dropped
his view back to his cause. “Seems my Alzheimer’s kickin’ in again, these bits
o’ metal here to mock me.”
“Want some
help? Maybe toss them over and I can open from the outside.”
Lou pursed
his lips and kept on trying. “Gotta get accustomed. New security measures,
see?”
“Hmm. Hey,
do you recognize me, Lou?”
Raising up
a wizened eye, “can’t say I do. Shoot, some of these keys been with me half my
livin’ days and I don’ recognize them, neither.”
“I’m Trig.
Pam’s.., um, guy, I guess.”
“Ya guess?
In my day you’d be certain ’bout sumpin’ like that.”
“Don’t you
remember me, Lou? Last weekend, with Jack playing guitar at the campfire? What
was it, again, something about… Jesus, I can’t recall.”
“Wasn’t
about Jesus. ‘Fill yer Boots’ is one of ’em he crooned—”
“Yes! ‘Fill your boots when it ra-ai-ains’…
All coming back now. And the drizzle then didn’t feel so bad!”
“’S been
sunnier since then. Say, why then aint you returned ’til now? Pam and her dad
and the kids been havin’ a whale of a time, tossin’ horseshoes, swimmin’,
puttin’ on plays.”
“Putting on
plays?”
“Goldilocks
an’ the Three Otters.”
Trig pulled
a face. “I’ll be damned. Missed everything, then.”
“Pretty
much. Ah!” rotating the right key, “got it!” Lou opened the gate toward him and
bowed with a sweeping hand to let Trig come into the sanctuary. He then went
out and locked the gate shut, mumbling “not in my nature to lock things up,
but… house rules.”
“What do
you mean? Jack’s rules?”
“Naturally.
He figured some tightenin’ up was due ’round here. Well, maybe cuz there’s no
patrollers who come by—’cept you, by chance.”
Trig
wondered how he might shed his uniform, maybe ask Lou for a spare shirt at
least. Instead, he blurted out what was most on his mind. “Do you know, Lou,
the man in Winton named Oscar? I assume that you must.”
Lou
scratched his scalp and slid the clutch of knuckles to his nape. “I s’pose it’d
be impossible for me not to know ’im.”
“Why
impossible?”
“Same age
fella, both of us residin’ here for the fall-to-winter of our lives. Both of us
unstreamed—point of disconnection,
the izøned might assume. But really not. Both of
us scrounging out a livin’… Yes, as this worl’ spins, I know Oscar.”
“And his
wife? Martha?”
Lou turned
away, slouching his arm with all the horseshoes on it—a clatter of careless
metal. He lowered himself to one knee to scoop them up and settled there a
minute. “The Walleye Queen,” he finally uttered, “mos’ beautiful I ever did
see.”
Trig let
that linger in due respect. “What happened to her?”
“Martha?”
Lou hoisted himself in a grunt. “She… disappeared. Ceased to be.”
“How?
Because Oscar—”
“—the izøne took her, I figure. She’d just become
streamed, dang it. Oscar was opposed, the little I talked to him ’bout it. An’
she hadn’t much time for me, double dang it. Guess ya might say some dividin’
lines happened which don’t sit well with the good ol’ Lou you barely knew.”
“You and
Oscar had a falling out?”
Lou
finished arranging the horseshoes on his arm the way they’d balance for his short
walk home. “Nothin’ worth noting. He hates this place, what Jack made. And my
argument was that, hell—if a guy hates the izøne, then
how can he hate a sanctuary from it?
Sorta ‘the enemy of my enemy’ kinda thing. But Oscar warn’t buyin’ that logic.
He’s cock-sure Jack is makin’ matters worse: pushin’ traditional folks away and
luring city slickers to rule the roost ’round here.”
“I suppose
the electric fence now confirms his point.”
“Prob’ly.
He sobbed like a baby when Lover’s Island got closed off. But one’s gotta
realize: the furnace there is the heart an’ lungs o’ this place—Jack had to
protect that like a rib cage.”
“And now,
with all this,” Trig panned to the fenceline and the live wire riding atop,
“he’s puffing out that chest.”
The clink
of the horseshoes hinted at Lou’s desire to go. “It’s the dog-gone nature of
nature, I s’pose. Human ’r otherwise.”
“Ha!—riddle
in everything. Well, you take care, Lou.” Trig said, and watched the old
woodsman gesture the same.
Moments
after Lou had disappeared into the elbow of his path, Trig turned to survey his
own place within the sanctuary. Pam had parked the patroller shuttle next to
the Carter’s, and Trig had no idea that both by now had become defunct, as if
the lack of izøne had sapped their vehicular will to
live. But that wouldn’t make sense: batteries were robust these days,
independent of signals from the sky. Still, they seemed fish out of water in
the narrow space between the pines and birches around this gateway clearing.
Thirty yards further from the naïveté of shuttles that would be worthless in
the event of an evacuation, Trig stopped in his tracks. A border collie was
approaching in a crouched, oblique gait. “Pretty,” he voiced in uncertain
memory, and the dog loosened up, keeping the same tempo forward to meet this
unexpected visitor. She loped to him in some deference to his uniform, as if
the semblance of authority might merit some difference. Of course, Trig’s
bodily smell—sweatier than six days earlier—was Pretty’s gauge that all was
right or not alright. She decided on the latter, and the two of them strode
tentatively toward Fall Lake.
For a
while, it became Huck Finn and Jim, if neither Trig nor Pretty were intuitive
for either role. Their route through the forest took them past the Carter cabin
(evidently vacant at this time) and the campfire ring where Jack had sung ‘Fill
your Boots’ so ecstatically. Lou’s nudge of memory allowed Trig a wary smile.
Pretty appeared not to need such nudges, causing Trig to ruminate, ‘a world without reminders must be nice.’
The boathouse was now in view and voices carried from the beach, still veiled
by the trees. Trig halted and called the dog to circle back. “Pretty,” he bent
and whispered, “do you know what the hell is going on here?”
Pretty
seemed at odds, whether to shrug shoulders that wouldn’t be discernible in
human eyes or sniff the air for updates. Pam was missing, Pretty knew, and Trig
should be aware. Or prepared to be aware. How to bark that into human
understanding was nothing anyone nor any izøned
databank could direct.
Tim was
first to emerge between the beach and boathouse. “Hey, there you are!” he
addressed the dog, and then, “oh, hello, um… Patroller.”
“Still
‘Trig’, just coming off duty, that’s all.”
“Is Pam
with you? We’ve been looking for her for quite a while now.”
Trig
swallowed that news and forced some composure. “Just Pam? Is Shel missing,
too?”
“No. She’s
just swimming now with the girls. I think she doesn’t know we’re searching.”
“Where’s
Jack?”
“Out on the
lake. He said a canoe was gone, so he ’n my dad paddled east. Me and Gordon
just got in from the west side of the lake.”
“Around
Lover’s Island?”
“That, yeah,
but scouting the shoreline of Winton, too. She must have gone east.”
Trig nodded
vacantly, if a million thoughts collided behind his eyes. “Where’s Gordon now?”
“Boathouse.”
“Do me a
favor,” Trig calculated. “Take Pretty back to the beach and don’t let on yet
that I’m here. Not that I shouldn’t be—we arranged to travel back to Faribault
today—but I wouldn’t want Shel to be confused.”
“Sure. You
goin’ to the boathouse, then?”
“Yeah, but
I’ll need to cut through this way to avoid being seen,” thumbing back toward
the campfire ring.
“Should I
tell my mom you’re here, or Nala?”
Trig looked
at Pretty for advice, perhaps receiving it. “If you can, do that subtly. You
know what ‘subtle’ means?”
Tim knit
his brow. “You think I’m an idiot without the izøne? I know
what it means.”
“Good. I
thought so.” With that, they parted.
At the
beach, Nala and Avis were in the water with Aamiina, Shel, and Mia. Pretty ran
in to join them. “Where’s Kay?” Tim called out.
“Don’t
know,” Avis responded. “Back at the cabin, maybe.”
Tim nodded
and wondered what to do. A normal day would have him go out fishing, chop wood,
page through a book his sisters would have already read. Strum the guitar that
Jack had lent, to figure out some chords and combinations. All these he could
do, yet suddenly he felt the gravity of Trig’s presence, off duty or otherwise.
In a matter of hours, their guests would go home—maybe that’s why Pam decided
to venture off for a final foray deep into the sanctuary. Tim could empathize
with that: not so much to find the outer limits (which would blend back into izøne) but to relish the isolation, the quietest
stretches of this intriguing place. A week ago, or two, Tim would be chomping
at the bit to get back to Minneapolis, stream stories with his friends, brag about
his wilderness wherewithal. Now, even if the Faribault folks offered him a seat
in their shuttle, he wouldn’t want to leave.
He stood up
from the ledge of grass that swooped into the sand. The swimmers were having a
good time learning how to dolphin dive. Pretty had come out with ample
satisfaction they were safe. She shared Tim’s mood, wanting a return of
calmness and routine. The two of them tread quietly to the cabin, where only a
novel on Kay’s chair showed any evidence she’d been there lately. Beloved, by Toni Morrison. The cover had
two dandelions apparently still rooted: the taller crowned in bright yellow,
the smaller a seedhead of gray. One
prepubescent, the other pregnant, he remembered Kay telling him the other
day. Baby dandelions are made that way.
Despite his
restlessness, Tim picked up the book and sat as her sister would. He opened to
the dedication page: “Sixty Million and
more.” Then the epigraph:
“I will call them my people,
which were not my people;
and her my beloved,
which was not beloved.
ROMANS 9:25”.
The opening lines a code of sorts: “124 WAS SPITEFUL. Full
of a baby’s venom.” Tim worked hard to decipher what he could from the strange
names and instant chaos. He thought about how subtle the picture of the
dandelions felt, and whether he really knew that word. Nothing seemed subtle
inside the cover. He wondered why Kay had picked this one, almost necessitating
izøne help. Certainly he felt helpless
trying to read, but plowed on anyway, to page 13 when he finally fell to sleep.
Trig lurked
tree-to-tree like a sasquatch, the black of his patroller uniform serving his
situation auspiciously. He had no plan but to spy out what he could, buy some
time yet move quickly to some understanding. Pam was most on his mind, of
course, but he continued to roll the names in his memory: Gavin Jones, Patty
Ventura, Francine O’Mara, Bill Sinclair, Cary McNichols, Pete Wilcox, Oscar’s
Martha—no last name. And what about this morning’s visit to the Ely clinic,
talking with the sister of Lee Simmons? Can’t
forget any of these. And Pam Circe,
God forbid.
He started
to cry. This stretch of weeks had defined his whole life, from casual romance
to falling in love, including the prospect of being Shel’s father. He took on
this assignment as a favor to Chief, to vie for a favor back, like extra
vacation time—for Pam, too, as his faithful patroller partner. He wanted Chief
to regard her more professionally, which was never a question to anyone else in
the precinct. He hoped that maybe cracking this case, even off duty—especially off duty—would boost their
partnership and enliven their raison d’être in everyone’s minds. They’d grow as
a family, give Shel a sibling and a dog like Pretty, and swim in as many of the
10,000 lakes this land boasted.
Pulling
himself together, Trig crept to the west side of the boathouse and peered
through a window. The grandma was there, just like she had been last week when
they all signed the register. Gordon wasn’t, at least from this angle. Going in
through the front door would keep Trig out of sight from the beach, but he
wasn’t sure if that door was unlocked: the only way he’d ever seen people go in
or out was through the east entrance, leading a line toward the beach.
He tried
his luck, rationalizing that he might just knock on that door anyway. It had no
window, so maybe he could simply rap on the window to catch the grandma’s
attention. No, he decided. I can’t portray myself as a sneak. He
grabbed the doorknob, knew right away it was locked, and knocked without a
sense of urgency. The grandma yelled in her frail sort of way, “Side door’s
open, to your right.” But Trig stuck to his spot. He waited ten seconds and
knocked again. The grandma repeated herself and didn’t appear to move toward
the locked door. Trig waited another ten seconds before knocking again. Silence
rounded out the full minute until the door was unlocked. No steps had been
heard from the counter to here, a span of around twenty feet. She might be in slippers, Trig thought,
and rotated the brass knob. As he the door opened, he saw that she had
abandoned her post and, perhaps, she would have been backing away from behind
the swing of the door. He stepped in, announcing himself to no one he could
see, even as he cleared the entryway and shut the door.
Baffled, he
froze. And just as he darted his eyes to the ceiling, Gordon leaped out from an
aisle of shelves, tackling him rugby-style. Their scuffle was short, as Trig
wouldn’t have guessed that the grandma had hid in the opposite aisle, supplied
and skilled with a baseball bat. Losing consciousness, Trig witnessed her
running back to the counter, unlocking some door veiled with maps, as Gordon
dragged him in that direction.
XXXII.
Being a
dolphin was a lot of fun, but the sun was getting low in the sky and the girls’
shoulders shivered in the clutch of their prune hands. Nala and Avis were
talking at the beach—they didn’t need to be such active lifeguards anymore—when
Shel came out of the water and asked with due curiosity, “where’s Mom?”
“Well,”
Avis ventured in veiled hesitation, “she knows you’re set to leave soon. I
think she wants you to have as much time here as possible.”
“Jus’ as
likely she don’t really wanna leave,” Nala added.
“We’re only
supposed to go when Trig gets here—” Shel announced, then half-gasped at the
realization that Avis might not have been privy to that plan.
“Oh,” said
Avis, “then maybe your mom is trying to fetch him right now.”
“With the
shuttle?”
“I dunno.”
Avis looked at Nala, who shrugged a lack of anything better to say.
The fact
was, the mothers knew Pam had been missing for a quite a while, the two-canoe
posse coming up empty. They hadn’t broached it in their conversation,
preferring the girls to overhear their praise of last night’s play, the manner
in which a seven- and eight- and nine-year-old tossed and chased and caught
their imagination. Nala hadn’t seen the chapel during the previous weekend
visit and hailed it as an optimal ‘theatre in the round’. “Maybe you can come
down to Faribault someday. Mia would like the toad farm Aamiina and Shel made
in Alexander Park—”
“—Sure,”
Avis followed with a shush, “Mia will beg to go with you even today, if we’re
too loud.”
“She’s
welcome to,” Nala barely vocalized.
Now, with
the girls wrapped in towels, sitting on the same berm, Avis wished she could
communicate with Nala through silent streaming. Other uses of the izøne had hardly nagged at her mind, but streaming
an occasional message—sometimes to Seb, now to Nala—would come in handy. Where do you think Pam went? she’d think
into the stream, predicting Nala to respond: where would you go if you were her? Avis would wonder about that
and proffer, I’d go to Winton, visit that
old man there again. What did the girls call him? Oscar? Oscar the Grouch,
maybe, pining for some company and using reverse psychology. He must be awfully
lonely, squatting there in a village that isn’t. Jack sure gave us guff for
letting them wander off in his direction. It’s strange to have adversaries for
neighbors—or? perhaps not so strange. What do you think, Nala? Nala?
“Nala?”
Nala had
been looking east, secretly revisiting her early morning walk. “Huh?”
“What do
you think about unneighborly neighbors?”
“Who you got
in mind?”
“Just
anybody. You left Somalia. Were the people there the reason?” Avis regretted
asking in such blunt, ignorant terms. “I mean, did someone push you away?”
“Did I have
bad neighbors?”
“Or good
ones—I’m just curious.”
“My best
memories are when I was their age,” pointing at the girls, who were huddling
now with their own ad hoc plans. “Jamilah, Fawzia, and me. Three—not what you
call ’em, ‘otters’, but—hmm, mud pie makers.”
“Mud pie
makers?”
“That’s
what we did most of all, beside the river. Made mud pie forts, too.”
“Like we do
with snow?”
“Kinda like
that. They dried instead of melted.”
“Then maybe
they’re still there.”
“If the
crocodiles protected them.”
“Crocodiles!”
“They were
also my neighbors. Neither good nor bad.”
They spoke
more as the sun was now settling behind Winton. The day would be dark in an
hour.
Jim was already zonked out in a hammock,
oblivious of Pam’s absence.
If the Faribault folks needed another night here, they should erect the
pup tent again. Apologies would need to be communicated to their employers—a
‘call in sick’, so to speak. They’d need to migrate out of the sanctuary at
least to do that. Maybe that’s what Pam
is up to, one or both of the women thought, using the izøne to keep the izøne at bay, at least for another day. Just wish
that she would have told us so…
Meanwhile,
Pam had almost screamed her lungs out, locked within the chapel. The
ventilation ducts had silencers above the water line that Jack had installed,
prescient of this very moment. Similarly, the tunnel from the boathouse to the
underwater disc had soundproof doors—on both ends—muting all within the
capsule.
Gordon,
surreptitiously, was adding to that ‘all’. He squinted through the peephole to
see that Pam was far enough away, then cranked the handle to open the door and
slide Trig in like a black bag laden with trash. Pam froze at first and then
dashed toward them, stumbling across the pillowed pit. Gordon smirked at the
prospect that she would reach him, let alone take him down. He backed up in
three demonstrative strides and slammed the door a measured second before Pam
could pound on it. Her instinct blurred patroller training with personal
concern for Trig, who was breathing, if not conscious enough to groan. She fell
softly to his side and kissed his blood-streaked hairline, feeling for the
cause that hours ago could never be a grandma’s baseball bat; now, there was no
telling.
She lit
candles to make up for the lamps that had been wired from the Kawashiwi dam, now
deadened by Gordon’s flip of an outer switch. Any of today’s remaining sunlight
barely reached the algae-smeared windows of the disc, some twelve to twenty
feet below the surface of the lake. “It’s a coffin,” she realized, cynically
disguised as a funeral chamber, “as if we congregated here to mourn ourselves.”
There was
no time for such rumination. Just minutes ago she was constructing a crossbow
out of a wicker chair she’d dismantled. Had she figured out the best elastic
fix, scraped arrow tips from rails of the chair, she could have pierced Gordon
enough to slow him down, tackle and aim for his vulnerable parts. She retained
the skeleton of this plan, but now needed Trig to wake up—for his sake and
theirs. She was relieved to have him here, if not in such shape.
Her eyes
watered a review of the hours that morphed this sanctuary from good to dubious
to instant evil. Shel is still out there,
she fretted, in the mindset that this
place is good. Are the Carters part of this? Pam massaged Trig’s scalp and
flashed her eyes around the disc for more ideas of what to do. Tim’s chessboard
lured her attention. Half the pieces off the grid, it was hard to see which
side was winning; the game had been abandoned—maybe the checkmate was an
inevitable move away and both players knew it. Pam couldn’t gauge as much in the
distance and the dark, and this particular game didn’t matter, anyway. But the
concept did, and she knew it: one doesn’t
abandon one’s chances to prevail, let alone survive.
A canoe, as
it comes in to shore, glides and wants to lift its bow according to the wedge
of water left. Seb was in that bow, bracing the aluminum sides in order to time
his own jettison and let the craft meet the sand more weightlessly. At the
stern Jack clutched his paddle against his thighs like a weary hunter would his
rifle. ‘No sign of Pam’, his face conveyed to the women assembling the pup
tent. And theirs relayed dismay.
The kids
were at the cabin, tasked with getting a fire going under the stove. Pretty had
gone with them, but now had come back. She came up to sniff Seb, make sure he
was alright. “What can you tell us, dog?” his voice wispy from fatigue.
“I think,”
Jack decided, “we just wait. Pam’s a patroller—she knows how to operate in
terms of time and space. We shouldn’t treat this like a needle in a haystack.”
Nala would
have streamed that but could only ask, “what haystack you mean?”
Seb pulled
the canoe so Jack would have less of the hull to walk. No one spoke for a
while. Avis stretched her eyes past her husband to the darkened side of Fall
Lake. Jack concentrated on his steps and disembarked starboard, closest to the
boathouse. Nala watched him, wondering if he heard her in the first place.
“It’s a big area,” he finally said, “this sanctuary. That’s
the haystack.”
“I heard
sixteen square miles. You think she could be in any one of ’em?”
“She could be
outside of the sanctuary altogether,” Avis added, “a much bigger haystack.”
“Not
necessarily,” Seb opined. “Outside the sanctuary she could stream anyone else
streamed. She’d be no needle there…”
No one said
anything. Tim was coming from the direction of the cabin. Pretty picked herself
up from the grassy area near the pup tent’s entrance and walked slowly towards
him. Where they met, the dog threaded Tim’s stride to cause some syncopation, a
half-halt toward his briefing with the adults. “The kids are alright,” he
announced, oblivious to that song by The Who a century and some years before.
“They wanted an A-Okay to bake oatmeal cookies.”
Jack
smiled. “Did you give them that?”
“Um, I…
didn’t know if—”
Nala
ignored such a triviality. “Don’t ya think we should try the izøne to contact Pam? Maybe that Hotline option, most inclined to find
some stowaway needle, did you call it, within a haystack?”
“No.” Jack
spoke now with no smile. “The whole point of the sanctuary is not to weenie out
and beg the izøne for this-and-that.”
“Not when a
person’s life is at stake?” The question could have come from any of the
Carter’s, yet came from Nala, owning more the situation.
“If Pam is
out of the sanctuary, she can izøne anyone
she wants. If she is still somewhere within, she can’t.” Jack paused to gauge
the resonance of that. “And we are not inclined
to invite the izøned world in—they wouldn’t be more
resourced than any of us now.”
“But they
could span those square miles better.”
“Especially
if they had patroller instincts,” Avis thought wise to include.
“Like
Trig,” Nala proffered, “knowing her best of all.”
Tim tried
to disappear. He had planted himself in exactly the spot Pretty had been, as
she subliminally guided him there. The vision of Trig had not left his mind in
the three hours or so of their chance meeting. Machinations of why he had come,
what he might do, how Pam’s absence meant this-or-that, to use Jack’s
phrasing—all flooded the chess chambers of his teenage brain. He hesitated
once, then twice before uttering, “Trig… is—”
His mom and
dad focused on what they knew was a different voice from their son. Neither
said anything to help out his syntax, nor did Nala. Jack stood by the canoe,
gripping his paddle with both hands. He waited for Tim to make eye contact to
press out the question: “Trig is—what?”
The girls
decided to make those oatmeal cookies without permission. There were floured
oats, naturally, and brown sugar and salt and baking soda on the kitchen shelf.
Even some vanilla extract. The sticking point was the amount of eggs—five—that
the girls knew were a precious commodity, as they’d seen Avis apportioning them
for breakfasts and fresh bread. They could go four, or even three for the three
of them; the available oats could carry eight or even ten eggs to the enjoyment
of many beyond this cabin, beyond this night.
They talked
about such things. Of course, they had bluegills to fry up and potatoes to
boil, dinner staples that Mia (in her mere weeks here) loved teaching to her
younger peers, their time together now on a short string. They set out more places at the table than had
chairs to support them: Seb, Avis, Kay, Tim and Mia, of course, then Nala and
Aami, Grandpa Jim and Shel… to make nine. Pam would come to be ten. An unspoken
Trig would make eleven.
Pretty, to count beyond plates, would
need her portion of bluegill. Anyone else would have to spill over to the
campfire, which the girls hoped would still happen, last night of their visit
and all…
“Let’s add
some rum to the dough,” tempted Mia, sliding her hands like a schemer.
“What for?”
Shel challenged, her chance to ask questions having all-but-replaced her
instinct for streaming.
“Because it’s here on the shelf,”
hiding behind a jar of honey, “and maybe that would let our raid of the eggs
not hurt so much.”
Aami didn’t
understand. “Who’s hurting the eggs? I thought we could—”
“—Nobody’s
hurting the eggs. We’re just using what’s here. And adding something the adults
would like.”
“Do you
think Mom will come here tonight?” Shel questioned, biting her lip not to cry.
Her friends
hugged her tightly, whispering no clear answer. Adding rum to the mix or not,
they knew they’d have to play out the evening by ear. Like fledglings, they
needed to trust their new instincts, perhaps not so new.
XXXIII.
“Trig is
supposed to come here tonight,” Nala explained. “Didn’t think the whole weekend
would be good for him.”
“Why,
what’s buggin’ him?”
“He was,
um, having headaches after last weekend and, well, wanted less exposure.”
“Less
exposure to the lack of izøne exposure?” Jack
guffawed. “That’s absurd.”
“To be honest,
Pam and I also had headaches when we first left here. While ours went away,
Trig’s stayed.”
“We also
felt woozy walking back from Ely that time,” Avis motioned to Seb, “before we
were attacked.”
“True,”
recalled Seb. “Maybe made us more vulnerable for that attack.”
Jack had
heard enough. “You all feeling headachy now? No? You think somehow this
sanctuary’s to blame for the izøne’s zap on your
head? We don’t mess with your system—we try to purge the poison! That’s why you
need at least a year here to come clean, not in-and-out weekends! Shouldn’t
have bent the rules, goddammit.”
“Listen,
Jack, we’re sorry—”
But Jack
didn’t want to listen to Seb. He focused squarely on Nala. “When exactly did
Trig say he’d come?”
She looked
towards Jim’s hammock, where horseshoes had been played. “Can’t say. Wasn’t my
plan.”
“And what
d’you know about it?” Jack pointed his paddle at Tim.
Pretty barked at the gesture, giving Tim time
to think. “I’ve just been here. How could I know about plans outside the
sanctuary?”
Avis stood
up. “Why are you so upset, Jack, about Trig? If anything, he’d be helpful in
searching for Pam, comforting Shel… I mean, this seems unwarranted.”
Jack
dropped his chin and nodded. “You’re right.” His voice lost its edge. “I’m
upset at myself, mainly. Don’t want folks here to get lost, or doubt what this
sanctuary is for.” He lowered the blade of the oar and settled it in the loose
sand. “I don’t want heavens or hells on this earth—just nature as it is. I
s’pose I’m just spent today, worrying about the darkness and the unresolved
day.”
Seb pulled
the canoe all the way out of the water and lifted it by the front thwart. “Hey
Tim, lend a hand with the rear so we can get this to the boathouse.”
“No,” Jack
waved him off, “leave it here. I might go back out tonight with lantern light.”
He headed for the boathouse without another word.
It hadn’t
occurred to anyone yet that Kay had been out of view for as long as Pam. She
had snuck off to Gordon’s cabin (not for the first time) and fell asleep like
Goldilocks upon his cot. There she dreamed of Elysian fields beyond the horizon
of Minnesota, if not contained in her mind to the Attic Greek; she dreamed of diving
into green barley and swimming through the stalks, breathing easily, then
floating upon the soft awns to rest under the watch of the naked sky.
Out of that
blue, Kay had reveled in the zone beyond the izøne, the sanctuary’s
sixteen square miles that could become infinity. She now knew she had within
herself the capacity to recall what had been streamable—Homer’s Odyssey, for instance—and then a more
creative penchant to do what streaming couldn’t. She had paddled waters toward
some nascent ‘wonderwall’, unable now and uninterested in referencing some
Oasis bloke who may have coined the term. Her erstwhile need to know had given
way to a greater need to navigate anew.
The home
Gordon had made out of this hovel was strangely warm. The fireplace had a hook
for stew or boiling water, medieval style. The stack of wood was tidy, the
bellows and poker rods hung in designated places. Decorations weren’t exactly
what Kay saw in the arrangement of items on the dresser and tacked to the wall.
Evidence of fight-and-flight from years ago in Chicago and his journey north. A
grungy pennant of a baseball-swinging cub saying in a speech bubble: “2015
wasn’t for nothin!” A blanket with ‘Lovable Losers’ emblazoned across an aerial
view of Wrigley Field. A photo of Jake and Elwood performing at the Joliet
penitentiary. Dried flowers—castillas, black-eyed susans—as ceiling bunting, along
with practical items like garlic braids and fly paper. Fishing rods and tackle,
neatly in a corner. An axe wedged into a chopping block. A stuffed recliner near
the fireplace and one wooden chair tucked into a table by the kitchen counter.
A bunch of rugs from blackbear hides, and antlers for a hat rack. A wardrobe
and an army trunk. Several unstrung bows beside a quiver. A scattering of comic
books, their corners rounded with wear.
Another
forty percent of the place was behind a padlocked door, and Gordon was agitated
when Kay asked what was there. Twice, aware perhaps that a third inquiry could
incur punishment. Gordon had never touched her since his failed kiss, even as she
had touched him—neckrubs and such. She felt the strength of a Spanish bull in
his shoulders, the flinch of unfamiliarity gradually diminishing with each
visit. He said almost nothing, and she not much more. An hour would go by with
little more activity than stoking the fire and simply watching it burn.
All the
more reason it was strange how he shook her awake, mumbling things about the
chapel and how no one could go there. He said so matter-of-factly, like the
place was leaking without any need to save it. She asked if anyone had been
there lately, and he answered “me.” She wanted to ask more but was surprised
when he took her hand, leaned down to kiss its softness, and stayed there as
Kay stroked his crew cut with her other hand. She wasn’t sure if sweat or tears
moistened the hand he clutched, or even drool.
The tunnel
Jack had made some years ago from boathouse to chapel was umbilical: meant to
supply the chapel of its life blood yet also to be cut off when necessary. He
loved every inch of the place he owned, less for the hint of narcissism and
more for the noble purpose of returning humanity to its proper place in nature.
This tunnel-and-chapel contraption did not manifest human nature in a
biological sense (we cannot breathe under water) if it did in a technological
sense (scuba extends our limits). The izøne,
arguably, was such an extension. The difference was, in Jack’s mind, that scuba
divers still came up for untanked air, while izøne
streamers drowned in their own, unnatural sense of progress.
All this
was on his mind as he paced the seventy, eighty meters and more to the
lock-tight chapel door. He hadn’t a script but wanted to stay cool to the
moment, especially on what seemed to be Trig’s betrayal of duty, uniformed or
not. That’s how he began his conversation through the sliding feed-hole. “Is
the infiltrator conscious yet?”
“Trig?” Pam
blurted, incredulous that Jack gave no semblance of sympathy for their plight.
“Is Trig alive from your goon’s attack?”
“Is he?”
A minute of
shuffle enabled Trig to speak for himself. “Jack,” he wheezed, “you cannot win
in this way.”
Jack did
not respond to that assertion. Instead, he offered his own: “we’re all
patrollers for our own sense of right. I’ve established this sanctuary on moral
and legal grounds, fully aware that outsiders might undercut my efforts.”
Pam shouted
a “stop this monkey business! Get us out and your guilt will be alleviated
through recognizance—”
“You’re
going to play lawyer right now?” Jack widened his smirk. “I wouldn’t know where
to start with definitions of ‘guilt’ and ‘recognizance’. Neither would you. Pharaohs,
for example, were completely guiltless in making their pyramids—perhaps
oblivious of the real ‘whom’ for which they directed the deal. They had no
grasp of the mathematics, let alone the labor costs. They left that all to
middle-management, who could be more truly culpable, all things considered. You
are that to the monument of the izøne.
Middle-management. Would you like to plea ‘no contest’ to that with the
possible release on your own recognizance?”
“Why reach four
thousand years backward?” Trig strained to inquire. “Seems you should have… a
modern analogy.”
“No. Don’t
need to cater to modernity. To be certain, tomb raiders are ageless, for better
or worse. Without them, we’d only see the obelisks of perceived civilization. I
don’t have to do anything to answer for your middle-management plight. You are
neither pharaoh nor tomb-raider.”
“And you?”
“Arguably the latter, but really,
I’ve got better fish to fry.”
“Okay,” Pam
put her face close to the aperture, “so those fish you’re frying—at Lovers Island,
evidently—are what, exactly?”
Jack took
the question on several levels, reflectively. He waited for Pam and Trig to gasp
their desperation before trying out this gambit: “Do you want to know? Because
I can tell you. Or do you want to live?”
The
umbilical cord tightened, as Pam and Trig sought each other’s eyes to scan the
ultimatum for its heft and hints for an escape. “Go on,” said Pam. “Tell to
your heart’s delight.”
“No
delight,” Jack swallowed, as he understood the stakes. “I was on a flight ten
years ago, or so. And as everybody else on board noticed, too, streaming worked
less well. I thought, you know, signals at such altitude may scramble the whole
scheme, like magnetic force too close to what it’s trying to affect. And even
in the thinking of that—trying to stream magnets and such—I realized that these
leaps of technology were smothering each self. We were, as it were, flying
above our capacity to think for ourselves.”
“Listen,
Jack,” Trig offered groggily, “I’m on your side with this. Believe—”
“—well, I
don’t believe you, Trig. You came here dead set to ambush, destroy this
peaceful premise—”
“You’ve
killed dozens, Jack, if not hundreds, to throw into your furnace! You know who
they are: Gavin Jones and Patty, um, Ventura, O’Mara, Bill..., and Cary… Wilcox—Lee
Simmons, that’s for sure, and...”
“Are you
done?”
Trig was
hyperventilating, managing a “n-no” between Pam’s demands to open up the door.
“I won’t
open anything,” Jack simpered. “You’ve just added to the list.” He slid his
back to the tunnel’s wall to sit and contemplate aloud. “I started with the
hospitals—serum’s never cheap, but regulation killed the option; doctors had to
account for every milligram to be within a body or inventoried otherwise. I’m
not the only one to have figured out how raw serum clogs the izøne when it’s lifted to the troposphere.”
Pam pounded
on the door. “There’s no time for this!”
“Oh, there’s
time indeed. I invested in cemeteries, if you wanna know. Lots of patience in
that business. A body to bury would be, through the good efforts of Gordon, a
body to unearth a night or two thereafter. Couldn’t let it putrefy as
such—embalming fluid didn’t eradicate the streaming signal as much as lack of
lymph. We became pretty good at raiding tombs.”
“Why, Jack?
Why confess all this—”
“It’s
explanation, not confession. I only wanted to recycle the product. We stored
what we could in freezers but realized we had to harvest closer to home. The
furnace runs on natural gas—we got lucky with the vein we found; tossing in an
arm or leg every day or two has done the trick, as long as they are fresh.”
“It’s a
holocaust, then—”
“You and
Trig will keep us running another two weeks, at least.”
“You’re a
monster, Jack!”
Jack said
no more. The explanation never satisfied, but like the need to harvest, eat and
defecate, systems had to be in place. He closed the feed-hole with his shoe and
pushed his body up to walk back to the boathouse. Pam’s pleas had some effect
on him—he wished he could have had her as a concubine at least; then again, she’d
always be a risk, a run-away like he would have to say she was. As for Trig, he
wouldn’t have to say a goddamn thing.
XXXIV.
Like a lone
opossum, Jim woke up in his hammock as darkness sealed off the day. He was a
little disoriented, naturally, and wondered if the posse had come back with
Pam. He wasn’t worried about her—not exactly—but thought Shel must be. He
squinted through the woods toward the Carter’s cabin, assured of her safety by
flickers of light from the windows. He’d go there, of course, but thought first
to stop by the boathouse and purchase some kind of dessert.
The grandma
was at the counter, less than her cheerful self. She greeted Jim by name, then
turned her back to open up the file cabinet and walk through it with her
fingers. Jim went to the aisle that had chocolates and other delicacies. He
took a bag of toffee pieces and an apple strudel, nosed around for what else
was there, mainly to buy time for the grandma to finish her clerical task. He
pulled out a large bill—physical money a rare but occasional way of paying for
things—and approached the counter.
“I can’t
make change for that,” the grandma demurred.
Jim
shrugged. “Keep it. The weekend’s been lovely, and you haven’t asked us for
anything.”
“Well,
you’ve been good company.” She put the bill in her pocket and went back the
files.
“Hope we
haven’t worn out our welcome. Thought we’d be on the road by now…” Jim had a
vague sense she knew something about Trig coming here to escort them out, but
kept that thought to himself. Instead, he decided to ask, “any update on Pam?”
The grandma
closed the cabinet. She looked at the map hung on the wall and shook her head.
“Could be anywhere, really. I feel badly for—”
Abruptly,
the door right next to the map flung open, the damp odor of boathouse wafting
in before Jack, who froze for a second to gauge the room. A faint wail behind
him spurred a quick close of the door, and the grim entry forced itself into a
grin. “Find whatcha need there, Jim?”
The older
man mimicked the grin. “With the exception of Pam. Thought she’d wander back by
now.”
“Yep, it’s
frustrating alright.” Jack eyeballed the grandma as if she’d want to weigh in.
“I can only imagine she’s outside the sanctuary at this point.”
“That’s why
I was pointing at the map. Could be anywhere.”
“Well,
she’s a patroller y’know.”
“I know,”
Jack said, “there’s solace in that.”
Jim bowed
his head as a way to exit, but thought to ask: “you just came from the chapel?”
Jack rubbed
the back of his neck. “Yeah,” addressing more the grandma as if they’d need to
call in someone from the izøned world. “Seems
we got a leak—no one should go in there ’til we can fix it.”
“Shame,
that. It’s a cozy atmosphere.”
“Well, keep
a lid on it, Jim. Don’t wanna alarm anybody.”
“Sure,” Jim said, if not at all sure as he headed to the Carter’s cabin.
All eyes in
the cabin turned toward him as he entered. Pretty slithered through the door,
keen to listen in to what Jim might say. “Nope,” was all he could offer to this
question and that, though he reassured something specific to Shel as she jumped
into his arms. The strudel fell to the floor as a result, but Avis retrieved it
before Pretty could react.
“Let’s eat
while dinner’s still hot.” She gestured Mia to push people into their seats:
Aamiina next to her, then Nala, Seb at the far end, Jim and Shel
counterclockwise, Tim and two extra chairs.
“Where’s
Kay, anyway?” Seb voiced this casually, but his eyes betrayed some worry.
“I don’t
know,” Avis admitted, “but she came in with Gordon. Sit down and—” Here she
made quick strides to the door, opened it and called out, “Kay! Dinner!” Then,
to the dog, “go find her, c’mon,” which wasn’t what Pretty wanted to do, but
complied anyway.
“And find
Mama, too,” Shel whimpered, clutching her grandpa’s arm.
Avis kept
the door somewhat ajar and returned to the table. Tim was serving the fish and
Mia passing the potatoes. Jim gave Shel a medium-sized piece of toffee, an ad
hoc pacifier. Nala encouraged everyone to take salad, praising the kids who made
this balanced meal. “You’ve learned so much here.”
“How to
swim!” Aamiina tried to beam, trying to pick up her friend’s spirits from
across the table.
“How to
survive,” Tim thought it smart to add. “Live off the land.”
“And
water.”
“Just not
the sky,” Seb reminded, “when the izøne prevents
such instincts.”
They ate in
silence for a while, until Avis broached what she’d been mulling since the
beach. “I don’t know—maybe we should
use the izøne tonight. Use the Hotline—” She
swallowed that final word in fear of frightening Shel, and rushed to say “—contact
Trig, or even Pam herself, if she did go into Ely or somewhere streamable. I’d
say it’s worth a try.”
Tim
coughed, wondering if this might be a chance to say that he had run into Trig
and that contacting him from outside the sanctuary would be impossible. Unless
Trig was in and then out, doing whatever he planned on the sly. At his second
cough, the table stared. “What?” he choked the word out.
“Fish
bone?”
“N-no-o…”
“You looked
like you had something to say.”
He shook
his shaggy hair. “No, nothing.”
“You’re a
know-nothing?” Mia teased, but no one laughed.
Seb picked
up on his wife’s idea, with some circumspection in his voice. “I asked Jack out
on the lake about his own use of izøne—”
“He’s streamed?”
Jim asked.
“He is. But
he doesn’t use it anymore.”
“Did you
ask him about headaches?”
“No, not
exactly. More about the magnetic pulls of the psyche. Why his compelled the
sanctuary in the first place, and whether those who have followed that lure—us,
for instance—tend toward centripetal force.”
“What’s
that,” Aamiina wanted to know.
“Opposite
of centrifugal,” Tim stated, “but what do I know, huh, Mia?”
Seb ignored
that. “Centripetal force pulls a rotating object further in. Like figure
skaters twirling on the ice—”
“—and they
bring their arms tight to go faster: I’ve seen that!” Mia bragged.
“Centrifugal
does the opposite,” Seb continued, “flinging a rotating object outward, like,
oh, I don’t know…”
“Shit
hitting a fan,” Jim straight-faced, “if you pardon the idiom.”
Seb nodded
and went on. “We talked, Jack and I, about what pulls people into a place like
this: the serenity, the chance to self-determine, the curiosity—that he
acknowledged first, actually—and,” he looked around the table to see if anyone
wanted to guess. “The silence. Even as a loon breaks in several times a day, or
a campfire becomes a little boisterous, the silence of the sanctuary is what
keeps people.”
“Are you
saying,” Nala narrowed her eyes, “he want us to stay?”
“Oh, well,
that didn’t come up. You’d have to ask him. What I meant was that he values the
silence more than the noise out there, the clamor of information and what he
called ‘infiltration of the mind’.”
“So he doesn’t go out of the sanctuary,”
Avis clarified, “but we can. Silence
is golden when all is good.” She looked at Shel, who may not have been paying
attention. “And all will be good if we might give a holler, as neighbors used
to encourage.”
“I’ll ask
Jack—”
“You don’t
need his permission!”
“We’d need
his key to open the gate. Electric current makes that fence impassable.”
“I bet I
could hop it—”
“I’m sure
you could, Tim, but that’s not the point. I think if we’re registered here and
the community has its extra security, we need to honor that.”
“So, go ask
Jack then,” Avis nearly taunted, “or else I’ll follow Tim’s lead.”
“He was at
the boathouse just before I came,” said Jim. “Didn’t look too happy, nor that
one you call the grandma, for that matter.”
“I can
imagine they’re,…” Seb read the cue from his wife not to speak further, in
light of the girls. “Hey, maybe I can bring over some of those oatmeal cookies,
if you got some to spare—”
“Sure!”
jumped up Mia, grabbing Aami to help sort then onto a couple of plates. “They have
a secret ingredient to make people happy.”
“They do?”
Tim perked up. “What?”
“It’s a
secret, Mister Know-Nothing.”
“Now, Mia,”
Seb tempered, then tasted for himself. “Hey, these are good! I think they’ll help turn the evening around.” He wrapped
four more into a cloth napkin and left for the boathouse.
Besides the silence of the place, there was
almost no light. Kawashiwi electricity had extended to the chapel, but Gordon
had flipped that breaker when he left the tunnel. Now Pam and Trig were left
with the flicker of one candle they set upon the chess table. They lay in the
pillow pit and contemplated the concave of their prison. There was a hatch like
a submarine would have, yet the logic of trying that broke down even without
one saying anything to the other: it looked lacquered shut for the prevention
of leaks, just like the thick window seals. More than that, however, what would
opening one of these portals do? Flood the place with a force fuller than a
dozen fire engine hoses. It would snuff
out our little candle, Pam joked, wistful that she would have streamed that
tacitly to Trig.
Instead,
she asked him how his headache was, waning or intensifying, and what she might
do to make him more comfortable. He scrunched his eyes to avoid another answer.
“I failed, Lightspeed,.. and there’s nobody out there… who knows where we are.”
“Nobody saw
you come in?”
“The
kid—Tim, so… But I impl… implied I had a plan… and he should keep… mum.”
“What about
anybody at Burntside? Ely?”
“What about
’em?”
“Do they
know you’re here?”
“No. Just…
the old man in Winton,…”
“Oscar?”
Trig was
fading, lolling on the pillows Pam used to prop up his head. “Yeah,.. him… And
Lou…”
“Together,
were they?”
His flinch
may have indicated something, but Trig lost consciousness by the time Pam
repeated the question. She searched again—ten times, already—for water, knowing
they’d need hydration soon. The liquor cabinet had been emptied, evidently
Jack’s calculation how he wanted her to wake up to zero hope. Kept the pillows here to encourage
self-suffocation, she glowered. He’s
got a hundred ways to kill us, and no reason but our fresh lymph to keep us
alive. A day or two, no longer.”
The candle
might last until morning, if she needed such illumination to think, to finish
the futile cross-bow with no plausible arrows to supply it. Subtly, as Gordon
had also shuttered ventilation, this benign flicker was consuming a scant
supply of oxygen, another means of suffocation. “Out, out, brief candle,” she
droned from some memory, a play she had gone to as a teenager. Life is a tale told by an idiot, and
salt to that wound, they wouldn’t even have such an idiotic platform to tell
anybody anything: Gordon would carve up their bodies in the shadows he always
found, then toss them, log by log, into that furnace. Lovers Island, their
piecemeal tomb, until their streamed remains would loft unto the izøne and scramble it for Jack’s utopia.
“Better
us, than Shel,” she heard herself admit, searching for a way to buy the others
more time, then demanding her horrified brain to dwell on that no more. She
looked up to the hatch and contemplated its handle. The pillow cases she could
rip in strips and tie together to make a rope—or two, as would need be. The
candle could burn all night, for all she cared, just to get to get the damn
deed done and force the shadows of the sanctuary to deal with them.
XXXV.
Seb was
pleasantly surprised to see Pretty halfway between the cabin everyone referred
to as “the Carter’s” and the boathouse he was heading towards. The path was
dark—Pretty’s eyes gleamed in his flashlight more than her patches of white fur
within the predominance of black. Kay, dressed also in black, walked a few
yards behind her, adding to Seb’s smile.
“Good,” he
sighed. “There were worries that you had gone the way of Pam, wherever she
might be.”
“But I was
searching for her too, don’t you remember? Gordon and I pushed our canoe toward
Winton, the same time you and Jack headed east.”
“Yes, of
course. Seems like a day ago already, we were looking so long. It’s just that,
in the meantime, we had dinner and all, and…”
“You saved
some for me?”
“You were
missed, let us say.”
“Hey, I’m
in the sanctuary, Dad. Hard to be missed for very long—”
“Wrong time
to say that, all things considered, wouldn’t ya think?”
Kay seemed
to nod some acknowledgement. “How’s, um, Shel in all this?”
Seb knelt
down to cup Pretty’s ears and, as habit, check for woodticks. “How would you
imagine her to be? Her mother’s missing, her chance to stream for any help nonexistent.
And Trig, from what I understand, was scheduled to come here by now and
transport them home. Shel’s confused, at the very least, if not yet crushed. Assuming
you’re going to the cabin now, maybe you can read her a story or something.”
“Naturally,
I’m going to the cabin now. Where else would I be headed?”
“I dunno,
Gordon’s?”
“Just came
from there.”
“Okay. Not
sure what you see in him, but—”
Kay huffed
past him, and Pretty followed. She hoped her father might reel back that dismissal,
as his physiognomy implied some regret. When he didn’t vocalize a follow-up,
she told him off: “you, Paterfamilias, dragged us here, expecting our
acclimation to happen on your terms,
in your izøned sense of understanding! You were evangelical about it, without even
testing things out for yourself! So, you don’t ‘see’ something in Gordon and
wonder what I ‘see’ in him. Should I wonder what you saw in Mom?”
“Go ahead,
on that latter point—she’s there for the seven-thousandth time to ensure you
have enough nourishment by day’s end.” Seb snapped his fingers and Pretty
returned, grateful to have more detection for ticks. “And on the former point,”
he managed to remember, “my ‘dragging you here’ was not nearly so draconian.
Far from it. You and Tim—even Mia, though she had no streaming compromise at stake—both
admitted early on that a one-year challenge couldn’t hurt and… no propaganda on
my part to repeat what you expressed a few months ago: ‘this sanctuary could
probably help our need to remember things more deeply.’ Exact quote.”
Kay seemed
to relent. “Gordon is no Prince Charming, if that helps your moral mythology.
He may be more conflicted than any of us for being here, having run from his
hints of Chicago abuse—”
“Is he
streamed, by the way?”
Kay was
taken aback by the question, as it had never occurred to her in their quasi-pillow
talk; “I.. don’t know. Should that matter?”
“Perhaps
not. Go on.”
“Well, now
I don’t really want to. You have some design on him, I feel.”
“As he may
have on you, or any of us.”
There was
no shrug discernable, partly because Seb’s flashlight didn’t point at her. Then
Kay did something she’d never done in her life, surprising Pretty as an
unlikely witness. She kissed her father on his temple, sniffing out a respect
that he was on to something beyond her—and maybe his—understanding. He, as
paterfamilias, wouldn’t carelessly put all faith and fate into this place, but
rather forage nuanced ways to go this way and that. Pam might be lost in such
shuffle, but that wasn’t Seb’s fault. “Don’t worry, Daddy,” she whispered, if some sardonic ember might be hard to discern. “I won’t give myself to Gordon in
any rash sense.”
Seb felt no
better for hearing her say so. “What you do—decisions you’ll make—means so much
more than my approbation. ‘Approbation’—do you even know that word?”
“Should I
stream it?” Kay retorted. “Mushed mind that I’ve become…”
It was the
first time Seb had heard her say ‘mushed’, as she hated when her brother used
the term as a bully. He waved it off and patted her shoulder, worrying less
about definitions than primeval harmony, one family member to another,
regardless of particular guy-wires.
Seb went on to ‘prepare a face for
the faces that [he’d] meet’—curious how “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” would
wind its way from his sporadic memory of such. He wondered what Jack and the
grandma would be doing at the boathouse this late, as the rest of the camp was
deathly silent. He saw through the window that they were huddled over a map or
something else on paper—planning for more posse work on Pam, he hoped.
He opened
the door without knocking, and they seemed surprised by that. “I bring gifts,”
he declared, “in the form of rum cookies, baked by the kids.”
“Well,
aren’t they sweethearts,” the grandma said, gathering together what they were
looking at and filing some sheets into the open cabinet.
“Any
update?” Jack asked. He took a cookie from Seb and smelled it before chomping.
“I was here
to ask you. I assume you’ll want to search again soon.”
“Not
tonight, ex…cuse me,” swallowing not to be rude, “if that’s what you had in
mind. Darkness and water is a dangerous combination—”
“—for her,
too, then. Wouldn’t even just a call-out be a good idea?”
“We did
that for nearly three hours. Also, there’s those folks who live east of
Kawashiwi bedding down for the night. We’ve upheld a consistent curfew against
noise pollution—one of the reasons they’ve committed to the sanctuary.”
“We’ve been
none-too-quiet at campfires this time of evening.”
“Sure, but
that’s the difference in being more the village square, so to speak. You can
bellow Pam’s name just outside the door here, but not out on the lake or in the
woods.”
The grandma
finished her filing and shut the drawer. She took a bite from a cookie and
affirmed with raised eyebrows how delicious it was. “Have those girls come by
tomorrow morning and share the recipe. They can have their pickins’ from things
we have on the shelves.”
“Will do,”
Seb grinned. “But for now, instead of going out on the lake, I wonder if you
can open up the gate to let me and maybe Nala use the izøne. She’s gotta be at work tomorrow, y’know, and has to
communicate—”
“I don’t
think so,” Jack cut him off. “Perhaps in the morning, but now wouldn’t be
good.”
“Why not?”
He sighed
and looked over to the grandma, who took this as her tag-in. “Well, you see,
the whole point of the sanctuary is not to scurry in and out of it. The world
out there is not meant to bail us out, nor vice versa.”
“It’s why
we had to make the perimeter more secure,” Jack added. “It was becoming too
porous—not least of all when the girls took their unannounced walk to Winton.”
“Well, they
were just—”
“Can’t have
that, Seb. It’s the contract you agreed to.”
“But, Jack, we got an emergency on our hands—something Hotline could help—”
“But, Jack, we got an emergency on our hands—something Hotline could help—”
“Hotline
would send some kinda army here, and for what? Klieg light the place and shoot
cannonballs over the water? No way! Pam may be in izøned territory already, anyhow—”
“All the
more reason we’d want to know that! Okay, so I see your point about Hotline,
but maybe Nala could message Trig—he was supposed to come this evening to pick
them up…”
“He was? With another shuttle? That doesn’t
make much sense. And why wouldn’t anyone inform us of that? This isn’t a public
place just to drop in whenever!”
“Now,
Jack,” the grandma stroked his arm, “take it easy. Trig’s a friend of the
sanctuary, welcome of course.”
“I only
want him to be aware of our situation,” Seb reasoned, “as he’d find out anyway
when he’d come. Hell, he may be outside the gate right now, scratching his head
how to get in—”
“There’s an
intercom installed. He’d have to call us, old-fashioned style.” Jack lowered
his voice. “Like Pam, he’s a patroller—can handle things fine.”
“More than
handle things, I’d like him to help us.”
“When he
comes, then, he can. I don’t want any streaming to be going on that may… take
the situation out of context. The izøne
constantly does that, you must admit.”
Seb bobbed
his head to consider. “All of history has its ‘out of context’ tendencies. All
psychologies do, as well. I don’t think the izøne is any
game-changer in that regard.”
“To each
his own,” Jack shrugged. “But as for the sanctuary’s charter, we’ve preserved
our context perfectly fine without a load of izøne innuendo.
I can’t have that come crashing down tonight.”
The grandma
went over to a shelf and pulled a bottle of port. “Here, this will go well with
the strudel Jim bought. On the house.”
Seb took it
with some reluctance. “Wish we could drink to celebrate. Thanks, anyway.” Then
to Jack: “think we can at least search again at dawn? Before Nala and Aami have
to shuttle themselves alone.”
“I’m
sleeping here tonight—pointing at a cot behind the counter. Knock
when you wake up and we can give it another go.”
“Will do.” Seb
turned on his flashlight before exiting and was heartened to see Pretty’s eyes
waiting for him outside.
The night
did have its howls from distant timberwolves and constant crickets’ chirp, but
otherwise was quiet. Jim slept in the pup tent alone—Shel deciding to curl up
with Mia, perhaps for the last time as Seb assured the cabin that tomorrow
would go as planned, including the shuttle back to Faribault. He opened the
bottle of port when the little otters were in bed. Nala never drank, observant
of her faith, but thought tonight would justify an exception. Kay, too, took a
glass and spoke softly with her parents and Nala. Tim listened in from his
upper bunk. They didn’t want to retrieve specifics from their day, conscious
that the kids might hear and worry themselves more. Seb didn’t say exactly what
his minutes in the boathouse beheld.
As the
bottle drained, they talked about the idea of ‘having run’—history to this
weekend, progress and its setbacks, energy kinetic and potential, a perfect
participle allotted to the motley subscribers of this sanctuary. Not ‘having
run away’ or ‘having run toward’, but dangling as the very day they’d
experienced. Horseshoes having flown their arcs, having made their throwers
satisfied or funnily frustrated in needless attempts to reunite the metal—piece
to post—the last thing anyone remembered Pam doing, if only for a couple
throws.
Having
drunk the port and eaten most the cookies, the adults brushed their teeth in
the kitchen sink, took their turns in the nearby outhouse, said good night to
Pretty, curled inside the lean-to on the porch, and sought the same demeanor as
they curled into their beds.
XXXVI.
Dawn hit
the sanctuary in its slumber, neither prone nor opposed to meet the vagaries
foreshadowed, if memory held its hold. Gordon, a bit perturbed that Kay had
left his cabin so relatively early in the evening, having spent much time alone
together, woke to a definitive sense of duty. The chapel needed cleansing, the
furnace needed fuel, the weekend whoopsies needed no record of having happened
in the first place, let alone available for anyone’s review.
He slouched
his way to the boathouse, eyeballing the pup tent near the beach where he
guessed Jim and his granddaughter must be sleeping still; nothing roused in his
appraisal of the morning, and if he’d work as quickly as he knew he could,
nothing would take notice otherwise.
The
boathouse was both open and empty; the cot where Jack sometimes slept showed
signs of him doing that recently, but vacant now. The grandma never slept in
here, even as she loomed about the place most daylit hours. The quiet
blandished him, as if a call of the wild without a trace—a dog whistle without
a trainer blowing it. Gordon marched to orders no one gave, if Jack and the
grandma and just a handful more were grateful for his instincts. He opened up
the door behind the boathouse counter, entered the dank environs of boats that
barely needed such cover, unlocked the tunnel door and walked the eighty yards
of slope into Fall Lake, into the place they called ‘the chapel’, beyond his
understanding or embrace.
He had
within his clutch a box of tools: hammer and hacksaw, cross cut and clamps,
tongue pliers and tape rolls, most of all. A buck knife and a pair of handcuffs
hung from his belt—not something he’d wear openly, but here, in the bowels of
the sanctuary, he knew he’d have no witnesses. He threw a final thought about Kay,
how she might have felt about the infiltrators he would have to kill in the
next three or four minutes. Kay would say he shouldn’t do this; then again, Kay
was easing toward a reason why he should.
At the same
time, a quarter mile south of the sanctuary’s electric fence, Oscar was
knocking on the door of his old rival Lou. The two hadn’t spoken for over a
year, each knowing the way things sometimes go. Greetings were best as a nod,
host to guest, each staying to his side of the threshold. “Borrow your boat?”
Oscar asked.
Lou looked
past him and up the path. No one, predictably, would be with this grouch. Then
Lou squinted toward Garden Lake, the sunrise careening off the mirrored
surface. His rowboat was as old as both of them, maybe even combined. Didn’t
leak exactly, but always seemed to have a puddle of stink that accrued with
rainy days, muddy boots, countless fish caught and ten times the live bait.
“There for the taking,” Lou said, after a yawn. “So, s’yer lake all fished
out?”
“Fall Lake
fished out?” Oscar dropped an unlikely smirk. “Can you imagine anything beyond
the reach of man?”
“Whad’ya
mean, Oscar?... Beyond what Jack has done? ’Cuz I know yer hatred of him drives
your dreary days. Hey, look—I’m as unstreamed as you are. I have no point o’
reference fer how the izøne kills a this or
that—”
“You better
not be talking lightly about Martha.”
Lou woke
himself anew, shook and stepped outside to point at chopping stumps he had
placed upon his porch as stools. Oscar took the invitation, tentatively, and
allowed his erstwhile friend to defend himself. “Jus’ to say, I’d never speak
wi’ disrespect. I’m sorry, Oscar—always have been—for the loss of Martha.”
Oscar
narrowed his eyes. “You don’t know the half of it.”
“I’m sure I
don’t.”
“Just borrow
me the boat.”
It was
strange for Lou to grant permission. He tried to lean back against the log
walls of his cabin, balancing on the rounded caprice of the chopping stump.
“Fer sure,” he breathed out. And noticing that Oscar didn’t spring right up, he
decided to ask, “you wanna get across the reservoir, doncha?”
“Damn right. That goon has fenced off the
place from the Kawashiwi dam all the way ’round to th’ outskirts of Winton. All
I want is to skirt around the mess from Garden Lake and, after that—”
“That
goon—d’ya mean Gordon?”
“The goon I
shoulda shot a dozen times by now. He’s the one that stole an’ butchered
Martha.”
Lou let
that accusation settle. It would be false to frame all their interactions in
this ilk, but many bent to Oscar’s strain of hyperbole and Lou’s semblance of
happy-go-lucky. They’d like each other otherwise. They’d fish for hours in the
grace of one another’s lake—Fall and Garden, Garden, Fall, and wherever else
their curiosity and modest means could lead them. Burntside? Maybe. But that
had always been outside the Boundary Waters (thus: motorized). The sanctuary
had found itself, in the nestle of Fall Lake, within the everlasting law of
nothing ever motorized—nothing but canoes and rowboats and an occasional,
who-ya-foolin’ sailboat—and feeder lakes, like Garden, had even less to
challenge such a law. Lou loved such a spot. His was one of the few cabins left to its
cache of bluegills and bigger fish, trapped in reservoir transition. “I hope
that didn’t happen,” was all that Lou could utter in response.
“I’m gonna
kill him, y’know. With or without your boat to get me in.”
The old men
sat upon their chopping stumps, staring somewhere between the woods and glare
of Garden Lake. Lou said some conciliatory things about the sanctuary, and
Oscar parried ‘quite the contrary’ views from his side of the scene. They were
only miles apart, as close as either really was to any other human being.
At last,
Lou allowed, “Oscar, go ahead then, take the boat. D’ya want me with you?”
Oscar
drooped his head. “Naw.” He thought Lou would pick up the slack of what else he
didn’t have in mind to say. “Naw,” he repeated. “You just stay here, as is
right. I won’t rope you into this. Jus’ need your boat to get across the—”
“I know why
you need my boat.”
Morning, by
now, had broken. “You do?”
Lou got up
and sought the handle of his door, faithful, beyond his need to see it. “I do,”
he affirmed. “Now git goin’.”
The tunnel was very dark, so Gordon thought
about switching on the fluorescent lights that marked every twelve yards or so.
He wanted to keep his prisoners in the dark, however, so he dug into his
toolbox and pulled out a flashlight. He kept it downward as he walked as
catlike as possible—or lionlike, more to his size.
Nearing the
door, he set down the box and unsheathed his buck knife. His plan was to storm
in—they’d have to be sleeping—and stab the first he’d see and quickly the
second, then keep stabbing whichever was more alive at that point. The
handcuffs were ready with a pull from a snap-button strap, though he felt
confident he wouldn’t need them.
At the
eyehole, he was surprised to see the flicker of a candle, then a little less
surprised at what it illuminated from below. The bodies, limp and like deer
about to be flayed, hung from the shadows of the ceiling. A hint of relief
glazed Gordon’s eye. He set down the knife on top of the toolbox and scooted
back down the tunnel to flip on the lights for the chapel, too, now that half
his work there was already done.
Stoic that
he’d always been, Gordon tended not to reflect on duties like this. But he did
think about how lucky these past weeks had been: a drop-from-the-sky
girlfriend; a couple streamed corpses that likewise just fell into his lap. He
searched his mind for a third or fourth fortuitous thing, sure they’d be there,
if elusive in the excitement that was mounting, jogging through the lit tunnel.
He looked
through the eyehole while unbolting the door, admiring the organization, the
stack of chairs it took to tie the makeshift ropes to the ceiling hatch, the
mathematics of using the highest and lowest points of the disc to fit in the
duo-dangle, without bottoming out or reaching above to reconsider. Not for
nothing, their patroller instincts had come in handy, including an honorable
Roman way out in the absence of swords.
“You’ll be
missed,” he mumbled with limited irony, entering with the toolbox in one hand,
buck knife in the other. He took three steps inside and rotated, wondering
whether or not to close the door. Might
be easier, he weighed, to drag them through the tunnel and dismember them
between the tunnel and the boathouse store.... Water there, in area of the covered
docks, would ease the cleanup…
He turned
again to face the deceased, as if to ask their opinion, then squinted at Trig’s
sleeves. No hands. Pam’s body was obscured by his, but something didn’t seem
right about her, either. He glued his focus on them as he lowered the toolbox
and threw the buck knife into Trig. It pierced the cloth but didn’t thunk, and Gordon realized the ruse just
before a naked Trig jumped out from behind the pump organ and naked Pam from
the empty liquor cabinet. Gordon dashed for his knife, embedded in the pillows
that stuffed the uniform. Trig pounced to get there first, and both men
resorted to their fists. Pam hadn’t seen Gordon throw the knife—her angle of
vision had been on Trig, across the disc—but dove into the tussle, aiming for
the monster’s eyes and vulnerable spots. She managed to pull the handcuffs and
slap one side to Gordon’s left wrist, but he grabbed her with that hand and, at
the expense of taking three square punches to his face, Gordon used his right
hand to cuff Pam’s. Chained to her, he fought both of them with his feet and
teeth and one arm. And when Trig sprung free to grab the knife, Gordon
positioned Pam as a shield.
“I’ll break
her neck,” he threatened.
Trig
dropped the knife, put up his hands, and begged, “don’t, please. Kill me if you
gotta, but leave her be. She’s a mother; I’m unfamilied and—”
“Trig,
don’t say this—”
“What else
can I do, Lightspeed?”
“You can—”
Pam gripped her captor’s testicles and ducked her head more into his forearm to
withstand his chokehold. Trig leapt back into the fight and heard something
crack.
“Won’t get
far like that,” Gordon grunted, pleased with how he used his feet to snap
Trig’s fibula, tibia, or both.
He
screamed, Pam lost her grip, and the gladiators fought on.
XXXVII.
Nala had shaken Aamiina awake, whispering Shel to come along as
well. She had indicated her plan to Seb and Avis, who drew up the pros and cons
but deferred to her own instincts. She was going to start up the shuttle, back
it down the path to create a running start, and leap the electric fence with
the limited capacity of this kind of vehicle to fly (over logs and boulders,
more conventionally). Once over the fence and on the way to Ely, she’d slow the
shuttle down and stream for Pam and Trig; if neither would respond, she’d
activate Hotline. On purpose, they’d leave Jim in the sanctuary. He could
stay there for Pam if she was really unstreamable, and thus all bases would be
covered.
Seb
accompanied them to the shuttle and offered, for the dozenth time, to pilot the
craft at least across the fenceline. Nala insisted that she had this—knew
enough how to drive, as really these shuttles could drive themselves. Pam had
shown her the basic codes for entrance and engagement with the stored fuel,
perhaps prescient of this eventuality. Maybe Pam had her disappearance in mind
all the time and expected Nala to play her part. Nala the Patroller—a baptism by fire, if such an idiom wouldn’t
necessarily blaspheme her reactivated tendrils of Muslim faith.
They managed
to get into the shuttle, but the engagement code didn’t work. Seb scratched his
neck, wondering how similar this case was to his own shuttle, which seemed to
empathize, mechanically missing the izøne—especially
as no grace of wilderness would compensate. The shuttles here became mere husks
as their stored fuel seeped away; even worse—the shuttles, which could float,
had no design for paddles, stranded all the more like the Galàpagos
tortoises they could never imagine. Nala gathered the girls and reconsidered
what to do.
Seb showed
them the tree he had climbed, reluctantly, to get over the fence and drop to a
Sinai type of freedom on the other side. But before he could explain his own
rendezvous the other night, Jack came up the path to greet them: “Good morning, having-runners, as we like to call ourselves.”
“Good
morning,” obliged Aamiina, spokesgirl for her silent group.
“You’ve
done really well,” Jack merged the here-and-now with nostalgia, “to spend with us
the week,” grinning at the girls, “and the weekend,” barely glancing toward
Nala, then drilling his eyes into Seb. “You realize,” Jack continued, “the
sanctuary can only exist through faithfulness, as you’ve signed into.”
“Where’s my
mom?” Shel found some faith to ask.
Jack
responded without missing a beat. “She’s still here: the sanctuary is a vast
place that most people—your mom included—want to expand. You remember, Shel,
when we caught so many bluegills around Mile Island?” Shel nodded. Aami, too.
“Well, that’s where everyone wants to go. You guys would want to go back there
again, right?”
Nala
intervened. “We gotta go home now. It’s truly suspicious that our shuttle’s
gone dead.”
Seb chose
not to remain silent. “I concur with Nala, Jack. You have to open the gate for
them, really. Notwithstanding what we talked about last night—”
“You get
the hell back to your cabin, Seb!”
It was the
plaid-shirt guy, sneaking up the path. Like his usual blur into an occasional
background, he sought no eye-contact nor endorsement from anyone, least of all,
Jack. “Yeah,” said the latter in a softer tone, “you better do that.”
Seb
gathered with his eyes the possible opinion of Nala, then Shel, then Aamiina,
and decided, “we will. But not ’cause you say so. We came here precisely not to be told by izøne to do this or that, and ‘hell’ or not—” Seb stepped toward the
plaid-shirt guy, who planted himself like a menhir, “we certainly won’t be told
what to do by you. Keep to your chess games, whoever you are—you’ve never even
tendered the common decency of your name—”
“Tim knows
who I am.”
Seb, though
stunned, refused to seem so. “But I don’t. And you’ve just pulled the carpet
from under yourself. Yourselves—Jack
included.”
Jack didn’t
flinch, staunchly waiting for everyone to retreat. The plaid-shirt guy led the
way and made sure that they were in the cabin before taking the campfire trail
to the western woods of the sanctuary.
Oscar
pulled up the rowboat on the other side of Garden Lake. No paths were
established here, yet he nosed himself north to the east side of the Kawashiwi
dam, where a fence continued its enclosure of the sanctuary, if not
electrified. Pretty, splashing in the stream beneath the dam, recognized him
immediately; after a couple seconds, as the dog ran to him, Oscar returned the
familiarity and knelt in gratitude. He hadn’t brought a weapon with him for the
job, and while Pretty likely wouldn’t become a killing machine at his command,
at least the old man wouldn’t be alone.
They walked
along the lakeshore, Pretty leading as she did with Nala the previous morning.
The forest allowed a chance to think, but soon it opened to the beach, where
looking and leaping would have to take over. The pup tent was the first thing
in sight. Oscar approached with caution, Pretty having sniffed the entry flap.
Before reaching it, though, a voice not unlike his own called from the lilypad
line of the lake. “Mornin’, how goes your side of the search?”
Oscar
crouched behind the tent to assess the possible threat, and saw from Pretty’s
casual regard that this canoer wasn’t Gordon or any of his fellow goons. He
whispered as loudly as necessary to carry that far across the water: “you
searchin’ for what?”
The canoer
paddled toward shore, declining to parlay like this at distance. Pretty swam
the twenty yards or so that would be their midpoint, then circled back. “Been
searching since dawn for my daughter, Pam Circe. Missing since yesterday
afternoon.” Jim’s voice relayed more fatigue than exasperation. He nudged the
prow into the sand but sat still for Oscar to more fully reveal himself.
“She
streamed?”
“Sure. But
how can that matter here?”
Lovers
Island, little clump of earth northwest of the trio, filled Oscar’s vision. Jim
pivoted in the canoe seat as if to see another vessel on the lake—perhaps his
daughter paddling in from that direction. Pretty looked the other way, however,
growling at low volume to compel their more necessary attention. The grandma
and the plaid-shirt guy had stopped in their tracks, heading toward the
boathouse. Jim meekly waved at them, hoping they’d have any news. Instead,
without civilities, they reversed their direction and disappeared.
Oscar
clenched his teeth. “Got a gun in that tent?”
“Heavens,
no! Hunting ’round here, I learned, is only by bow-and-arrow to keep noises
natural.”
“Nothing natural
about this place. Smoke and mirrors.”
Jim braced
the sides of the canoe to push himself up. “Well, I must say it’s been good for
my granddaughter—”
“Is she streamed?”
Jim didn’t
rise, but studied his peer’s weathered face. “What’s behind that question?”
Oscar
approached the canoe and in a single motion pushed it off the shore and,
getting only one boot wet, hurled his body to the triangular bow that fit his
knees like a Muslim prayer. While Jim didn’t paddle to fight against this new
launch, he didn’t facilitate the new inertia either. “Here, toss me the
paddle,” Oscar said, swinging into the seat and facing Jim, contrary to the
boat’s design. Jim assented by gripping the oar end for Oscar to reach the
handle. “Just want to park this into a little inlet I saw from the forest
path,” Oscar explained as he dug into the water.
Jim looked
past him and bid Pretty, who wondered what was happening, to check on Shel and
the rest of the cabin. The dog understood, apparently, and that allowed enough
peace of mind for Jim to guess the answer to his question. “You aren’t streamed
yourself, are you? Me, neither—folks our age sort of fell into it or…”
“Now
there’s a new falling,” Oscar suggested, “and you gotta save your
granddaughter, pronto.”
“Who are
you?”
“Oscar,
widower of a woman who got lured into this place and ended up there”—pointing
to Lovers Island on his left, Jim’s right—“to fuel the scramble of the very
stuff that streamed her. Y’see, this sanctuary is not for the streamed to be
free of streaming.”
Jim took
that in with due reflection. “Then, Oscar, what’s it for?”
“It’s to
feed the izøne with the izøned.”
“That
doesn’t make sense. Rather mushed, as
kids say today. Why would the non-izøned need a
sanctuary in the first place?”
Oscar
maneuvered around the lilypad line and toward the inlet he had scouted out. Jim
mostly listened, gliding backwards with the craft and serving some capacity as
a watch for the grandma or the plaid-shirt guy to return, as their cursory
appearance had troubled him. Oddly, as they moved out of view of the boathouse
and sanctuary clearing, Jim felt some comfort that this strange Oscar might
find Pam better than last night’s posse, a term he detested as many times as he
heard it, from spaghetti westerns to an outdated ‘now’.
Pretty had
done her job, as usual. She came to the cabin exactly as Jack approached from
the opposite direction. The latter knocked on the door, and, as it opened,
Pretty slithered in before a terse invite for the sanctuary’s leader to enter
and have a cup of freshly brewed coffee. Avis offered that, as Kay fluffed up
the pillow of her reading chair. Nala and Jim leaned against separate walls,
bracing for the Samson effect of this sudden autocrat. All three girls had
squirreled to the upper bunk, Tim having jumped down in readiness to be part of
a posse. Jack reached to shake his hand—no occasion—and accepted Avis’ mug and
Kay’s gesture for him to sit.
Some
oatmeal-rum cookies were stacked on the reading stand. Jack helped himself,
toasting the upper bunk with approval. “These are great, girls. Come to the
store today and grab the ingredients you need for another batch.”
“Aamiina
and I have to go home today,” Nala reiterated.
“I’ll have
Gordon look at your shuttle—”
“Didn’t
help ours any,” Seb challenged. “It’s time, I think, to get a mechanic here
from Ely.”
“Thought of
that. Supply truck comes tomorrow, usually the way we communicate things like
this.”
“I just
don’t understand why—”
“As you
just witnessed a little while ago, there are other having-runners to consider—”
“You mean
that plaid-shirt guy? Tim, what’s his name, anyway?”
“Him,” Jack
went on, “and a hundred more like him.”
“Sylvia?”
Mia asked.
“Her.
Everyone you’ve met here. Many you haven’t. Those who live east of
Kawashiwi—they want nothing to do with the outer world, and certainly not its
intrusion. Even gave me some trouble about your shuttles being here in the
first place. Gotta understand: I can’t rewrite the rules for your situation, as
much as I sympathize.”
Tim felt a
need to confess something. “Um, I… should have said this yesterday.”
Avis
assumed by his eye contact he was addressing her. “What?”
He looked
up at Shel. “I ran into Trig while everybody was searching for your mom.”
“Trig?”
Nala blurted. “Here, inside sanctuary?”
“He didn’t
come to the boathouse to register,” Jack flat-lined.
“I think,”
Tim hedged, “that he wanted to find Pam his own way.”
“Then where
is he now? Where did you see him go?” Seb stepped in front of Tim, who dropped
his eyes. “Jack, you must know something about this—”
“How would
I know? He’s a patroller and, assuming you weren’t just dreaming this, Tim, our
meagre security fence would not prevent him from coming in. Just wish if he
did, he would have registered. See, ’cause this is what I’m talking about: it
forces the need for a lock-down.”
“A what?”
As
if to answer further, the muffled sound of a gun blasted from the direction of
the boathouse. The cabin tensed and Jack sprang up. “Stay inside!” he ordered,
and with ten times the speed of his entrance, he opened the door and slammed it
behind his run, almost tripping over Pretty, who managed again to thread the
needle, one environment to another.
XXXVIII.
Eight sets
of eyes in the cabin searched for one another, astonished at yet another rifle
shot. Shel was first to cry, then Mia, then Tim. “I shoulda told about Trig,”
he gnawed into his knuckles. “I shoulda—”
“Let’s stay
calm,” Avis advised. “Trig will take care of himself just fine.”
“Where’s my
mom?” Shel blubbered, now into Nala’s embrace.
“She’s also
gonna be alright—maybe Uncle Seb goes out to check.…”
Seb looked
for someone to join him. Tim dropped his head in shame. Kay rose, but then
cuddled up to Mia, who sobbed Pretty’s name for fear she’d been shot. “No!” Seb
assured. “We aren’t anyone’s target. For that matter, bear in mind it’s hunting
season around here and—”
“But that’s
bow and arrow,” Kay protested. “Gordon told me all about it.” She sank into the
memory of the old man from Winton who had barred her secret rendezvous with the
izøned world. The option to go in and out
seemed so compelling in those first days of sanctuary, if now she felt no such
pull. Gordon saved me then, she
freshly realized before returning to the angst at hand.
Avis
snapped the family to attention. “Get up, everyone. We’re going as a group to
face the morning, heads held high. This place is ours by right, after all.”
“But Avis—”
“No ‘buts’,
Seb. If hospice care taught me anything, it’s not to—”
“We’re not
in hospice-mode, Dear—”
“Dad!” Mia
pounded on her thigh. “Pretty is out there and Mom is the boss now! Let’s do
what she says!”
The
atmosphere froze. No one truly was boss—even Mia knew that—yet some form of
helm duty had to be imagined. The cabin itself offered negligible nudges to remain
inside: novels yellowing on shelves, drams of rum for one more midnight swill,
pillows propped for 19th-century ennui. Mia sunk into her sister’s armpit as if
to disappear and leave this failed morning for all the wonderful days that had
come before. Kay nodded at her mother: “You’re right. Pretty’s out there
fronting our best interest, and we should…”
“We should
join her,” Tim finally had the temerity to say, springing from the lower bunk.
Seb
surveyed everything, from Nala’s clutch of Shel to Tim’s sudden sense of chivalry.
Avis wasn’t waiting for his approval yet appreciated his proviso: “no one has
to go outside who doesn’t want to,” he staccatoed. To soften things he added,
“nothing forces us outside.”
Nothing forces us outside. In synching
streams of consciousness, Kay seized upon the word ‘outside’; Tim focused on
the ‘forces’; Nala flashed a vision of Somalia, nothing of which would haunt
her daughter’s mind; Aamiina, for her part, pattered names as if in prayer—Shel an’ Mia, Shel an’ Mia, Shel an’
Mia
unwrapped from her sister and stomped toward the door. “Enough of being mushed!”
She grabbed the handle in her right and Seb’s hand in her left, tugging him to
take the lead.
“Go back to
your cabin!” shouted the grandma, loading new shells into the shotgun.
“Where’s
Jack?” Seb demanded. “What’s goin’ on?”
“Jack’s
around the other side of the boathouse. There’s a bear inside that’s gonna swim
out one direction or the other, and you best be outta the way—”
“A bear?”
Avis was incredulous. “And that’s
something you’d need to shoot?”
“No time
debatin’,” the grandma travelled her vision to the eastern skirt of the
boathouse. “I got this. Jus’ get back to your place, as I said.”
The
plaid-shirt guy burst out of the store. He loped a straight line at Seb with
glassy eyes. The latter cocked his head in consternation. The bear might’ve just
as well been him, he realized, though the grandma didn’t turret the gun away
from its line on the water. As the plaid-shirt honed in on Seb, Tim came up
with his gambit. “Chess?” he loudly inflected, in stride toward the chapel—the
same as he had done a dozen times before.
It seemed
to flip a switch, as everything unleashed at once: a swell of water came from
that eastern skirt, and the grandma let the shotgun rip. Seb pounced at her and
Tim followed suit, forcing plaid-shirt to tackle the greater threat. While he
and Seb wrestled, Tim managed to grip the shaft of the shotgun and turn it
skywards, against the grandma’s inordinate strength. Instead of a bear emerging
from the agitated water, two human heads gasped for breath and their need to
call out chaos.
By now, Jim
and Oscar belied their old hams by sprinting from their hidden harbor. Shel
screamed across the beachhead as Avis abandoned her to join her husband’s
fight. Kay didn’t know which way to look while covering her sister’s eyes.
Pretty, with fido instincts think-don’t-think,
swooped from the west side of the boathouse into the water of the east, meeting
these vagrant heads on their wary way toward shore.
To a
measure of relief and horror, even from the glimpses of the grappling Carters,
these heads became torsos: Pam and Trig, the latter leaning full against her
guidance, as his fractured leg still lagged below the surface. Shel bolted into
the water as Pretty had done, meeting her mother in the surreal spirit of the
very first Easter. She shrieked at the strange feel of the hand she grabbed,
underwater and invisible. She searched for another—Pam’s this time—and ushered
the faux bear tandem to shore.
Avis and
Seb had at this point pinned the plaid-shirt guy to incapacity, and Tim had
done the same to the grandma. Jim and Oscar fronted Jack, who had curled around
the boathouse with no weapon but his ireful eyes. He huffed at the spectacle
emerging—more the downfall of his sanctuary than the ghoulish trudge of bodies.
Then he put his hands together like a whiffle ball and blew into the aperture
that his thumbs had made; flapping his outer hand modified the pitch to
simulate the call of a loon.
“Wha’z that
s’posed to do, Jack?” hollered Seb atop his squirming adversary.
Attention,
though, was on the water. Jim was waist-high, propping up Trig to alleviate his
pull on Pam. Nala waited on the sand to guide them to the grass, where the duo
cautiously collapsed. Everyone saw the dangling arm handcuffed to Pam’s own,
yet it took Aamiina to put it to a question: “what’s that on—”
Pam tried
to shield its sight. She looked at Kay—shaking, knitting things together in her
mind—and simply nodded her regret. “It wasn’t what we wanted to do.”
“He
swallowed the goddamn key!” Trig grimaced, clasping his broken shin.
“He was
coming to kill us—”
“Where?”
demanded Avis.
“The
chapel—where we’ve been held host—”
“No!” Jack
bellowed, then whistled again his loon call through his hands. “You’re
trespassers here,” he rushed in the same exhale, “murderers in your own right—”
Oscar
seized the perfect chance to punch him in the face. Their ensuing scuffle held
some odds that he, like Seb and Avis and Tim, would subdue the sanctuary
kingpin and throw him into his own furnace as a final sacrifice. Jack would
have no problem with the geriatric, though, compelling Pam to gather new
strength and charge into their fray. She swung Gordon’s arm like a flail
against Jack’s head; he tottered with the first strike and fell unconscious
with the next.
His
whistles had achieved a purpose, however, with a gang of having-runners
marching from the western woods. “Quick!” Oscar directed, “girls and mothers
come with me—I have a boat to get us outta here!”
Jim,
knowing the canoe could only float a few, acted likewise: “Pam, get Trig back
in the water—I’ll paddle ’round to tow you ’cross the lake. Tim, you with me?”
The
teenager had wrested the shotgun from the grandma. “Should I take this with?”
Over his
shoulder Jim shouted: “no ammo, no worth—just get movin’!”
Tim hammered
the shotgun stock against the grandma’s chest and zipped over to bash the head
of his chess rival, from whom Seb and Avis had disentangled. A second blow
split the skin and revealed a mesh of wires, shocking Tim to paralysis as other
having-runners were closing in. His family’s screams just as instantly shook
him to reality, and in no time he recouped the distance they had made toward
Oscar’s promised boat.
He had
called out Shel to come with him, but she and Pam and Trig were already
ottering toward her grandpa’s canoe, now in sight beyond the line of lilypads.
Pretty gauged the situation and decided that Oscar would be dog enough to guide
her family; she knew the Circes needed more support, and swam beside the
valiant eight-year-old who, just last week, hadn’t known how to swim.
In the
eastern woods, toward the Kawashiwi dam, lived more reclusive having-runners.
The Carters knew of them, but not who they were nor how they might respond to
shotgun blasts or whiffled whistles. Nala was aware of at least one vicious dog
here that could give them trouble. Surely
nothing worse than what’s behind us; she shook again Somalia from her
racing mind.
Oscar, last
in line, grunted syllables of where to go. “Up… stream to… Gar—”
Seb circled
back to help him. “C’mon, ol’ man—jump on my back if—”
“No!...
Jus’ get..,” he stopped to prop his hands above his knees. “Garden… Lake—”
“You’re
comin’ with us, dammit!” Seb wove his head and right shoulder into the slump of
Oscar’s left arm and lifted him. “Garden Lake!” he yelled ahead to Tim, who had
never been there but knew it fed the Kawashiwi dam.
“Wait!” Mia
was the next to stop. “Where’s Pretty?”
Avis pushed
her back to a fleeing pace. “She’s with Shel, as should be.”
“But dogs
can’t swim that far! She’ll drown.”
“She
won’t!” Avis snapped. But come to think
of it, she might.
There were
no more words for the strain of legging through the outlet stream of the
Kawashiwi dam. Having-runners didn’t take to water—Tim was understanding
why—and for some uncertain moments, the chase seemed done. Oscar warned them
not to slack, even jumping off of Seb’s back to demonstrate his second wind.
“The rowboat’s up this way… and ’round the shore… ’nother… quarter mile…”
The
deerpath cut sufficiently enough through brambles to keep the escapees from
stumbling. The glisten of Garden Lake seemed to bounce off the birch trees,
illuminating the homestretch. Tim found the boat and unlooped its anchor rope
from a root exposed in the eroded shore. Kay stepped over the front bench and
guided Mia and Shel in. Nala next, and all gripped the sides to move aft. Tim
sat facing them on the edge of the middle bench, ready to work the oars. Seb
pushed the bow a bit to create more float, then Avis and Oscar clambered in,
leaving no real room for Seb. He looked down the shore to the southern reach of
the lake and wondered if it wouldn’t be best to launch them without his added
weight; he’d meet them on the other side, eventually, certain he could
outstride any having-runner that would exit the sanctuary.
“Dad!” his
son ordered, “get in!” He pointed to the dam and the distant figure of Sylvia,
her silver hair not done up as they had only seen her otherwise.
“Is she..,”
Avis squinted to frame her question, “is she also trying to run away?”
As if to
answer, Sylvia reached across her chest to pull the bow she’d hung on her
shoulder. She readied an arrow, and though too far away, another having-runner with
his own bow emerged from a promontory boulder, dangerously close.
“Get in!”
repeated Tim, and Seb lunged his body into the overloaded boat. An arrow pinged
against its side as Tim rowed furiously to point the bow toward the center of
the lake. He slid over at Oscar’s shift to the middle bench, each pulling his
own oar now with double strength. Another arrow whizzed over their heads. Nala
muttered a prayer into Aamiina’s ear and Kay folded Mia to her lap. Seb and
Avis used their palms to paddle the water, eight inches or so from the rim. A
third arrow skittered across their wake, this time from another angle.
“We can’t
aim toward Lou’s,” Oscar realized. “Let’s hurry… toward the southern straits.”
“Or—” Kay
clasped her head with alacrity—“we use Hotline, now that our streaming’s back.”
“Then we
can row to the center and sit this out,” agreed Avis.
Oscar
grunted. “We may be sitting ducks that way.”
“Can anyone
message Pam? Maybe she’d give us advice.”
Nala
scrunched her eyes in concentration. “She don’t respond. Still in sanctuary, I
guess.”
“Sanctuary!” Seb snarled, still paddling.
“God save us from apostasy.”
XXXIX.
While
arrows could have flown into Fall Lake, the greater threat to the Circes and
Trig were boats accessible to the having-runners. Most of those were inside the
boathouse or along the western shore as the closest link to Lovers Island.
Someone (no longer Gordon) had to stoke that furnace every so often and keep an
eye on any trawlers from the Winton end of the lake. Pam indicated as much to
her father as she clung to the port side of the canoe; Trig, clinging
starboard, cringed at the notion of landing too far east. “Gotta get to where
the izøne can help us—”
“That’d be
north, maybe closer than Winton. Especially if I run ahead.”
“No!” Shel
protested from her space in front of Jim’s feet, having been picked up by him
while Pam and Trig had braced against the tippage. “Don’t leave us again!”
Pam looked
behind to gauge some movement of bodies in the grassy area they’d left. Jack
hadn’t moved—perhaps he was dead with that second blow from his right-hand man.
The grandma, too, remained a little mound, but the plaid-shirt guy had joined
the rest of his silent militia. “You’re right, Honey,” she decided to say, “I
won’t leave you.” She instantly wondered if Trig would require the same
promise, but glossed over that unknown, gluing the syntax shut with “ever
again.”
For a few
minutes, all was rather quiet. Jim kept a smooth, strong stroke on mostly the
right side, as Trig couldn’t move his legs like Pam could to add extra
propulsion. Shel looked straight ahead, imagining those woods to be calm and spooky
at the same time. No one lived there, according to the Carters, and whatever
roads or paths that had existed were long grown over. They hadn’t any tools, of
course: no machete to whack the brush, no compass to guide them northwest
toward the izøne. They’d need to resort to raw
instinct.
“Where’s
Pretty?” Shel asked, craning her head over her grandpa’s knee.
Pam swung
her line of sight backwards, but instantly toward Lovers Island, where a pair
of having-runners had canoed themselves. “Um, Dad,” she said, “paddle this
side—aim us for that inlet on your right.”
“Mist Bay?”
he clarified.
“The lagoon
there, and quick—they have a laser on us now.”
“Where’s
Pretty?!”
Trig placed
his left hand on the girl’s and shushed. “She’ll be okay, Shel. I think she
just wanted to make sure you were in the boat, then probably went back to check
the others.”
“Probably?”
No
response, covered instead by the labored breathing from all paddlers. Mist Bay
had a triangular shape, the hypotenuse of which faced the middle of the lake.
The sandy bottom sloped toward an swampy inlet near the right angle—“there!”
Pam puffed, “lagoon!… Power… us in!” Her feet reached the bottom now to
Clydesdale their effort; Trig’s side, by contrast, would add more friction. But
he was clever to lift his broken leg over the side of the canoe and,
eventually, push off the sand with his one good leg.
The canoe
slipped through the sluice and into the haven of this less-than-olympic-size
pool. Little time to reconnoiter, Pam suggested they pull into the leafiest
overhang while she’d gauge the possible pursuit. “Don’t go away, Mom!” Shel
reminded.
“Shh—this
here’s gonna be our fortress.”
While she
could have come out of the water, she swam across the lagoon—partly to keep
low, partly to float the nagging forearm handcuffed to her sickened soul. The
thought that Shel had spent a week with such monsters created new panic,
reflection being the nemesis of trained reaction. She took some solace on the
angelic contrast of the Carters, naïve as they had been. Solace turned to
guilt, however, when Nala and Aamiina came to mind—they wouldn’t have
encountered this horror without her invitation. Dummy! she winced at her own culpability, stemming from Aamiina’s
injury on the golf course to the chance that she and her mother were likewise
holed up in some bivouac, running from these heartless having-runners. Damn. Yet, casting a glance to the cover
of their canoe, there was no time to dwell on regret. She saw that Trig had
sealioned himself and was already fashioning a crutch out of a lay-about
branch. He’d be no drag on the group, even if it came to it that the having-runners would surround them, and probably prevail. Oh, to have Pretty here.… But then…
A
mile-and-a-half away, the overloaded boat on Garden Lake had lowered its anchor
in as precisely the dead center as could be calculated. Oscar was sullen—his
‘sitting ducks’ warning had not persuaded the others, putting their trust now
in Hotline. Though the streaming was sketchy here—the southern edge of the
sanctuary’s scramble of the izøne—Kay had managed
a connection. Seb, in his attempts to do the same, held his aching head; Tim
also complained about a sudden migraine. Nala tried to reassure: “it’ll go
’way—we had it too when we left sanctuary.”
“I’m not
feeling so bad,” Avis said, softly.
“Maybe it’s
a man thing,” Nala pondered. “Trig was worse off than Pam ’n me.…”
No arrows
came from the gallery of subtle movers around the lake. Oscar wondered whether
Lou was aware—a potential victim by now, or heaven
forbid! an accomplice. At any rate, the sanctuary had suffered a severe
blow: literally, the arm of Gordon knocking Jack off his feet, perhaps to hell.
Oscar would content himself to consequential martyrdom, yet he grieved to think
the children would die with him. Here they were—Mia and Aamiina, unstreamed in this God-forsaken world—going
down with the ship.
The blades
of a helicopter murmured from the west. Kay sprang up from her seat,
endangering the burdened balance; no one disagreed with the need to exult in
this hope and beacon their presence. The pilot would have exact coordinates, of
course—Hotline was nothing if not time/space accurate. Where to land would be a
question, as this one didn’t have pontoons. Another one behind it did,
however, and the first made a frisbeed arc to lend recognition of the stranded
boat before surveiling the sanctuary grounds. Kay’s message had been thorough
enough: under siege from the sanctuary’s
cronies—unclear who the enemies are. And now, though streaming still was hit-and-miss,
hampered by headache, someone from the second helicopter gave instruction: stay calm and stay put. The morning’s
nightmare, at least for everyone but Oscar, seemed suddenly over.
As they
stepped carefully from the rowboat to the pontoon copter, Tim told the co-pilot
about the Circes and their attempt to flee north, last he’d seen. The co-pilot
communicated that to the other helicopter via old-fashioned radio, a relic of
an all-too-rushed past. The other chopper wouldn’t be able to land anywhere
except the central yard beside the sanctuary’s boathouse, but would keep an eye
on the situation north—“in fact,” Tim heard over the ancient handset, “there is
a lady across Fall Lake, waving weirdly—something weighing on her right arm…”
Since
migraines were conspicuous, and medical check-ups would fit the protocol of
Hotline calls, all were flown to the rooftop of the Ely clinic. Oscar pleaded
to be dropped right away to Winton, desiring nothing but closure in his
irrelevant house—“nothin’ interesting to izøne, and you
know where to find me, anyway!”
The pilot
explained, “we can’t just drop folks anywhere—but we’d be happy to hover over
your individual journey home…”
“Nah,” said
Oscar, sniffling at the consciousness that ‘house’ and ‘home’ and ‘sanctuary’
would never mean the same to anyone again. “Just… fly me… where you have to.
I’ll be fine.”
The main
concerns, as triage ascertained, were in some sort of order: Trig’s fractured
leg (both tibia and fibula, as Gordon’s crush would have it); the headache
levels and anything else to read into them; the concern for the children,
clustering as if in some Somalia pup tent—riverside, avoiding crocodiles and
planning to make mudpies; Kay, whose fuller view of Gordon’s arm not only made
her vomit, but let out screams that seemed to harbor in her twenty years of
never ever screaming about anything before.
Avis, of
course, was mother on that: beyond the beyond, and beyond hospice practice. She
cradled her daughter more carefully than she’d ever done to Tim, so into
empirical proofs, or Mia, in love with a new set of friends. She cradled her
eldest as no one had done so before—not Gordon, of course, and not Seb or
herself—no one had thought such a brilliant being would be in such need.
Certainly, the izøne could not know the need.
And so, against protocol, the Ely
clinic allowed these refugees the waiting room space to sort out the rest of
their day and the night as it came. Lou, wouldn’
cha know, came in around campfire time, wielding a stringer of bluegill
he’d already filleted, already fried—the microwave worked at the clinic, he
might have guessed, but true to Lou spirit, he’d surely ensure that nourishment
would not abdicate to buttons being pushed, waves being reliable. He said so
himself: “oh, Great Spirit of this box that responds to my hope that it will respond, give heat to the cold
o’ my kill—bluegills, fer what they are worth, from somebody’s aptly named
Garden Lake.”
Aamiina
tugged his sleeve. “Lou,” she addressed without admonishments of whom-to, how-to,
what-to say, “can you sing that campfire song about the boots?”
“About the
boots?” Lou scratched the gray hairs of his memory.
“About
filling them, when it rains…”
The waiting
room, while bluegills warmed within the microwave, constructed in the phrasal
memory, bereft of a guitar. Seb began the
When we’re up in heaven
We’ll be lookin’ down at us,
Tim joined, to everyone’s surprise, enlivening his younger
sister to do the same:
Laughin’ at the looniness
And things that caused a fuss;
Nala, too, remembered, and Avis—clearly troubled that Jack
had strummed these lines:
When there’s clearly trouble
The laughin’ turns to rain,
Got to wash away those blues
And fill your boots again!
Pam and Shel were last to sing, their streaming being an
overwhelming thing, as both thought, secretly, of their next-door neighbor Mrs
Schuster, worried sick for their absence and knowledge of their well being:
Fill your boots
When it rains
Life takes root
When it rains…
XL.
A minute
later, the microwave bell rang and the first round of breaded bluegill was
ready for distribution—on paper towels in the absence of plates. Lou had the
presence of mind to bring a lemon from the little tree he nurtured inside his
cabin. They ate with their hands, graciously.
An hour
later, Kay woke from a nap that had calmed her down—no tranquilizer otherwise.
She entered the waiting room with light vermilion eyes, blinking them to a
focus of the strangely festive atmosphere. Mia hugged her and Aamiina held up a
portion of dinner they saved for her. She took the paper nest and deeply
sniffed the fresh lemon, and smiled. She couldn’t help but scan for Pam and,
having fathomed her horrific dilemma, offer some support. Right after Kay had
seen her last, the chopper crew had managed to clip off the chain-link and take
Gordon’s arm as forensic evidence. The lone cuff around Pam’s wrist had not
been removed, however—Ely patrollers hadn’t come to that point, rushing
code-red to the sanctuary instead. Pam palmed it with her other hand, its shame
like that of a gang-forced tattoo. Kay, back to her thoughtful self, went to
hug her, enabling those hands to be free.
They both
went to the operation room where Trig was being prepped for screws and splints.
He declined the general anesthesia, trusting the local application would be
enough. He told the doctor he wanted to remain aware—“on duty, especially now.”
“You can be
at ease, you know. Situation’s under control.”
“Duty is
more than ‘control’,” Trig replied, and beamed at the sight of Pam coming in.
“Hey, there, Lightspeed!”
They kissed
and Kay waited to express her appreciation—“we had no idea what was happening.
I’m most to blame, thinking Gordon was…”
“No,” Trig
asserted, “you’re not at all to blame. No one but him and Jack and that
grandma—maybe no one but them, brainwashing anyone else.”
“Stockholm
syndrome, I think it’s called,” though Pam didn’t want to stream that for
accuracy.
Kay didn’t
either. “I think so, too,” she uttered, looking from him to Pam, “and thank you
for..., you know…”
Two-and-a-half
days later, the sanctuary had been scoured by hundreds of officials. Arrests
were made of the human residents of the territory—a few holding out as die-hard
‘having-runners’. Sylvia threatened suicide from atop the boathouse roof, but
was eventually talked down. Batteries were removed from the apprehended robots:
the plaid-shirt guy, the grandma, a half dozen others.
Those on
the eastern side of the Kawashiwi dam were all human and mostly streamed.
Though they generally passed their interviews to remain, headaches pushed some
to the Ely clinic or farther afield. Lovers Island, of course, ceased its
scramble of the izøne—the sanctuary, by
definition, was no longer so.
Not that
fuel for the furnace had been depleted. Officials pried open the double locks
of the freezer in Gordon’s cabin to gather the sixty cubic yards of log-like
body parts, all testing positive to the effect of streaming serum. Some of the
space had apparently allowed for such butchering, but most was for the
stacking. Other buildings had scant evidence of the gruesome enterprise: the
dark green binder in the boathouse file cabinet had the names of those
registered to the sanctuary, yet largely the victims who fueled the place were
not so easily traceable. Detectives felt, in fact, that folks like the Carters
would have never met the fate of those who made their contract happen. Genius
or not, Jack Childress seemed faithful to those who co-committed to his cause.
Their
shuttle repaired, the Carters had returned to Minneapolis, reluctant to go
without their dog. Patrollers, including the precinct chief from Faribault,
promised to keep an eye out for her. Pam and Trig had to stay in Ely for
extended debriefing—Trig in a wheelchair by now—but Jim and Shel returned to
Faribault with Nala and Aamiina. Things there were familiar, from Alexander
Park to Mrs Schuster’s cooking to little lessons on the putting green. Smiles,
though, were half-held in reflection of the otter fun they couldn’t quite
shake.
Avis had
some calls for hospice work already, though she declined, needing rather the
energy to get back into living—with and in spite of the izøne. Others in her family piddled around, not sure how to occupy
their thoughts and time, newly untied to routine. They spent some afternoons at
Lake Minnetonka, but each minute was absorbed in the streaming for something
else. Only Mia appeared to be a fish in those waters—literally, honing her skills
as a swimmer and scavenging things that had sunk to the bottom.
Two months
later, Jack was in court pleading innocent of countless charges. Against his
appointed counsel’s advice, he spoke on his own behalf: “stream Raskolnikov for
yourselves and you’ll see—”
“Objection,
Your Honor,” the prosecutor said, “the defendant should be reminded that
streaming isn’t sanctioned in a court of law.”
The judge
bobbed his head left and right before determining. “Sustained. As nearly
impossible it is to enforce, streaming in an arraignment is not permitted.
You’ve been advised on this already—”
“Fine,”
continued Jack, “then don’t stream Raskolnikov. Try to recall from erstwhile
schooling: an extraordinary man has a right to follow his conscience and step
over the law when that law presents an obstacle to what is good—”
The judge
cut in, “and you’re the Raskolnikov here, a self-proclaimed extraordinary man?”
“You’re not
my prosecutor,” Jack was correct to assert. “My opening statement is mine, and
my conscience is clear.”
The
streaming spiked from journalists within and gawkers without—Dostoevsky had not
been sought to this extent for more than eighty years (the infancy of the
internet, in other words). Tracking references before that could only account
for book sales, university courses that put him on a syllabus, an allusion
given by various Gandhis or MLK Jrs and the rippled radius of their audience.
In all probability, more people tapped into Raskolnikov’s theory today than at any
other time in history. Statistics being what they are, however, most had no
foundation of what this figment of a 19th century imagination was or
how it possibly could bear on Jack’s defense. The definition of ‘conscience’
had as many izøne hits, and arguably, for ordinary folks
concerned about the whims and waifs of reflective thought, the question
exceeded the fate that would befall Jack. The court was well aware of copycat
syndrome, so wanted nothing unequivocal: objective law would not play second
fiddle to subjective consciences, the latter leading possibly to chaos.
“But what
about the criminal being ‘victim of the environment’?” one journalist pushed on
the prosecutor, once the arraignment was over.
“Jack
Childress as victim?” The prosecutor smiled, clearly having streamed the
reference in advance. “You didn’t pick up on Dostoevsky’s satire. The
environment here, from Minnesota north and south, became victim to this
criminal.”
Five years
later, supply and demand enabled a safer version of a scrambler—still using
streaming serum, but not from any biological being, dead or alive. Dr Brent, of
all people, had led research in this regard, still wanting people streamed, yet
sympathizing with their need for breaks now and then. Nobody called these scrambled
areas ‘sanctuary’ anymore—that nomenclature was semantically captive to the
legacy of Jack, the phantom of Gordon, the stormtrooper forces of robots that
had found themselves in many corners of society, yet never to such evil
designs.
Alternative
names floated to add color to the anti-izøne
phenomenon: ‘Walden’, ‘Nirvana’, and the sometimes hard to pronounce
‘Equanimity’. Most of these places operated on a drop-in basis, no strings
attached. The Faribault Islamic community decided both to keep its underground
mosque (don’t give up what could be taken
away) and build an outreach center that would try out this serum scrambler.
Some churches did likewise, and from them emerged a new crop of schools, the
first of such structures for a generation. The golf course contemplated the
cost and decided to scramble the front-9 and leave the back-9 in the izøne. This way, as a fringe benefit, the pro shop
could keep track of scores and potential cheaters who had relied on the kind of
‘smart ball’ guided to strike Aamiina.
Some
purists to the concept wanted exactly what the Carters had experienced—the
Carters wanted this themselves. Lovers Island still had the advantage of a
constant flow of natural gas, which the state had tapped for an export of
energy. The furnace had been dismantled, of course, yet a new one for the safe
serum formula had been set up for a haven simply called ‘Fall Lake’. Oscar
protested, chaining himself for days on end to the tree closest to the place he
and Martha, all those decades ago, made love for the first time. He was removed
as unforcibly as possible, fatigued by a hunger strike and sleep deprivation,
and brought to the Ely clinic for as much care as the place could give. Lou
showed up, as did Avis. They knew a stroke was coming before the doctors did
and held Oscar’s hand through it, by turns. His last request was to see Mia and
Pretty. Avis gulped before saying, “I can bring Mia next time. Pretty, well, we
never could find.”
Wincing,
with eyes closed, Oscar managed to admit, “she’s done okay… Saw her scroungin’…
las’ time I trekked… to Kawa..shi—”
“You saw her?”
Oscar
scrunched everything about him. “Called her…. Couldn’t lure her to Winton.… Don’
blame her… fer keepin’ true.”
“When was
this, Oscar?”
No matter
what the monitors indicated, it was at that moment the old man died. Avis knew
so, experience exponential, for the release of what had burdened him, and she
kissed his clutching knuckles before the need to call the doctor in.
Sixty years
later, novels had become obsolete; people had no need at all to read. Some clung
to the convention nostalgically, like Kay, thinking trough every turn of
Dostoevsky, every memory of siblings reading at her knee. She did likewise with
her own kids and grandkids, who crinkled their noses at the musty, arylide
pages.
Wilderness
still existed, sometimes defying imagination. The run of ‘Fall Lake nozøne’ had come and gone, as indeed the izøne had itself. There were other iterations of
ubiquitously managed knowledge—people live to remantle mousetraps—and other
ways to stream into them.
Old Tim was
now the spitting image of Lou all those years ago, fishing and hunting and
greenhousing veggies and herbs in the cabin he built on Mile Island. His
sisters visited him occasionally, as did Seb and Avis before they died. There
had been hints in his early adulthood that he would return to Minneapolis or,
more likely, follow Shel’s lure to Faribault. They loved each other and might
have contributed to the natural cause and effect of generations. Instead, they
remained friends and communicated however they could.
Aamiina was
now a grandmother, Nala of course a ‘great’ in that regard. Their offspring
would play with other offspring—Shel’s included—gathering forest toads and
learning how to swim, in Minnesota or wherever the world would have them.
Patrollers,
by now, were no longer human, as various robots were much more efficient. But
that didn’t leave Pam or Trig jobless. They went to the places of concerned
ambiguity—the homes that replaced those of Lee
Simmons or Gavin Jones or Patty Ventura or Francine O’Mara or Bill Sinclair or
Cary McNichols or Pete Wilcox. In every community there were needs for a
Lightspeed and Tangent, or other such ministers of peace and reconciliation.
They always worked as more than a tandem, training border collies and being
trained by them.
Mia had
one, too. She’d talk to her every morning and afternoon on their walks, which
often were runs or plunges into Lake Minnetonka. At seventy, she was more than
spry: she questioned so freely as not to need answers, treasuring doubt as a
matter of course. The izøne had never
railroaded her, so she never felt off any rails or funneled to a set
destination. The world was her cosmos, after all.
~~THE END~~
Daniel Martin Vold Lamken
(Roztoky u Prahy, December 20, 2019)
(Roztoky u Prahy, December 20, 2019)

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